Life, Once Again!

“May I show you around the window? ”

Looking at the employee's sister smiling, Yuna nodded her head. I scraped my shoes on a stubborn platform and went inside. This was originally this big, but Yuna thought she was moving with the staff. The family restaurant was a familiar place for Juna. It's because my mom used to bring me here. When the light or schedule was busy, I always dragged my car around to fix rice at a nearby restaurant, and this was one of them. The decor and staff look familiar, but the atmosphere was strange today. Unlike I always chased after my mom, is it because I'm invited today?

I sat by the window overlooking Suwon Station. Buses exiting Suwon are lengthened with tails, and people are moving along the bus procession. It was a complicated time for people to get involved after they went home for work and entertainment.

“I'm going to eat something expensive. ”

The floor seated said. I was giving my eyes a lot of strength. Yuna pushes the manuals wide and in front of the floor.

“Whatever it takes.”

“Do it for real. ”

“Yes.”

“Then I'll take this. ”

A floor pointing to the corner of the menu panel. I noticed the phrase Special Sale. Chicken steak, price 9900 won. The price was highlighted in red, except for drinks.

“Sunbae, you can eat expensive things. ”

“Then I'll buy something expensive. ”

“No, I'll buy it for you. ”

“I'm sorry, but I don't like eating for no reason. I think the price I heard you say last time is 9900 won. ”

I felt the tenacity of speaking softly but not backing down. Yuna looked at the menu again. The words "special sale" and "no drinks" could not be bothered that much. The floor was polite, and I knew it was because I thought of myself, but I didn't like it. Juna looked at the menu and thought, Why am I offended?

“You're making me very uncomfortable. ”

“It's not uncomfortable, but it's not very comfortable. I'm seeing it for the second time. ”

“That's true. It's only the second time I've seen it, and I think I've been thinking too much about it. Do you want me to go there now? ”

Juna pointed to the kimbap shop outside. Ever since I entered this store, I felt a distance from the floor. I just wanted to have a nice meal and talk. I didn't want to think about the menu, and I didn't want to sit down and look awkward. At that moment, Juna felt like a fool. Why I was so excited about picking clothes and putting on makeup and being nervous about it. Why I brought you to a restaurant like this.

I just wanted to talk.

“What's going on? ”

“Yes?”

“I've been wondering since I asked to see you at this hour. When I met Shiny, it was shiny. I think you want to see me. ”

“Then why did you call? ”

“I tried not to tell you, but I don't think it's time to hide that from your face. You're still worried, aren't you? I don't know if I can help, but I'll tell you a story. They say it calms you down by telling you what's inside. So you don't have to force yourself to buy expensive stuff. It might be better to talk quietly in a cafe or something. Don't strain yourself. I have all the time in the world to listen. ”

As soon as she listened to him, she could see the distance and the identity of the feeling of disguise that had been detected a while ago. He didn't come here to eat. I came to listen to my concerns. I wanted to have a pleasant conversation, and you came here with the mind of a counselor. I had to have a temperature difference in the conversation. I understood how the image of him recommending expensive things reflected on you. The action of choosing a menu while talking about irrelevant surroundings seemed to be hesitant. Maybe that's why you cut it off. Say what you really want to say.

“Sunbae.”

“Huh?"

“I don't have any concerns. ”

I can't feel my voice. I could see the look on his face, sitting across from him. Then why did you want to see me at this hour, the way I asked?

“To eat, to serve. ”

I took out a rattling horse. The meal meant nothing to him. He pointed to Kim Bob's shop and said let's eat lightly. It might have been an suggestion to end the matter of eating quickly and go to a counseling session. In retrospect, he was mistaken. When he told me that he was in Seoul, he said he would reflexively go up. He even said he only had to take the train for an hour and he really wanted to go. It was weird to just look at your face and eat no matter how much time it was past 10: 00. Like you said, we're seeing each other for the second time.

“Are you sure nothing happened? ”

Yuna nods with difficulty. I wanted to break the side window and escape if possible. Or turn back the clock. All I can do is sit around because neither of them were possible.

“Are you really here to buy me food? ”

“Yeah, I'm just trying to get you some food. ”

Yuna felt her head spinning. If silence is found here, it will be difficult to endure. I rolled my head busy looking for something to say.

