M E M O R I Z E

“Oh…! My brother saves me. Hehe.”

Ahn Hyun nodded cheerfully because he asked me to have a drink beforehand. I said, "Hahaha! You chose me! Are you watching me, Reason?” After slapping his side, I moved as far away from the festival venue as possible.

Soon, as I moved to the most dreary place possible, I calmed my mind. Whatever happened, An-hyun and An-sol are very reluctant to mention the matter. Then how do I get An-hyun to open his mouth, that was the point.

About two minutes' walk. One night, it was deep, and I still hear Ahn Hyun humming behind my back. I looked around the basin and stopped walking around the garden pond. Because the moonlight shined brightly, the light was removing the cloudy darkness and shining silver and white from the surface of the small pond.

“Oh, you're doing this here? Then why did you come all the way here... ”

An-hyun sat down with a single smile and looked around with a red face. Then, for a moment, he cries out, wrapped around himself in his arms.

“Bro. No way...?! ”

“? ”

“Tongue, brother. You shouldn't do this. Ah... No. If you were my brother... Maybe it'll be okay.... ”

“Just one more word. I'll make you sober. ”

I grunt and throw the bottle hard in my right hand. An-hyun laughed and stirred his hands, grabbing the bottle, even though it was close enough. After a slight admiration, I opened the stopper of the bottle in my left hand.

“Cheers. ”

“Yes! But are you drinking the bottle? ”

I nod quietly.

Later, I heard the sound of sickness and disease, and I took a sip first. As the cold liquid gently passed to my neck, I felt relieved and relieved that I was very slightly excited. After tasting the fresh flavor that remained in my mouth for a moment, I glanced forward. In front of her, she turned her head slightly and saw Ahn Hyun drinking the bottle politely.

“Ka. It's not heavy, but this is fine, too. I feel good. I feel like I'm losing my mind. ”

“Then, shall we have another drink? ”

An-hyun nodded with a face that asked if there was a presence. I was going to wait for the medication to kick in. He was already drunk as he could be. So I needed to be sober enough to at least think straight.

Then I didn't say anything on purpose. I only took a mouthful of liquid to face An-hyun's chatter.

And when I emptied about half the bottle, I could feel the gun returning to his blurry eyes, and the shriveled pronunciation slowly becoming clear. At this point, I thought it was time to tell the story, and I took out a lotus candle from my heart and asked. Whether it felt awkward that I kept silent, Ahn Hyun's voice, who had just been sobbing, was gradually fading.

It was about to light up the beginning of the year with spark stones.

“Bro, do you have something to say to me...? You haven't said anything. ”

An-hyun's tone was much fainter than before. I nodded calmly, thinking the medicine had spread to some extent. Then the flamed lotus candle was inserted between the detection and the stop and the mouth opened with a dull voice.

“Yes. I have something to ask you. That's why I'm here. I have a question about Ansol. ”

“Aha. I see. Hey, ask me anything, bro. If I were you, I would... ”

“An-hyun, I'm not asking you to make jokes. I'm asking about Ansol's past and spirit. ”

Then, Ahn Hyun shut up like a lie. I took a good look at his face. Where did the joyful look of unity go, and Ahn Hyun's expression was so embarrassed. I wouldn't have asked you that before. However, I felt more empowered by my voice that I could never back down this time.

“You're the only one I can ask. So I need you to talk some sense into me. You know what I'm talking about, right? ”

“ ……. ”

Suddenly, a cold wind passes by.

For a while, An-hyun didn't say anything. I just tightly closed my mouth and stared at the ground with dazed eyes. However, his eyelids were slightly trembling, and his lips were slightly chewing in.

How long has it been? An-hyun suddenly smiled. But it was a very forceful smile.

“Ha…. Haha. You too. Oh, I told you. I'm sorry.I don't want you to do that. You know, personal privacy. Show me some respect. Haha, ha. ”

“An Hyun.”

“… brother. Can we talk about this later? Why now... Please, just give me some time to think. I want to organize my mind, and I want to enjoy this good atmosphere even more. ”

Ahn Hyun's tone was now making a terrible cry. I really felt like I didn't want to say it, but I decided to push on with my first thought. Then we'll have to convince him.

I closed my eyes. Then I calmly refined my mind, then opened my eyes and mouth again.

