Life, Once Again!

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I opened my eyes because my eyes were tingling. Sunlight was coming in through the window on the pension terrace. I woke up, rubbing Suyeon's eyes. I didn't realize it was a sofa, not a bed.

“What the hell.”

I remember spending time drinking soju with root water yesterday. I was confident in the amount of alcohol, so I tried to drink it until my root water was drunk, but it seemed to have fallen out first. Turning your head, you see a small bottle tidying up in front of the trash can. It looks like there's only one root canal left.

“Ha. He's a tough one. ”

Alcohol makes you feel rational. Suyeon had never seen a man pushing a woman close to her before. Of course, I didn't want to have roots that way. I wanted to maintain a more spiritual relationship with root water. I was also thinking about getting married. The more I looked at him, the more he was a man of true nationality. I plan to approach it slowly as if I were in a romantic relationship because it is too bad to end in a business relationship.

“Love.”

Suyeon hugged her legs and laughed. Exciting love ended in freshman year of university. with expectations. She fell in love with a senior who was obsessed with her work, and Su-yeon thought that her love was immortal.

The first sex at the hotel was intense pain, but the man was delighted, and the man's joy was Su-yeon's happiness. Since then, sex has become a symbol of dating. I always rolled around on the bed on a date. Su-yeon wanted to make different memories, but the man always asked for sex first. He also followed Suyeon who believed it to be a form of love. The number of meetings was decreasing. From one moment, when the man called me, I took off my clothes, held him, and then went to the breakup stage.

Until then, I believed that Su-yeon is love. I was told that I was going to stay in a relationship for half a year. Texts. Texts to stop seeing each other, I guess.

I didn't usually believe it was depression. No, I laughed. It was absurd for an adult to lose control of his or her emotions. But the day she received the text, Su-yeon realized how foolish she was. Suyeon sat stunned in bed all day, as if she were drowning in a deep swamp of despair that could not escape. And I thought, "This is how people die."

I had to wake up and go back to school. Thankfully, I did not meet him. I heard he took a leave of absence. It was when I was getting used to everyday life and having a hard time getting rid of the memory of the man.

A friend who always listened to me asked me out on a jealous date. He was very cautious and embarrassed. After three stammers of asking me to watch the movie together, he was nervous enough to finish it. I didn't see the relaxation of that famous senior in his appearance. Like an adventurer taking his first steps into the unknown world, Suyeon felt love again in the face of her friend who was smeared with excitement and fear.

The second relationship that started was not as fast as before. It was smooth and soft. Unlike the senior who held hands on the first date, he was ashamed to even walk beside him. Su-yeon was relieved. It was a moment when she realized that not everyone was like her. When we met for about a month, Su-yeon reached out her hand first and grabbed his friend's hand. It was only a month until I mixed up with my boss, but it took me a month to hold hands with him. Su-yeon held her hand tighter because she was so cute when she first held her hand.

I felt that love that I thought would never lift my head again was crushed. I felt light in my depressed heart. I was energetic in my life and the time to wait for him became more and more enjoyable. I went on a winter vacation with him in first grade. Su-yeon lightly accepted his offer to see the winter sea. Delusional seawater pools that arrive by train. In the desert sand, there were occasionally lovers who looked like lovers. I walked on it holding hands. Su-yeon was intuitive at that moment. I'm going to sleep with this guy tonight.

The forecast did not fail. There was only one room, but I felt at ease. I never thought I'd be thrown out. That's how I had my first sex. And Su-yeon could see her friend making a hollow smile.

- Isn't this your first time?

The unpleasantness wrapped around my body. My friend who had been looking at me with good eyes all this time looked at me like I was looking at dirty things. He had violent sex afterwards. Suyeon swallowed screams. Horrible emotions rush into my body. I lie down next to him, huffling and tired.

- Yeah. Did you like it? How was it? Mine.

As soon as she heard that, Su-yeon realized. It wasn't considerate of me that he was so careful. You just weren't confident in yourself. At dawn, he climbed back up again and waved his waist. He continued to ask me if I was satisfied with my mouth.

Suyeon stared blankly at the ceiling until the moment the morning came. Then I woke up to the sound of snoring next to him and came up to Seoul. I got a call from my phone but didn't answer it After the winter break, I became a sophomore.

When I went to school, the first sound I heard was' Kim Su-yeon is a mop. 'The source of the rumors was easy to find. He told his comrades very proudly, "I fucked her." Like a hero who won the war.

Suyeon was afraid to go to school. In the meantime, there were men who approached me asking if I was okay. They were kids who didn't usually talk to me once. Their gaze was blatantly sweeping through their chests and legs.

Some of my friends were really worried, but it didn't help their comfort. It felt like the vessel containing emotion had been broken and disappeared. I felt like I was going to become a doll that only breathes when I became more and more dull.

It was when I was in such despair. I stumbled upon him. He said with a clear face, “Hi.” I said hello. There was a woman standing beside him who didn't know her name.

The greeting struck Suyeon's head strongly. I wasn't shocked. It was an epiphany. Surprisingly, the purple breast suddenly turned clear blue. I felt open and breathtaking.

I kindly ran up to the man walking with arms crossed and kissed him on the lips. The woman next to him screams in horror, and he starts explaining in panic.

Seeing that, Su-yeon smiled.

It was like that.

It was like that between men and women.

A very simple game.

The desired side loses. Longing is defeated. You can give it all, but you can't satisfy the target. Close enough to make me yearn for more.

Behavioral changes in thinking shifts. Su-yeon has been free ever since. I made love to my heart's content without flirting. In return for giving me the unknown satisfaction of love, I took a real advantage.

It was win-win with each other, because a man wanted a body full of love.

