Chapter 280: I will be back
The house was quiet when they arrived.
Dane and Sofia had left a note saying they’d be out for the evening. The kitchen showed signs of Martha’s earlier presence—a coffee mug in the sink, papers spread across the counter, and the particular organized chaos she created when working through complex problems.
Kate went upstairs to change out of her work clothes.
Jolthar retreated to his room and found clean clothing that didn’t carry blood or torn fabric.
Martha arrived at 7:15, her arms full of documents and her expression showing the particular exhaustion that came from bureaucratic work rather than physical labor.
"I hate administrative days," she announced to the empty foyer.
"Give me actual dirt and rocks over budget reconciliation any day."
Kate appeared at the top of the stairs.
"Rough afternoon?"
"The university wants a full accounting of every piece of equipment we brought to Kreeshan. Every. Single. Piece. Including things we rented from third-party vendors."
Martha dropped her bag on the floor. "I’ve been filling out forms for six hours."
"Come eat. I ordered from that Drai place you like."
They gathered in the dining room—Kate, Martha, and Jolthar. The food was good, the conversation carefully neutral. Mostly about the weather. Martha’s administrative frustrations. Kate’s quarterly projections meeting.
Normal things. Domestic things. The comfortable rhythm of people who’d settled into proximity.
But underneath it, tension. Martha kept glancing at Jolthar with an expression that suggested she was working up to saying something. Kate was quieter than usual, her mind clearly elsewhere. Jolthar ate with focused attention that was performative—he wasn’t particularly hungry, but the ritual mattered.
After dinner, Kate excused herself to take a work call from a supplier in a different time zone. Martha and Jolthar were left alone in the dining room with empty plates and the particular silence that meant someone was about to breach a difficult topic.
Martha started clearing dishes. Jolthar helped, following her into the kitchen.
She rinsed plates with mechanical efficiency, not looking at him.
"We should talk," she said finally.
"About last night."
Jolthar set down the dish he’d been holding.
"Alright."
"I don’t..." Martha paused, organizing her thoughts with the same precision she brought to academic work.
"I don’t fully understand what happened. What I felt. The memories that aren’t mine but feel more real than my actual childhood."
She finally looked at him.
"But I can’t keep pretending it didn’t happen."
"I know."
"Do you?" Her voice sharpened slightly.
"Because you’ve been very calm about all of this. Very controlled. Like you expected it."
"Not expected. Hoped for, maybe. In ways I didn’t fully acknowledge even to myself."
Martha leaned against the counter, her arms crossed. "I’ve been doing research. Academic research, which is what I do when I’m confronted with things I don’t understand. Reincarnation theories. Soul continuity across lifetimes. The philosophical and metaphysical frameworks for identity persistence beyond death."
"And?"
"And the evidence is surprisingly robust. Not scientifically conclusive, but compelling enough that dismissing it entirely seems intellectually dishonest."
She paused. "I think I was someone else. Before this life. Someone who knew you. Someone who loved you as—" She stopped, the word catching in her throat.
"As family," Jolthar finished gently.
"As mother and son."
Martha’s hands gripped the counter edge. "That’s insane. You understand that’s completely insane."
"Yes."
"But it also feels true."
"Yes."
She looked at him with eyes that held confusion and certainty in equal measure.
"What do we do with that?"
Jolthar was quiet for a long moment, choosing his words carefully. "We acknowledge it exists. We don’t ignore it or pretend the connection isn’t real. But we also don’t let it define everything. You have a life now. A good life with Kate. Work you love. I’m not going to disrupt that by demanding you remember something you don’t consciously recall."
"What if I want to remember?"
"Then eventually you will. Or you won’t. Either way, I’m not going anywhere."
Martha studied his face. "You’re very patient about this."
"I am a man of patience."
Something moved through her expression—recognition of the weight behind that statement, the implications of that much time spent sealed in darkness.
"What was it like? Being imprisoned for that long?"
"Mostly nothing. Consciousness suppressed to the point where time didn’t really pass in any meaningful way. Like sleeping without dreams."
He looked at his hands. "But there were moments. Brief periods where I’d surface enough to be aware. Those were difficult."
"Because you were alone."
"Because I could feel you dying. Feel the grief across the distance and the seals. Could feel you waiting for me to come home and know I couldn’t."
His voice remained even, but his eyes held something ancient and tired. "That was worse than the imprisonment itself."
Martha’s breath caught. "I’m sorry."
"Don’t be. You lived. You came back. You found your way to that valley and heard me calling and came anyway, despite having no conscious reason to do so."
He looked at her directly. "That’s more than I had any right to hope for."
She was quiet for a long moment. Then, "What happened today? Kate said there was an incident."
Jolthar had been expecting this question. "Someone tried to grab one of Kate’s coworkers to use as leverage against me. I stopped them. They left a message—an address where I’m supposed to go tonight to ’discuss terms.’"
Martha’s expression shifted immediately to alarm. "You’re not going."
"I am."
"Jolthar—"
"They demonstrated they can reach people around me. That means you and Kate are at risk. The only way to stop that is to address it directly."
"By walking into an obvious trap?"
"By making it clear that threatening people I care about is a mistake they won’t survive making twice."
Martha stared at him. "You’re talking about killing people."
"If necessary. Yes."
She absorbed this with visible effort. The academic in her wanted to object, to argue for diplomatic solutions and proper authorities. But the part of her that remembered—that carried echoes of a life where violence was sometimes the only answer to violence—understood.
"I’m coming with you," she said.
"No."
"I’m not asking permission—"
"Martha." His voice was gentle but absolutely firm and for a second, she saw images of him, wearing different attire, like back in the old times.
She blinked a couple of times, staring at him.