“Hyunah.”

At that moment, Ahn Hyun stopped speaking again. Then he opened his eyes wide and looked at me with his mouth open. His eyes felt startled.

I don't call my kids by their names, not even the clans. I almost sang it with the castle. It was to create my own walls and keep my distance. Maybe the people around you were confused about it. I wonder if it was enough to ask for Jeongyeon's name. But this time I broke the wall myself.

Towards Ahn Hyun, who was expressing that he didn't know what to do, I was a nazi.

“Today I…. No, I don't think we have a chance now. ”

“Bro…. Please…"

“What are you so afraid of? Hiding it like this doesn't solve everything. ”

“But, brother. But…"

“Hyun, do you remember what I said before? Don't be afraid. Live with that fear and face the cause of it. It's the only way we can survive and adapt to this Hole Plain world. ”

Maybe it's because I rarely say it. I felt it, and the light of conflict fell on An-hyun's face. His face was unveiled with the current uncovered worries and complex heart. I'm sure mine was delivered. However, in the end, Ahn Hyun's answer was to bow his head. Within “Sorry.” I heard a little voice in my ears.

As expected, this was not enough to break down An-hyun's wall. I sighed loudly.

The atmosphere that I enjoyed up to 5 minutes ago changed rapidly. The pleasant and exciting air fades in a flash, and the air of discomfort and silence takes its place. The silent state remained silent.

I opened my mouth again.

“Something very big happened to Ansol not long ago. Did you know?”

An-hyun nodded and immediately shook his head to the left and to the right. Perhaps Ansol's reaction was predictive, but he didn't know the details. It is difficult to speak carelessly about the Guardian, so she would not have said any details either.

“It would be really, really hard to leave Ansol here alone. I'm not just talking about adapting. Hall Plane is about to change. So, in this rapidly changing world, can Ansol really survive with that personality? I don't think so. I always told you, didn't I? I don't know what will happen in Hall Plane. This case was the exact match. It was a situation where Ansol could be exploited or worse. Luckily, we stopped it this time, but we can't guarantee that it won't happen again in the future. ”

“It can't be Sol.... ”

“If only it were the same. Yeah, I see. It's okay. You don't have to say it if it's hard. Well, frankly, I'm comfortable with that. I don't care. I just need to focus on my work. ”

“ ……! ”

An-hyun's head and limp shoulders flicker. But it was a long shot, and I needed to speak louder to break down the solid wall. First, I was going to recognize the importance of the situation to Ahn Hyun. And then you have to shake your emotions.

“But…. I can't do that anymore. A long time ago, Gimhanbyol came to me from user academy. Why don't you come inside the Golden Lion? Why kick this great opportunity? What did I say then? ”

“ ……. ”

“I'm not as good a person as you think I am. I have a lot of doubts. I don't trust people very well. But you see, this whole Hole Plain world isn't the only one that can live alone. In the end, you have to have a partner to live with and help you. So I answered. I'm gonna build my own clan. No matter what happens, a clan of people I can only trust. ”

“Family…. Whew…?"

The moment I took out the word family, Ahn Hyun's gaze shook without cause. I didn't miss that reaction. The horse was prepared immediately after he had drawn the liquid that was still in the bottle and slashed his throat.

“I gave up the Golden Lion myself, but that was the same for you. I refused the Medieval Clan's offer. Honestly, was I a jerk back then? All I had was two gold coins from the user academy, nothing but a broke, zero-year user. Nevertheless, you followed me without any horses, and in the square, you plundered the gold coins and gave them to me. How do you think I felt then? ”

“Bro…. ”

“Hyun, think about it. Me, you, Sol, and the well have been together since the rites of passage. You're no longer Namdo or anyone else. That's why I can't watch anymore. Because I know Ansol will go wrong one day at this rate. I know it's going to happen, but just because I don't want to say it, do we just leave it at that? ”

An-hyun shakes his head slowly, very slowly. It felt more like a reflexive stir than a spontaneous stir.

This is the last time. I looked An-hyun straight in the eye. Then I opened my mouth quietly.

“Hyun. Don't run away anymore. Let's try it. Let me help you, just like I've always done. Huh?”

“Ah…. ”

In my words, Ahn Hyun was making a face that forgot what to say. My eyes trembled and my lips felt like I was about to burst into tears. I didn't avoid that guy's gaze.

