I'm still alive

Kang Soo-ryeon came out of the window weakly drawn into my hands. As soon as she came out of the window, she staggered as if her legs had become weak. I hastened to help her. She continued to burst into tears as she exhaled her harsh breath.

I wanted to comfort her, but time was running out. Now turn your lighter bag forward and put your back on Kang Soo-ryeon's back and carry her on your back." She said at first she would walk on her own feet, but I held out my back without any reply. Then she whimpered on my back.

Looking at the thin arms and hands makes my mouth even more bitter. She was so light. I took a bottle of water out of my bag and asked her to hold it out and drink it slowly. I wanted to give her biscuits, but she starved for a long time, and the sudden food is poison.

I carried her on my back and slowly moved back the way I had been.

I carefully passed the corridor and headed out of the door where I came in. Just in case, I hid in the wall and looked at both sides of the building, but there was no movement. Except there's gunfire, binge drinking, and screams coming from afar.

I could guess the situation in a hurry with the noisy radio. It was obvious they were coming. The thought made me impatient. As soon as possible, we should head for the ditch and get out of here with the party. Tried to endure the pain of feet and ears, he began to move.

'Save me, please..'

I doubted my ears. And he stopped walking as if he had hardened on the spot due to his voice. It's a familiar voice. It's definitely the voice of a woman I've heard of.

turn one's head stiff and immobile As I turned my head, I saw Lee Hye-in, who reached out her hand through the security window and looked at me. I felt slowly suffocating. She was also locked up in this law school building.

I'm sorry, sir. Help me. Take me with you.'

She murmured helplessly, reaching out her hand to me, whom she could not reach. Her hands were tied with strings. I felt drained of strength. Hate? Disappointed? Empty? An unknown emotion came upon my body.

Her skeleton was no different from that of Kang Soo-ryeon. The head was pushed back and the face was full of wounds and bruises. I wouldn't recognize her without her voice. Seeing her face clearly made me angry. Because I hated her so much.

But do I have to be angry? How? Why would I tell you I killed someone? I was disgusted with her. But I felt disgusted with myself as much.

I felt nothing but dejected by her who had just turned into such a skeleton. Everything was empty. Revenge, hatred, and hatred.

Lee Hye-in was already in hell before I took revenge on her.

I opened my lips that wouldn't fall and asked.

'......what is the essence?'

Then Lee Hye-in reached out her hand desperately and shouted.

"Find the truth." Take Jinsu with you! Get me out of here. Please!'

Her eyes were not normal. From his mouth he drooled and reached out to me with his loose eyes. When I was about to open my mouth, Kang Soo-ryeon, who was breathing only rough breath from my back, told me.

'He's dead.'

The calm but complex emotions in it brushed my ears.

"No!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

Then Lee Hye-in, who was reaching out to me, grabbed her head and made a wild scream. Then, he hits his head in the security window and yells with curse words. In the roar, Kang Su-ryeon whispered to me in a calm voice.

'They tried to frighten me and Lee Hye-in.'

I closed my eyes tightly. Lee Hye-in's screams and gunfire become harmonies and make my head dizzy. You fall into the illusion of being colored with a disgusting gutter.

'And Jinsu tried to stop it.'

'And then he died. They said the bullets were a waste......I stabbed Jinsu.'

Kang Soo-ryeon, who spoke calmly, soon burst into tears and buried her face on my back. I could feel warm tears on my back. Lee Hye-in also sat down holding onto the security window, shedding tears with her eyes wide open. She drooled with her mouth wide open and soon stopped screaming.

The mind falls out in the mud. My stomach is rotting in. I felt miserable. I opened my mouth that wouldn't fall off the spot and said to Lee Hye-in. I had to put the last puzzle together in my mind.

'You asked me that day if I had to kill you.'

In my words, Lee Hye-in looked up at me with blank eyes. I slowly dropped my head and said, holding back a violent upswinging breath. and looked down at her, holding the security window with his hands.

'The soldier I killed, he had a bullet.'

I felt stuffy inside. I had a sin. The sin that always weighed on my guilt. Tell her the uncomfortable truth. Me and she face the truth only then.

'There was a bullet, but it didn't shoot. You don't want to kill me.'

The view is blurred. Tears burst out and blindfolded my eyes. I gasped and breathed hard. Hateful self-hate hits me. No matter how much excuses I made, I kept walking in place.

'But I killed him. He stoned the kid who used to write letters and killed him because he missed his mom.'

