Me and Lili were supposed to sit at the top of the staircase leading naturally down and talk because it was going to be a long story.
A regular aristocratic courtier who has no memory of being an ordinary citizen in her previous life would definitely be somewhere to be hated, but Lili would be expensive, albeit too simplistic, to be in an official setting. I don't mind a one-piece dress, but she sits down next to me.
"What can I tell you… Regardless of what I'm talking about, can I tell you that I am fully aware of Liliana Innocence?
"Yeah, I'm fine"
I'm familiar with Liliana Innocence as a character in the game. Nevertheless, let's think back once and for all to sort it out.
Liliana Inocy.
She is the most common and only female character in the maiden game Lady Rose of the Redemption, except for the main character, who also appears in standing and single pictures.
Its standing will be a terrible villain warrant that harasses the protagonist only on Seth's route, but instead of the protagonist, she will support Seth and the protagonist's love, rather as the presence of a convenience that allows the protagonist who falls in love with Seth differently in choosing another character for paedophilia.
Dear Seth, Loot and otherwise Liliana with a very different claw to the main character as if it were another character, but rather I think I'm a character with a more consistent mind than the main character.
Liliana is the only girl who really likes Seth everywhere. Whatever I did to the hero, I was in love so much that I couldn't help but ask for Master Seth. The presence of her fiancée, who had been determined from the outset simply because of the connection of the house, could not be tolerated, she dyed her hands in sin without being able to control her emotions.
With lily flowers and pigs in her name, she is precisely the child who has fallen in love so pure, innocent and upright that she cannot be seen around her.
"I was happy the moment I realized I was reincarnated into this world as Liliana. Because wishes that could not have been fulfilled in previous life could have been fulfilled in this world"
Lili recollects what happened at the time, or she talks really happily about it.
I had no idea you were the same reincarnator, but you'd be happy to be reincarnated. Naturally. If, from the bottom of the line, what was in Lili is a wish, then what was in me is a trauma.
"Then I've worked so hard to make it happen that I've lived with that goal. But..."
Lili's face is cloudy.
... Well, it was predictable. Because if you just lived straight and bright, Lili's not next to me right now.
That effort must not have come to fruition, for whatever reason, at least in a normal way.
"As soon as I saw you at first sight, I realized that I was no match or fulfillment. 'Cause you're much more of a Lady Rose than I thought, and they realize that you're the center of the world… the hero, and that's the unwavering fact."
Being completely alarmed, my thoughts froze for exactly the reason.
Huh? No, huh?! Me?! So, me?! At first glance, you think it is an unshakeable fact that I am the protagonist at the heart of the world?!
... Oh! You're talking about how my acting skills were so great that I was only seeing the protagonist, Mr. Lady Rose! My acting skills, they really don't affect people or myself busily?!
"That's because I was doing everything I could to... look like Lady Rose, and that's not actually happening at all...!
"Yes, I do."
Lili clearly denied and returned the words she had hastily denied in an attempt to solve the misunderstanding she had given without her knowledge.
Lili goes on to talk out when I'm black-and-white in the eye for too much assertion.
"You are the protagonist. Even now that I know you were the same reincarnator as I am, I still think it's true."
…… why?
It was purely strange. I said that Lady Rose was just playing, and so was Lili if you're talking about reincarnators, and I've already put my foot down from the game stage as a civilian. Plus Lili may not know, but I've already thrown away Felicia Swallow's name as the protagonist.
And yet what is the basis for affirming that I am still the protagonist at the heart of the world...?
"Mr. Felicia doesn't think I've ever acted out of one scenario before, does she?
I was stunned by the words I was told, laughing lightly. 'Cause naturally I thought so. It was a premise in me that Lili acted as she did in the scenario, even one step down the road.
Because - because the scenario had not changed as one until I moved.
"I'm just a loser who didn't get anything done. I tried to break the scenario over and over again, but… I repeated countless efforts and setbacks until I gave up that my destiny wouldn't change."
Oh... oh, I finally figured out why she looked bitter to me when I told Lili that everything had gone the way she wanted.
It wasn't a good dialogue for me to tell her that everything was going well, at least until I became a civilian. It's a good dialogue with someone who couldn't make it happen no matter how hard he tried.
I don't know exactly what Lili has actually done and what thoughts she has tasted. But after I ran away, I thought it was horrible and horrible that I couldn't change no matter how hard I tried, because I was afraid that every time people came to see me, I couldn't escape my destiny.
'Cause if you think about it in a way that fits me, it's despair that makes you marry Seth without breaking the scenario even though I accepted the divorce, and force you to be queen no matter how you scratch her.
But I was changed. It broke the scenario that she couldn't change no matter how much she scratched her feet. So for Lili, I was established as the "hero" who crossed the line of the game.
