Life, Once Again!

“What do you think of a woman who sells herself? ”

The words that came out of Eugene's mouth were completely unexpected. Fall was unable to open her mouth. It was not an easy question to answer The 50,000 thoughts overlapped Eugene's face. Is that what I think it is that I sold my body? If so, why is Eugene asking me this question, or is he suffering mentally because of what happened under the inevitable circumstances?

“Wait. You think it's my job to misunderstand, but it's not. ”

Eugene sweeps his face with both hands. There was no drama, though.

“Can you keep it a secret? ”

“I'll never tell anyone unless you want me to. ”

“Thank you for saying that. Where do I start? I keep trying to cry. I never thought this would happen around me. ”

“Is that what happened to your friend? ”

“Friend? If I was a friend, I'd tell you to wake up." It happened to someone much closer than a friend. No, it's more than waking up. ”

Eugene bit his thumb slightly. It was a habit Eugene had not seen since high school. He told me to fix it when I heard his mom say don't do it because it's a bad habit. It seemed like the old habit was being chased unconsciously. Autumn gave Eugene enough time to sort things out.

“You know who my mom is, right? ”

“I don't know what that means, but I'm sure she's great. ”

“That's right. He's a great guy. Business is business, social. She's been proud of me since I was a little girl. You know, when you're a kid, you don't have to be noticed without one of your parents, and sometimes you get teased. And I've never done that. I had a mom who could do a perfect dad job. Plus, he kept me close to my divorced dad, kept me close to him, kept me close to him. She was the perfect person. So I thought that I could live like that if I just chased after my mom's back since I was very young. ”

Eugene's voice gave me a sense of skepticism. Autumn reminded me of the woman I saw in the hair shop. Like Eugene said, Eugene admired his mother. I followed my mother's words without a doubt, and even though she rebuked me, I turned around and tried to understand her. Autumn looked great for her mother's relationship, but I was also worried that Eugene might be too dependent on her words. I thought I graduated from my parents' arms safely because I was old, but now I think I have a diploma, but I still have a parents' school.

“It was my mother who dreamed of being an actor. Thanks to my mom, who is very close to celebrities, I've seen many famous actors since I was a kid, and I've heard that I'm talented when I act like a joke in front of her. It was fun. I was encouraged by what my mom said to work hard. In retrospect, I think I've lived from one to ten, just like my mother said. That's what stylists do now. I think it fits my aptitude, but according to the bear, this was my mother's attitude as well. ”

Eugene grips his crotch with his hand.

“I'm not saying no. It's all good to hear from you, isn't it? If I had done something with my directive, I would have failed. She was never wrong, and it was through my life that everything would work out if I just trusted her.... ”

“What happened to you? ”

Eugene nods heavily.

“Didn't I tell you at first? What do you think of a woman who sells herself? I personally don't want to understand those women. I'm sure it's all there. Someone must have thrown themselves at you because of the inevitable. If it was for coercive reasons, I'd feel sorry for it. I can help. But the problem...... is that my mom is making women like that. ”

It felt like the room was getting dark at once. Autumn reached out and grabbed Eugene's hand. Otherwise, Eugene seemed to have gone out like a burning candle.

“When I first found out, I couldn't believe it. She was the hero of my life. He was an iron man who didn't know failure. Sometimes I think there's something scary and thoughtful about it, and I never thought I'd do anything bad. There were a lot of women under her. She was a pimp. I don't know when it started, but I've known it for a while. ”

“Eugene, is there some misunderstanding? What are the chances you're wrong? ”

“I've thought about it so many times, I wish I had. Since we were kids, my mom and I didn't go into each other's rooms without permission. It was her policy, and I followed it. But after I found out, I snuck into my mom's room. That's where I found it. There was something on my mom's phone that looked like she was dealing with people. I checked my laptop. It had a password on it. Funny thing is, it was my birthday. My hands were shaking too much when I untied them. There was a folder on the desktop, but it went inside and there were organized photos called profiles. Pictures of kids my age with their breasts out. ”

Autumn was speechless. I couldn't even say comfort to Eugene without just hugging him. It turned white in my head. I couldn't insult Eugene's mother or hurt Eugene together.

