I Reincarnated as a Noble Girl Villainess But Why Did It Turn Out This Way? (WN)
38 Be true to desire
When Elgnard showed me into the room addressed to him, and he carefully closed the door of the room and left, Claudia stuck it from his head into a person's bedroom in a way that was extremely impressive.
"Whew!?
I'm amazed at the abrupt Claudia oddity, and with the two Cyrillic Village women, I jump my shoulders all the time. What happened suddenly?
Claudia buries her face in a tightly stretched sheet, causing her body to crease every time she tries. Stop it, my bedroom is messed up.
"Ha... what a riddle of knights...!
Claudia says something like that with her face stuck on the bedside. I stared at Claudia in a subtle mood for a while, frightened and speechless. You would like the existence of a knight too much.
"... you guys can rent the room next door to your right tonight, so stay there."
"Yes, sir"
I sighed heavily in a space where I was alone with Claudia, stuffy rolling, letting the two women, who were more surprised and hardened, head to the room to which they were addressed.
Lord Claudia, the spear will fall.
"What!
Claudia looks up at me. At the same time, I looked at my favorite spear, which was placed exactly on the floor, and then I looked down at me with a frightened eye, and I saw a sheet full of wrinkles beneath me, and I slowly stepped off the sleeping table.
"Shh, I'm sorry..."
"Sheets, please fix them"
He lowered his back to the desk chair placed at the window and exhaled, thinking he was tired of disgusting, turning his neck and shoulders. Three days of horseback riding seemed enough to solidify the body of a six-year-old on a boulder.
I stared out the window as I looked sideways at Claudia fixing the wrinkles on her sheets in an unfamiliar manner on the bedside. Inside the window is something like a door made of iron lattice or in defense. On the other side, what you see over the glass is the wall that serves as the border. There are closed gates on the giant walls, almost identical to the castle itself.
Beyond that wall is the territory of the Principality of Denzel.
By properly recognizing that I was at the forefront of homeland defense, I gained a good sense of tension. Keep your mind on whatever happens whenever you want.
"Wow, how do maids usually put this up perfectly!?
Suddenly I almost stumbled upon the dumb voice raised by Claudia. Unexpectedly put elbows on both arms on the stationery to overcome weakness.
Claudia is fighting viciously against the sheets for some reason, but the arrangements are becoming more and more rampant due to frustration that doesn't go well. I hurriedly stopped because I could break the sheet if I left it there, so it was all right now.
Claudia, awake in an angry and dissatisfied manner, turned slowly towards me and squealed with a true face.
Lord Erin, why don't you let me escort you?
"It's Eliza. No, sir."
"Sorry, I made another mistake.... I think it's better to treat those two as notorious as well as underprivileged. While you're here, who is Lord Eliza going to entrust to all around you?
I don't know if it's because I can see a real knight up close, but sometime she's going to eat down. But you can't just stare at me like that. Claudia's blue eyes, similar to cat's eyes, stare at me with a sense of purpose.
"What you are left to do is to the soldier, and then you do it yourself. Lord Claudia, you are a guest from the Laurenzorel family. You can't keep it in such a dangerous place. So are those two women. Can Lord Claudia ask them to stay here knowing that their lives are in danger?"
"... I can't. Okay, I'm sorry. I said my best to the boulders."
Claudia slumped her neck down to the side and stuck it straight on the sleeping table. That's how rare it is to be silent, so sometimes it should seem quiet and good, but I stuck with my voice.
"Why does Lord Claudia admire knights?"
As soon as she did, she jumped up in a springy motion. He smiles like a blossoming flower and turns his glittering eyes to me. Like that very change, I asked myself in my heart if I would have done something sooner.
"Well done. You asked!
... and would surely have speeded up, answers himself.
Claudia began to talk about an episode in which her brother recognized her as talented enough to jump through only martial arts skills and warfare matters in her childhood, when she couldn't do anything.
She is certainly as strong as a war maiden, but the superior ability she possesses is totally useless in the future if it is in the light of Arxia's common sense. There is gradually room for women to enter when it comes to academia and territorial domination, but only war is treated as a man's only thing.
Claudia swells her cheeks and tells her parents to brush their sewing arms if they have time to wave spears, but it's so unusual for an Arxian woman to have combat skills that it seems natural for her parents.
Her brother said that women's taste in general guided her teasing sister to run into self-denial and that your talent as a knight is amazing.
Until then, Claudia's brother seems to have neglected a sister with a better spear arm, but he did not hesitate to abandon his possession if he was to protect his sister's heart. That was quite an interesting story, so I listened to it in silence even though I occasionally put the gavel in it.
"Your brother has now become a fine knight! It's my admiration."
Claudia, who inadvertently narrows her eyes, is a completely dreamy maiden herself, but it would be herself who becomes a knight and runs around the battlefield with horses. To her full of dreams and hopes, ha, all I can come out with is a disoriented voice.
"Speaking of which, isn't Lord Eliza something?
"What is it?
Kurin, and Claudia's upbeat face turn this way and release a question that has no context whatsoever. Rarely did I get the name wrong this time.
"You have nothing to aim for?
"Though I aspire to a fine lord"
"Not... hmm"
Claudia frowns and roars, wondering if it was different from the answer she wanted.
"Isn't that... more what you have to be than what you want to be?
I know Claudia thought hard about the words, but I lean my neck without really knowing how those two differ. Claudia began to roar with her head in her arms.
"Mmm... what, for example, is what Lord Eliza wants to do?
"What do you want to do... will you fix the residence of the new inhabitants as soon as possible now? Then, return the church to the territory..."
"Isn't that the Lord's job?
"Yes, I do,"
"I don't think so..."
Uggs, and the roar finally turned to groaning. The girl who groans with an awesome shape with her head pinched with both hands is totally ruining her neat appearance in the corner. It's a form of visual violence, and I missed my gaze out the window.
"... Think away from the realm. Is there anything Lord Eliza would like to do?
After a while, Claudia gradually tried to squeeze it out and said so.
Away from the realm...?
Hmm, I'll see what I want to do and what I do in my head, but all of this I think is necessary as a lord and a nobleman. I can't think of anything I simply want to do for my greed that I admire myself. Finally, Kamil's face floated, but it instantly shook his head and struck out.
"None."
"Don't you?"
Claudia looked at me seriously with a strange look. It may be difficult for her to understand me, living faithfully to her desire to be a knight, in the vague values that it is normal to marry someone somewhere.
"... you're abnegation"
"I think that's a little different"
"I aspire to be a knight, but I also have aspirations that have nothing to do with a knight, such as wanting to try boiled eggs (sea lions) until they are full of bellies, or using magic like demons. Are you sure there's nothing?
I'll think of it again because a specific example has come up, but I still can't think of anything in particular. When I shook my head to the side, Claudia scratched her head as she said Hmm.
"Again, you're abnegation."
Now without denying it, I just let him flaunt his shoulder.
I know for a fact that I am not abnegation.
I have hope.
─ ─ I want to be forgiven.
I can't make it a clear word to whoever, what, and how I want to be forgiven, but that's all I've always wanted.
There's no way you're abnegation.