Life, Once Again!

“That's fresh. I didn't even think you were coming in at this hour. ”

“I'm sorry. ”

“You don't have to apologize. It's annoying, but what can I do? I can't see your face if it's not like this. Now, sit down. ”

Joon-min sat down with a friend to guide her.

“If you just came to a woman's house by yourself, there must be a good reason. ”

Joon-min nods as she receives the car from her friend.

“I was wondering if I could talk to you. ”

He looked at the cup and said, A friend leaning against the chair said quietly.

“As a friend or a psychiatrist? ”

“If at all possible, the latter. ”

“Are you sure you can't sleep like that again? ”

A friend narrows his eyes and asks. Joon-min shakes her head.

“I slept less because something happened, but I've never been sleepy. ”

“That's a relief. ”

Like that, Joon-min remembered 16 years ago. April 23, 1989, to be exact. After hearing the news of Hae's death, I couldn't sleep for a while. The tearing noise of Claxon, the friction of the tires, and the burning smell of rubber make him dizzy. Even though I hadn't seen the accident scene, I could vividly recall the moment of the accident as if I had seen it before. The dreadful vomiting followed, and the night became a time to stick to the toilet and stretch, not sleep.

It's not bad for me to want to die like this. I had the help of this friend as I turned into him. Symptoms improved with concomitant medication with psychotherapy, and I was able to return to my daily routine as if when. After that, he ran without rest and came up here.

“You look nervous. Drink the tea first. I'm not giving you warm tea for no reason when you're in therapy. There are times when something divine touches something profound. Warming up will give you some relief. ”

“You can't ignore a doctor's recommendation. ”

Joon-min drank tea first. I feel better now that I'm warm like she said. Her home landscape is a little lively. I haven't been back here in a year or so, but nothing has changed.

“You usually have to sweep from the outside, but I'll start with what's wrong because you don't like it. ”

“I saw something strange. It's a sight you'll never see. I can hear them.”

“Is it temporary? Or did it happen again and again? ”

“I've never seen anything like it. ”

“You're not weak, right? ”

Jun-min looks at his friend. Your friend shrugs.

“There are many causes of hallucinations and hallucinations. It could be psychological, it could be neurological. It could be a problem with elevated brain pressure. In your case, it doesn't take one or two. It's not unusual that something like that happens when you're over 50. In addition, mental illnesses that have proven to be cured in the past can sometimes worsen decades after prognosis. ”

“I see.”

“What was it like when you went through that? Did you have a panic attack like that? ”

“No, it wasn't like that. I was confused.”

“Breathing?”

“It wasn't that hard. ”

“Personally, I think you should get a psych evaluation as well as a physical examination. Your body is honest.You 're sending a signal like that because there's something wrong. Do you smoke these days? ”

“I can't hang up. ”

“I'm not saying I should quit. There's nothing definitively proven except mechanical relationships, but it's clearly not healthy. Stop talking nonsense and take it seriously. Next time, it might not be enough to knock on someone's door at night. I mean, it's late after the ambulance. No, you don't have anybody to call an ambulance. I'm not even married. ”

“Isn't that something a married man should say? ”

His friend raises his cup of tea and smiles lightly. I couldn't see the ring on the thin finger.

“Seems okay to me right now, but nobody knows inside. Don't ignore me. Get checked out. There's only so much counseling can do. Relieving your mind is often more of a potion than a therapist would say. ”

The friend who told me that sighs deeply.

“Enough of your nagging. I think you have more to say. Keep going. It reminds me of the old day.I used to come here after therapy and complain. ”

“Having Bibil Hill is a good thing. ”

“Do you know what your company people look like? I heard they say he's a very strong man. ”

“Maybe people want to see it that way. ”

“Why are there so many stubborn people around me? So are you. So are you. ”

“What's with the night poop again? ”

“Don't you think you're as generous as the trees you give me? If you come to me and complain about something that's hard, do you think I'll be comfortable? Do you know which occupation group is the highest percentage of psychiatric therapists? He's the same psychiatrist. Seriously, I want you to go to church and confess. ”

“I'm sorry about that. ”

“Don't apologize so soon. I look like a bitch. I have no manners like this. ”

A friend with a small, puffy smile leans forward.

“Tell me. I know better than anyone that I'm afraid of pathology. ”

“For a moment, I felt so unfamiliar with myself. I felt like I had been given what I had been given. ”

“This certification also has a variety of causes and symptoms. Many come after severe trauma, but none like you. You've never been in an accident without me, have you? ”

“Nothing.”

“Any paralysis? ”

“I didn't.”

“Did everything seem unrealistic? That hallucination I was telling you about, it seems so surreal and distant. ”

“That was weird. Apart from what I felt strange about myself, the visions I was seeing were so familiar. ”

“Aren't they memorable? dramas, movies, books, that I've seen before. ”

“No, I promise you, it's the first time I've seen it. ”

“I've never seen anything like it. Are you familiar with it? ”

Joon-min nods.