Soon, the wind subsides completely, and the surroundings are calm enough to even hear the sound of breathing. Suddenly, there was hot energy in my right hand. I turned my gaze reflectively, and I could see that all the unsmoked lotuses were burning and touching the skin. About the time I dropped it, a strange voice came out in front of me.

“Ha…. That's right."

“? ”

Looking back at Ahn Hyun's face, how should I express it? Her eyes are dazed and her mouth is wide open. You don't look strong enough. Suddenly, it seemed like a distraction, but in another way, it seemed to be attracted to something.

“You're right. Solly... he was acting a little, or a lot weird for his age. ”

An-hyun finally said the first word. It was a slight crack in the mind that was tightly closed. I replied right away to open the gap even more.

“Yes. I'm guessing there's a problem. But that's nothing to be ashamed of, right? Every modern person has at least one.... ”

“No, no. That's not it. That's not it.”

At that moment, An-hyun's eyes flashed once. Soon he sighed as if he had come out from the depths of his heart. Then he said with a silly smile.

“That's not all... The seriousness of the sole is that it's not a very good word to wrap. Yes, it is. Our sole is mentally impaired. ”

He looked like a psychopath. '

Suddenly, what the classical player had said before crossed my head.

“… Does Sol know that? ”

“I'm sure you're aware. I've taken him to the hospital a few times. But you probably don't know why you're like this. ”

What's that noise again? When I look up with a curious face, I can see Ahn Hyun, who is bitter. He was slowly taking his lip off.

“I lost my memory a few years ago. Not all of them, in part. If you had asked Ansol, he wouldn't have answered correctly. I didn't do it. ”

“What...? ”

'Memory loss...?'

Queek, it was an unexpected thing for me to think of as an intellectual disability. Without relying on my reaction, Ahn Hyun continued to open his mouth.

“When I think about it, I've been to a lot of hospitals. I don't know much about the mind either. But I've been to a lot of hospitals, and I've been to a lot of hospitals. Schizophrenia. Dissociative disorder. A mood disorder. A delusional disorder. Trauma, hysterical neurosis. or because of extreme stress. Haha... But that's the way it is. The world of the human mind is naturally so profound, and Ansol is particularly complex that it's difficult for modern psychiatric medicine to make a final diagnosis. ”

“… I see. What do you mean, amnesia? ”

“Ah…. Do you know if it's dissociative amnesia? Uh, mental oblivion, I guess. ”

I barely nodded. I did not know the details, but I knew about the symptoms of the great. Simply put, it is a dysfunctional phenomenon that is important to remember the past, and can be seen with symptoms such as confusion, depression, anxiety, age regression, suicidal thoughts, and interpersonal disorders.

I woke up immediately. And from now on, I quickly managed to think that it was important.

“To Ansol... So what happened to him? ”

“What's going on...? Right…."

“Then what the hell happened to Ansol that caused that kind of mental illness? ”

An-hyun did not immediately answer. I'm just looking down at the ground with a heavy face. But that was also a moment. I thought he was trying to remember something, but then I slowly lifted my head and looked up at me. That's how I met An-hyun's gaze in the air.

Soon, An-hyun's mouth opened.

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After the opening, I read a whole series of articles. I received a lot of comments, messages, etc.

Suddenly it's too urgent. Why is the article so twisted? Or why this part comes out of nowhere, etc.

Bears have been thinking, and I think there's a lot of things that I missed when I was trying to accelerate my deployment by force because of my inadequacies. I have to blame myself. T

So, I'm going to unwind it for a while and put it back on its original face to restore indispensability. I don't think my greed is going to ruin my memory ride. Haha.

Of course, daily reinstatement will continue. If you're coming up late, I'd like you to think I'm polishing up a little bit.

I'm very tired today. I feel dizzy, so I'm going to try to restore the League of Legends.) and I'll be back!

We'll add the ripples to the next round. Oh, except for one.

letzgo02/Congratulations on your return! Yes, no duplicate incognito classes In the case of Kim Soo-hyun, all information is disclosed because of privileges, but it cannot be duplicated under normal circumstances. There are exceptions, of course. Kim Soo-hyun, Bian, Shin Yong.:)

And congratulations on passing the test. A police test! I'm so proud of you.: D, mate!