Life, Once Again!

There was a conventional expression that put the world under my feet, but there was no feeling of hypocrisy. It was perfectly natural, as if I had been looking down from birth. I went to another ‘sky.’ The movement was convenient. I arrived at the desired place as soon as I wanted. It was my childhood room. I have a new memory. I also felt like I'd found a yearbook I'd forgotten. I woke up from the sky lying on my bed. Another me that has nothing to do with me. I thought I'd feel a slight discomfort from watching, but I wasn't impressed. Maybe it's because the game is about to unfold.

There was a mother in the living room. I stood by him. I tried calling and touching her, but she didn't feel anything. As the Grim Reaper said, there is nothing left to do but observe. I took a good look at my mom without any wrinkles. It looks like me after giving birth to a child.

I left the room, rubbing my sleepy eyes. If you don't want to be late, wash up and eat, Mom said. I stood in front of a boiling soup. A sharp kimchi stew. It reminds me of its memorable taste and smell. I wanted to smell it with my nose wide open. I wanted to drink with a spoon and put it in my mouth. But there was nothing I could do. I can feel it in front of me, but I can't feel anything. Like the world beyond the brown tube. I had to look into the virtual reality now. The world without flavor and aroma was very thin.

“Mom, I might be late today. ”

“Go early. ”

After Han Sky left, his mom sat on the couch with her coffee. I put my butt next to it, too. I wonder why I didn't talk to my mom more when I was a kid. How to pick the right seasonal fruit, how to peel off old age easily, how to soothe a whining child easily, and how to win a dominant battle with a knowledgeable husband. I was full of questions to ask my mom.

“Mom, don't follow Dad this time. ”

I mumbled to my mother I couldn't hear. If life goes the same way, she will be separated from the world in five years. Pancreatic cancer comes silently and kills its mother. I covered my face with both hands. Take a medical exam quickly, and don't delay being annoyed. Please. I could not feel the tears flowing, the tip of my nose and the choking sensation, but I was clearly crying. Even when I was cut off from this world, I was still human. It must have been true.

“Let's do some laundry. ”

I stood up and muttered to my mother. I hope this life changes.

* * *

Sleep lust, appetite, sexual desire. I can't feel anything. While the world was relaxing beneath my feet, I became more and more a rock on the side of the road. On the first day of the game, everything was just amazing. Resurrected husband, healthy mother, young me. I was happy just watching them. The helplessness of not being able to do anything could be offset by looking at them with infinite possibilities. But as one day passed, two days, three days, a month, a year and a half passed, even happiness was dull.

“I'll be right out. ”

The Han Sky goes out. I decided to watch a movie with my friends. I followed him reflexively. I watched them eat food, watched movies, and then I watched them sniff. They chatted in the cafe for an hour, and they broke up. I no longer have to skip space at once. You move one step at a time, recalling the footsteps while you were alive. That's the only joy. It was a way to experience the passage of time indirectly.

At midnight, the house lights out. I wandered out of the apartment in the dark. After forgetting how to sleep, the night became a time of loneliness. I walked the streets without warning. However, it cannot be far from the sky. I would be less helpless if I could see overseas, but I could only walk as far as the physical distance between the Han Sky and my young husband.

I walked to my husband's house. My husband was thinking seriously about putting his notebook in front of him. I felt like I was still thinking about reincarnation. I believed my husband would finish this game in no time.

* * *

I met my husband on a second-year college date. I met him in my last life as a colleague at work, but this time it changed. She was alive, too, and pancreatic cancer didn't grow inside her. Evidence of a life-changing event was overwhelming. I felt happy for a long time. I don't know if I'm happy because of my heartbeat or my temperature change, but I would be happy if something like this happened.

“I'll buy the coffee. ”

The sky seemed to like my husband. I peered into her heart. The contradiction that I peered in my heart was amusing, but I soon became confused because I didn't think of the way I laughed.

She liked her husband's clumsy smile. It was the same for me. Well, it's the same for me. I didn't look deep into her heart. There's nothing you can do about it except watch.

