Life, Once Again!

“There will come a time when you will hesitate. Maybe those moments will come around a lot, and you'll have to choose. There are ways of running or ignoring things without making a choice, but what my mother has experienced is that the choices that she has run away and ignored will someday be placed before you again. Heavier and more embarrassing than ever. Choice is hard. You have to do it because it's hard. Most choices can be solved by worrying, but if you're faced with an option that you can't, spill everything you've ever thought about. Clean your head and ask yourself what you want when you don't think about anything. Just put the circumstances, relationships, rules behind you for a moment and focus purely on what you want. No matter how difficult the choice, you can compress it into one. Of course, I don't want to break the law. ”

That's what my mom said. Autumn sat on the hospital bed and pondered the words. The dizziness that turned the world upside down hit my head, and I felt betrayal or contempt in my stomach. My whole body ran up like I had a severe flu, but my breath was surprisingly cold. Director Park Hoon reminded me of what he said. I recommended you as a friend.

Autumn got up from bed and looked out the window of the room. It was past midnight, but it was still light. The idea of seeing houses with lights on was that it was not too late to visit. Ignoring the fluttering emotions and the rambling words of reason, Autumn held onto her cell phone. What do I want now? I had nothing to think about.

She finds a friend in her address book who can answer the questions. I pressed the call button and waited.

- Uh-huh.

“Let me ask you a question. ”

- What are you so scared of?

“Home address on every floor. You know?”

- Why are you suddenly there?

Hwang returned with a confused voice. If it had been the same, she would have explained the situation calmly and sought help. I was so lucky to be separated from one another, and I was so foolish to tell her that the source of that fortune was one, that I probably found the address comforting, but I couldn't spare her to stop thinking about it. She was the only reckless tendency of a racehorse to just look ahead.

“Answer me, okay? Or don't you know?”

- I don't know.

“That's enough. ”

- Wait, all we need is an address?

“Huh."

- You're not gonna go stabbing him with a knife, are you? I don't want to be a murderer.

“Given the circumstances. ”

- Hae-won will know.

“Thank you.”

- Easy, I don't know what it is.

“Don't tell the floor I'm coming. ”

- That's not fair. Give him time to defend himself. I wouldn't run away with such a temper. And beating a Human in protective gear is better than beating a defenseless Human.

“Okay. Suit yourself. I'm leaving now. ”

I came out wearing a hoodie while walking around the hospital. I told the nurse who was guarding the desk that I was going out for a while and pulled the car out of the hospital parking lot. I got a text when I put my hand on the handle and I was nervously tapping my fingers. I entered the address in the navigation and left the car. It was not far away.

After getting out of the car and checking the apartment lake, I climbed up to the elevator without hesitation. I pressed and waited. With the vibration, she wakes up the brain that stopped while the elevator was moving. I had to think about the first word and then say it.

I stood in front of the porch and placed my hand on the doorbell. After taking the call, I ran all the way here, but strangely, I couldn't feel my fingers. It was 1 cm harder than a few kilometers.

Autumn breathed. I wanted to act rationally You should say hello to your face and go inside and listen to yourself. He must have something to say for himself. What I recommended before the breakup and why I hid it.

I took my hand off the doorbell and knocked twice with my fist. It was easier to slam the door than to press the bell. I took a breath and knocked on the door again. I caught the sound of a sensitive ear grabbing a doorknob. You notice he's standing behind the door. She reflects on the prepared greeting. Let's not get mad. Let's talk calmly.

The door is half open. The sound of the TV came out the front door first, and then his face looked tired. It was a short fall, but I noticed that he was embarrassed and stiffened.

“Still, the door opens smoothly. ”

Instead of a prepared greeting, another word popped out. I was angry when I saw his face. He stands dumbfounded, holding the door hook. I just stared at him like a lost child.

“Open it.”

Kindly taught me the following behaviour: He nods and opens the door. Autumn took off the slippers and went inside. A sheepdog with a thin face protrudes from the kitchen. I twirled my tail as if I didn't have the slightest bit of vigilance.

“You're raising him? ”

“Suddenly, ”

“You said it was a burden on your responsibility to raise a pet. ”

“I grew up with some spare time. ”

“Is that all you've got since you broke up with me? ”

I've decided to ignore the plan to speak nicely. As soon as she crossed the front door, she decided to become a soldier. A soldier who fights fiercely with the enemy in front of him with a live horse, not just a horse commander away from the battlefield.

The floor touched the eyebrows. His old habits were irredeemable. When he had nothing to say when he was struggling, he scratched his eyebrows instead of answering.

“Good. You live in a good place. ”

“I'm living on it. ”

“You look harsh. It's going to be expensive.”

She holds her dog in her arms and opens the veranda door. The cool September night breeze cools her hair. I have regained my reason to let you cook.