Then there was a man who said not to live like that and not to live like that for you. Su-yeon was tempted by that for a moment. I thought it might be okay for this person to put themselves in charge again.

The result?

It was a relationship that withered after bedtime. No matter how much this side made love, no answer came back. Before sex, the man who spoke rationally in such a scholarly manner turned into a nuisance after sex. I was tired of what he said just before the relationship ended.

Su-yeon smiled. Maybe he knew about it. Who was it that said he'd take care of you? I praised you that if you truly love someone, you won't see any fault...

At that moment, Suyeon thought:

Yeah, I'm the whole cause and I'm the fucking bitch.

There were no scars. There were no scars all over the chest that needed to be engraved. Su-yeon thought it was better. The scar that covered the fragile woman. Suyeon comforted herself that she had obtained armor. Armor that no one can hurt anymore.

After that, I did not use my body lightly. I lived quietly. I lived like a nun until the rumors were buried and gone. The amount of space gained from two holidays. That time erased the rumors. Suyeon became a somewhat sophisticated woman. I could be more obscene than anyone else to be obscene, but I hid my appearance thoroughly.

When the rumors faded, Su-yeon fell in love again.

A love that doesn't give love. After three relationships, Suyeon realized that the woman's body is the last burial. Even at the moment when a man died of affection and affection, he did not give up the name of sex. Sex is the perfect bargaining chip and double-edged sword. After wearing it, I realized that it was a worthless woman's body that came back.

I used it clearly when using it instead. Taking away his soul.

When she graduated from college, Suyeon had already become quite an actor in the industry. At the same time, I did a dramatic debut. One year later, it was filmed until the mini-series.

Effort and bargaining.

Two were used appropriately.

“Men are all the same. ”

You mutter low and pull your right foot under the sofa. Something soft was stepped on. I was furious, put my foot back on the couch and looked at the floor.

“I don't have any hobbies. ”

The rookie was lying under the couch. Like a caterpillar, you don't need two sheets.

“Why, why here. ”

“I was sleeping. ”

The rookie stands up scratching his head and turns the blanket. Su-yeon had never lost her composure at any moment, but now she stared at him dazed without saying anything.

“If you're awake, take care of your duvet. ”

It was the root of yawning and going up to the second floor. At the same time, a horn-rimmed writer descends from the second floor. The horn-rimmed writer glances at Suyeon as if it's absurd and goes to the living room. The horn-rimmed writer, with his cereal in his mouth, looks again.

“Why!”

“Don't you know? By that age, you should be able to take care of yourself. ”

He's right. I can't argue with that. Suyeon got up tightly and straightened up the blanket.

“You got it?"

“Apologize to the boss when you're done. ”

“…… Yes? ”

“Don't you remember? It's quite cold at dawn, so I've been lying here and trying to wake you up. But you wouldn't budge. So the rookie tried to send you up to the second floor himself. And then you woke up, and you slapped me on the back of the cheek, and you sweared. Don't touch yourself. And he's stuck in that corner next to the fridge. You don't remember any of this? ”

“ ……. ”

“The rookie hits you everywhere and puts you back on the couch. ”

You hear the sound of a small tongue kick.

“If you're not a child, take the lead. It's none of my business what happened to you. But don't worry. It's okay to yell at someone because you're sick, honestly. ”

Suyeon shot the horn-rimmed writer and went up to the second floor. Before climbing the stairs, say to the writer, “I'm sorry.” I said.

Upstairs, I can see the rookie coming out of his room. Suyeon found a sharp cut on her radius cheek. I looked down at my hand just in case. The red nail polish was peeled off.

“I'm sorry. I heard you got hurt at dawn because of me. ”

“This? It's a bit painful, but it doesn't look like it's going to scar, so don't worry about it. ”

“I'm sorry, really. ”

“If you're sorry, go down and prepare lunch. I'll give it to you as soon as you and the teacher get back on the floor. ”

Su-yeon looked at the watch. It was 11 o'clock. I passed by with my face full of roots.

“Hey, let me know if you need anything later. I feel like I owe you.”

“Sure."

The roots, which were slowly going down the stairs, suddenly stopped.

“Oh dear.”

The roots turn their heads. Su-yeon received that look in front of her.

“Have you ever cried out loud? ”

It was a sudden question. Su-yeon unconsciously shakes her head. I've never cried because even when I was betrayed, I was so overwhelmed by self-immolation. After that, I did not cry because I had no reason to cry.

“I'll give you a sad movie list later, so you can cry while you watch it. ”

It was the root of going down to the first floor with a smile. That's when I remembered yesterday. The wretched look of him holding his knee by the refrigerator and beating himself to death.

“What's the difference if you cry? More miserable.”

It came out of nowhere. The roots replied:

“If you forget how to cry, it won't be miserable enough. Well, you'll take care of yourself. ”

It was the root to end the conversation lightly. Suyeon felt a convulsion under her eyes. It's been a long time since I've had compassion from a man. It became a strange joy. I feel like I'm smiling at my old bad self when I look at the album.

“Then let's watch a movie together. ”

“I don't want to.”

“Why?”

“The crying woman is invincible. She said she has a pretty smile. So I don't go anywhere near a crying woman. ”

He smiled brightly and disappeared from the stairs. Suyeon quickly went down the stairs feeling a surge. I wasn't strangely offended.

"Did you go out with the teacher?"

"I went out at dawn, around 6: 00."

"Where are you so early?"

Then the rookie looked at the front door and said.

"A little harsh."

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Knock, knock, and the floor opens. The door opens slightly, and a crowd walks in.

"It's time to go. Are you sure?"

Flooring checked the time with her phone. It was 5: 50 a.m.

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