M E M O R I Z E
00599 Whoever fights to the death lives, and whoever runs to the death....
In a dark pit.
New Jae Ryong is dying.
'I….'
Another me, looking at Shin Jae Ryong on the ground.
Another one, I pulled the elixir out of my arms.
"I hope the new Dragon lives. '
Without hesitation, open the stopper and tilt the bottle.
The other me who feeds the elixir, I was really worried about the new dragon.
At that moment.
“! ”
Suddenly I came to my senses. I opened my eyes immediately. After looking around, you can see the tent coming back late at night.
A centered table, tent curtain entry, and a flat chair. Everything was as it was. Nothing has changed.
... Then what happened? Did he have a dream?
Suddenly, the air that touched my flesh felt cold. At the same time, the layer of fatigue weighs heavily on the whole body.
But I chose to get out of bed instead of sleeping more. I didn't feel like I was going to fall asleep for some reason, but even though I forcefully fell asleep, I wanted to stop dreaming the same dream. My heart is still complicated these days...
As I walked outside the tent, I could still see the dark dawn sky.
If this is the right time, it is soon time for the primary search parties to take action. Although no further instructions have been given yet, it is likely that users participating in the pit raid will remain silent today.
Maybe it's better to move your body, forget your thoughts, and join a search party. Just like yesterday.
Eventually, I decided to schedule the morning with my first thought, and slowly walked towards the North Post. If we wait in your vicinity, we'll be able to encounter search parties trying to get out like we did yesterday.
However, as a result, my expectations were only half correct.
“Purpose. Exploration of Peripheral Boundaries and Critical Areas. ”
“C - 12 trillion total members. Navigation Joe Istantell Row: 11 non-xenografts identified. ”
“I've checked the total Commander's clearance records. ”
“You may leave. ”
The Northern Guards have completed a simple verification process. Heterology nods as if he knew, and sends a signal to the guards asking them to wait a moment. And slowly turns to me and sighs deeply.
“Phew. I'm afraid I'll have to decline. Mercenary Road.”
“User heterology. ”
“No, you can't. I appreciate your help in the expedition, but I will politely decline this time. ”
“ ……. ”
C - In addition to the decisive voice of heterology, which promotes the search for Article 1, it also stirs the head thoroughly. I tilted my head in the explicit doctor's expression.
“No, why... ”
“Search is our mission. However, we do not include the Mercury Road. You know that.”
“But yesterday... ”
“Mercenary Road. Please."
Heterogeneity that doesn't listen to the end and says it's unconditional. I had no choice but to feel a tingling sensation. When I asked him to join the expedition yesterday, he didn't do this. No, I rather welcomed you in a panic.
Then tell them no from the beginning.
Yesterday, you made me smile and let me go out with you, so why not today? All of a sudden.
“... Please save me. ”
It was then.
Heterology suddenly grabbed my shoulder and asked me for it in a loving voice. I didn't know what was going on in English, but I kept my mouth shut because I was really looking forward to it.
“That's me. Did you know that my Clan Lord broke a lot of ground on that expedition yesterday? ”
Huh? Broken? Clan Lord of heterogeneity... Of course it's Han So-young.
“No. Why would Istantel Low Road...? ”
“It's about Mercenary Road. ”
“ ……? ”
“I told you to take only users who were not involved in the pit raid. Then why are you grabbing onto the hard Mercenary Road? This is so insulting... No, you didn't! ”
Suddenly, heterology raised its voice.
“But my Clan Lord, once you're angry, you're terrified! No, you don't! Only those who have been hurt know that! ”
Heterology is unfair, beating his chest with the word "massive."
... Well, that's it. I know. I carefully recite what I did wrong in an expressionless voice, and Han Soyoung looks back at me.... Hmm. That's a little scary.
“Why don't I tell you the truth about the relationship? User heterology didn't come to me, it was me who asked for it. ”
“Yes, it is! Of course! That's exactly what I said! But you know what they say? Even if I did, did I just accept it? And!”
Heave-ho.) suddenly stopped talking, and suddenly I sank to make my face as expressionless as possible. Then...
Wait, what about that face?
“By the way, isn't it heterogeneity you allowed? So don't try to pass the blame on to the Mercenary Lord for nothing.... So close again! ”
Heterology imitated the tone of Han Soyoung's voice, with a slightly high but uncomplicated voice. A big smile almost burst at the moment, but I could hardly bear it. I can't believe Han So-young said that, but it was pretty funny to think that she did.
“Do you know why I'm so angry? ”
I did not stop talking about the once exploded heterogeneity, whether I was going to do it at all.
