Life, Once Again!

It was snow that covered the sea in Ulsan. In local news, the Ulsan Great Mountains alarm went off in more than a decade. Although the main roads were not blocked by the rapid response of the government offices, the roads with few traffic were snowy enough that cars could hardly get around. Maru took coffee from the hotel cafe and came out. The snowmobile was busy moving the sixth lane road.

“It's so scary to say it's snowing. This year's weather changes like crazy. ”

Kyungjin who followed said.

“We won't be filming for a while. ”

“The snow must melt to connect the scene. If you change one cut and there's snow on the mountain, your genre will suddenly become a fantasy. ”

“I thought it was going well, but the weather caught my ankle. ”

“I see.”

It was an unspeakable act to the heavens.

“Did you see the news this morning? ”

Kyungjin asked me a cigarette. The floor leaves the front of the hotel and walks to the suction station near the parking lot. I laughed nervously, saying that smoking blood has a special taste.

“Taste of the army? ”

“It tastes like it. When I came back from my rookie days and drank a sip with ramen, it was heaven. Did you ever smoke on the floor? ”

“I smoked it a long time ago. ”

“A long time ago at your age, wouldn't it be high school? ”

Instead, the floor replied by twitching its eyebrows once. I can't describe it as a life long before death.

“I mean Im Yun, I finally left. ”

“Did you get the results? ”

“Well, even the most popular actors fall for a moment. Apparently, the bystander rate was enormous. That's how interested he was. I feel like I watched the trial because people who visited wrote it down in detail on the Internet. All charges have been dropped. Prison is now in session. ”

“There are still appeals left, so they'll do things to reduce the sentence. ”

“That's the ambience of not appealing. He kept saying he was sorry, admitting his sins, not denying any of the evidence that the prosecutor gave him. ”

“You're turning the other way. ”

“I think so. Even if I didn't know the law well, there didn't seem to be any holes to escape from. But I'm so scared. There is no one who is the same as the outside, but how many are as different as Im Yun? I used to love seeing you once. ”

“That's the way it is. ”

Choi stole a cigarette and threw it in the trash.

“That's a little unsettling. Are you keeping a big secret, too? ”

“A person should have a big secret. ”

“I didn't actually tell you, but there are a few people who would stand in line if I just stopped talking. What his loyalty is. ”

“Keep that loyalty, to the very end. ”

While I was burning a cigarette, my eyes dropped quite well on my shoulders. The forecast that we would stop this evening seemed to be missing. I plucked the eyes from my head and clothes at the hotel entrance. The child coming out of the other side jumps up and down. Even when the child's mother shouted to stay calm because it was dangerous, she took a hard step with her eyes piled up on the pavement.

“She's pretty when it's just me. ”

Kyungjin looked at the child and said.

“It's a beautiful time. ”

Even though I was 1 year old or 15 years old, I was still in kindergarten. However, even though I was rotting in kindergarten, I was angry when I blinked my eyes and said, "Dad, Dad." He's so cute, I wonder if my kid can handle it.

“What's that look on your eyes that you've had a couple of times? ”

“You're designing the future well. Living with a fox-like wife and a rabbit-like son of a bitch. ”

“You're too old to design that. Twenty-five? ”

“If I was, I'd still have kids. ”

“Is it the same these days? Twenty years old should be enough fun. There are only two married kids around me in the early 20s, and you know what they say when you meet them? ”

“What are they saying? ”

“Marriage is happy. It's worth a try, except as late as possible. I'd rather not do it if I can. ”

“That's what everyone says, but when you get home, you'll be too busy looking at the kids. ”

He nodded, saying he was right.

“Speaking of which, would you like to see? ”

She said it was a video sent by her friends, and what she showed was a baby who had just taken a step with her baby. The baby was held on his back, surrounded by a sack. "Peek-a-boo," the baby laughed, shaking his body. The child who stepped down was walking with a walker in his hand. While he was walking forcefully toward his mother, his father held him in his arms. Immediately after holding her, the child cried excitedly.

The floor examines Kyungjin's expression. For those who said it was good to get married late, the child looked lovely and wanted to die.

