I didn't feel like going home because of my exhilarating heart, having been sent home from the bakery to be kicked out at noon, although I still didn't work enough as a feeling.
Of course, I'm not willing to exercise or get tired in preparation for tomorrow's work, but if I'm not doing something, I won't calm down.
There's only one place I go at a time like this since I became a civilian, and speaking of which, I had her promise to talk to me again. The same goes for Elle, but I wouldn't be able to say it's all over without asking what happened to her.
Having concluded that, I moved on to Nana's church.
Going near the church, Nana noticed me and ran over with a smile, not having to go into the church and call Nana.
Behind me, I saw Jack, the pastor who was with Nana, walking into the church to avoid me just to see me. Well, I don't care. It's more Nana than that.
"Wah, Phee, welcome back! Welcome back beat fate, didn't it?! Heh heh, I knew fate was such a thing! You did it, congratulations. Happy ending!
Nana is as cute as ever to jump and be as happy as she is about herself while shaking her three braided double tail.
However, I am concerned that the way you say happy ending is reminiscent of the game.
That and another thing that bothers me. Nana is not wearing a monastic outfit today and is a ruffled white top and bottom set of clothes commonly worn by civilians. No, that's fine. If I had seen Nana taking off her monastic clothes at the Mansion, I would have guessed that she would not be willing to wear those anymore. Plus, the pure white ruffled clothes look great on Nana while she's an angel.
Speaking of which, unlike usual, Nana has a white bandage wrapped around her hand to tell the story of yesterday's injury. Nor is it as disturbing as I could have imagined it beforehand, even though it hurts.
What bothers me the most is that Nana holds a bag that is about fifty centimetres square, which is too much if she usually tries to make it almost handy.
"Thanks for the celebration. Do you have time now?
"Mm-hmm...? If it takes less than an hour, you'll be fine!
They don't have that much time. Though wondering if it had anything to do with the amount of luggage, I first took to the usual square where I often talk to Nana.
Arriving or not, the two of us buy fruit juice and sit across from each other with a simple desk in a simple chair provided.
"So, uh... I wonder what I'm going to hear from. Nana, what happened to that package?
Too much ambiguity and not knowing what to ask the other way around, I first asked as a light jab from visual information that bothered me.
Nana, is this it? When I glance at my luggage just to say, I smile and answer.
"I'm moving today. This is everything I need."
...... hmm?!
I peeled my eyes off. Him, moving out? Moving?! Huh, what? You mean I won't see you inside anymore?! Or is it too abrupt?!
Nana laughed out loud when she saw how I was like that when Jab's intent was to get a clean hit on the counter and I was surprised and couldn't return the word.
"Right, you'd be surprised how little! I was surprised as I put it together too! That's all the teacher told me."
"No! No, so is that! What move?!
That does bother me a little, but Nana's words made me go back to sanity and hit my doubts.
"Hmm? Oh, you're right around the corner when I say you're moving, and I'll be back Monday!
"... Oh, Monday? Oh, shit, you're really close..."
On Monday I was relieved and calmed when I decided that it would be a nearby town precisely the kind of distance I would be able to come home with a light feeling. If it's that distance, you probably want to be independent or something like that.
When I took a deep breath and calmed myself down, I decided to stop jabbing and ask what I wanted to hear the most.
The most I want to hear. That's who Nana is. I... Nana suspects it's probably the same reincarnator as me or Lili, and hence Elle.
Nothing. Tomorrow, I mean, the two escorts said they'd find out if it was today, and maybe it's something they don't have to hear from me. But I wanted to hear it all from Nana's own mouth if she did. Because we're friends.
"Nana, you know what a prophet Elle is?
Nana silenced me when I heard it head-on. The high tension just now disappeared, but there is no reason to be upset, but he has a worried, grown-up look.
"…… yeah, I know."
It is strange that Nana, a civilian, knows the name of Elle as only the royal family can. The only possibility I can think of is the possibility of two choices: whether someone taught me or whether I am.
And if that's two choices, I think the latter is more likely from what I've seen of Nana at the Mansion. I have no idea why Elle was such a civilian nun out of a castle town.
"Was it a coincidence that Nana went to that mansion and got involved in that incident?
"Coincidence, huh. What do you think of Fee?
The question was returned to me and I took it seriously.
I don't know. At least I don't even know that His Majesty arranged to use Nana, who is Elle. Then Nana was just used and might not have heard anything from Her Majesty.