“And I have something to show you. ”

I barely got it out. The floor that was drinking a sip of water said.

“Show off? ”

“Yes, I actually auditioned. ”

“Really? Congratulations. I guess there's nothing wrong with acting after that. ”

“I felt better when I told her. I paused the compulsory act and thought about it. Do I really want to act? And the answer came right out. I was itchy. I wanted to act bored. ”

Juna grabbed her hands together.

“Like you said, acting was not just fun. In retrospect, it was a lot harder. But I thought it wasn't that hard. I lied to myself that it wasn't hard. Acting is very precious to me, and I thought it was impossible that it was difficult or painful. It's not hard. It's not painful. It made me numb at some point. I was obviously there when I was tired and didn't want to, but I ignored that feeling. I'm telling you right now, it was stupid. ignoring them didn't make them disappear. I talked to my mom a lot after I talked to her. She said it was natural. It's natural that the heart is as big as the heart you like and the heart you feel is also big. It can't all be good. And when he hated it, he also said knowing exactly why he hated it was an important process to become a professional. Now that you've heard that, you can think of something. I knew I wanted to avoid the play, but I clearly knew I liked it more than that. And now that you realize it, the play just got better, right? ”

She said without stopping, as if she had spewed out her last breath. It was because I was afraid that if I was patient, awkward air would squeeze through the gap. When serenity finds you, you will think. The floor senior is here for counseling at all costs. I wouldn't be here if it weren't for counseling. Then, to avoid recalling the conclusion that followed, Yuna opened her mouth forcefully. But apart from what he said, the brain graciously brought the results of the analogy to the center of the brain. You're not the one who's coming to see me in private.

I didn't think it was anything special. It was only one encounter. I held her in my arms at once and wiped my tears, but I thought it was an accident. I didn't fall in love with her for the first time like a drama, but I thought I wanted to buy her food purely in return. And I realized during the conversation that the idea was wrong. It was heartbreaking that he had come here because of kindness and duty. I was disappointed that it wasn't for that little reason just to eat.

I was ashamed of the fragrance on my clothes. I was more ashamed than naked. I was embarrassed to wait while looking at the clock. Even though I was dreaming of Cinderella, I was pathetic enough to deny it. It was the same as the smoke. I dodged without facing him. I had time to look at myself a little more, but I didn't. My face is burning like it's on fire. I felt like a kid who lied.

“That's great. ”

“Yeah, that's great. ”

“Then let's make today my day. As a congratulations, and don't take it too hard. I just listened to you, so don't think about returning the favor. ”

It was the floor talking with a smile. I hated how it looked. I knew it all, but it seemed like someone pretending not to know it on purpose. I knew it wasn't like that, but my emotions fluttered. I feel like such a child. At the same time, I opened my mouth.

“Is it okay if you live and not if I live? Why? I thought you said you weren't close, so you don't like to eat. Don't you think I can do that? ”

“When an adult buys it, it's okay. ”

“I'm only one year old. You're still young. ”

Unlike the idea of being polite, the words were blurry. I can feel the blood vessels running through the temples. My back is burning. I can't figure out what I'm doing. However, his mouth moved steadily. It was a mouth out of control.

“He's young, though. Well, yeah, I'm young, too. I've been thinking a little too much. I'm sorry."

He immediately apologized by scratching his eyebrows. Her boldness stopped her. It became even more apparent. You don't have any personal feelings. Of course it was. Nothing was normal. I'm just being weird.

Let's just go through today with our feelings intact. Yuna has decided to act wisely. Suddenly, it was foolish to let myself out. Acknowledge that you like it and move forward a little the next time you see it. I've decided not to cheat my feelings anymore.

My head cleared up. I can just eat and go back. We can finish by picking up the grumbling and saying thank you again to the senior who came here. He will give up thinking it was a child's brawl. That's what you looked like. Everything was perfect.

“I think you like him. ”

And the words that came out were far from perfect. Like the price of a family restaurant and a kimbap shop.

“Mom.”

When she was surprised, she found out why she was looking for her mom today.

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Anybody seen a shooting star?

I can't see very well at home.

That way, you don't have to step on the stairs and climb to the roof.

I became one with the chair again today.

Ha. Ha. Ha.

I can't get out in front of the fan.

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Referrals, always appreciated.

Coupon, thank you. I write thanks to you.

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