Life, Once Again!

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The man folds his hands several times and promotes his suspense to the audience. People died in the presence of a different audience than before.

“That's a terrible thing to say, but you need this at a time like this. Our night is very long. So relax. ”

As the calm voice of the lecture spread, the people who were near the stage gradually retreated. The subtle tension spreads low across the floor, and people breathe cautiously and keep an eye on the man.

The floor shifts to a spot where the man's face is in front of him and sits on the floor. Some of the people who were watching next to him began to crouch. The night breeze was quite cold, but it didn't shiver, whether it was because of the stove or because it was still playing my role.

“I……. ”

The man who took the first word with difficulty sighed and then nodded his head.

“I wanted to be an actor. ”

Until I said that, my eyes told me how much the man was worried and hesitant.

“I wanted to be an actor, which sounds like I'm not an actor anymore. ”

I asked with a bad voice. The man opened his mouth once, looking up at the distant sky beyond the audience.

I said, "Half an actor. No, I'm confused as to whether I was an actor. Oh, it's an honor to meet you before we talk. I've seen a lot of plays. ”

The man shakes his head slightly as he looks at his hand.

“I'm a doctor. He's a stonemason, but he's a very good listener, and he has no talent whatsoever. ”

“Oh, yes. Okay, that's a lot of excuses. ”

A little mouth settled on the man's lips. He tried to look straight at the audience with his face neatened, but his gaze dropped to the ground as if it were not as easy as his heart. The shoes of the audience. It looks like that's the Maginot line for him to look at without any tension.

“How old do I look? ”

The man slowly raises his hand and asks.

“There's only a wall in front of it, but it's talking strangely now. ”

In the words of the lecture, people smiled slightly and gave their opinion.

“Thirty-seven? ”

“Forty-two? ”

“Thirty-three when you break your expectations? ”

The man who was listening quietly said, "Forty-one.” I said. I applauded the audience of Kanghwan.

“I was a little tense just coming up, but I'm okay now. Maybe it's because they don't have cameras. ”

He was a man who spoke with his lips as if talking to himself.

“How old do you think the forty-one is? ”

After a brief gap, one of the audience opened his mouth. It was a man who appeared to be about the same age as the man he was speaking to.

“I think I'm the age to take care of my family. ”

The man said, looking at the little boy holding him. It was a girl who was dozing off.

“Age to take responsibility for your face! ”

A man who looked like a college student said.

“The age of having to see small and big results in what you do. ”

A middle-aged woman wearing a hoppy scarf said. The watch on the wrist looked very valuable.

Most of them nodded their heads to see if the audience was sympathetic. I thought the floor was similar. Forty. I feel different from thirty.

The man sitting in front of the audience nodded a few times.

“Yes, you're absolutely right. You're responsible for your face, you're responsible for your family, you're responsible for what you do. Forty years old, I would call myself responsible. Responsibility, which is a really hard thing to say to me, which is strange and scary on the one hand. ”

The man clasped his hands and placed them on his knees was only a horse after he had swallowed hard.

“I have no family to protect. Of course, they're all alive. The family I'm talking about is the family that I'm the head of. I got married at 27. I was doing a lot of things at the time. I work in a gas station, I work in a restaurant, I work on a construction site on the weekends through someone I know. I paid half my rent, paid my living expenses, and went to acting school with the rest of my money. My wife, she had a lot of trouble at the time. Yeah, because I've been shooting outside in my wildest dreams, having a bachelor's degree in stable work. ”

The man swept his face with his palm and said, "This is so embarrassing. His flushed face was red, while his pale lips represented the man's feelings.

“She was a wise woman. I was foolish and greedy, so I said I wanted a child first, but my smart wife said now is not the time to have one. Now, if you think about it, my wife might have been able to understand the human nature of who I am after marriage. ”

Even the small talk that I heard disappeared.

10: 32. Even though it was late, people didn't leave. Rather, they were coming.

The silence created by the crowd was an excellent way of promoting the attention of people.