After that, they met every weekend and decided to go out on the second day of the month. After my date, I followed my husband back home after breaking up with Han Sky. I wanted to ask you why you chose me again. You could have met another nice girl, and you begged your friend to find me and give me a date.

My husband came home and lay on the bed, crying for ages. I folded my arms at your side and watched quietly. My husband told me the sky is beautiful whenever I see it.

“Where would my beauty go? ”

I whispered in my husband's ear. Of course he can't hear you.

* * *

The child was born, and they named the child Autumn. It was an autumn. I couldn't get tired of calling it a few times. The husband felt sorry for his daughter, who had not played much in his previous life, and did not fall by her side for a single hour. I saw my daughter falling asleep in a sack. It was the same as the one who gave birth to my stomach ache. I felt strange. I saw another me, but I couldn't feel the disconnection, and the moment I saw my daughter, I came to my mind intensely. How long do I have to keep watch? I closed my eyes long and opened them to control the nerves. It was my first life. There was no need to rush.

* * *

My husband has cancer. It was pancreatic cancer.Maybe it was a prank of strange destiny. My husband dried up differently in chemo. From that moment on, the rapid flow of time in your numbness has become a sloth. One second becomes compulsive. Watching my healed husband by my side was hell. There's nothing you can do for him. It was the first time I was so horrible that I couldn't cry or hold my hand.

I prayed to God to heal my husband. Plant humans and fire, cancer in there. It was a brutal execution. Even though his previous memories disappeared when he was revived, the fact that he died struggling in pain did not change. He doesn't remember, but I do. As long as there is someone who remembers, it remains an indelible fact.

Please spare my husband.

* * *

The medical device cried frantically. At 8 months of chemotherapy, her husband's body seemed to have reached its limit. The doctor's eyes came to bed, calm. I knew this would happen.

“Call the guardian. ”

The doctor pronounced time of death. The nurse wrote it down. I got out of the hospital. Soon the sky will come. Before 20 minutes had passed, a car came into the hospital. I was ready to bust through the front door. I saw her running in with her eyes wide open. A familiar cry strikes my ear. Yeah, I used to cry like that.

You settle on the ground. The sky is black. No, I may have blacked out. I blocked my ears. To avoid hearing my husband's breathing, to avoid hearing my crying. The night is long. The crying is longer.

* * *

“I will. If I can save my husband." ”

He didn't even listen to the end. I was such a jerk. As the Grim Reaper assured me, I chose another life. I explained to the Grim Reaper what I had heard and got the contract. After completing the procedure, you turn around, and there stands the Grim Reaper.

“Well done. You can do this on your own, right? ”

I nodded. The Grim Reaper took a hand-painted contract and put it in his arms.

“It's time to meet your husband. ”

I followed without a word and looked in the mirror. A flock of bright lights was what I am now. I stood in front of the sky like this.

“Can you change your appearance over there? ”

“It's possible, but you won't be able to recognize any of them. ”

“Can't you show a little of your old self? ”

“If that's what you want. ”

The Grim Reaper claps his hands.

* * *

I've been excited for a long time. I picked a costume like a girl. What should I do? I thought about it for a while and chose a white suit. I liked rabbits. I liked the white rabbit. I liked the rabbit in the strange country of Elise. I liked the rabbit that led me to the mysterious world. I wanted to lead my husband into that world. A world where no one cries, no one gets sick.

“Mr. Hangul? ”

I said hello to my trembling husband. My husband didn't recognize me. My face was quite different. If you pursue beauty to the extreme with the face of the Han sky, you will see this face. It was similar, but it was impossible to read the sky from this face. It will be hard to discern because they are similar.

“Am I dead? ”

My husband said I wanted to shout. I'm the sky, your wife. But the moment I thought about it, the darkness closed my eyes. The "upper hand" of the Grim Reaper wrote it. I couldn't say a word about the past.

“Yes, Mr. Hangul. You're dead.”

“I see.”

“But your life is not over. ”

I approached my husband. In this world where life and death intersect, I could touch my husband. I grabbed his hand and said,

“Mr. Hangul. Life, do you want to live again? ”

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It's cold.

Watch out for the flu.

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Referrals, always appreciated.

Coupon, thank you. I write thanks to you.

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