I Shaved. Then I Brought a High School Girl Home.

Open your mouth to say something. But I knew the answer wasn't in me.

"I……"

That closes the open mouth. One minute or more. Maybe Goto and I were silent for about five minutes.

"I have no answer."

After breaking the silence, Mr. Goto smiled gently and said so. The tone was not punishing, but confirming.

Mr. Goto once looked down and wandered his gaze on the desk as he chose words.

"... Junior and high school students are special."

To me, Goto-san seemed to have a slightly melancholy color in his eyes.

"I can't stop being a high school student, no matter how hard I try or stretch, I'm sorry I can't be anyone else."

Mr. Goto continued his words humfully, without seeing my eyes.

"That's such a strong 'identity. High school students."

Goto looked up and looked at me.

"Even if you change places or stop wearing uniforms, you can only be a high school student."

The words sharply and precisely penetrated the sweetness in my heart.

It was something I felt. No matter where I threw out my environment and jumped out, I was treated as a "schoolgirl" wherever I went. The guy I met so far hugged me because I had a pretty high school girl look. And "Runaway schoolgirl" was inconvenient for them to stay longer. That's why I changed places. On the contrary, Mr. Yoshida looks at me as if she were a child, because I am a high school girl.

"Even if you allow Yoshida, society will not forgive you."

When I heard Goto-san's words, my chest was sore. However, at the same time, I felt that the discomfort in me was canceled.

Yoshida just kept me at home, without asking me anything like that other man asked. With minimal housework, I wouldn't say anything no matter what I was doing at other times. I think I was the most relieved and most doubtful of such a life.

I ran away from all the bad things around me.

Can we be given such a relaxing environment?

Is this allowed?

The answer was from Mr. Goto.

He was not allowed.

"……Thank you"

I noticed that if I noticed.

Goto stared at me, shaking her shoulders astonished.

"I probably wanted someone to say that."

Words begin to spill from within my chest.

"I want to escape from everything and want to be easier ... but maybe I wanted someone to say," Don't run away. "

Goto listened to me without saying anything.

"Yoshida-san clearly described my sweet spot as 'funny'. I left home and walked here and there to various men's houses. Using

As I said, Mr. Goto opened his eyes for a second and then bitten his lower lip and dropped his neck.

"That kind of thing ..."

"I was really crazy. I forgave my body easily for a few days inn. And I felt a little pleasure in what men wanted. But ..."

I separated words there.

Yoshida's face comes to mind.

He alone did not allow me an easy choice.

"Mr. Yoshida never touched me. On the contrary, she said," I'll hit my guts again. "

"Poo"

Goto, who was listening seriously, suddenly blew out.

"I'm sorry. I know it's a serious story ...

Mr. Goto shook his head several times and shook his shoulders with a smile.

"Yoshida-kun who is saying that line, I can imagine it very precisely.

Goto-san looked at me with a soft expression.

"It was good. I found a place to relax."

"……Yes"

My eyes were moist and I caught my tears almost spilling.

"Mr. Yoshida is accepting you, and you trust him too. It was easy to see if you saw the conversation between them so far."

Goto continued his words while tapping the desk with his index finger.

"That's why you can give it to Yoshida. There's no reason you can't give it to someone who forgives you."

Goto stood up saying that and sat back from me, next to me. And I put my hand on my hand and it was tight. It was a cool hand.

"But no matter how much Yoshida allows you, it's only while society allows you to disappear. You know what you mean?"

"I understand"

"So, little by little, you have to think. What will we do next?"

Goto's eyes look into my eyes from right beside me. The eyes were such a serious thing as to ask something important. Somehow, I thought without any reason that this was the essence of Goto.

"... I had the past and the environment that I really wanted to escape. No ... I mean, it still continues."

"Yup"

"I feel nauseous just remembering, and I don't even feel like I want to go back."

"that's it"

"But ... I know that this is not the case. I can't get Yoshida-san to keep her life."

I exhaled slowly and uttered words to confirm one by one.

"Focus on the past"

Past things that I don't want to remember.

The best friend's smile comes to mind and disappears. That event that I want to forget, but must not forget.

"Be prepared ..."

I imagine my mother would not have been waiting for my return.

And my brother, who is probably worried about me.

"Be sure to leave here and return to where you were. For yourself and for Yoshida-san."

Having said that, looking back at Goto's eyes, she smiled slowly and placed her hand on my shoulder.

"... I told you well."

Goto said it in a small voice and hugged my shoulder.

"If you have that feeling, you'll be fine."

Goto said in my ear.

"High school students are a special period. I have to be a high school student for a very long time."

I felt her voice change to something nostalgic or telling someone who wasn't me.

"The time you can be in high school is very short in your life."

Goto said that, then replaced her hand on my shoulder with my head. And he gently strokes his head.

"So, face what you should be facing, and when you get sick, get sick ... high school students. Even if you're not at school, you're a high school student."

Goto-san's words gradually permeated his chest, and if he noticed, his view was shaking again. I can't stand this time. Tears are spilling from the outer corner of the eyes.

My heart was full of contradictions.

I wanted to escape from everything, but I thought I shouldn't.

Nobody wants me to do it, but wants someone to do it.

While feeling inconvenienced in high school, he was obsessed with the fear that he was no longer a high school student.

Everything was awkward, but still everything was honest.

Mr. Goto keeps stroking my head, holding me to tears.

"Everything you feel now. It's all yours. You can't do anything else, and you don't have the right to do it. It's hard, happy, and all your property."