“My wife worked for a pretty good company. Now I'm just wondering why my wife married someone like me. Maybe because I was young, that crazy sparkle looked beautiful. About a year after I got married, I continued to save up my money in part-time jobs without a decent job, and I was continuing the same life as a student. When I came home, I would eat my wife's food, and I would talk about this ridiculous story, and I would fall asleep watching the drama with her. And again a year later, She quietly brought up the divorce. ”

The man scratches his head with a smile, his fist clenched with a distorted look. A scream that could not be leaked out pierces his collar.

“That's when I took the stamp out of my pocket. in my pocket. I didn't put it anywhere else. I always carry it with me. Easy stamp, quiet divorce period, we're somebody else. There was no grief, no grief. I don't even deserve to feel that way. Looking at an empty house, I could only understand why I carry a stamp all the time. I was always getting ready to run. From the wife who comforts me with warm meals every day, from the wife who cheers me on that I'm always okay. Guilt stunned me, and I felt sorry for her. ”

The man controlled his emotions with a trembling breath.

The floor frowned, listening to the man's story. I'm not grimacing because he's ugly.

Weird. I felt like I'd seen this before. If I had any memories of my previous life, I wouldn't have cared so much. The problem is that the dreadful déjà vu is overlapping in the head.

A man in a red jumper talking, a man in a suit enjoying his life, and standing in front of him holding hands with a loving woman.

The floor grips its teeth and squeezes its temples tightly. I was dizzy enough to feel dizzy. I put my hands on the ground and lowered my head. A man with various expressions, a man in various clothes, and a man in various situations, were angry and bludgeoned into the belly of memory without pity.

I scratched the asphalt with my fingernails and broke my nails. When I heard the sound of severe pain, I asked the person next to me if he was okay.

“Oh, yeah. ”

I stumbled out of the audience after only one word, suppressing the pain. I got out of the basket and took a deep breath. As the cold air fills your lungs, the pain disappears like a lie.

Traces of intense memory remain, so the floor is only confused. I put my hands inside my clothes and touched my back. In that short period of time, the t-shirt was sweaty and cold.

‘Is this another kind of memory confusion? Rebirth effects, I can't complain anywhere. ’

The dezavu, which made the mind go crazy, seemed like a memorable mistake. But just in case... Maru decided to go to Seoul University Hospital next week. It may not be a mystical side effect, but it could really cause a head injury. You could have a head wound or a clot you don't even know about.

I tried jumping into position lightly. There seemed to be nothing wrong with the sense of equilibrium. The floor went back into the audience with a false laugh.

In the man's hand was a handkerchief. It was a beautiful handkerchief that cannot be thought of as belonging to a man. The man who wiped his eyes with a handkerchief said to the woman in front of him, sorry. He looks like the owner of a handkerchief.

"My life hasn't changed since I broke up with my wife. I still wanted to be an actor. As time went by, it became more and more bizarre. out of that sense of responsibility. And I got thirty. In the meantime, I've done a lot of extra work, and in some dramas, I've done a line. I was fortunate to be in the film, and I did drama with someone I knew there. I was happy, because when I was 20 years old, I thought my dream of being an actor had finally come true. But that was it. Dedication, Dedication and Dedication. because there are so many actors out there, so many more handsome, so many more characteristic, so many more."

He was a man who made a self-absorbed smile.

Hearing the sound of that smile, the floor felt strangely like stabbing my head again. If I had seen it somewhere, I would have just understood it, but the video in my head was pretty specific about the man in front of me and the other part of the man in my mind.

This is what déjà vu is all about. The floor closes its eyes slightly and opens. A man in a blurry suit overlaps over a man in a shabby suit and disappears. Like in a movie. I closed my eyes again. And fortunately, when I opened my eyes, I saw a man in real life.

At the same time, the strangeness that was sticking together disappeared as if it had been washed away. Only one whole reality was engraved into my eyes and my brain accepted it.

'Oh my.'

Flooring wanted to explain the situation to her and get some answers.

To a woman who looks like she doesn't belong in this world.

To the woman who said she was an angel or an angel or an angel of death, or something like that.

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I'm going to eat and write again.

I'll see you tonight.

The dinner menu is Odeng Tang.

I don't think fishing soup tastes good.

-_-...

If I had a hot soup and had a drink and sat at my desk again, this cold would go away a little bit.

Enjoy your meal, and I'll see you tonight.