“Oh, right. No matter how desperate the world may be, people may worry about it. By the way, I'm dying of hunger on my side nowadays, but if you two just keep it up like that, that's it! ”
“… Yes? ”
“Goddamn it, Solo Squad! Hooray! Hooray! ”
“ ……. ”
... Suddenly, I heard some pretty misguided words, but I was forced to stand still. It's because the voice that shouted "Long live" was too sad to hang the tackle.
And the big heterology that exploded one time was, "Hmm.” You soon blushed your face while clearing your throat.
“… I see my colleagues are waiting for me. So I'll be going now. Mercenary Road.”
“Wait…. ”
“Hopefully, you'll understand my position. ”
“ ……. ”
In the end, heterology bowed its head and turned powerlessly, walking away. Without solving each other's misconceptions.
I didn't catch that heterology. No, I couldn't. I don't know why, but I strongly felt that solving a misunderstanding is the process of killing xenografts twice.
“ ……. ”
So, by leaving heterology, the morning schedule that I had set as far as I could.
Suddenly, the cool morning air is carried by the wind and passes by.
... Where do I go now? I don't want to sit around like this. I have to do something. Do you want to go to the wounded?
Suddenly, New Jae Ryong and Helena's thoughts hit their minds. They both suffered serious injuries, but fortunately, they were treated appropriately and did not harm their lives.
Not only that, I heard that tonight I finally regained my senses as a messenger from the Management Center. Although he complained of mild dizziness as soon as they woke up, he didn't say much. (I had to appear almost as if I had been told that stability comes first.)
It's a little early right now, but maybe it's okay now.
As I thought, I immediately turned around and walked to the wounded care center. As you have already visited this morning, finding a tent where two clans are recovering shouldn't be too difficult.
“Uh, Clan Lord? ”
But the moment I slid into the tent, I had to face a bit of a surprise.
Helena doesn't even see where she went, and she's been asleep for a while now, occupied by Ansol. And in the cot next to me, New Jae Ryong looked at me with his upper body raised. From the food bowl on his thigh, he was probably eating a lot.
“D, come in. ”
Shin Jae Dragon, who quickly wiped his mouth, said, clearing the bowl without making a sound. At this rate, I thought it would look a bit like this when I got out of here, so I decided to go in without any specifications. But I'm a little sorry, so I'll have to leave early.
“It's still early. You must be very hungry. ”
“Yes. I've been starving all day, and I don't think I should. Hahaha.”
As I sat on the outside of the bed and talked, I smiled with a handsome face. When I saw Shin Jae Ryong's grinning, I felt a little uncomfortable, but I barely held back and smiled.
“It's a good thing. You want to eat is proof that you're healthy. ”
“Yes, I think so. Ah, have you eaten Clan Lord? ”
A sudden question. Suddenly, my heart became warm.
Technically... It was because he hadn't eaten very much, but he had almost had a drink or two. I didn't even have a taste for it, but the food didn't go well because it was too slow.
“Just…. It's not lunchtime yet. ”
“Hmmm. You have to. But it looks like they're ready to eat anytime. ”
“It's the wounded care center. Whew. Where's Helena, by the way? ”
“Miss Helena, you have nothing to worry about. She complained about being dizzy after she woke up, and she finally decided to go for a walk. ”
“There's no need to worry. ”
“Haha... Oh, she just fell asleep. He's probably tired of taking care of us all night. ”
Hmm, I see. I've been nursing her all night.
By the way, I need to talk to Ansol... But we can't do this right now.
Yeah, I guess we're just about done with the second wave anyway. There won't be any big business for a while, so it shouldn't be a bad idea to take your time.
I stare at Ansol, who is asleep, making a colorful sound of breath, and I stare at the new dragon on the road.
“Anyway, I'm glad you're looking well. Especially when Hyuni was really worried. ”
“God, I thought you'd be hated. But I'm glad you cared. Hahaha.”
I've decided to get out of the way. I'm fine with almost recovering from a meal or a walk. I think I'll be able to come back tomorrow, so I can take care of what's left and what's not.
At least now I want you to rest.
I slowly got up.
“Uh, are you awake? ”
I nodded my head as if I were already going.
“Yes. Rest is still a priority, but the food will cool down. Sorry to interrupt your meal. ”
“Ah…. Wait a minute, Clan Lord. ”
“Yes?”
“Before you go.... Actually, I have a question. May I ask.”
New Jae Ryong quickly opened his mouth. It was a voice that I thought was a little bit urgent.
Anyway, there was nothing to get in the way. I lightly tucked my chin.
“Of course. Go ahead. ”
“That's... ”
“ ……? ”
“When you rescued me, didn't you see other people around you? ”
Other users?
I felt a sense of wonder and thought about it quietly.
Was there?
