Inkya no Boku ni Batsu Game ni Kokuhaku Shitekita Hazu no Gyaru ga, Doumitemo Boku ni Betahore Desu

Take a bath...... Wearing a light pink pyjama I was feeling very restless right now when I said I was in my own house.

I've just warmed up, but my body is shaking. This is not cold...... tremors from nervousness.

The reason is obvious, my boyfriend is sitting in a futon in front of me... because Yangshin is there.

He's wearing a light blue pyjama, which he doesn't seem to have noticed, but it's an assortment of different colors from the pyjamas I'm wearing.

It seems that your father and mother fixed the ancient clothes they used to wear... I'm happy with your alignment, and your gaze on Yangshin's muscles, which you can see glitter from the gaps in your pajamas... No, weigh yourself in and I...

We were looking at each other with a flicker... I was having trouble figuring out what to do... Yangshin moved first.

"Mr. Seven Seas, uh... here you are... weird for me to say... for now... have a seat"

Yangshin moves away from the top of the futon where he was sitting and tries to get me to sit there.

I'm sure you cared about me when I moved over the tatami... I was so happy with that feeling.

I just say "excuse me" and I sit on the futon where Yangshin was falling asleep earlier. Still slightly, his warmth remained.

"Yangshin, it's okay. You want to sit with me? This futon is huge... and I brought a blanket too.... You're gonna catch a cold, aren't you?

"Ugh...... yeah...... No, Mutsuko often gave you permission. Coming to my bedroom..."

I pounded beside myself on the futon.

Yangshin hesitated a little, but sat naughty in front of me. The way it looks is kind of cute, and I get a crunch and a grin.

"Your mother told me to talk to Yangshin for a little while because of the opportunity. See, taking a bath can be relaxing, right? So we can talk about things we don't normally do."

"Talk to me... Sure, it's hard to talk like this... But we're both pajamas... relaxed, not nervous?

"Well, how about this?

When I wear a blanket out of my head, I hide my entire body and only show my face. I did it when I was a kid...... it looks haunted. I don't see my body in person with this.

Yangshin only laughs a little when he sees me, wearing a futon just as well...... two haunted people can rise up on the spot.

Did Yangshin break the tension with that, and when he gives a fuzzy look, he stretches his body just a little bit on the spot.

... Only a few centimeters, I pack such a distance from Yangshin. Even when he realized that, he didn't try to distance himself from me by just laughing gently.

Yeah, your mother's right...... I feel different because I'm relaxing in the bath.

I came to Yangshin more because I was pushed on the back than to tell my mother I got permission...

Just a little... the story goes back.

Yangshin started staying at home as a result of all the moves made by our mother and Yangshin's parents... I was very nervous about that fact, on the other hand, which I'm glad to hear.

'Cause there's one thing you spend under the roof with whoever you want. You can't be nervous, can you?

In the meantime...... while Yangshin was in the bath, my mother and I were talking.

"Seven Seas... It's about a week to the anniversary I was telling you about... what do you think since then?

Sha Ha (Saya) also went to his room, and now that he doesn't have a father... he must have asked me again. Of course, my answer is clear.

"... I've decided to be ready, like I said before... I'm in Yangshin..."

"Oh, no. That's not what I want to hear... I'm talking about serving Yangshin-kun, right?

"Is that you?! Wasn't that a joke?!"

I thought they'd ask me exactly about my last day, but at the same time I clap out just a little... blush at the word "serving".

What I've done so far is... make lunch lunch, cook with you, date you... chew on your cheeks or something... Ugh... every time I remember that time, I snort.

And then... we've been studying together lately, haven't we? But...

"Hmmm... we normally enjoy it together..."

Far from the word serving. If I do something, Yang Xin will return it, and if Yang Xin does something, I will return it...... We were having such fun and happy days with each other.

Just a little bit against my chest, I remember what I've been through. And I feel like I remember again......

"Still, I'm better... I wonder if it feels like I'm getting a lot from Yangshin..."

"Yes... that's good."

Mother shrugged with her hands on her chest like she was relieved. Good... isn't that the other way around?

When I lean my neck, your mother keeps telling me to be gentle and teach.

"Oh, wonder? Mother, if Nanakai told Yangshin-kun that I was better able to give it back, I was just going to stab the nail a little bit, right?

"Stab the nail... stab it?

