I'm still alive

The old man looks at me with sad eyes.

I looked into the old man's eyes and spat out the ashes left inside with my breath. Everything inside burned up. And even this hatred and anger left there feels abominable. I closed my eyes, holding Chae-yeon in one hand and the Blood Temple in the other, clasping the Great Sword. The air was darting with the smell of blood and the smoke of the dark end.

Kang Soo-ryeon was not found in her quarters, in Eden or anywhere else. She always welcomed me with a smile. No matter how hard it was, she took care of the people around her first. He's scared and he's teary......... but she was protecting the weaker one than herself. She saved Chae-yeon and all the children, and hid herself from my sight. The nausea has risen. I hated this reality so much that my blood was about to burst.

I don't even know if I's dead or alive. No sign of her could be found anywhere else, and not even a corpse was found to extinguish the fire in my vainness. Inside... ...a chunk of flesh seemed to fall out of me. I'm alive breathing like this, and I'm alive like this! All the nerves and emotions inside me say I'm dead.

Chae-yeon, holding my hand, kept crying. And all the children who follow me are crying. To wipe away tears, to swallow tears in one's mouth. The mother of the accommodation, who was friendly to those children, left them. The pizza giant's finger falls on the floor. The blood stuck in my hand fell together on the fallen sword with a loud noise.

Time stopped only in my space. The gaze was fixed on the blood that fell from my hand, and the blood was flowing regularly like an hourglass, telling me this flow of time that I existed. The cold wind sweeps through the holes in the chest. After a long time of dawdling, I raised my head again and looked at the old man. A rough voice popped out of my mouth like a grain of sand.

'......anyone else?’

answered the old man.

'Everyone's fine.’

Yes, the old man must have arrived on time. The door of the office was open, and inside it was a gathering of resident personnel evacuated by the old man. And many refugees and wounded came to the office, and the battle tanks that successfully defended the barrier were settling the confusion in Eden starting here. Yes, Eden wasn't a fortress to fall down with these attacks. I'll leave a scar, but it'll definitely heal. Everyone will remember it as a nightmare, but the tumult of the night will soon be forgotten in the oblivion of time.

But my flesh that had fallen off never healed.

Where did he come from?’

'The combat team found a hole in the East Wall. Kim Ji-young must have made it up.’

'If you'd come in there, you'd be out there, right?’

'Yes.'

Kim Ji-young was the first to give them the key.

The central headquarters, which is the head of Eden, was attacked neatly, and the heads and executives of the organizations that formed the main axis of the area went missing. Radio facilities were also destroyed, and solar power plants supplying electricity to various parts of Eden were attacked. They couldn't fall over a big elephant named Eden, but they paralyzed its moving head and ears.

Do the best damage with minimal attack. The battle tanks and barriers, considered the skeleton of Eden, were intact, but nothing remained in the hollow paradise. Perhaps even if the confusion is resolved, today's wounds will remain for a while. It was the system and order of forming an organization, not a big barrier and a weapon, that brought Eden together. I raised my hand quietly and wiped the blood off my forehead and face. Then she crouched in front of Chae-yeon, breathing deeply.

I was sure that some of the vagrants had escaped Eden through a frog. The stories of the men who killed at the Central Headquarters, and the acts of fighting and falling like guerrilla warfare, and the executives who were recorded as missing, not dead. All these logic is what they were after. And it was telling us what the benefits of the plan would be.

But for me....... It wasn't important.

I quietly wiped my blood on the pant leg and made eye contact with the child. She slowly reached out her hand and wiped Chae-yeon's face and eyes. But the flowing tears were springing endlessly like rain in the sky.

Tortureuk, tortleuk, tort.

Flow and flow. The tears were like rain on my mind. My hands have been shaking quietly, and my fingers, which take away the tears of a hot child, have been shaking. My heart is numb and I feel numb. And the memory of the day passes before my eyes.

Are you going to eat that?’

'Kang Soo Ryun......'

I was afraid you'd die!

It hurts a lot, right?’

'It's hard, right? It hurts. Tell me if it's hard, tell me if it hurts.’

Aah!

The tears I had endured burst. Only then did tears burst out, which he promised not to shed anymore, that he was completely gone. It's all real. This painful thing that I thought was a dream or my illusion was all reality. It rains so sad on the ground that was cracked because it didn't rain. She was a warm spring rain for me. It was a spring breeze blowing through the cold reality.

When I opened the box of mind, I remembered her face, and her temperature fluctuated over her skin. If it was Chae-yeon who didn't stop me, it was Kang Soo-ryeon who gave me a break. I forgot. I thought it was natural because I was always beside him. But the sunflower that always looked at me was not a given.

'Daddy... ...I'll make sure you get him.’

A hoarse voice came out of my mouth with a cry. It was another regret left by the one who regretted it. And in front of the appointment, Chae-yeon sobbed and nodded her head wildly. My hands caught Chae-yeon's cheeks, and we put our heads together and took a tearful picture of the promise we must keep. You have to stay away again. We have to break up again. But I and my child knew too well. There were other people's rooms in our space, not just us two.

'Brother, brother!

When I breathed out and raised my head, I saw a dragon running in a hurry from afar. The dragon-arm was covered with wounds and blood. But even in that urgent situation, he might have heard the sad news that flew suddenly, and his face was wet with tears, not blood. Lastly, I hugged Chae-yeon tightly and prepared to put the child in the nest called Pum. Yong-pal and his party will protect Chae-yeon even if she dies.

I hugged Chae-yeon and walked slowly to Yong-pal. Yong-pal looked at me with a bewildered face, and shed tears in which everything was explained. Watching the tears quietly, I nod my head that won't fall. Then he handed over the child he was holding to Yong-pal.

