Sound weak?
I always feel like I don't have to be a proper adult.
What's an adult? I guess it would be ideal to start with and not sound weak and try your best.
Actually, I don't think you would. Because it's human.
I'm also wondering if it has anything to do with having memories of my previous life, but I've never given that much proper thought... what do you say?
Do you think it's best to live each day?
Meet your side room, serve your primera, and be happy.
So don't let go of that happiness, but I'm mediocre, so I had to work twice as hard on people, and that couldn't afford to be making weak noises, and I think I needed to be strong now.
Against me like that, Aldar was laughing like trouble.
"... but if you were scared, you could be sweeter on me?
"Because."
Because it is. Aldar wasn't around then, so there was nothing I could do.
In fact, it's true that I was safe, and I did think Alip Kallian was scared when she grabbed me by the arm, and it would be a lie if Aldar wasn't there for me.
I was scared. So sweet, is it good?
Even though there was nothing, it wasn't his fault.
But, if you'll forgive me.
"... just a little bit, I was scared"
"Yeah."
"Just a little."
"Yeah."
But try to put it into words. That's all in me, calm down.
I was scared, I wanted your help, relieved, that emotion was speechless, but I'm sure he figured it out.
He drew me in as I was, and he held me.
I'm supposed to be ashamed of you, but I thought you were warm, kind, and oh, I knew you were amazing.
"... you said Aldar, wow, didn't you?
"Huh? Oh, yeah."
"I,... I'm not unfriendly with my family, but I wasn't really good enough. I thought I'd finally try to face it. When I saw Aldard face his family, I got the courage to think I could do it too."
"Me? Courage for Julia?
"Yes."
For my sake, to Aldar, who talked to my family and even held my hand, to his appearance as he was properly made in the face of his family.
Before I knew it, I, too, what did I think?
"Even if your father loved me, every time he said, 'It's clumsy, it's pathetic that there's only one way to work,' that's not happiness... I've told him in letters and stuff. But I can't tell you how honestly I felt when I looked into your father's eyes. Somewhere in my mind, there's a part of me that understands me because I'm a parent."
"... yeah"
"There's nothing strange about what your father says. I am the eldest daughter of a territorial aristocrat, and in general, it is normal to find and marry your fiancée early, … so your father is not wrong. It's rarer for me."
Yes, I'm aware that my way of thinking must be influenced by previous life.
What's wrong with working women? Reopen it. Primera, I enjoyed being by your side!
But that's just for my convenience.
My escape from pretending not to look at the ordeal of a father with a daughter different from the general idea and pushing the idea 'cause he's a parent'.
"So I thought if we talked properly, we'd figure it out. But it didn't work... and as a result, there were parts of Counts Purvas that we could discuss or see the other way around."
"Yeah."
"I'm sorry,... I'm talking weird"
"Fine."
Aldar inspired me.
Though that was a bit painful.
I am glad to know how your father feels and how your mother-in-law feels.
Why did you think it would be so easy to solve this complication?
In that case, I think it's increasingly amazing that Aldar is properly confronted with his family.
"I know what Alip Kallian said because it was rumored in the castle. So I won't hurt you any more now. Not that I didn't think about it..."
"But?"
"I... feel like I like Aldar"
Instead of being suspicious, I was hurt in the beginning because I wasn't confident in myself.
But it was only a matter for me, and I had no doubts about Aldar... or anything.
I don't know how this guy cares so much about me, though I can be thrilled!
"Well, you can't be an amazing beauty, you're just lit up and you're too novice in love, and you've spent a lot of time calling me names... well, I'm just bothering you"
Is that it? What were you going to tell me?
Aldar laughed all the time when he saw me having trouble with the thoughts that were slowly getting wrapped up.
"Aldar?"
"I like Julia, too. Thanks."
I like it, he kisses me to plunder after being made into words again, and I fall in love with that flowing motion unintentionally, but I'm the one now!
I couldn't do that, even if I tried to pull myself away from the feeling of fever rising.
"I knew Aldar was amazing."
"Really?"
"... you're spoiling me like this."
"I think it's normal that you want to spoil your lover."
"That may be true, though.... I knew you were used to it?
"Heh, you're telling me that in this situation?
"Oh, I knew it without the present"
It scares me to smile!
I did it!! At the moment I thought so, Aldar hugged me and said, "Oh, my lips are layered without an opportunity for clarification."
Oh, he really can't do this!
It's the one that makes me think nothing......!!
Aldar and I have a history of differences in power, even as we feel threatened and poke at ourselves, so if we try to back off, we'll have a stronger ability to hug. So we can't let ourselves go or something like that for a bit!!
"I'll try to escape again soon"
"And naturally......! Where do you think I am?
"In the carriage"
"That's right, but it's not!
"... yeah, well. Lord Keith told me to behave like a gentleman. Shall I weigh myself in?"
"Must!!
"I wonder if it's a problem to be happy."
I laugh bitterly, Aldar, but for me, I'm talking about how to safely avoid my dangers, you know!
It was Aldar laughing at me as if I was desperate, but he pulled it right off. This is the kind of place you are a gentleman, thank you!!
"Hey, Aldar."
"What?"
"Thank you for being so angry with me."
Gently, I need to tell you how this feels.
Now, it's getting late. If I put it that way, he blinked just a little surprised and then laughed at me again.
"... you're welcome"