I'm better...... not very much, but there's no way I can say it. I have many memories, including today.

The matching straps are delightful and loose cheeks every time I see them. Yangxin is also attached to me, so it's not easy.

The stuffed animal I got that day is adorned with my treasure, and I occasionally hold it and fall asleep. I feel like I can dream of those aquarium memories when I sleep with them in my arms...

"Well, I thought you wouldn't worry about the Seven Seas... Still, you see, you forget a lot of fun times, don't you?

"I said I'd forget... what?

"That the Seven Seas confessed in a punishment game... But how about that, don't you worry?

The only person who knows about it... is your mother at home. And talking to your mother about it... ever since then.

But I'm worried about your mother. Because......

"Mother, it's me... I've forgotten that since that day... never, have I?

There is no one on this occasion. So I hit my mother for real.

Seeing Yangshin smile makes me happy too, the two of us laugh and feel happy. I speak faintly of the guilt I feel at the usual time.

Every time Yangshin tries, I'm happy… what Yangshin thinks when he finds out everything… think about it.

And I'm more afraid of hurting and grieving him than of him being gone from before me. That's what I've been thinking lately.

Maybe, like me before...... Yangshin won't like women. If so, how shall I atone...

Perhaps now, but I was... willing to make any kind of atonement. Because... I'm the one who made the decision... because I have all the responsibility for it.

Your mother was listening to me in silence like that. Then he smiles a little worried about me.

"Yes... I'm relieved that the Seven Seas haven't forgotten that feeling... But... it's not a good idea to think too much of it, is it? So... why don't you and Yangshin-kun take a moment to talk?

"Huh...? Are you sure?"

I'm just a little happy with the unexpected suggestion. I knew it, I didn't think your mother would forgive me for saying that...

I knew I had a slightly worried smile on that face.

"So does Nanakai... and Yangshin-kun... I feel like I'm making something a little impossible. Don't you see?

"... yeah... I don't know... I've been thinking that lately too"

Yangshin has yawned a lot lately. He seems kind of tired... and he said he's staying up too late in the game... but there's something else going on. Because he is easy to understand.

"Then... come up from the bath and relax with each other... and talk to Yangshin-kun in the seven seas of vegetables. Oh, you can't do anything weird, can you?

"... I won't, don't worry"

That's all I said to your mother, I smiled.

Though I've gotten all sorts of bits in the bath too, my mother sent me out... and I'm here now.

... I'm not even wearing makeup. It's soothing, so I'm a little embarrassed there.

"With that said, he said he wanted to come to my house the day after tomorrow... what do we do tomorrow? You didn't make any particular decisions, did you?

Yangshin wanted to sleep when he wore the futon, while closing his eyes in half... shaking his body a little loose. Something cute.

"That's what I'm talking about... your mother said she'd leave her appointments open tomorrow. I think I want to do something."

"... I don't mind... Nanakai-san hasn't even been informed?

"Yeah, we're having fun tomorrow."

In that way, Pompous and me and Yangshin continue the conversation.

While we were chatting, the tension slowly subsided, and we were able to relax and chat with each other even if we haunted each other at all times. But because you relaxed too much... the conversation just gets a little interrupted.

But there's no rush for silence that comes between conversations... on the contrary, it was comforting somewhere.

The atmosphere is much softer than usual.

"Yangshin... lately... haven't you been able to? Pretty awkward, even though she still says she's with her cute little girlfriend, doesn't she look sleepy? What are you doing?

"Hmm... I didn't force you... I just want to do a lot of things... I don't have enough time... and I think my sleep is shredding...?

"Aren't you telling me you can't do that?

I laughed unexpectedly.

I confessed that I was lightly shredding my sleep while I told you I wasn't pushing you. Yangshin also has the look of being gone for just a little while.

If this is the relaxing effect of taking a bath, it's amazing. They're going to talk to each other a lot.

Yangshin, who seems to be having a bad time, didn't really tell me why he was shredding his sleep, even if I asked any more. But... now I know Yangshin can't do something.

He's crazy with such a childish look on his face... and I fall asleep on the futon.

"So, you see, lay down already today? When you're tired, it's different if you just fall asleep. What, I'll put you to sleep?

"The escort... wasn't it embarrassing and impossible?

"I don't know if it's going to work in the bath... I was fine when I talked to her. Yangshin doesn't like sleeping with you?