“But they said, You're always cute when you see someone else's kid, but that's not what you do when you raise them. I hate a lot of them. ”

“When you're a newborn, you're always small. Every breath of the child is breathless, and if the discoloration is bad, I'm worried all day. If you wake up and start crying, you'll feel sorry for yourself. Then when you finish chatting and start talking, it's amazing, but if you use your fluent vocabulary, it breaks down. My head gets a little thick, and by the time I get hard on myself, I get sloppy, and I want to be a dad. You have to pick it up somewhere and get closer, but what happened as a child can't seem that far away. ”

The floor said as if determined. The image of the child remaining intact in my memory made me eat my heart just by thinking about it. The child who was not yet in the world could not have been born because of the circumstances of the parents. There must have been accidental death before childbirth. If there is a soul, what will happen to the soul of that child who was not born but was late? When I thought about it, I felt sorry, and I wanted to see it forever.

“I felt like I had a real experience just now. Do you have a hidden child? That's the secret you couldn't tell me? ”

“No way.”

“Stop acting in your life. It's confusing for people to see. If I don't, I'm going to get fat when I'm done with you. You know how many times I crashed into that wall two days ago? ”

“You're a dying Sin. You did it with a cough. The guy who told me to cut and pass and keep filming, why is he like this? ”

“Did you?”

The floor carefully inserted the image of the beautiful daughter ‘Autumn’ in the memory drawer. Looking forward to seeing you in this life. Kyungjin pointed to the couch placed in the lounge. You said we could talk if we didn't have anything to do. I was about to stick my butt to the couch. The phone cried, and so did Nervous.

“I think we're on schedule. ”

Kyungjin checked the text. Maru also looked at his phone.

- Shots fired in the wake of tomorrow afternoon. We're going to shoot from the end scene.

It was a text from the director.

“You have no choice but to skip Sequins in this weather. Unlike other films, it was easy to get emotional by taking pictures in script. ”

“That's how much eye spray you get. I heard at the beginning of February that if you don't have snow, you're going to use snow machines in the water to create an environment, and they built a set in the sky for free. ”

When the second revision first received the finished script, the first thing I looked at was the opening and ending of the first page. I could recall the first sentence without having to see it. Eyes piled up like knees. Considering the snowfall, even if your knee is tight, it will be locked up to the top of your ankle. Ending scene begins with walking through the eyes of the country. The camera will catch you digging into the mountains with a stab wound to your side. After the voice of the dying chief is cut off, then, like a silent movie, we run to the last cut without any words.

“Nothing on camera, but I'll follow you. It's gonna be a tough shot. ”

He tapped his shoulder. It was literally going to be a tough shot. I always thought of the image before the shooting started. How it's going, what it's going to look like. Ending scene reminds me of nothing. It was full of vague feelings. When I bumped into him at the scene, he would be as stunning as when I first filmed the movie.

“Die. ”

“I'll watch you warm by the side. ”

“Don't come if you want to. It hurts my stomach.”

“That's what I'm saying. But no word from Mr. Autumn? ”

It was autumn when he said he would come again before leaving. It was a kind of greeting, but he seemed excited.

“I wonder if that busy girl will come here again. ”

“I would love it if you would come. It was a day, but the scene was so good. Especially Cheongho, but the filmmaker had a big daddy smile. ”

“She's very attractive. ”

“You tell me the truth. You're interested in Mr. Autumn, right? ”

“Anybody else not interested? ”

“Oh my God, look at you. We're friends, right? If it works out, let go of my leg. If you're friends with Autumn, it's okay. ”

“Find it nearby. Don't look far. ”

“Because it's nowhere near me. ”

He chuckles and goes up to his room, saying he needs to rest. The floor watched someone coming and going from the lounge for a while. A lot of people went back and forth, but it was the parents who were walking around holding the children's hands. It was a loving landscape that I kept watching but never got tired of.

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I've been sticking to the toilet since this morning.

At the time of the holidays, my stomach turns upside down without having anything to eat.

Last year, last year, and the production year, and I almost took a break or something.

It was really awful again today.

... but this time it's good that it's over without vomiting.

Whew.