It Is A Different World And Yet I Am Cultivating Monsters

"Suu... hah..."

Take a deep breath in front of the door.

I had some image training before I came here, but when I opened the door, my body became very tense.

Knock lightly on the door, go inside, and apologize for what happened.

Imagine these series of flows over and over again, and come here with trembling hands and feet, ready to be scolded along the way.

All I had to do was knock on this door - it was supposed to, but I couldn't do it.

Atashi is now in front of her parents' house where Lily lived.

The purpose was, of course, to apologize and confess to Mr. Kurogane, Lily's brother.

I acted like a girl named Lily and acted like his sister.

Kyo said that his brother already knew that Atashi was not a real Lily and that he did not hate Atashi.

It's not that I don't believe the word, but I was still afraid to see my brother.

My brother was a very kind man.

I don't know when I realized that Atashi wasn't my sister, but she was always kind to me without making me feel uncomfortable.

It was all thanks to him that I felt the concept of brother and sister so strongly that I was immersed in the warmth of the bond.

I've always cheated on such a kind brother.

Even if my brother forgave me, I couldn't forgive myself.

Above all, the moment you enter this door and tell the truth, Atashi and his brother become red others without blood.

Such fear caused my fingertips to tremble, and I stood there doing nothing.

Eventually, the moment I tried to knock on the door, the door opened and my brother's face appeared from behind.

"Ah...."

I can't help but feel surprised and impatient, which means my mouth is squeaky.

My brother smiles kindly at such a snack and invites me into the house.

"Go ahead, Lily."

If you feel uneasy about the serenity of your brother's voice, which is still the same as usual, Atashi leans down and enters quietly.

Sit on the sofa in the middle of the room, and your brother sits on the sofa opposite.

After a while of awkward silence, he decided that he had to cut his mouth off, raised his face and stared at his brother's face from the front, lowering his head.

"--I 'm sorry!"

The sudden apology conveys the pokewarm atmosphere of my brother.

Still, I have to be clear about this.

"Atashi... killed your sister... And with a nasty face, I walked under you pretending to be your sister, and I've always played the role of Lily... I'm really, really sorry, please...!

While I was talking, the tears filled me with tears to regret what I did again.

Memories with a real Lily that I remember at the same time.

She was a girl who was more kind and pure than an athlete and worthy of the bravery the world sought.

I am ashamed of the seriousness of my sins, which replaced her.

Yeah, the real shame was to forget about her and take her where she belonged.

My brother just quietly opens his mouth to such an attacker.

"--Lily, I call you Lily here, but I don't resent you."

I knew it. That's what this man says.

Still, this is a problem for Atashi himself, and I must apologize for it.

Atashi lay face down and listened silently to his brother's words.

"First of all, you probably didn't kill Lily, did you? I've heard from my sister before. He said he had a new friend in the woods. And then I realized it was you."

Did Lily tell your brother about Atashi?

The moment I heard that, Atashi looked up unexpectedly and saw him smile gently when he and his brother met.

"When I first found you, I was surprised. My real sister was wandering through the woods full of blood. Besides, my consciousness was so blurry...."

…………

It must have been when Atashi wandered through the woods with his body injured by those adventurers just before he turned into Lily.

The brother who found the claw immediately brought the claw home for medical treatment.

Afterwards, Atashi's physical condition was restored, but he had lost memories before and after he was found and various memories before that.

My brother saw that Atashi had been involved in some kind of accident, and thought that memory disorder was also a kind of disorder, and told me a lot about lost memories.

However, it was because Atashi was a fake who followed Lily and did not have the ability to take over her memories.

The only part of my memory I had was the part Lily told me about, and by adding it to the part my brother taught me, I was able to form my current memory.

Afterwards, Lily jumped out of the house to follow the path of the hero who was supposed to be Lily, and realized that Atashi was one of the heroes.

From that time, Atashi started living in a rental lodging, and contacts with his brother decreased, but he still occasionally returned home and enjoyed dinner with his brother.

"... how long have you noticed?

Are you sure you're not the real Lily?

Atashi nods quietly.

My brother tried to think slightly about the question and replied lightly.

"About a month after you came to this house."

It was discovered much earlier than expected, and Atashi was surprised.

It was also a time when Atashi's body recovered and was aiming to be a hero.

"Well, how did you find out?

Unexpectedly, my brother answered me with a soft smile.

"Well, that's my brother and sister. My sister finds herself in an unusual atmosphere. But more importantly, the difference is the subject."

