I Will Quietly Disappear

My father and I met on the battlefield.

That's what I said. I cheered on my daughter.

My daughter looks like she doesn't know what it is. That would be the case, too.

But I was a little happy to think that my smart daughter would look like this too.

"You really just want someone to love you."

"Will you take this hand?... be a family. Marianna."

The hand was wet with the blood of my loved ones. But in a true way, I felt like I'd never cried before.

The words of those who were important can be raised.

- You're crazy. My heart. But that's fine. You don't have to change.

Whoever told me to be a family killed something important to me. But I thought this guy would give me what I wanted.

So I took this hand.

... maybe it's weird. No, it's crazy, I am.

Because if I were normal, I wouldn't take this guy's hand where that guy's neck is rolling and everyone's neck in the mercenary regiment is rolling.

- Don't let them get away with it. If there's someone who's going to make you happy, you should never...

- - I don't normally think this is the case. Because if you think about it, you're not gonna be happy.

I'm from a country. It was born as the first child of a noble house. My mother is a civilian. Because of his beauty, he was a poor man who was seen and wanted by his father, who was called the Mad King. It must be her greatest misfortune, moreover, to have conceived me before my real wife and other concubines.

"I'm sorry. Mother, you're so weak."

My mother strangles me crying all the time. And then you take your hands off me like you gave me back, and you hug me again.

My mother went crazy more and more.

My mother died when I turned 10. I rather think I lived this far often. They say he killed himself, but he must have... To that real wife.

What they call me my father without my mother was so adorable.

He's my father, who says he's crazy, but he's been nice to me, I think. Even if you hit a bunch of maids in front of me and cut them off. You never put your hands up to me, and you made me learn a lot. Having lost my mother, I tried my best to respond to it.

But I noticed. My father hasn't looked at me. Through me, looking at my mother...

Since when did you find that gaze disgusting?

"Poor thing. You're gonna be in a lot of trouble like this."

"Shut up. Larso."

Captain Okama Mercenary, also master of my sword (2m tall, weighing Hi-Mi Tsu, lover Ali!? Which, by the way...) crushed like other HR. Well, that's other personnel.

"Because you're weird and crazy. Hey, your father. I've invited strange people lately, and they start digging up some ruins... I don't know why."

Ha, sighed. Think of it as other HR...

"Why did my father go mad?

That's what I heard.

'Cause whoever you like didn't turn around.'

"Huh?"

I couldn't help but think of an appropriate answer. What the hell is that? About half the men in this world would be out of their minds if they were screwing around with that.

I'm not lying.

"Yes, yes, I just found out that you're not willing to answer."

I decided to cut up the conversation and go back to my room.

"I'm not lying... If you'd chosen him then, I'd think something would have changed.... Aida (...)"

"Speaking of which, why are you familiar with my father when Larso is a mercenary?

If I think about it, there's no way a mercenary can be my sword master of the First Empress once, and there's no way I'm talking to my father on an equal footing.

"Hmm? I'm dating your father. I've decided to be friends with each other no matter what. Even if he's out of his mind."

Larso and my father seemed to see each other at a young age. When I was younger, it was normal at the beginning. Your father. And I heard a lot about it. The face talking about that time was somewhere fun and familiar.

The feeling is something I don't understand. But I'm jealous.

I didn't have anyone like that. I was 6 years old and cut off what I called a friend.

"Is that even if it's forgotten?

Larso smiled bitterly.

"Whatever happens, I promise."

Before this, my father turned to Larso, and said, "Who are you, cut with a sword?" Sounds like I remembered it right away though. My father was stunned then. As far as that face is concerned, Larso is certainly a friend to my father.

"... oh, speaking of which, it looks like the war is about to start ~. I'm so thankful I've lost my body lately"

"War?"

What? I didn't hear that.

"Well, it's top secret, top secret. Looks like we're going to wage war on this country, the Kingdom of Asteria. Probably a war of attrition, so I guess I'll say goodbye to you here."

Asteria guys seem to be a lot nicer, so I'm looking forward to it.

Quite a mild tone, but the rhetoric made it possible to be prepared to die.

"Asteria..."

I was stunned. wage war on neighboring powers with fertile lands. It's not funny, but it's definitely over there...

"You weren't giving me food support...?

This empire is vast, but half of it is permafrost. Since food cannot be covered by domestic alone, food support should have been received from Asteria in the winter... Asteria's relationship with the Empire isn't that bad, on the surface.

"He's the one who decided."

Those eyes seemed to think nothing in particular. Because political matters have nothing to do with mercenaries...

"Can you win...?

Earlier the grass was ready to die. I hear that the men who support King Asteria are the most fearful formations. Especially since you have a general who cuts enemies and goes to kill them, laughing ahead...

"I don't know? Sounds like there's some way..."

When I saw that face, I thought.

Oh, I'll lose it again.

My chest hurts.

From the palm of my hand, it drops zero.

I feel the same way when my mother died.

"Hey, I'm coming too"

That's what I said when I came out.

"Huh?"

"That's good. I don't have to worry about chastity anymore, but I have to worry about my life."

"You... ahhh, but that wife is going to be after my life. My sons are ridiculous."

"It's really coming. I might have tried too hard..."

As I learned in a madness of death, the stupidity of the other brothers seemed to be spreading to the public. No, some of them aren't dumb, some of them are decent, but they do worse than I do. It was the real wives and concubines who got mad at this. I don't care from the bottom of my heart about this house...

Recently, the number of assassins has increased. I really want you to stop because the room gets dirty. You couldn't sleep in a cot.

Even in this house, they decide to kill me one day (sometimes my father's gaze sucks...) It was a mistake for them to kill you. Then why are you going to war? That's what I'm talking about. Anyway, I want to get out of the house.

I want to be by someone. One of us is cold.

"You can't guarantee your life in a war, can you?

That's fine, too. 'Cause if we all die, I'm sure you're not scared.

Do you miss one?

"If I stay here like this, there's no guarantee of my life either way... and anyway, I want to be by everyone in the mercenary corps. Something that sounds more fun."

Apparently it turns out I'm not going to change my mind. Larso sighed.

"You... If you say that, you won't get along as a teacher."

Why, it's sweet for the person you put in your nostalgia, Larso.

"But when you're gone, your father will look for you."

In a state where the spirit is crazy, it could be too.

Oh, yeah.

"You can't just let an assassin kill you. Don't squash your face."

There are plenty of bodies.

So I threw my dagger at the tree.

"Yikes!!

When I thought I heard a voice, something fell so fast from the tree.

"It's a woman. Just fine."

chuckled. By the way, he was one of my tutors until yesterday. Although it is one of the queen's hands.

Larso saw the body. A dagger stabbed between his eyebrows, and in an instant, he finds himself desperate.

Definitely, this guy sucks, too. I may get angry if I tell him in person, but there are times when he may be worse than his father. Even a father would have been normal if that hadn't happened.

I'm unwilling to be in person, but this guy definitely deserves the most emperor..., maybe. Larso thought so.

I wish this kid was born from that wife. Hey. Then it must have fit round.

It's all too late, though.

The eldest daughter of this house was found dead that spring. He said he was believed to have fallen off the balcony, his face crushed and he was crippled to see it. Suicide or other killings..., different speculations flowed, but in the war that took place a month later, people's consciousness turned to you and disappeared from their memory.

"With that said..., you look just like your mother-in-law's face, your mother...