Kuro no Maou

There was no place for me, and I was walking lost.

Dark, narrow, walking in thin dirty alleys, this place is like a labyrinth.

I feel like I said I'd be home by dinner, but I really don't know if I can get home from this place, no, you really want to go home in the first place, what about me?

Can you smile and tell Lily and Fiona that by sundown, you'll shake off this sinking, precipitated emotion and nothing?

I can't, no energy, no vanity, I can't just pretend to be me right now.

"My fault?"

No, it's not my fault.

We have to get away to Sparda. We were all really dead.

I fought desperately to get everyone out of here.

I don't know how many are there, I fought as much as I could against the Crusaders who kept showing up, defeated or defeated me.

I earned time, it was critical, but I did earn some time just trying to get away with it.

But in the end, it was too late, in vain, while we were fighting, the refugees were being attacked by a messenger like that Mass, and we were all dead.

Yes, the bad news is the messenger who ruined everything with half the play, not my fault or anything.

Because I fought so hard.

"Can you tell me that..."

Total annihilation, that's the result, that's all, that's reality.

I don't care if it's a responsibility, or if it's an escape.

Clean enough, it's all my fault, yeah, after all, I couldn't protect anyone.

In front of my friends who buried me in the village of Iles, this time, this time, I won't let anyone kill me, that's what I should have sworn, but, oh, my God, I gave you a hell of a number of victims, I...

"Nobody... couldn't protect me."

Sinking, feeling sinking everywhere, regrettably, guiltily, helplessly.

After all, I was just a high school student, and I thought about helping a lot of people.

Because I was given a little more power than people in human experiments, I had the illusion that it was the only way to be a strong person who could protect someone.

I couldn't save the village of Iles, you're so stupid that there's nothing you can do about it, even though you're failing once, I...

I wish I could have said more about my share.

Don't think about others, think only about yourself and your loved ones you can reach.

Yes, since I was reunited with Sariel at the Wall of Daedalus, I've made the wrong choice.

I foolishly chose to fight because I thought I could save everyone if I risked my life.

It's hard to be stupid. I mean, I was gonna be a hero, but I'm not good enough to save someone.

I don't know if I can even protect myself, I'm just one person.

At that time, I should have just grabbed Lily and run, following Saliel's words that I said I wouldn't chase him if I ran away.

That's the right answer, that's the best, not knowing anything about the other guy.

Yeah, like Cyprus says, I'm experiment number 49 no matter where I go, and I know what he could have protected.

Let's stop now, I can't believe I'm trying to protect someone.

Let's stop now, I can't believe I can save someone.

"I can't help anyone..."

Yes, just think about yourself and your loved ones.

Don't take extra responsibility, don't take extra care of yourself.

Whatever you did, what you did, this is what happens.

It's just painful, it's just hard, it's just sad.

This thought is too heavy for me, it's not the kind of thing I can carry, I shouldn't carry it.

All I have to carry is myself and some other, dear people.

Enough will be enough, no matter how much the Crusaders conquer the Pandora continent, it doesn't matter.

All we have to do is run away, if we just run away without fighting, whatever it takes, if we just live, whatever it takes.

"So I don't have to help anybody anymore, okay?"

Give it up, give it up about others, ignore it, it doesn't matter, you shouldn't be involved, leave it alone.

I'm me, they're them, life is all self-inflicted.

Remember, don't make a mistake again, don't suffer, I have to be someone who can save someone, and if I'm not a hero, I'm the one with the best of my business, the little one.

Yes, this is a determination, a determination to abandon others, to be able to act on it.

"Yikes! Help me..."

That's when I heard a tall scream splitting my ear.

Previously, my body keeps walking without recognizing anything about my surroundings, and I start pointing my consciousness towards the outside world as if I remembered.

The place I'm standing right now is almost irreplaceable from earlier, a thin, dirty corner of the slam.

I can't hear any more screams, but the fact that there's a leak in the back of the alley right in front of me saying something proves that the first scream wasn't my fault.

One heartbeat.

Is someone attacked there?

Then we have to help you.

"Ha ha, stupid, I am"

In less than three steps, forgetting your mind is a retard below the head of a bird.

I'm not helping anyone anymore, I can't help you anyway.

"Avoid trouble, adventurer, you're such a monster"

Start walking.

In the alley where you can hear multiple voices, as you pass in front of them, you turn your gaze casually,

"Oh, no, please don't..."

"Let it go, let it go. You don't have to hurt yourself, do you?

"Fuck off, you fucking kid."

Pushed against the wall, the little girl and three big men stuffing against her.

Typical blackmail, no, she's a pretty red-eyed girl with glossy black hair and ruby, if there's even a slightly younger hobby among those three, you won't just have to steal the golden-eyed one.

Though it is a thought that makes me throw up just thinking about what else will be taken away from me.

"Stop it, it's ridiculous"

This is the kind of place where, oh, that kind of thing would be a routine tea meal.

What if I leave poorly and get into trouble?

Those three men are all just a gorotzki kind of thing, but there may be a gang-like organization behind that city, even if it's not that exaggerated, it can be a good enough possibility that there are many other fellow inmates forming a sidekick.

If you turn those people against your enemies, there's no level of trouble, if they're after you at 46: 00, your life is more than enough.

And, oh, look. Those three could be rank five adventurers far stronger than I am.

Impossible, no way, if I thought there was no way the Apostle would come, we'd all be killed by the Apostle.

Apostle or, haha, maybe, like the Eighth Apostle Eye, someone among those three might be an apostle, no, if you suck, all three might be apostles.

If you thought Sariel was the only one in Pandora, you two, and at the same time you showed up in front of me, it's not an impossible story at all, given the apostolic disgrace.

"Whoa! Hurry up, you're stuck!!

"Oh, no."

A man in the middle grabs me abusively by a little girl who seems to be the same as or slightly younger than Lily in her true appearance.

On the clap, her simple grey clothing is torn and her bright-skinned shoulder mouth is exposed.

Looking so far away, I passed in front of the alley.

Heard from behind, the men's fury and the screaming of a girl ripping silk.

"Now, that's okay."

I've made up my mind, and I've decided that no one will help me anymore.