My brother looks at my face from the front.

"'Cause I stopped talking at all about my friends in the woods I've been talking about."

…………

Indeed, it was a natural anomaly.

Atashi herself deliberately sealed her own memory to replace Lily.

To assume it was not Lily who died there, but Atashi, a SS-ranked monster.

However, I could not realize that it would be the most uncomfortable feeling in becoming a person named Lily.

"So I stepped deep into the woods my sister was talking about. Find the ruins my sister was talking about. I went inside and saw the countless bodies and tragedies that were there, and I understood what happened. Above all, there was a real Lily's body there."

"... I'm sorry..."

My brother looks surprised to apologize again, but immediately shakes his neck.

"No, I'm not going to blame you. I'd rather be thankful. In that tragic situation, only my sister's body was treated beautifully. Even so, it conveyed my feelings for taking care of my sister very seriously."

Looking at his murmured brother's expression, Atashi couldn't stop the tears overflowing.

Atashi's own memories at that time are vague, and I don't know what happened to me.

Atashi sincerely apologized for leaving her dear friend in such a place.

My brother talks gently to comfort such a clit.

"... I can be sure you didn't kill my sister by looking at the tragedy and the scars on her. So you don't have to apologize for that."

"But I was... deceiving you instead of Lily's sister..."

Yes, that's the most sinful thing you should apologize for.

No matter what you say, it doesn't change that you cheated on Lily's brother.

That's why I must apologize properly for the incident.

My brother, who had been thinking silently for a while, slowly opened his mouth.

"Sure... after I learned about Lily's death, I was confused at first. How should I treat you? [M] Even if you are Lily's friend, you are not Lily. [M] How do I deal with someone like that?"

That must have been the truth of what this man had been holding.

Your precious sister dies, and instead someone else pretends to be your sister.

No one feels confused about such a situation.

Therefore, I looked at my brother's face from the front with the hatred and resentment behind it, and the readiness to hit him with all that.

But my brother's expression when he stared back at me was calm.

"But I still want to thank you. Because I could see my sister in you."

Huh?

I'm stunned by unexpected words.

But nevertheless, my brother keeps going.

"I knew you weren't my sister. However, no matter how fake it was, your face, your manners, your laughing face, your angry face, and your attitude when you fought with me all looked just like Lily. Even though you know the contents are different, you are a living picture of Lily. My sister, who is supposed to be dead, behaves alive between her eyes. It was very supportive."

…………

Certainly. No one is as touched as a dead relative.

Above all, you can see the voices of people who are important and how they are moving.

People can be saved by something as simple as that.

"Above all, there was a real Lily feeling in you. Should I say that thoughts, beliefs? Instead of hunting monsters for the heroic points my sister used to say, we can live together. You made the words my sister used to say a reality. [M] With a young man named Kyo."

--That's what Lily used to say.

Words and thoughts that had been engraved in my heart even after Atashi became Lily.

Atashi was working with Kyo, perhaps because she wanted to fulfill Lily's dreams.

"That's why I'm grateful to you. Thanks to you returning to me as Lily, I was saved. Above all, she fulfilled Lily's sister's wish. That's why I want to thank you."

Thanking Atashi for taking over what a real Lily would have done had she lived.

Atashi herself inherited Lily's memories and emotions, and did not possess such abilities.

If Lily's thoughts are still embedded in what Atashi was doing, it's an act of inheriting her soul.

Atashi has always been ashamed of himself.

You killed Lily and replaced her.

But it's not.

No matter how much I regret, Lily will not come back, and such regrets and worries will feed Lily?

It wasn't.

If you care about her, make her do what she wants.

That was the only thing I could do when I sat in her role.

My brother in front of me told me that.

Instead of remorse, take over and make your thoughts come true.

That would be Lily's true condolences.

The moment I realized it, Atashi was now tearful with joy, and her face went mad at herself crying with a strange expression while laughing.

My brother laughed strangely at it.

"That crying face looks just like Lily's."

That's how my smiling brother stood up and reached out to Atashi.

"Now that we're done talking, why don't you have dinner for the first time? Lily"

It was the brother's word that it was always decided when Atashi returned to this house, and Atashi replied to it as usual.

Yeah, well, that's going to be a treat - niisan

My brother said he was saved earlier.

However, I moaned in my heart that it was Atashi who really saved me. I took my brother's hand and wiped away my tears.