I Was Caught up in a Hero Summoning, but That World Is at Peace

Was life ever unhappy? If they ask, the only answer I can give back is' I don't know '.

Just how long would it have been? Happiness and unhappiness are now more reassuring to come down at the same time than just being happy... In response to past events, if I had, instead of thinking about it like this, I would have had no choice but to break it off...

It's not particularly wealthy or poor. Born into a very mediocre family, he spent his childhood not uncommon otherwise. I remember playing outside a lot when I was in elementary school, and even if I didn't say a lot of friends, it seems like I was there quite a bit.

If you want to wrap up about my life so far, that really would be enough if you had a piece of A4 paper. mediocre, flat, unchanging days to that extent...... what if the only big thing had happened was' my parents died suddenly 'when I was 12?

Because it's nothing like a TV drama. It's not like my parents were incurably ill or involved in a major incident. I'm just saying that there are hundreds of thousands of traffic accidents a year in Japan alone, and it was one of them...

On the way home from the family trip, a ball-pushing accident on the highway, a small family car sandwiched in a large car and truck crumbled like it had been pressed. My parents became people who didn't leave in a flash, and I miraculously survived a minor ear-to-neck laceration.

Yes, an unfortunate accident, a miraculous survival - I mean, I guess I'm just saying I was lucky. I survived because I was lucky, and my parents died because I was unlucky.

I think people's lives and deaths are like that after all. Some people die young no matter how much they care about their health, others live long enough to smoke and drink as much as they drink.

I've never thought of my parents' deaths as unreasonable or anything like that, and I've never thought of myself as the protagonist of a tragedy. In fact, the relatives who took me back made me better, and I wasn't dissatisfied with my daily life.

I just started thinking about it every now and then. I wonder if bad luck is like the back of a coin... I don't have a life of luck. I don't have a life where I'm just unhappy. If you're lucky, you should have the same amount of misfortune...

There are no coins that keep appearing in the table. If I survived by luck, would I one day attract the back of a coin called that miracle? Or was it the back of the coin that my parents died?

Since I started thinking that, what's wrong? I think he ran away at first.

Friends, lovers, family, Leah Charge, who can make such a wide range of relationships, must be a happy being. Then if that happens, we must be prepared for just the same misfortune.

I guess happiness is a big thing when you can achieve it with your goal, then you must face the same level of misfortune for it.

I'm just horrified to feel happy. I can't be relieved that there are no convenient and bad events in the set.

That's why I ran away. I turned my attention to games and books and immersed myself in my tentative first fullness.

When I became a college student, I remembered to say that I would fit around. I learned the art of treating him unnecessarily and being alone at a distance from nature. I don't need a dramatic life. It was flat and unchanged, and the days of being on the sidelines were pleasant.

So when I came to the other world, I was relieved that I didn't have any special powers because I wasn't a brave man. I'm still mediocre here, so I thought this would be good...

... Yes, all the time... I've been laying my excuses on myself.

'I loved my parents. I really loved my sweet mother and my fine father. "

... No.

'I was really happy to go on a trip with my family. I believed this would last forever. "

.................. no.

"Why did you survive just yourself, why didn't you let me die with my favorite parents, and I resented God and cried out"

……………… no.

'I got scared. I started to think about it all the time, that if you get along with someone else, if you get happy, you lose it again. "

…………………… no.

'I really didn't want to be alone. I wanted a friend. I wanted a lover. I couldn't help but envy something called family. But I was so scared I couldn't get close to myself, I desperately made excuses for myself to be alone, and I kept running away. "

………………………… no.

"I'm afraid of losing it. I can't help but be horrified to get what I want. But I couldn't give up, and I had a habit of keeping my distance. I kept such a despicable distance, lining up the unobtrusive words, not to be hated, not to be liked. '

No, no.

'In the end my mind stayed stopped from the accident that day, staying squatted and trembling child all the time...... I want someone, to love me. But I don't come close to myself. So I want you to reach out, I want you to pick up a heart that's broken apart and you don't even know it yourself, on my behalf'

No, no, no!

'I expected it. When I found out I was involved in a valiant summons, I wondered if someone could help me if I could be special... but in the end, in the other world, I'm not special, I don't have any friends or acquaintances, I'm left alone, even if the world changes, I don't change...'

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'The truth is, I couldn't help but be scared. The unexplained world, my own circumstances, strangers... but that's why I desperately pushed my anxiety into having to behave calmly. If you think you're a pathetic adult, you might be limited to Nan or Teakwood. If they think it's a laborious one, they could be abandoned by Mr. Lilia or Mr. Renamaria'

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"I'm trying! Even if I keep lying to myself, I'm desperately trying to be seen well by others!! Why, why! Something inconvenient just happens to me!! I didn't want the men's forbidden mansion! I never said a word about wanting to go out on my first day flying by another world!! The king is drowning. Lilia summoned me because she wanted to. That's not what happened!!!

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"I want someone to stay beside me... affirm my mind full of contradictions, even then... I want you to reach out your loving caged hands..."

……

Maybe that was a cry I've always had in my heart. Nobody notices me and I don't even know myself well. A selfish desire, like the child's selfish self.

Soon I made it into myself. Too big a wall of mind to escape. A cage to hide your weak self, a shield to protect your timid self...

- Look, I told you. If you're in trouble, I can help you.

No one can possibly notice. There's no way you'll notice. Yes, I thought...

- So now it's good to be empty.

But Soitz was there at some point.

- I'll tell you! Something you don't know, a view you've never seen, this world!

I've stepped into the depths of my mind as a matter of course when I said from the beginning that there was no wall of my heart.

- You tell the hero's story!!

And as natural as that was, he reached out to me squatting.

- Mm-hmm. I need you to talk to me like you always do.

Sometimes you swing me around like a friend...

- I think I'm really cool with kids who can do that naturally.

Sometimes you affirm me like a lover...

- It's okay. I'll be right beside you...

Sometimes he gave me the words I wanted him to say, like my mother.

I told you everything about me was foreseeable, but it was noisy and warm, innocent and kind... and always turned the smile I wanted the most on me.

Embracing thoughts full of contradictions, he picks up pieces of mind one by one and gently pushes me back.

Oh, well - it was. Finally, maybe I figured it out. All I ever wanted was... all I've been looking for.

The consciousness slowly awakens from the comfort of the mellow. What I saw as soon as I opened my lid was gentle eyes staring at this one.

"... Cro?

"Hello, Kite."

"Morning...... how long have I been asleep?

"About an hour?

"Oh well."

Wake up slowly. I felt like I had taken something heavy off, like wonder and my body was light.

"You look refreshed."

"... ahhh yeah. Well, I don't know what to say..."

Honestly, I didn't get an answer for what I wanted to do or what I wanted to do.

However, that thought came to my mind in an attempt to stop me from staying squatted.

He said, "Hey, let's do it again."

"Well... then I'll back it up. Come on, Kite!

"Oh, thank you"

I still don't know what's going on in this world or what's happening to me... but the corner environment has changed. Just the right way to start walking.

Yes, let's start with looking for ourselves, shall we? I have anxiety and fear, but I'm probably fine. I got the courage to start walking. Crowe's right, let's start over here, from this world.

I closed it myself once. A tale by the name of Hayato Miyama...