“I think Director Park Hoon told me about that look. ”

“There's autumn. ”

“Shh. If you stop me now, I don't even know what I'm going to do, so listen to me now. Jiwon said no cutlery. ”

“No cutlery. Did Ji-Won give you the address of the house? ”

“Hae-won, don't think about saying anything to him. Because I asked you to. ”

“I don't want to say anything. ”

“That's a relief. ”

“How are you feeling? ”

“I haven't brought it up yet, but I keep trying to change the subject. ”

“I have no intention of doing that. But don't you think it's better to choke a little if you want to talk? Of course, if you don't want to, get down on your knees and listen to this story right now. ”

The floor is ready to place one knee on the ground. She sighs. The heat that had risen to the top of his head came down to his neck in the night breeze.

“What do you have to drink? ”

I've decided to retreat to advance Ivo. You put the dog on the ground. The customer jumped to the side of the floor and jumped.

“Barley drinks with alcohol, pimp juice with alcohol, clear water with alcohol, etc. ”

“Just water? ”

“If you want.”

“Beer, please. ”

The floor brought me a can of beer. She took a beer and sat on the couch. There was an empty beer can on the dresser next to the couch. It looked like he was drinking alone.

“Should I kneel down and listen, or should I sit next to you? ”

“I'm comfortable either way. ”

“Kneel down and listen. ”

“Sit next to me. ”

The floor sat next to me. The couch cushion drops slightly under his weight, and her body becomes slightly closer to him.

“Let's start with facts. Is Director Park Hoon telling the truth? Did you recommend me? ”

“More of an introduction than a recommendation. I just told you there was a kid like this. ”

“Yeah? One more thing. The director said they were here to cast you. ”

He flinches as he brings the can to his mouth. It was evidence that he was shaken enough to react with his body to hide his emotions.

“Did you hear that, too? ”

“Yeah, I heard. I understand that you introduced me like you said. We weren't in touch, but we were together. But I just couldn't understand your refusal to cast. Recommend me. No, introduce yourself. ”

“That's the thing. ”

He grins and pouts, but does not speak. She asks the next question.

“Casting, going back to college, no news, that's what I've been saying for a long time. Let's split up, and you're in the army. I was confused at the time, but now I'm confused by the boat. You had your chance. It would have been great if you'd taken that chance because you were good. Then why didn't you? And why did you run off to the army like that? ”

She holds the can in both hands. The cold energy spreads to the palms of your hands.

“It just happened. ”

“Just like that? Isn't it ridiculous what I hear? ”

“I was very young back then. I didn't know what to do. ”

“I was young, and I didn't know what to do. ”

She glances at him with a glancing smile. When he speaks, he always looks into the other person's eyes. Through his eyes she peered into his world, and it would have been the same. Keep your eyes open when you talk. Now he was a camera whose eyes could not find the focus. I look, but I don't see.

“Is it me? ”

I wanted to and at the same time brought up questions I didn't want to ask.

“Absolutely not. ”

The floor was strongly deniable. It was a stubborn look she'd never seen before, but she was quick to find out. His anxiety and his grief.

She takes her hand off the beer can. I touched his cheeks with a dull palm.

“What are you so afraid of? ”

“I……. ”

He turns his head, blurring his words. She shakes her head. Don't avoid my eyes, I said quietly.

“I can't say."

"Really?"

"I know what you're going to say. But don't get me wrong. It was just a coincidence. I didn't recommend you for any other reason. I just remembered his name."

"Mr. Hangul. Is it because today is a bad time to have poor logic? Then why did you ask me to keep it a secret? You don't want my ego to get hurt?"

"That's right."

"No. I don't think it's considerate, but it feels like a precaution to break up as much as possible."

"It's not like that."

"I'm the one who distanced myself from you first. It was stupid. I was swayed by the foolish idea of having to stay away from you to protect my pride. But then I found out. The pride I took to avoid it was the castle on the sand anyway."

"You're a strong woman who doesn't let anyone get to you."

"No, it's not. My hands are still shaking with anxiety."

She slowly moves her hand and touches his lip with her index finger.

"Your actions, what happened before, and your face today. I just have one more question."

"What about the right to remain silent?"

"You'll have to answer. Did you ever hate me?"

"That's my answer."

"Tell me the truth. Have you ever not loved me?"

"It's been three years. Five years apart. It's never a short time."

"The more you make excuses like that, the more convinced I am. If not, tell me no. Have you forgotten me?"

"Autumn."

"I don't have it. Not once, not for a moment."

The floor slowly turns its head. She shuts up and lets out a small sigh. At that moment, I noticed a piece of paper stuck in the corner of the family picture frame behind the TV. It was a familiar sign. The floor must have found it, too.

"I think there's evidence there that denies all your answers. What do you think?"

He closes his eyes, sighing as if giving up. She looks defenseless. She throws her instincts at him. He had to be punished. Start with a kiss. End with his choice.

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In the news, there's a huge traffic jam.

I love home, too.

Ha... The electric field and tangerine collaboration can't win anyone.

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Referrals, always appreciated.

Coupon, thank you. I think it's freshman money.

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