It's just that if you tried from Nana, you would have seen Lili kidnapped in front of you and even gone to the mansion of your own free will.
"Coincidence, not"
"Well."
Nana nods yeah to my response. Then I shut up to think a little, put it down for a few seconds and opened my mouth.
"Coincidence means fate by miracle, right? I think it's probably true that I met the Virgin and that I met Phee."
Coincidence, fate by miracle. That's true. The miraculous tour of destiny that I've done as much as I can, people call it coincidence.
Then I think it was certainly a coincidence that I met Nana. Because I don't think Nana, out of church, fell and helped me aggressively with that first encounter, at least then, because she didn't intervene in anyone's actions.
"But I think it's inevitable that I went to that mansion because it was a miracle and a fateful coincidence, but also because my circumstances and reasons were huge."
Circumstances and reasons. Nana uses this word a lot. But all this time, I didn't know what Nana was up to and why.
I turn to Nana. Nana nodded, smiling and finally saying her circumstances and reasons.
"Me, I remember from the moment I was born."
"... eh?
I wondered if it had been revealed to me that I was a reincarnator. But I feel uncomfortable.
My consciousness was reincarnated into this world and has certainly existed since I was a baby. But at the same time, my consciousness was almost asleep until I realized at the age of five that my engagement with Seth had made this world the maiden game of my previous life, Lady Rose of the Redemption. I can remember it if I remember it in my previous life. But my memories in this world before I woke up clearly before I was five are blurred. I can't remember clearly.
But I've never wondered about it. 'Cause it's natural that I can't remember my childhood well. And that doesn't change even if you're a reincarnator. I'm sure that's all we're talking about.
So uncomfortable. Because Nana, unlike me, doesn't fit into it.
"When I was zero, my parents dumped me."
I blinked. Zero years old, sometimes, parents? Huh?
Even if it was uncomfortable, I thought I could tell Nana that I was a reincarnator from now on. So I can wolf over a confession of shock from a completely different direction.
"I didn't teach you that, I remember that. I remember everything about the conversation they had at the time, the reason they abandoned me, and how the teacher brought me up. I know."
Nana talks pale. There is no appearance of lying. But that was something I would never want to know if I was in that position.
I thought I was a reincarnator about Nana. But I knew it wasn't. Feel detached from me. I don't remember a single conversation before I was five. I've never remembered being a reincarnator since I was zero.
... Maybe this isn't about Nana being a reincarnator, she really just remembers everything since she was a baby, that kind of idiosyncratic.
I am a reincarnator. So based on that, I was thinking about everything because I feared that others might also be reincarnators. But if a reincarnated person with memories of a previous life lived in another world, like me and Lili, exists in this world, there's nothing strange about having a human being with memories from his infancy. Compared to the reincarnated, that was more about realistic.
"By the way, my fruit parents are not your boys... are they, uh, sheds? You're with that kid, aren't you? I'm the girl's sister. So I also know about the hidden room in the mansion that I saw when I was a baby... uh, I don't care about this. Put it away."
They told me it was kind of gossip, but that's a hell of a fact, and I had half a laugh.
Speaking of which, Shed was rather suspicious that Nana knew about the mansion's tricks. If Nana was dumped by her parents when she was zero, Shed wouldn't be surprised if she didn't even know she had a sister. Not to mention, you can't even imagine that abandoned sister visited the mansion and solved the mansion trick with her infant memory.
Oh, is Nana and I related on blood to Shed and her sister? In the first place, Nana doesn't seem to have much of a sense of sisterhood with Shed, either, and she doesn't seem to care about the blood of a house abandoned at age zero.
"Born that way, this world has always been hell for me. That's why I've lived all my life trying to make people happy to go to heaven."
I kind of figured it out. Nana's reason for perseverance in heaven. I'm sure that was Nana's place of despair at a young age.
If I made it right after I was born with such a tragic experience, people would be incredible. This world is hell. I'm not surprised to think so. But then it's hard to live, so my goal is to go to heaven. Sadly self-defense.
Nana was liked by everyone in town. I never doubted that Nana was a good girl. But now I think it was because Nana was desperately trying to be a good girl and make people even happy. I want to be happier than anyone else.
"It's me, I owe the Virgin. That's why I thought I had to return my happiness. If I don't, I can't go to heaven. That's why I thought for my sake I'd be in trouble if the Virgin died before I could repay her."
Nana mocked herself with an adult face.