“When did you find out? ”

“About three months. ”

“Have you kept it a secret all these years? ”

“I couldn't tell anyone. Every day was so horrible. I hated her for doing that, but I didn't say anything. Time is running out, and we're getting buried. I'm sick of myself when I realize that. I knew she was doing something wrong, and I couldn't say anything, and I just hated it when I just laughed. I'm telling you, I have to take this job seriously. I've only eaten it a hundred times, and I can't say it out loud. She's too big for me. ”

Autumn gave Eugene a pat on the back. He was a friend who didn't do anything. When I talked to him, when he sent me pictures of work, all I was doing was smiling. But that smile was just an ornament. Eugene, who prefers relaxing drinking, should have noticed it when he quickly emptied his glass so strangely. I was drinking alcohol to forcefully swallow up a sloppy horse.

“Let me help you. Tell me anything. It might not be much help, but I'll do my best if you need my help. ”

Eugene, who was blushing, lifts his head and smiles slightly. Eugene was so sad that he tried to say he was fine.

“That's what I thought you'd say. But that's okay. There's nothing anyone can do about it. First of all, if I do something, it's gonna hurt her, right? I can't do that. I can't let her ruin her whole life. ”

“Eugene.”

“I know it's wrong. I want her off the case, too. But I don't have the courage to tell him myself. But you can't make someone else tear you apart. If you pretend not to know me, everything will go back to normal. I shouldn't have gone into Mom's room that day. I finally realized why you didn't come into my room without my permission, and you wouldn't let me into yours without my permission. Some things you don't know are drugs. She knew that when she was young. ”

“Are you going to keep pretending you don't know? You're having a hard time. It's just an excuse to be numb. You're crying to me. This might be our chance. The more you hide it, the harder it will be to tell the story later. You know, at first it's like eggshells, so easy to crack secrets, and then over time it turns into concrete, so there's no choice. ”

“You're a smart kid. I wish I was you. If I had, I would have sat my mom in front of me the moment I saw that picture on my laptop, or when I was curious. But I'm the reason. I know what the answer is in my head, but my body won't listen. I'm so scared that she's gonna turn her back on me after that. I'm more afraid of being away from me than she is of breaking the law. ”

What can the values say to others? The rim of the mother will be higher for Eugene than the great wall. The word "Dory" led me to the right path, "foolishly," came up to my throat, but I didn't take it out. She was a dear friend. It was hard to say that to her because she loved it. I didn't even want to tell my friend that it was no big deal. He knew the autumn when he was afraid to stay away from people. I tried projecting myself and the floor in Eugene's situation. Can we say that the floor is committing lawlessness, and if we point that out, we have to keep cutting in situations where relationships can go wrong? Autumn was not confident.

“Don't I look like an idiot? ”

“No, I understand. That's how much I care about my mother. ”

“I didn't need anyone to figure it out for me. It's obvious what to do. I'm just so afraid of the afterstorm. I don't want to lose her. She's strong, Mom. I didn't hesitate at all when my father and I divorced. I know that your path is most important to you. When I tell her to think about it, she'll say, It's time for us to stop looking. I don't think I can take it. ”

Eugene, who wiped the eye area with his hands, stood up. I cooled my face that turned red with my hands.

“I was too clumsy, right? It's not like I'm crying. ”

“No, it's not. ”

“I'm sorry I bothered you. I tried to hold on, but I was so relieved that I suddenly remembered something, right? However, I feel relieved to tell you the truth. I think I can take it. ”

“So you keep pretending you don't know? ”

Autumn asked, Eugene didn't answer.

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The washing machine is wiggling.

Maybe it's the day off, but all the houses upstairs are wiggling. ㅋ

I'm spinning.

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I love the rain, but it's really coming.

--;;

I can hear vegetables, fruit prices going up here.

If you want to farm with the rain to cool down, even the farmers will be comfortable.

What a night sky.