Upon learning the answer to the two issues, I gradually saw the tendency or what I wanted to say about the three issues put out to Shed, although it was a thin blur.
Simply thinking, "Why can't Felicia Swallows escape her fate?" and thinking after being asked the first two answers changes the way she sees it. The starting point of thought moves.
So the first thing I should do is make sure.
"Can this also be a reason related to the previous question?
"Yeah. Much more around the place where the assumptions are intense and I haven't been properly looked around"
……
As long as it's done.... let's finish all the bad reviews.
When I first heard about the three issues, Shed said that all he could talk about was me and myself.
And then...
"Can Elle assume that fine dust is completely irrelevant in answering this question?
"Yeah."
Right? I felt that way when I heard the first two answers.
Elle must be the one upstairs, but she probably just assumed that I was all Elle's fault, and there are a lot of things that aren't Elle's fault. After I found out about the existence of Elle, I felt like I had to blame Elle for everything that was inconvenient to me.
That must have been a kind of evasion of responsibility. Because if you blame someone and run away, you don't have to worry, and your heart is easy.
"Shed, you know the game?
"Hmm?... I don't know what the question means"
"... don't you know what a game is? When you asked me why I couldn't escape my destiny, at first, Shed called me" Felicia Swallows, "not" Felicia Swallows, "as usual, right? That's a game. Can I assume there's another reason for this?
"Hmm... I don't know, but I don't suppose the game has anything to do with my answer?
Shed shrugs his shoulder.
If you say you don't know Shed or the game, one question arises.
I saw the definition of "no escape from fate" as meaning "no escape from the scenario of the game". My determination to change my destiny is synonymous with changing the game scenario.
So what does Shed mean by "destiny" when he says he doesn't know the game?... Quick to ask the person.
"... If you don't know the game, where does Shed's definition of destiny come from?
"Wow, that's a tough question."
Shed blushes.
But instead of saying he was asked a difficult question, Shed opened his mouth again immediately.
"I don't know. That's why I didn't live to think about it."
Oh, yeah. At a time when you're unwilling to prepare an answer, that's an immediate answer, right? Clean.
... but don't you know. How am I supposed to take this word for granted? Does that mean it's hard to answer in the way you define… or.
Or does Shed "really not know?
"This story was about me and Shed, wasn't it? Then I'll be the one who knows. I know destiny… I am the one who is deciding destiny, and that is how I am bound by destiny because I affirm its existence in the first place. That's why I can't get away.... this is the answer?
"Huh? I'm sorry, I didn't talk to you that vastly. Affirming the existence of destiny...?
He was off the record again.
Damn, I was so confident I got it right! I thought it was a bad idea to be affirming the existence of destiny in the first place...
Because I looked so remorseful, Shed kept saying things like he was in a hurry.
"Oh, no, yeah. I think maybe that fits, huh? Just that it was a story in a dimension I don't know, and that's for sure the truth? What do you think? But that, affirmative? I'm asking you why you can't escape your fate."
Cared for. Hard. Sometimes Shed's tail rises and becomes a questionable way of speaking, what am I talking about? I feel like I'm being spooked with this guy....
I took a deep breath and regained my mind.
All right, let's go back to thinking once and for all until a few steps forward. For example… yes, about why Shed referred to me as Felicia Swallows.
If it had nothing to do with the game, did you say this way... because you're referring to me back when I named the Swallows family home before the engagement was broken, or did you dare make objective representations, not on my sister...?
The story has to do with my assumptions and watching people over game characters filters.
... Wait? Speaking of which, it already seems like hours ago in my physical sense, but during those little moments when I was in Nica's carriage to meet and talk to Lili... Nica said about why Lili and I had to meet, "To talk about it first... Phee, no, I have to tell you first what you looked like from me or her back when it was Felicia -" and I didn't end up hearing the answer because there was a kidnapping of Lili before I heard any more.
When I was Felicia... when I was Felicia Swallows... from Lady Nica and Lili... and Shed, how did it look -?
To think about this… maybe I should remember a lot more.
... Yes, when I was a civilian for a month and a half in the first place. The conversation that Nica and I had.
Sure, I talked about my actual abilities a little above average, and I clearly agreed that Nica was right - after that. The problem is then.
For some reason, Nica told me… what it was. Remember.... uh, yeah. She asked me if I was unconscious. Even though there was no subject, he asked in surprise, "Are you unconscious about it?"
And Nica just told me that she had made a mistake before and that I was wrong too, and they cut me off without explaining it.
What I can easily assume and what Nica says is wrong. Does this not resemble the nuance of the word? Then isn't it relevant...?
Am I unconscious?
Easy to guess?
You're making a mistake?
Even though my basic abilities are a little above average, I was certain and agreed there, but what is the unconsciousness contained there -?
What did Felicia Swallows look like from people? I was playing Miss Perfect Warrant, who am I...?
All three of these issues put out to Shed probably have to do with my lack of consciousness.
"I, was... Lady Rose of the Perfect Orders"
That's what I came to show you, to charm you.
"He was the protagonist. Yes, because I was playing"
The woman I was playing was the main character.
"I was conscious but unconscious. Because it was natural for me to be able to act. I've come to take it for granted that that talent is coming out."
Nobody knows I have memories of my previous life. This extraordinary talent to play, which is natural to me and which I acquired as a result of coming on a daily basis during my previous life, from the point of view of the people of this world - looks like an extraordinary talent that I was born with and which does not make me feel uncomfortable as if I were skilled. I can see it.
Or I can't possibly act like this at this age with this life experience. I find it real.
Excellent talent either way. There's no way you can leave me alone.
"I've probably overdone it. More than she in the game, I overdid it perfectly. Too conspicuous.... overplayed. Lady Rose, was."
Fake, sometimes transcends real.
Not to mention, I only know what I saw in the game. It's not surprising that the perfection I played has outgrown the original protagonist's range of perfection.
This is reality. Reality means that people's eyes, emotions, and minds change from trivial things.
"So around you, you still won't let me go. Is this... the answer?
The only reason I couldn't get away with it was because of my own talent and my unconsciousness for showing it for granted.
If I could, I didn't want to notice. Because it's a story that's over now. After I've shown off my act. I can't start over.
He stared and smiled at me with a gentle but slightly irritating eye, which Shed seemed to pity and mercy.
"Yes. You're right. Felicia Swallows is like the main character in the story, as my sister Felicia likes. Too much talent attracts too many people. Call for turmoil. You can't forgive me for running away from my destiny and becoming a civilian with that talent."
... but I don't like it. I want to be a civilian.
Even if it's the inevitable fate I created myself, I want to change it too, break it and cut it open.
Is that arrogant?