“It's important to know how real it was, but it was normal, and it wasn't unrealistic, and I was used to it. There's only one answer. Let's get it checked out. ”

“That's the conclusion. ”

“Isn't that obvious? Why do we need medical equipment if we can get a complete picture of the symptoms? We have to dig into what we can't see with the machine. ”

A friend stands up.

“Go to sleep. ”

“So far.... ”

As I try to get up, my friend's hand presses against his shoulder. Joon-min raised her head. I can see the face of my friend looking worried.

“Your face is so ugly. If I let it go like this, I'm worried that I won't be able to sleep. ”

“I'm sorry you're such a bad friend. ”

“You know that now? ”

When my friend returns home with a cup of tea, his hand is bottled with wine.

“Drinking to a presumed patient? I think someone told me to quit smoking a while ago. It's like drinking, isn't it? ”

“It upsets me to hear that from you who don't listen to the doctors. Here, have a drink. It's been a long time since I've been here. It's too bad for you like this. ”

I'm smiling at the cup, and my friend is sitting right next to me. Seeing her clinging to herself, Joon was forced to just smile.

“You really don't want to get married. ”

“Not a day or two. Live and die of old age. ”

“What about me? ”

He was a friend leaning against his shoulder. Joon-min drank without saying anything.

“Is it true about the 49 women? ”

“Better than a man over fifty. ”

“You've always known my heart, haven't you? ”

“I know. ”

“He's a bad man. ”

“I'm sorry.”

“Please tell me, is she still in your heart? ”

Joon-min replied with a lonely smile. The face of my friend who I expected is getting closer.

“I'll take care of the medical bills. ”

My lips touched the ball slightly and fell off. Joon-min looked at her friend.

“What, were you expecting this? ”

Karr laughs as she fingers her lips and says,

“By the way, the one who came to introduce you last time. ”

“One drink?”

“Yeah. Did you hear the story? ”

“After a thorough examination, I've only heard that there's nothing wrong. ”

“I have a duty of secrecy, but I'll tell you a little bit. I'm a social father. He said the same thing to you. ”

“Something like me? ”

“This certification, the sense of strangeness about yourself, was pale, but the landscape changed just like yours. It was remarkably similar, even though I'd never seen it before, but I was too familiar with it. Of course, changing the landscape is a distinct symptom of certification, but it's strange that two appear at the same time. I know your company's environmental factors are causing these symptoms, but he's not going to work or anything, is he? ”

“There's no way. ”

“There's no contact, nothing similar, but there's a very unusual overlap. Funny thing is, even with the tests, there were no trauma or mental problems. Maybe you can, too. ”

“That's a coincidence. ”

“It may take a little bit of a coincidence, but there's nothing more to say as a doctor since it was normal. ”

She yawns small.

“I don't mean to say this to a patient, but can I have some counseling? ”

“If you're listening to me, I think I can do it. ”

“Then just listen. This is my session. What am I supposed to do if some jerk comes to my house and shakes my heart? ”

“It's best to keep her sober and asleep. ”

“He's a real jerk. ”

Jun-min had to say she was sorry all the time.

* * *

“Be careful. ”

“I'm sorry. I tried to watch it with you, but I fainted. ”

“You must be tired. Don't worry about the important stuff, we'll catch up later. And dairy stones. You should go to E.N.T. ”

You cleared the living room after sending in a large group of people. 10: 11. Video stops halfway through It was the part where Joo-hyun yelled at Jun-min. It could be sensitive, so it didn't happen when the children woke up in the middle.

“Are your brothers gone? ”

“Gone. Noisy, huh? ”

“Not really. You want to see more of that? ”

“Let's finish this. ”

The sea nods and goes back into the room.

The floor resurfaced the screen. When I went to the coffee shop to meet Jincheol before, I met Jung there. I listened to the history of the Middle East and the Minutes that day and received a videotape. As he said, Jun-min did not have a good relationship with the members of the theater, but his relationship was improving over time. However, Joo-hyun seems to dislike that person. Maybe it was more because he cared about doing it.

- You don't think she's talented, do you? You lied about what you said in the first place? Is that why you're talking like you're giving up?

Excited Joo-hyun stood in front of Jun-min. The camera captures her face. He looked at Joohyun who was pouting and surprised, and the back of Joon-min was in the angle.

Jun-min, who was silent after a while, said.

- I can do better. You don't have to say it because it's so natural. Making sure you're talented, believing you can do better, what does it matter? The reason we need to believe is because we do not believe. I don't believe it, so I keep trying to find out. All I have to do is help you become an excellent actress, not give you faith.

When Joon-min finished speaking, Joo-hyun who was standing in front of him made a complicated face. Immediately after that, Joohyun ran past the camera.

- Joo-hyun!

Hae followed me calling Joohyun.

The video ended there, illuminating the stage with no one for a while. Hmm, the floor turned on the next videotape. As soon as it started, it was a dinner scene. People baking shovels in frying pans. And I see Joo-hyun smiling beautifully, and Joon-min who is sitting next to him to deliver the meat.

“Looks like it's settled. ”

The floor watched the screen with a smile.