When I turned my eyes, the group that had come to me was walking slowly behind Yong-pal. There are people who are injured, and there are expressions that have lost so much. A lament is coming out. Sadness encroaches upon us. I looked at the group one by one and made eye contact, barely opening my mouth that wouldn't open and giving instructions that might be seen as the last.

'Protect the people until I come.’

The party who heard my instructions looked at me with a look of disbelief. I meant to say we'd set up a chase group, leaving the whole party behind. Kim Hye-jung, however, was the first person to protest the order. She raised her hand and gave me a mournful cry mixed with tears.

'Well, I'm coming, too!’

Yes, Kim Hye-jung must have heard the sad news that Kang Soo-ryeon disappeared. I met her for a short time, and it would be only a moment to talk to her, but she was especially close to Kang Soo-ryeon because she was the same woman. I understood that she was the first to rebel against my words, but could not offer any words of consolation. No, I didn't have anything to say.

But the old man walked quietly beside me and stared at Kim Hye-jung, perhaps not.

'Don't mess with me. If you'd done a little better, I'd have set up a chase team. But, what? You're just gonna let those little punks come after you just because you ran? Don't you think he's gonna get in the way? It's a waste of time to say this. It's not turning off!!!’

It was harsh and realistic.

It was only 20 minutes after the situation was over, and an old man found the dog they had entered through the combat team. Literally, we have a chance to chase them. The snow on the floor will give directions for them, and the snow that falls at the same time will erase its traces. In an urgent situation, of course, what we needed was speed. They wouldn't follow you right away. You have to aim for the loophole that you think is.

If you can't follow me, it's a burden. This was not a march or a move, but a chase to kill them. I had to beat my heart out, and I didn't have time to catch my breath because I was upset or tired. The word "if" doesn't exist in a race to live.

Time to arrive from the apartment complex to Eden. The party, exhausted from running down the street, was well aware of their differences with me. That's why we have no choice but to show resentment toward ourselves, not against us.

Kim Hye-jung eventually burst into tears and wept sadly, and the party quickly dispersed following my instructions. There was not a single person here who did not leave any lingering feelings. And the situation will be cleared up quickly amid that scattering lingering doubt. I finally made eye contact with Yong-pal, and Yong-pal gave me a hearty nod, wiping tears with his sleeves.

'I believe you.'

'Yes, I'll trust you.’

We finally turned our heads, facing each other.

The tremor of my hands stopped.

* * *

There was no time to grieve. There was no time to cry for her anymore. I poured all my attention into one place, and chased after the old man running fast. There were bodies everywhere in Eden that had lost their direction of life with soot. But we began to run madly through it and toward the eastern barrier. A cold wind blows, and the blood all over the body hardens.

'Excuse me!

The eastern barrier that began to be seen. All the people were evacuated, and no one was seen near the eastern barrier except the fighting group. And the old man called me urgently, pointing to a wall where the fighting troupes were clustered. There must have been a dog they passed by. The old man must have remembered the location correctly, and ordered the combat team to guard the place.

I've taken care of all the people around me! You can pass now!’

A combat agent with a bandage on his arm found us and shouted in a hurry. Me and the old man rushed quickly toward it, busily moving the fighting troupes that were looking around, guarding the perimeter in case any one of them might have. We were soon able to reach the front of the barrier. And lastly, there was a pit enough for many men to pass under the barrier.

'Dong-yoon, look carefully.'

I tried to rush into the pit. But the old man stopped me and grabbed me by my shoulder as if I should calm down. And before entering the frogmong, he began to flex his hand, which held my shoulder silently, pointing his index finger at the traces that remained nearby. a grip on one's shoulders My gaze moved itself towards the mark.

The snow, piled near the pit, was stamped with many people's feet. Probably most of them are the footprints of the vagrants. But there were signs of alienation between the footprints. The traces, not just one or two, were certainly not walking, but the irregularity of the walking steps. I ran there in a hurry and looked at the footprints.

I didn't care how many of them there were. My eyes and nerves were stuck only in irregular footprints, and along the trail began to floor frantically. Some were large footprints of adult men. And there was a thin stream of blood on the floor, even if someone had been subjected to violence. I crawled on the floor like a madman, crawling again and again, looking for traces of her possibly.

'Ah.'

A sigh came out of my mouth. I reached out my trembling hand and squeezed the footprints in front of my eyes. Her marks and cold eyes fill through her fingers. Whether they were forcibly taken by them, the steps were irregular, and there were signs of falling and being dragged everywhere. But these footprints and traces clearly belonged to her. She wasn't dead. I was just dragged by them on behalf of my child and other children.

I'm sure he's crying. She may be crying for fear of the children, not because she's scared. If she was probably here, wouldn't she yell at me not to come? Wouldn't she have said goodbye mournfully to protect Chae-yeon? Yeah, I'm sure she would have.

I see lingering feelings in the distance. In the distance, the vanity I had been looking for began to appear in shape. I clenched her footsteps in my trembling hands. The traces of her and the blood that flowed from my hands clumped together and fell on the floor. And the blood-bearing eyes paint the only anger, like the red flowers painted on the white drawing paper. A quivering voice came from the mouth with a breath.

'Administrator... ...help me.'

'Yes.'

'Please don't let me hesitate.’

'Yes.'

'Please don't regret it again.’

I held the rifle forward and pulled the trigger. The bullet knocks death. The knock note gives me an oath to kill them, and a promise to abandon humanity at any time. A path never to regret again, a path never to look back. I got up from my seat and ran towards the frog. Then came the old man's voice from behind.

'Yes.'