Lee Hye-in looks up at me with her unfocused eyes with her mouth closed. I make eye contact with her. Her eyes show me turning into a gutter. Whose fault is it? I repress my resentment against the world and finally pull out the floor from the inside.

And yell out to her like she's venting her feelings.

You didn't have to kill him! ‘

'But! Why!'

I knelt down on the spot as if I were falling. And I sobbed, holding the security window tightly with both hands. My voice was hoarse, so I couldn't even cry naturally anymore. I made eye contact with Lee Hye-in, venting my deep resentment.

From the back, Kang Su-ryeon continued to hug me, whispering that it was not my fault.

Emptyness and despondency sprang out of my breath. I leaned my head against the security window with a puff of that breath. And he recited slowly with resentment that he didn't know who to speak to.

'You're right. That's right....... then why did we end up like this? ‘

Whose fault is it? Who is right? Who should we blame? The last human to self-destruct in endless self-hatred with bloodstained hands. Is someone hoping for it?

The end came in such a hurry that he left with only one thing. We are not deprived of much. But a lot was taken away. It's human nature. Man becomes a beast and a monster. They didn't kill us, they just increased the number.

The world doesn't change now. In it I should not remain a man of the past.

I clenched my teeth. And he said, chewing this rough life.

'Today's the last day.’

I pulled the sword out of the gun and threw it through the security window. And made eye contact with her. I saw my past in her now. I used to hide like a coward. And cowardly had turned all the wrongs out of the window into the world. Later, I regretted my actions only after I lost everything.

But I'm about to break that eternal link.

'Get off the leash and run away. ‘

'And don't ever come into my sight again.'

Yeah, like it never existed.

And I got up from my seat. This is where you get everything out of here. The guilt of tying me up like a dreg, and the hatred and revenge that filled my head! Shake it all out here.

Lee Hye-in looks up at me with her unfocused eyes. Then slowly reached out his hand and held the great sword that fell on the floor. And as soon as she holds the Great Sword in her hand, her unfocused eyes turn straight. There was a lot of emotion in her face.

Envy, regret and guilt.

Lee Hye-in looks up at me and holds the great sword with both hands.

And told me with a dejected smile.

'I'm sorry......'

Then she picked up the Great Sword and stabbed herself in the neck. Blood splashes like a fountain. With blood in her mouth, she falls to the floor powerlessly like a doll with a broken thread. I stared blankly at the scene and soon closed my eyes tightly.

She escaped from hell.

Selfish death,

She left such a scar in my heart.

There is an old man's cry coming from afar. As I turned my head over there, the old man and Chae-yeon's party were running frantically toward me. The view became blurred when I thought it was all over.

My head feels numb. And sleep comes like a wave. The consciousness flies far away and my head is full of thoughts that I just want to rest. I'm tired. I'm tired. I have a mountain of work to do. You must escape here with your party and head for a safe place.

But I closed my eyes unconsciously.

* * * * * * *

I was standing on a burning city and this world was on fire. Everything that was alive melted away and only the dead were screaming as they looked into space. Sticky hatred clings to my feet and holds my body and presses it.

As the flames that filled the city soar high into the sky, the dead respond and spit out the harmony of screams. As I inhale, hot air fills my lungs. As soon as I breathe, the dead turn their heads and look at me.

No one lived in this burning city. Inferno! Endless flames and hell. Blood-soaked letters embroider my eyes. The dead move themselves and crawl towards me. I tried to run away, but the fire and the gutter caught my ankle. I was in hell.

And I felt something holding my arm. I got up from my seat, desperately catching it. Fire and hatred fall out of my body and the gutter flows far away as if it were a pity. When I raised my head, Lee Hye-in was looking at me.

The hair that had been cut short was looking down at me the first time I saw it. Lee Hye-in opened her mouth and whispered something to me. I couldn't hear her, so I answered her out loud. But my voice didn't come out.

Only the hot air that lay in the empty air came into my mouth and stopped me from speaking. Lee Hye-in stood me up straight and said again, open-mouthed. I desperately read that mouth. And she was saying, 'I'm sorry.'

Her face begins to change. An unidentified man killed in the bathroom, and a soldier killed in a shelter. The face of a woman who fell from an officetel and died in memory. Finally, Lee Hye-in's suicide, seen among the security windows, passes by like a flash.

All of this is burned from hell to ashes and scattered.

And my body slowly falls to the floor.

The burning city slowly moved away. Slowly sinking into the water, I began to move away from the city. The consciousness falls into the abyss and gradually disappears. The burning city is gone and our city is visible. I'm sorry, don't come back again. It was a dry farewell to them that I hated so much.