No, nothing.
I might not have been able to focus on the new Jae Ryong, but I felt that there was only one way to do it.
“I'm not sure, but I don't think so. around, at least.”
“Well…. Right…."
Did something happen? Suddenly, there was a lump of water on the face of the new Jae Dragon. But that was only for a moment.
“I see. I'm sorry I asked. ”
Immediately, the smiling new dragon lifts off the shadowed darkness and nods calmly.
I shrugged, meaning I didn't care.
“And…. ”
And I was about to leave the tent.
“Thank you so much for saving me. Clan Road.”
Once more, the voice of the new dragon continues.
Thank you for saving me.
I didn't know how to react at all for a moment, but I left before I could even think about it.
“ ……. ”
Suddenly, a tremendous feeling of devastation attacks the whole body. At the same time, the road got complicated in my head.
However, as I felt a slight twitch, I forcefully moved my legs.
... Where do I go now?
No, but first, why am I wandering around so early in the morning?
Time flies.
As I was walking around feeling numb, suddenly I noticed a fence that was frozen solid. It reached the outskirts of the camp one day.
I turned my head and looked up at the sky, and I saw the blue sky slowly bursting open. It wasn't too late yet, so it was a little blurry.
I slowly sat down on the fence, pulled out a lotus candle and asked myself: And I quietly fell into reminiscence.
I had a dream this morning.
And think about it.
It was something I didn't really want to face. So I may have deliberately wandered around and tried to avoid it.
Because it was something I had to do with my own insides.
From the first car to the present day of the second car.
I have killed many innocent users, but on the one hand I have killed many innocent users.
I've saved my colleagues, but I've lost as many as I can.
Repeated experience of such processes resulted in internal injuries that could not be erased.
In order to endure the continuous carvings, I had to find a way to live with myself.
Probably since then.
It started to draw a line, distinguish it with black and white logic, and associate users with tools.
That's how one value is created, and I've used it as my own motto to work in a world called the Hall Plane.
When I returned to the car twice, there was only one thing on my mind.
The kind of purpose of focusing only on you and Han Soyoung.
No matter what else happens.
In other words, it was true that other users actually thought of it as a means of achieving its purpose.
Yesterday, I saved a new dragon.
Of course, no one will think it's wrong. There is no controversy in the outcome that I obtained.
But what I really wanted was to be a problem in the process of saving the new dragon.
Then.
So when I realized that Ansol's miracle as a contingency plan was broken, and the clans didn't come back, I didn't have any thoughts in my head. No, I just thought we should save them.
But I shouldn't have.
'Mercenary Road. You have to think a little bit more rationally.'
Maintenance was not wrong. I had to make a move to figure out if I could save them, if they were worth saving.
I didn't even hesitate to use the elixir.
'I'm going to save my clan. You don't know what this means?'
Yeah, I didn't know if I was gonna have to live at the time, but maybe there was a different future. Saving the new Dragon and saving Elixir, the best future I can think of.
Ironically, however, that choice resulted in the best possible survival of the new dragon. If I had delayed every step of the way, I would have had irreversible results.
The disconnection from right there drove me crazy.
I can only feel it now that everything is done. The values that have supported me so far and 180 degrees of different behavior at that time, the differences between each other become apparent and the gap is only revealed.
Other users may feel fine and applaud.... The gap was, to me, a terrible contradiction. I feel like something in this hellhole has finally let me live.
... Actually, I don't know. Why I'm doing this.
I don't know what kind of smartass I was pretending to be in front of Ahn Hyun.
Pneumatic, Pneumatic.
“… Huh? ”
Suddenly, looking down with a very slightly warmer energy, I could see the flame that had burnt to the end of the candle reaching my finger. I guess you've been thinking too long.
When I regained my mind, I felt a sudden burning throat and a dizzy sensation in my forehead.
By the way, have you had a good rest since you got out of the pit?
“... Phew. ”
Who are you insulting? It's my fault.
I sighed, but I threw away the lotus grass and rubbed it. And as I took out the extra lotus weed, I dropped my head before I knew it.
And that moment.
“Huh."
Suddenly, my dizziness deepened, and I came across severe dizziness and sudden horseback riding.
Tuck!
At about the same time, something hot flows through the crowd and falls to the ground.
Small, but red blood spatter. Reflexively sweeping the nose, blood stains on the back of the hand.
The moment I checked that I was a nosebleed, I thought I was pathetic. My chest is filled with tears.
“Really…. ”
First, I thought of stabilizing the dizziness, but I slowly raised my hand to support my forehead.
“Well…. Come on..."
And I couldn't beat the horse-drawn horse, so I closed my eyes.
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Going next time at midnight.