I will eventually become the king of Shura Field

This is her most secret privacy, the truth she wants to hide all the time.

In fact, this is a nearly dead cycle.

She hates herself and feels that she is not qualified to love and be loved, so she will naturally choose to stay away from others.

And psychological problems just need the same psychological comfort to solve them.

She closed herself up and carried everything on her back. Sooner or later she would collapse and embark on the path of suicide.

This is definitely not alarmist talk. In fact, according to the staunch temperament of Dudao Kongzi, suicide is the most likely option.

She was so fierce and so closed, but she frankly told all her darkness and told Jingong Chenghe.

She didn't say it explicitly, but it was a very strong signal: help me.

She was finally tired of a person carrying all the pain, and the drowning man cried out for help with all her strength before sinking to the bottom.

Jingu Makoto is really, quite lucky, and quite unlucky.

If it hadn't been for him to accidentally see the out-of-control side of the drug island, and eliminate the violence in her heart.

If it hadn't been for a drink today, the reason of Dudao Kongzi would be consumed under the effect of alcohol.

If it weren't for him to beat her again, let the haughty poison island Suiko try to fail for the second time.

So Toshishima Suiko would never say, nor would he have any further contact with Jingu Makoto.

Everything is so coincidental.

He was fortunate to be able to see the weakest side of the poison island, which allowed her to speak her heart with confidence.

He was also very unlucky to see her darkest side. If she is a little careless, her only trust is afraid that it will disappear, and the courage she finally mustered will also be shattered, and she will return to her closed self. , Just as before.

Even worse than before.

Makoto Jingu knew that every word he said at this time could have an unimaginable impact on Tokushima Kyouko.

He sighed silently in his heart, and he was really reluctant to take this kind of responsibility in this way.

But helplessly, to say something a little arrogant, I am afraid that he is the only one who can save Dudao Kongzi now.

He was thinking slowly and cautiously about what he had to say so that he would not misunderstand Dudao Kongzi, or make her feel that her call for help was a waste of energy.

His silence fell in the eyes of the extremely sensitive Dudao Kongzi at this time, and it was naturally understood as disgust.

She smiled sadly, a little disheartened: "Sorry, saying these things to you all of a sudden must have frightened you?"

"Actually, compared to your Huaxin, I can't save it."

"Forget it... just treat it as I'm talking nonsense. I only have one request. I hope you don't tell me, and leave me with dignity, okay?"

She looked at Makoto Jingu pleadingly, clenching her fingers unconsciously.

Jingu Makoto turned his gaze and looked at her face.

Dudao Kongzi hurriedly lowered her head. She did not dare to look at him. She was afraid of seeing disgust, contempt, disgust, and any negative emotions in his eyes.

Think of it as a fantasy.

That’s right. How can someone like this one be qualified to be forgiven by others?

Even a junior, if he doesn't have enough skills, he will become a victim of his own desires, right?

Thinking about it this way, it seems that Makoto Jingong is right to hate her, and it makes sense.

She became more and more frightened, she didn't even dare to listen to Makoto Jingong, she would rather just end in silence like this.

She quickly got up, wiped the dripping tears, and smiled reluctantly: "Let's do it today, it's rude."

It's a pity that Dudao Yuzi overestimated herself. As soon as she was together, she staggered, and the powerless feeling from her legs made her fall immediately.

This fierce battle was much fiercer than last time, and her physical loss was much more serious than last time.

Upon seeing this, Jingu Makoto quickly supported her.

However, his own physical strength was not light, he staggered, and both of them fell.

Because he was protecting the poison island Kongzi, when he fell, the poison island Kongzi also happened to fall in his arms.

Dudao Kongzi glanced at him subconsciously, and then quickly lowered his head not to look at him again.

She looked weak at this time, timidly like a frightened bird, without the usual demeanor of a royal sister.

Makoto Jingu chuckled and bowed his head and said, "Sister, you have a very serious psychological problem."

Dudao Suizi also lowered his head and whispered: "I checked the information, it seems to be violent.

"Ha, that is indeed a very difficult psychological problem."

Jingu Makoto looked at her timidly, so he sighed with difficulty.

"I know, I only hope that you can help me keep this secret."

"But there is no way to conceal and suppress it all the time. One day it will be out of control."

Dudao Tsuiko took a touch of determination: "Don't worry, I really have my own solution at that time."

"Stupid~"

Makoto Jingu said lightly.

Dudao Kongzi was taken aback, and looked at him dumbly: "What did you say, brother?"

Makoto Jingu reached out and knocked her head boldly, and repeated: "Idiot!"

"Your so-called self-solution, I think it is nothing more than seeking a dead end, intending to use this to protect your dignity, right?"