Selfish. Maybe so if you try from Lili. Nana didn't want Lili to die just for herself.
But thanks to Nana, Lili didn't end up dead. It solved my misunderstanding. At least I think I'm happier than dying remembering the excessive sense of sin as it is.
Whatever Nana's will, she didn't act wrong herself. If the results were good, everything would be good.
Or if it's ego pushing me to be happy, I did it to Lili, and I don't think I was wrong about it at all, so I think Nana should live as fat as I am.
"This is my circumstance and why. So it may be inevitable that I went to that mansion to say that I would be in trouble if the Virgin died."
Listen to it all. I thought it was certainly a fateful but inevitable story, and by chance inevitably difficult to judge.
Let's wrap it up from Nana's perspective.
Nana, who wants to help Lili, inevitably chases after her because Lili was accidentally kidnapped in front of her own eyes. Then, by chance, it's what the Mansion knows, and inevitably, it unties the mansion and goes inside. And Lili ran away while she was trying to kill herself, and she inevitably helped.
After that, Nana went a little crazy, but now that I know what happened to Nana and why, I think about it, Nana was probably exhausted at that time. Come on, about the same as Lili. To live.
Nana must have even helped a lot of people as a nun before. But then it's almost just Nana's delusion of self-defense that she can go to heaven. In other words, it doesn't pay off. Then Nana won't even get through self-defense no matter how hard she tries, and in the end, she can't go to heaven and only have a desperate choice between living or dying in the world of hell.
But there is salvation.
"... Nana still thinks this world is hell?
"Yeah. I don't think so."
I was heartily relieved by the prompt response that came back.
When I went back to the mansion room with Lili, Nana was taking off her monastic clothes and looking happy. He smiled cloudlessly while saying he couldn't go to heaven. I don't know what happened, but maybe Nora gave me a good influence because of the circumstances then.
I had no choice, so the next time I saw her, I thought I'd give Nora some bread. I wonder what it's like to luxury bread to a neighboring prince. But I think Nora would love it.
"Who's Elle, isn't Nana?
I ended by asking a clear question.
To sum up, all Nana can know is that she saw and heard it at an early age. Then the prophecy will not come true. Nana can't be a prophet.
"Yeah, I'm not. I hate people like that."
Nana, who says so, had a gentle smile on her face instead of words. It's kind of like a tundra because of the way I put it, and I almost opened a new door.
Nana knows about Elle, and I'm sure that's why she heard Elle when she was a baby. No one would think that a baby would grow up remembering all the memories of that time, and they would talk out of their mind that it would be no problem to be asked if they were a baby who didn't know what that meant. Then the most suspicious thing is that Mr. Jack is in a close relationship with Nana... well, I don't know where he is yet.
If Nana isn't Elle, I'm not even willing to ask Nana why she knows Elle and who Elle is. 'Cause I don't want to today, but they're going to know who Elle is. If you're not Nana, that's fine.
"By the way, Nana, I think you've grown up all at once."
"Yeah! Because I, am alive!
As for the reply, it was obscure, but I smiled at Nana, who was laughing very happily, and I assumed that it must have a happy meaning to it.
"Ah!"
Suddenly Nana jumped on her shoulders and stood up like she remembered something. Nana's two three braids fluttered and swayed.
"Oh my God! It's time to pick you up!
"Welcome…?
"Yeah! Welcome! We have to hurry! I'm sorry, but the rest of the conversation is about the next time!
When Nana drinks up the remaining juice on her desk at once, she checks to see if she has forgotten anything and speaks softly and restlessly.
Speaking of which, I got the first time after being restricted to less than an hour. But welcome...? I wonder if Mr. Jack will give us a ride to the next town in a carriage?
"See you later, Phee!
Nana waved her hand once and immediately turned back.
Somehow, I know I'm exaggerating, but I felt like dropping off an angel going up to heaven, and I dropped off her lightly rushing back.
During the run, the rubber on Nana's hair, which was tying her three braids, cuts one way. Nana stopped for a moment, surprised by it, then leaked a laugh and also took the rubber from her other hair and ran out again. Every time I take a step forward, three knitting stirs in the wind and unravels and dances.
Looking at the fluffy, sprawling loose curls, I thought sincerely as I immersed myself in sentiment that you were an angel.
And the moment she stopped - the person there noticed someone - I screamed and couldn't shut up and drop her off.
"Nora and Zero?! Oh, why welcome Nana, huh?! What do you mean?
But that's another story.