Goto-san's soft-toned words seemed to resonate directly with her head. Because of the tightness of the body, she sure knows what I want. Now all of her words permeate me without any resistance.

"So ... if you escape enough, then ... accept it all, that's your duty and right in your life."

"... Uh ... yes ..."

Goto-san shook her head, holding her tight, holding her tight. If I noticed, I was crying aloud.

Goto's chest was very warm.

"So, did you have any questions?"

She cried for a while and when I was finally settled, Mr. Goto returned to her face with a smile on her face and asked a question.

It was.

By all means, this was the only thing I wanted to ask.

"... Mr. Goto"

He dropped his nose, slurped, and stared into her eyes. Do not escape. With the meaning.

"Do you like Yoshida-san?"

When I asked, Mr. Goto blew out after curling his eyes.

"What's wrong with that?"

"It's important"

"For whom?"

Mr. Goto returns with a question to the question. Besides, it asks my chest exactly the right questions. However, I never get lost.

"For me and for Yoshida-san."

I will answer without lying.

When I answered straight and looked at my eyes, Mr. Goto laughed at something interesting and looked back at my eyes. However, he never opens his mouth.

"How is it ..."

I boiled the work and I asked again, but Goto just smiled and tilted her head.

I get frustrated and vocalize extra stuff.

"Yoshida-san ... I love Goto-san ..."

But you're always confusing.

I put that meaning.

However, Mr. Goto exhaled through his nose and asked me back.

"... is it frustrating?"

"Not that!"

"Ah, don't get angry. It's so cute, really."

Goto smiled laughingly and shook his head, as he finally thought.

"I like it. There's nothing other than him in my eyes."

"……really?"

"Why do you have to lie?"

"... Because it's hard to understand what Goto-san really means ..."

When I answered her, Ms. Goto smiled and shook her head.

"What is a mysterious woman?"

"I really hate that"

"Ah, I was told."

Goto laughed like a child and exhaled a little.

"I really like it. He's been watching him since he joined. It's surprisingly straight, stubborn, and able to adapt to other people's ways of life. `` People are not easy to meet. ''

Goto said with a look that reminds me of something really dear. I thought I could make such a face.

"It was good ..."

When I noticed, I muttered so.

Goto looks at me sideways and tilts her head.

"What's good?"

I answered Goto's question without hesitation.

"I would be very happy if Yoshida's love came true."

When I said so, Mr. Goto momentarily smiled as if he had never shown me before, and then cheated it.

What is that expression?

She didn't know she was sad, scared, or angry.

"Yes. It would be nice if they could be tied without incident."

"Really. I hope it does."

When I nodded, Goto smiled again and smiled, then tilted her head into my eyes.

"Sayu-chan ... will you support me?"

When I tried to reply, a scene came to my mind.

Yoshida and Goto kiss.

Yoshida smiles as if she is shy and hugs Goto again.

"... of course, we'll support you!"

When I answered so, Mr. Goto smiled and said, "Thank you."

For some reason, my chest was sore.

But words came out of my mouth one after another so as not to notice the pain.

"Please tell me if you have any help! I don't know what I can do ... but I'll help you with anything I can!"

Goto-san looked at me with a look that she couldn't tell whether she was smiling or not.

The cell phone rang to block my words.

Looking at the glowing screen, I knew it was a phone call from the store manager.

"Oh, I'm sorry. The manager of the part-time job called me ...

"Okay, come out"

I bowed to Goto and hurriedly left the entrance with my mobile phone. As expected, I can't make a part-time phone call in front of Mr. Goto.

Today, I felt like complaining a bit to the manager.

As she left the entrance, I felt my shoulders loose at once.

"Huh ..."

Nature and sighs leak.

Maybe I was nervous.

It's really nervous to talk to someone in real.

Yoshida says that she has a high school girl living at home, so when she came to think of her, she was a humble and polite girl.

And I saw that expression and the “Kura-So-So” in the back of my eyes many times in my high school days in “Mirror”.

"You smell aunt ..."

Obviously that was a sermon.

How was it that a stranger came and suddenly preached? Eventually, I felt like I was listening to me, but at first I was obviously alert and I was surely uncomfortable.

I can't lead anyone in a straightforward way like Yoshida because of my refraction. But when I put it all in words, it was slimy and I desperately talked to Sayu-chan, and I had always been objective.

Was it so difficult to tell something? I discovered it without a good year.

There is no one in the company who needs to communicate the truth. I feel like I had a conversation after a long time.

"Facing with what you should be facing, and when you are willing, please ..."

I remembered the words I told Sayu-chan and leaked a self-deprecating smile.

I think I am really bad.

He told others to do something he couldn't do when he was in high school.

She's pure, so I'm sure she's recognizing she's really kind. But that's not the case at all.

I saw my past through her. No more than that.

It seemed that my past was settled down a bit as Sayu rebuilt her life after this.

Surely so is Yoshida.

Sayuu-chan says Yoshida's kindness as an unconditional thing, but surely Yoshida-kun is asking for something from her heart somewhere.

"Adults are really selfish ..."

He muttered and sighed again.

Therefore, you are free to live on your own.

Learn freedom from inconvenience.

I think I really wanted to say that to that child.

What I really want to say is not words.

Just Yoshida.

Yoshida-kun was close to conviction that she could lead her in a good direction.

And how do you express your feelings for Yoshida, who is growing in Sayu's heart?

Until I see it, I decided not to want Yoshida.

I'm sorry that I never got what I really wanted.

"Yoshida, it's late"

Hazy, I wanted to see his face.