Life, Once Again!

There is still something left in my heart that I heard from you on the floor. Acting can't always be fun. It was like a lighthouse that showed me the way to light up the dark sea.

After the posture of the acting changed, acting is not a pleasant play like you said. Learning was another painful process of learning, and the joy of achieving it became harder to taste. Though the satisfaction was diminished and the smoke itself was frightened, things I hadn't seen at the same time began to come to my attention. It wasn't until I realized that acting was hard that I found myself slow but changing. During the time of the smoke escape, when a difficult moment came, I stopped there. Don't spoil the fun. It was a playful, pain-free prank.

Acting out of play was a continuous struggle, but it also gave me something more rewarding. Yesterday, I felt that I and I of today and I of tomorrow would definitely be different. The joy of taking one step at a time allowed me to take the hard practice. I also feel challenged as I go through the process. The role gives me confidence that I can digest it to a level that I can reasonably understand, even if it is completely difficult.

“Yuna, are you mad at me? ”

Natural PD shakes her head at the words. Until I entered the film, I could no longer find the confidence that I felt alongside my tension and shoulders. I could burn my will if I had any tension left, but now my head has turned white.

Third time already. Natural PD was repeating the same thing. I was afraid to look at PD's face. It would have been better if you had been strictly reprimanded, but the PD was as sorry as it was their fault. Guilt doubles back.

“When I was talking, I was too strong and now I'm too strong. And the snow. It's like you're making that look to show that your character has grown and lived in a difficult environment, but it's too much. It's so sharp all the time. Yoon Ji-ha is a strong kid who goes to school and hangs out with kids despite all the persecution. I don't think being strong makes me angry anywhere. ”

Yuna nods. The verse was true. When analyzing characters, I thought she was a girl like 'Candy', which is a tough environment like PD said, but doesn't cry. A candy with an angry voice is not a candy. Yuna was captivated.

“I'm sorry.”

“Yes?”

A sudden apology raises Yuna's head. Nature was tapping her shoulder.

“I need to teach you better, but I don't have enough. Let's think together and steer clear. There's still a lot of shooting time. You know what I'm saying? ”

“Yes.”

Nature set the stage. Whether the director's apology for stabbing me at an unexpected moment made my head a little clearer. I had something to do.

“Speak freely. Acting is not supposed to be too hard. Not exactly my area of expertise, though. ”

The filmmaker on the set said. Chocolate and encouragement. Yuna thanked me twice in a row. I experienced that I wasn't doing this alone. I felt my legs tremble just by having someone to lead and push me. But I couldn't let go of my heart completely. If the camera spins and the cue sign drops, then we have to fight again alone. I wanted to end it quickly for the considerate staff.

Cho's cue sign came. Yuna entered the smoke consciously. I spread the folded table on one side, put it on the ground, and posted the textbook. He opened his notebook, grabbed a pen and tucked his chin. Immediately, Choreography outside the angle gestured. Pick up the phone. I got a vibrating phone. I opened the folder and put it in my ear. The user doesn't hear the target's sound.

“Uh-huh. Let's go play on the weekend? I'm sorry. I really want to go, but I don't have time. Yeah, yeah. Come with me next time. See you tomorrow. ”

After calculating the speed, I hung up after drawing a virtual conversation in my head. I looked at the phone with a slightly unfinished face, then turned my gaze to the notebook. I wrote down the formulas in the book with a casual expression. The pen scratches at the paper and makes a sound. Juna waits for a quick cut sign. That's as far as I go. I made no mistake this time and did not act too pathetic. I heard a cut when I thought about it.

I stood up with a strangely stiff shoulder pressed into my hand. Would natural PD be satisfied this time? You hear footsteps approaching the set. Soon nature opened its doors. As soon as she saw the slightly distorted purchase, she sensed that she was wrong again. Nature knows that when an actor successfully finishes a cut, she comes running with a smile that is almost cheerful. All four of the people who acted before were able to extinguish the scene with the laughter.

“Better than before, but better. ”

Nature failed to speak. Yuna felt her neck stiffen. My head keeps turning down.

“What about you, Juna? ”

“Yes?”

“Were you satisfied with the performance? ”

When I finished, I thought it would be okay, but when I saw the face of nature, the faith disappeared.

“No.”

“Yeah. All right, let's take a little break and go. Everyone says the first recording is hard. But what's the benefit of recording? Any number of times, you can make a mistake. If we can salvage a piece of the process, that's enough. ”

Nature swept her hair and turned around. Juna set the stage. The steps were heavy.

“Why are my shoulders so saggy? ”

Kanghwan stands before you. I saw soldiers, mummies, and floors behind me.

“I'm sorry, because of me. ”

I didn't know until yesterday that it was so frustrating not to be acting as I intended. I felt like I was going to cry. I'd sniff if I was alone.

“Can't you smoke well? ”

“Yes.”

“Have you done everything you could? ”

“I think I have. ”

“What I've done and what I've done is quite different. You know that, right?”

Yuna nods.