"... I don't like it... I don't like the way you ask..."

Just a little bit of a lie.

I'm quite embarrassed to be honest... but more than that, I have a strong desire to put him to sleep, and I'm just trying to roll over and force him into the same position.

As I lay wrapped around my blanket, Yangshin hesitated a little too... but eventually I lay down with him as I had noticed.

Lie opposite each other in the same futon together... I'm kind of more thrilled than I was when I had a knee pillow when I said I had no physical contact.

Is this because you've got the same attitude, or is it because the situation is special where you face each other asleep?

Each other's faces are bright red... I knew there was silence flowing between them... Though thrilled, I was feeling reassured somewhere. It's paradoxical, but I really do.

The atmosphere is unusual... and... it's not a nasty atmosphere, it's an atmosphere that I really know where it is.

"Hey, Yangshin... remember the first thing your father told you?

"To Harukichiro...? Is that when Nanakai-san lied? I wanted you to tell me the truth..."

"Yeah... hey, Yangxin... hello... suppose I lied to Yangxin like I did then... will Yangxin forgive me?

Did you get flushed by this vibe... I'll say it.

That time... I borrowed the words your father told me... when I lied to Yangxin... I asked him what he thought.

I regret that I've only said a few words, but Yangshin has had a tender gaze at me since he showed a bare gesture of thinking a little.

"Well... depending on the type of lie... I forgive you... I will forgive you"

In that one word, I feel like something heavy in my mind just lightens up a little bit.

Still, I didn't say anything about the punitive game... even though I knew it was a good story about bugs. A word of "forgiveness" made me feel saved.

But it's still too soon to be forgiven for it all... So I keep talking about lies, unstoppable.

"... maybe it's a lie that hurts Yangxin?

"Mr. Nanakai... he's not a liar like that... even if he did... he must be a sweet liar..."

My chest hurts just a little on those words I believe in wholeheartedly. Even then, Yangshin continues to say interruptedly whether he is getting sleepy from the influence of lying down.

"It's a lie... I don't think it's a bad thing... for example, talking about having Santa... a surprise is a kind of lie... I think there are some lies that don't hurt them..."

I do have such compassionate lies... but I don't think the lies I have right now are that sweet.

"Still one day... when I hurt Yangshin... when I lied... I knew... would I be angry?

"... I think that makes me a little angry... but more than angry... why would I lie like that? Mr. Nanakai... is a kind person... and..."

"And...?

"Angry, forgive them... make up... I want to be able to say that it's a good memory too... I didn't say that before... I think so too..."

Yangshin told me what I said when I was in the aquarium, this time.

Right, I... I wanted to be in that relationship. Yangshin too...... I'm so glad you thought so.

"Mr. Seven Seas... me too... to Mr. Seven Seas... I have so much to say..."

With her eyelids closed for more than half, Yangshin squeaks as if she were a bedtime speaker.

After all, did I get tired from day to day or something impossible all at once......? I put my hand around his tummy that looks sleepy and I'll pound it gently on you so you can put your child to sleep.

The feeling of a slightly stiff abdominal muscle is transmitted to my palm.... Is Yangshin comfortable with the rhythm I slap, my eyelids gradually descended.

"Is there a lot...? I can tell you now... it's okay, right?

"... because I don't have the courage... to... wait..."

That Yangshin takes courage...... I wonder what the hell that is...... he starts to sleep as it is.

Be brave...... or...

"Thanks... and... sorry, Yangshin..."

I stroke his cheek just a little so that I could have my courage divided from Yangshin. Today...... Yangshin told me he would forgive me even though I knew nothing...... that's all... my feelings were filled.

I think I'm going to cry, but now is not the time to cry.

Whatever happens on the anniversary... if Yangshin chooses, I'll accept anything. Talking to Yangshin today...... I could have decided that. So thanks...... sorry.

And seeing him sleep like a child easily made me kind of sleepy, too. A sleeper attacked me all over my body abruptly... and I couldn't move...

"I need to go back... Mother... I think I'll come... but... I'm at my limit too..."

At the end of the day I wanted to kiss Yangshin's cheek for the rest of the day... but my body isn't even going to move... Having given up moving, I will at least throw a good night's words to Yangshin.

"Good night... Yangshin... good... dream..."

With my hands on Yangshin's stomach... I ended up falling asleep.