I’m the Heroine, but I Want to Hand That Role Over

I snuck up on the "finish” arithmetic so Himeka wouldn't know.

Successfully guide Mick's hands and seal Himekas' movements.

And finally, hint at Himeka's hands.

"Let Rinha Kaguraki be your enemy".

A hypnotic book I used to find in my father's study. I don't know why that stuff was in Dad's study, and I don't think he wants to know.

But when I tried it out with interest at the time, it really took everyone to hint, and since it became a little noise, I didn't use hints.

I was afraid of the insinuation that I could manipulate anything I wanted. So I was sealing the implication.

But the seal will only be lifted this time.

Above all, for me.

After that, it unfolded as I expected.

After confirming that Himeka's hands have taken Lynn away, I subtly send Himeka to them, and also tell Mick and Suzuru.

I watched softly from the shadows and exhaled when it was over.

All you have to do is let her know everything.

I sprinkled the cloth stone all over the place so she could see it was me.

It's about her smart. I'm sure you'll reach me.

Believe me, I waited for her to come, alone in a classroom with no one.

As expected, she came to the classroom.

And look at me, and shake my eyes sadly.

I just stare at her with a crop grin.

I'm ready.

You will be directed from her from now on, ready to endure disgust.

I tell her by choosing a dialogue that looks as bad as possible.

My chest aches on her with a wounded look, but I told myself this was my chosen path.

And at the end of the day I grinned so that it looked very bad, and I told her.

"Take me."

She looked confused and seemed to be thinking.

I tried to tell her to take me, but I know she won't.

Even if you take my hand now, I'm sure she will eventually walk away from me because of her guilt for me.

So I want you to shake it right here.

Or I want you to tell me with hateful eyes that you clearly missed it.

Distorted. But this is my love.

Eventually she saw me with her determined eyes and told me.

"Hey, Kai. Stop lying."

I'm confused by the unexpected dialogue.

"Kai is a very clever thing. So I didn't think it was gonna end this way, was that a lie? The truth is, you knew that, didn't you? Kai wanted this ending. Leave me a clue so I know Kai is the main culprit."

To her words, I lose them.

And I felt a definite joy.

Oh, she was looking right at me.

It's not what I wanted, but she said I was “special” to her.

But that's why I'm attacked by regret that I did something terrible.

"... here we go. I knew Lin had enemies. No..."

That's what I said, and I told her the truth.

Because I thought it was the least I could do was destroy her.

When she heard my confession, she said potpourri.

"... Honestly, I don't think I can forgive you for Kai."

"Oh well."

I felt very painful in my chest at the words I told her, unforgivable.

But this is my reward for what I did.

It's a pain to take spoiled.

"But, but, you know. You can't hate me, Kai."

"Huh...?

I am confused by what she says next.

"I think it sucks, and I despise it. But I don't hate it. 'Cause Kai is my precious childhood favorite... it's not an easy bond to hate, is it?

That's what I told her. Her eyes moisten.

Unconsciously, I'm about to cry.

- Sweet. Oh, my God, she's sweet.

I ask questions to see how she feels at the end of the day.

"If Lynn had responded to me that time when she confessed... then Lynn would still like me?

"... right... I don't know what's going on. But I can only say one thing: still, I must have been attracted to Lord Lotus. I'm sure you'll fall in love with Lotus..."

She gave me back the answer I wanted.

But my chest still hurts.

I put up with the pain and laugh.

"Ahhhh... Sumi took Lynn... I regret it, but you can't help it"

When I say so, she looks like she's about to cry.

I knew she'd love to cry for me.

I end up saying goodbye to her in Italian, then kissing her cheek and leaving the classroom.

Don't cry. Don't cry. Don't cry.

And I wept till I reached my house, and shut the door of my house, and fell asleep.

I was ready.

But after all, spicy things are spicy.

I can at least hear my voice and weep quietly.

It was my first love. For the first time, it was someone I liked.

This thought won't come true anymore, so let's shed it all in tears.

The next time I see her, I can smile and talk.

I think he cried again at the kindness of the vegetables that worried me, and I cried all the time today.

How long has it been since I've cried?

But thanks to you, some of it was refreshing.