"By the time I was a freshman at school where the game of 'Redemption Lady Rose' started, I understood that I no longer had the power to change my destiny. So I… made the best choice I could make."
Already my chest is in a lot of pain just imagining the bitter fragments Lili has tasted.
Still, I'm not done talking about Lili. There is a continuation. I'm sure there's more to it, a desperate continuation.
"… that's what we do as Liliana Innocence in the game. Because if we proceeded with the world as the game scenario suggests, we would all have been happy. I just had to stick to the last existential significance that was left of me. Even though I know that's evil."
Did you mean that the last freedom of choice left to her was to convince herself to move according to the scenario? I can't break it no matter how. Besides, I decided it knowing the future where I would be exposed and judged by forcing myself to convince myself... oh, it's a choice I can't make after all.
If I can't be happy, I'll run away at that point. If you're not happy to make everyone happy. In order to escape my brother in my previous life, my family and friends left everything behind and threw it away every time my brother caught up with me, because I knew that the world was wide open and that I could find and create my raison d 'être anywhere.
I'm not going to dare to say it because I'm probably aware that I just haven't spoken it myself either, but I think Lili seemed genuinely jealous when she harassed me as per the scenario as per her role, because she was certainly jealous of me as a protagonist who could choose fate by advancing the scenario as much as she liked. Well, I can guess another reason why.
"I knew Lili had given up and decided to sacrifice herself to her heart, but why didn't you think of me as a deviant from her destiny, suspicious of me, betrothed to Seth, and making herself happy?
"... I've made Mr. Felicia unhappy because of me. If you think about it now that you know the truth, it can't be because I can't change my destiny. But at that time, I wondered if I had broken your feelings by waving jealousy across roles."
… was it so misunderstood as to become so? Uh, right. That's right. From Lili's point of view, I might not have been forced to think so.
Because I, too, have been coming to play the main character in accordance with the scenario all the way up to that moment. If there's been a change in the scenario, it's natural to be the first to doubt yourself knowing you're obviously foreign.
"I was just trying to trace the future as the scenario suggests, so I wasn't prepared to live with my sins as an assailant, even if I was prepared to be repudiated. So I couldn't stand it. … the sin of not being tried cannot be forgiven at the same time."
I guess Lili's behavior along the lines of her scenario, which I was delighted to do alone, was only the first I could have done, assuming everyone's happiness ahead of me and my repudiation of myself. I did it because I thought all the kids who didn't do bullying and bad things were going to be happy, and I betrayed them unwillingly.
There was nothing wrong with Lili if she was a cold person. He must have been crushed by guilt because he was kind.
"But I didn't say the truth on that occasion, so there's no excuse. No matter how dirty and muddy I became, I really wanted to make my wish come true - and that said, it didn't come true either, after all. My heart broke first."
Lili flaunts her shoulder like it's nothing. But Lili said she's been working so hard to make it happen. I can't imagine what that meant to Lili. I gave up that didn't come true, so Lili probably...
"If I die of suicide, I would have my sins exposed under the daylight from the suicide note I left in my desk drawer, and Lady Rose, whom I disparaged, would clear up and regain her Duke's status and re-engage with Seth... and I thought that I would be happy..."
Lili's words were powerless and she grinned bitterly as troubled.
"If you wanted to be a civilian, you wouldn't be happy."
"Yeah. I can't really do nobles or queens."
"Ahaha"
Lili laughs empty-handedly and eventually stops even that smile without power.
"Trouble, hey..."
Somehow, I think I'm sorry that I left Lili's plan ruined. Of course, you can't possibly allow yourself to commit suicide, but they were all answers Lili had given her the best of her mind and determined to derive.
"You found out I don't need a millimeter of guilt, so why don't you just be queen?
"... but still, because it doesn't fulfill my wishes. Then it doesn't make any sense."
I probably understand Lili's desire not to talk about the key content from earlier.
That's something I wouldn't want to tell you. If you didn't want to be queen or be Seth's fiancée, I'm sure what she wanted - oh, because first love is the next thing you can't go inside.
But since you broke your engagement with me... uh, about three months? I think it's too soon to cut it off.
"You just ate bread, didn't you? It's okay, Lili hung up on magic. So it's okay. It's gonna happen."
I told him to work a little harder away pretending he didn't notice anything. Even though it doesn't mean doing something to Lili, it means trying to live a little harder.
In my opinion, Seth should have just moved on… he probably just totally blew it off.
"It's irresponsible."
Lili laughed like she was in trouble. But that seemed to me to be an affirmation that I would try to live a little more, so I laughed back brightly.
I want you to be happy. Lili has always been an angel and a goddess to me for making me happy.