Dreams.
I feel like I'm dreaming.
I was conscious as if I were sinking in a dark world. Darkness. It's like falling into the bottom of a deep ocean.
Oh, yeah.
Could I have done everything? [M]
I wonder if we could protect our people.
I've seen many deaths. I've been fighting with blood, at the expense of everything. It finally came to an end. I still remember my friends' faces well. I've seen a lot of them scatter on the battlefield.
They laughed at each other until yesterday, but they disappeared the next day. I have sent such days. And finally, I had to fight my brother. We could only kill each other on a parallel line wherever we went.
Ah. How could I only have killed him? I wonder if there was more I could do.
I really regret that.
I can see the light.
As you gently look up at the light from above, your body also floats up.
How am I supposed to live from now on?
……
I woke up.
When I opened my eyes, I first saw the ceiling. It wasn't the Guren sky I always looked at, it was a pure white ceiling. It also smells of disinfectant. Well, I did... lose consciousness after that.
I unleashed all my abilities and lost them by restoring the world my brother built.
I used so much force that I let go of my consciousness... and apparently was taken to the hospital.
"... Ray-chan?
Move your face to someone who can hear you. Then there was Carol. There is a fairly dark neighborhood under my eyes. Besides, I always wear makeup and now it is completely refreshing. I thought I'd seen Carol without makeup for a long time.
"... Carol. You're not wearing makeup?
"... Ray-chan!!!
I hugged her with a gabber. With a painful hug, Carol shed tears. Your overflowing tears won't stop. I understand that I'm back when I see Carol leaking his swallow and raising his voice.
"Uhh... gu... good... good... good...! I really wondered what I would do if Ray-chan was gone...!
"How long has it been since?
"Ugh... gu... it's been a month..."
"That much....."
A month.
It's been a month since the Far East battle ended? I don't feel like it's been that long. It feels like it's been a month since I woke up asleep.
"Ray-chan. Are you okay?
"Hmm? Oh. It doesn't hurt, but...."
"? Anything else? The doctor said there was nothing wrong with life....."
Carol wipes her tears and then asks.
I could feel it. I lost something important in that last battle. Check your senses by opening and closing your hands several times. No doubt about it. I won't be able to... use my magic to my satisfaction anymore.
I don't think I can use magic to my satisfaction anymore.
"Oh no...."
Carol blushes her face and holds her hand close to her mouth.
"Apparently, I'm running wild in the magical realm [Overheating]. It just seemed like I was subconsciously holding it back with a fix."
Yes, it is.
Apparently, while I was asleep, I was subconsciously pushing my abilities into it. That's probably what survival instincts did. I have one more thing to worry about. I wonder where the girl who has been talking to me has gone.
Now I can't feel my presence anymore.
"You can't use magic...? But... you don't have to do this anymore, do you?
"I can't do that. Perhaps even if it becomes available, it will take time on an annual basis."
"... I see."
Somehow I was calm.
Until now, I've used magic to keep fighting. If he had lost power during the Far East, he might have been in shock. But the war is over. It's just a matter of whether or not I can use magic. Besides, it goes without saying that magic cannot be used.
Approximately, the magic resources that you can barely use will have to be used in the future to suppress your Magic Area Runaway (Overheat).
But how do I live from now on?
Until now, killing enemies was the only way to live on the battlefield. You don't have to do that anymore. Now that you can't use magic properly, you can't live as a soldier.
What kind of life should I live from now on? [M]
"... why is Master here?
Last fight.
I only remember saving my master, but I don't know what he wanted ahead of me. I decided to ask Carol with all my heart.
She slightly diverted herself and answered the question.
"... Lydia's consciousness is back. I can talk, and I'm fine....."
"Really?
It's true that you're alive, and it's true that you can have a conversation. But Carol's voice was clearly weak.
And she weeps again.
"Lydia... her lower body..."
Oh, yeah.
I see.
I understood everything.
I managed to prevent the last suicide bombing, and I was able to connect my limbs. Still, the scar was definitely there. My power of reduction is not universal. Now I know that I don't like it.
"I'm going to see my master."
Wake up.
It doesn't hurt, so I try to get out of bed right away, but Carol stops it.
"No, Ray! I haven't rested yet!
"But...."
I wanted to see my master.
Even if I couldn't move, I just wanted to apologize now. I wanted to meet and talk to you. But Carol's trying to stop me. I couldn't help but see him like that.
"Okay. I'm resting for a while."
"Yeah, I'll take care of you forever."
I smiled in a loud smile.
So I went to my master a few days later.