“What should I do? I don't know, maybe I wasn't ready. ”

“I don't know about that. We didn't practice together. Would you like to try it now? I need you to tell me something, too. What's so great about you? You have to help me. ”

He looked behind the lecture and said, Staff's gaze flickers. Everyone in this vast space seems to be looking at themselves. I'm shaking, but I can't wait here. The smoke immediately appeared. I needed an advisory.

After the script, I saw four people in front of me.

“You did this? ”

“Yes.”

“That's not bad. ”

Kanghwan said, Juna glanced at the floor. The person who shocked me for the first time watching the smoke, I thought I could trust his reaction to spreading the razor wire to a new commitment.

“I think I'm okay, too. There's a difference in tastes, but isn't that a level we can keep? ”

Maru says. He pulls his head slightly, as if accepting.

“It's not a bad act. I'll tell you for sure if it wasn't for the ambiance, but this is a really good age for me. It's one of the top kids I've ever taught. You can still feel it in your eyes, right? You showed me a pretty good feeling, Juna. ”

“So you want more than that? ”

Juna looked at nature sitting in front of the monitor. Maybe the director's expectations are too high. Or compared to the high performance that the previous actors showed, it's not enough, so it's OK not to send an autograph. Eventually, it was concluded that the problem was in his own hands. What is the excuse for actors who did not satisfy the eyes of the actor.

When I was thinking about it, nature called me.

“Look at the screen here. ”

I looked at the screen nature pointed to. The scene that I just shot came out. The noise that was heard before the cue sign disappeared at the same time as the cue sign. When the zoom is pulled, the figure grows larger. For a moment, Yuna frowned, admiring that she was shining on the triangulated screen. He was acting really badly on the screen. His gaze was unstable and his movements were slow. The pronunciation was fine, but breathing was intermittent. Unconscious problems were revealed in the video.

“Did I do this? ”

“It's Yuna.”

“Yes?”

“Are you afraid of cameras? ”

“No, it's not. ”

“With this level of basic acting, I wouldn't have picked you. I just saw you acting alone in there, and you were so good that you could see it from afar. Then why was it like this in the set? I thought it was because you were nervous, and I tried to be as gentle as I could, but now that I see it, tension doesn't seem to be an issue. ”

Yuna looked at the screen again. It felt like I was seeing someone else's acting. That's just the beginning of the act, too. I felt like I was getting fluffy. Why is this happening?

“Especially when you get a call. ”

Nature showed me where to pick up the phone. Movement got sloppy from the moment the phone rang. Before that, it was a mess to look good. When I got the call, my pronunciation broke down. I felt like my emotions were barely holding on to me. It was strange. I thought the acting on the set was quite satisfactory, but the acting on the video was hopeless.

“Here's the thing. ”

Then a voice came from behind me. Kanghwan, who was looking at the screen with sharp eyes, pushed the back of the floor.

“It's time to try him. ”

"Me?"

Maru said, Juna was unable to sense what it meant. What do you think the floor is for? Kanghwan and nature spoke in a low voice.

"Shall we go?"

The natural pupils were energized. Looks like we got a good shot. Yuna wanted to ask what was going on, but before leaving any questions, she pushed her back into the set. The film director then walked in with the camera handed over to him on his shoulder.

"Your face doesn't look good. Did you hear any nagging?"

"No, it's not like that."

"Then why did the grass die?"

"I realized I was out of smoke. I saw it on the screen, and it was really bad."

"Don't be so hard on yourself. That's how you learn."

I was thankful, but now it's coming to me bitterly. I moved my mind to see the director's loving smile. Natural PD wouldn't have pushed it away without a plan. The eye was the eye that found a way. Yuna stared out of the open visit. The floor was talking to Kanghwan. I wonder what he's talking about. Then I met my eyes. I waved my hands as if the floor was telling me not to worry.

"Here we go. Standby!"

The loud voice of Cho choreographed hit my ear. Yuna tried to lengthen her sinking confidence from the wells of her mind with her eyes closed, but all she felt was anxiety.

"Reddy!"

Yuna opens her eyes. Let's stay sharp. That was all I could do.

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I woke up at dawn.

Headaches and abdominal pain came at the same time.

Strangely enough, I have enteritis before or after Thanksgiving or Lunar New Year, every two to three years.

It's the tentacles again. I wanted to boil water quickly, eat aspirin, and settle from dawn.

... When I closed my eyes strangely, my symptoms got worse, so I just opened my eyes and stared at myself.

I used to think pain was echoing all over my body, but after a few pain episodes, I realized that the sensation of pain in each area is different.

As I looked at the dawn and felt the pain coming up and down from my body, the morning came, and fortunately, it sank.

When I first got colitis, it was the 100-day departure from the military. I was sweating and vomiting at dawn, and I was twitching, and when I woke up, my senior would tell me to put on a mask and hit me, and I couldn't even go on vacation. Surprisingly, I reported my vacation and left the military, and it was cool at that moment. And I knew then that I had colitis often, but not in a very serious way.

It feels good to have an annual gastroenteritis in the morning.

Hahahaha.

I was like, "If I burst again at dawn today, I might cry."

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Thanksgiving is right around the corner.

Time flies.

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Recommendations, I'm always thankful for them.

Coupon, thank you. I write thanks to you.

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