I will carry less baggage and leave the house I have lived in to return to Italy.

I hear from you when you arrive at the airport and it's almost time for your flight.

Someone who wasn't supposed to be here stood there.

"I've come to drop you off."

Turning around, he was there with black curly hair as his trademark girlfriend.

"Himeka...... why"

"Thank you for your help, so it's natural to say hello, right?

"What about school?

"I'm off."

"Are you sure?

"I wouldn't be here if it weren't good"

With a twinge attitude she answers.

Though I laughed bitterly at her, I thought it was just fine.

There was something I wanted to tell her.

"Himeka, I'm sorry"

I bow my head to Himeka.

I wanted to apologize to Himeka.

That you got caught up in my unsolicited circumstances.

I'm glad I apologized before leaving Japan.

"Don't apologize"

I raise my head in Himeka's dialogue.

Himeka was angry.

But why?

"Don't underestimate me. Everything I did was my decision to act. You don't have to apologize. I rather took advantage of you. This is the result."

"But"

"Even if you didn't speak to me, I would surely have harassed Mr. Kaguraki. I liked Yoshiyu-sama so much. No, I still like it. I'm so obsessed with that one that I can't see around me. So sooner or later, I must have been on the same path. Besides, I don't regret harassing Mr. Kaguraki. That was necessary to me. So you don't have to apologize. Instead, apologizing is an insult to me."

"Oh well... that sounds like a hippocampal self-theory"

"That's what I am. I can't change it now."

"Right. If it had been changed, this might not have happened to each other"

"Yes. Do you regret it?

When Himeka asks me, I think a little.

And I smiled the usual way.

"- No regrets, I didn't. I could have been hated by Lynn. I wanted to be in her heart, even if she hated me, rather than what she didn't think. After all, I didn't get that wish, but I don't regret it."

"Really? That's good."

That's what Himeka said and smiled.

That's when the announcement flows.

It's time.

"... goodbye,"

"Right... but I'll be back in Japan, and then I'll tell you the way Himeka put it out."

"... you are a really sloppy person. If you say that, I'll have to give you an answer."

"It is. I'm sloppy."

"Please don't reopen it....... ok. By the time you get back, I'll give you a proper answer, and I'll report it to you."

"Yeah, I promise."

"Yes."

Me and Himeka snort at each other.

"See you later, Himeka"

"Yeah, again."

I wave out to Himeka.

I don't turn around behind. I felt like I shouldn't turn around.

When I get on the plane and calm down a little, my phone rings.

That was an email from Lynn.

Just one word, a concise email saying "thank you".

But that's just it, but it warmed my heart.

Trying to reply, I stop on the way and turn off my phone.

Let's get a letter out, not an email.

Let's settle down a lot and then write a letter.

That's what I decided.

I received a reply from her to a letter I sent out a little later.

It says what happened recently, and more importantly, Himeka turned forward, and I accidentally loosen my cheeks.

Good, I sincerely think.

Himeka gave me the answer I promised her.

The next time I saw you, I thought I'd give you a compliment for trying.

A few months later, I returned to Japan.

Even if I say I'm back, I have to go back to Italy again soon.

Today is Cherry Hill School's graduation ceremony.

As promised in the letter, I was able to adjust my schedule to the graduation ceremony and manage to come back to Japan.

Ride through the nostalgic Cherry Hill School gates with a large bouquet of flowers prepared in advance.

And I found them right near the school gate.

I naturally break my face and call out her name out loud.

"- Lynn!

They look back at me at the same time and look surprised.

I am not a crop, I approach them with a real smile and hand her a large bouquet of flowers.

"Happy Graduation"

"Kai...... thanks"

She broke her face with great pleasure when she received a bouquet of flowers from me.

I can see her smiling without any pain or feeling.

Next to her there was a look of Summin, looking at her with a very gentle grin.

And she also looks at Summin and smiles at each other.

I was pinned to see the two of them.

Finally, these two are tied.

If you look closely, I thought that there was a happy aura right in their vicinity and Mick's appearance, and yeah, it all fitted round.

Though I thought my chest would hurt more, wonder and my heart is calm.

Really good, I sincerely think.

And I realized that I was finally able to end this obstinate first love.