Dudao Kongzi grievedly touched the place where he was knocked, and inexplicably annoyed: "Otherwise, what else can I do."

"It doesn't matter what I do, but at least the reputation of the drug island family must be protected. The inheritance of the ancestors cannot be broken in my hands."

Makoto Jingu knocked on her little head again, and smiled lightly: "The reason you told me is that you just want me to help you keep this secret so simple, right?"

Dudao Kongzi panicked, and whispered, "Didn't the schoolboy just said that it's not good for some things to be hidden in my heart. Wouldn't it be better to say it?"

"I...I just want to be like you, just say it to make myself comfortable."

"Oh? That's it? Really nothing?"

The corner of Makoto Jingu's mouth was playful, and his eyes were extremely playful.

Dudao Kongzi gritted his teeth, and his anger became more intense.

What a... bastard boy!

(③42967465)

ps: Officially 500,000 words.

A reward is offered in May.

The wave offers a reward and lasts until the end of May.

The old rule is that 20,000 rewards are one change, two hundred blades are one change, and two hundred monthly tickets are also one change.

Current data: Monthly ticket: 3852. Reward. 332,500.Blade: 3199.

I updated about 210,000 words last month. I hope you can let me update 250,000 words in June.

Chapter 171: You are beautiful, I like it very much.

For the first time in his life, Tokushima Suizi mustered up the courage to tell Makoto Jingong the gloom deep in his heart.

Naturally, it is impossible to do what she said, just to make herself comfortable by speaking out.

If only for this result, she could tell the world and everything, or even tell herself in the mirror.

The so-called making yourself more comfortable is just a pretext, which is also human nature.

This is not an ordinary secret, but involves the most private, most unacceptable, and tortured demon of the poison island.

She didn't want to make herself a little more comfortable, but hope that Jingu Makoto could save her.

She didn't want to be trapped in the torment of the demons, and she didn't want to read the tormented past every moment.

This person knew what he was thinking, but he had to say it himself.

It's really abhorrent, it's because Dudao Kongzi is relatively mature, and it is difficult to show consistent tolerance on this issue.

Again, no matter how mature a woman she is, she is always a woman.

Emotional sensibility is always their most fatal weakness and also their most special strength.

So she turned her head suffocatedly, and said lightly: "That's it, no more."

This scene made Jingu Makoto a little bit ridiculous.

Unexpectedly, I would see a shadow similar to Sigong Kaguya on the poison island.

He also felt that he was a little too much. It was really not suitable for joking at this time, so let's be serious.

"Remember what you said to Senior Sister before?"

He asked.

"What?" Dudao Tongzi didn't think of that sentence for a while.

Jingu Makoto said with a chuckle: "I said, it's not good that some things have been backlogged, but they need to be released."

"Senior sister, if you still need it next time, you can find me and I can help."

When Dudao Kongzi heard the words, his breathing was slightly stagnant.

She took a deep breath and said solemnly, "When you said these things, you probably didn't know that I had this kind of mental illness, right?"

Makoto Jingu shook his head: "No, I know."

Dudao Kongzi's eyes shrank, a little shocked.

She hadn't told anyone before, not even mentioned it.

Seeing her shocked expression, Makoto Jingu smiled lightly: "Very surprised, right?"

"Actually I don't know what your specific situation is, but you are a swordsman and I am also a swordsman."

"There are some things that don't need to be said. I can feel that your heart is very depressed, and it is completely different from your clear appearance. It is deep darkness, and even very irritable."

"I know that most people who practice these skills have some problems in their hearts."

"There are also some special professions, such as soldiers. Have you heard of ptsd?"

"Even ordinary people will have this kind of mental illness after experiencing some major stimuli."

"With my own assumptions and some understanding, I can roughly guess the situation of the senior sister."

"Of course, I was a little surprised when you said it yourself, Senior Sister. I thought you were a victim of some major stimulation."

"Well, this is not the case under normal circumstances. Your father or your ancestors have no such symptoms?"

Dudao Kongzi nodded: "Well, none of them."

"That's not heredity, it can only show that it is the result of acquired factors."

"Perhaps the lack of family, do you really blame your father?"

Jingu Makoto asked seriously.

Toxic Island Nodded without hesitation: "My father has been with me since I was a child, and my mother died of illness. My father is a very good father."

ok, family factors are excluded.

"Then did you have any unpleasant things when you were young? For example, emmm, campus bullying? You also know the situation of Yan Ye..."

Toxic Island Suizi smiled and shook his head, and said gently, "I have never had such an experience. I am quite likable, since I was young."

This... is really speechless.

That's ok, and campus factors can also be eliminated.

Makoto Jingong said solemnly: "Then your symptoms, if it is not a pathological cause, it may be a problem with your Kendo practice."