M E M O R I Z E

He turned around and woke up halfway up and saw Manceraf. A red cape is gathering with a little grasp of when you caught it. But it's not pulling tightly, it's pulling loosely so you can sprinkle it with just a little bit of strength...

“Are you going...? ”

I think I hear a terrible voice. I don't want you to look at me with those eyes. It's like a poor woman watching a romantic leave without spending a night.

I poked my hand in my pocket for no reason. I touched the zero-code in my hand. Seraph opens his mouth when he can't even catch his breath about what to say.

“I want to talk to Su-hyun a little more. ”

“A story?”

“Isn't it a little harsh to just say what you want to say and hear what you want to say? ”

“Well, what. ”

The angel spawned unconditionally. However, I stare at Seraph, who shines his eyes as if he is calm and longing for something.

... Now that I think about it, Seraph might be the last time I see him. The next time we meet, we can use a zero code. Maybe now's the only time to talk. I think that's why.... Will I accept or not?

“ ……. ”

In fact, the feelings of seeing Seraph lately are quite subtle. I don't even know if I like it or not. It should be said that the standards are not clearly lowered.

When did you think about it? When did you find out that Seraph had borrowed Ansol's body or followed me back to work?

Anyway, one thing I'm sure of since then is that the hatred that I don't want to see is washed away like the old days. Yeah, that's it.

“That said, ”

As he slowly pulls out his cloak and speaks, Seraph lifts his eyes slightly and stands completely up from the altar.

“There was something I wanted to ask you. ”

At that moment, “Wait, an hour, maybe 30 minutes…!” Serrap, who shouted late, looks stunned as he sits back on the altar.

“Why? It's okay to stay a little longer. ”

He opens his eyes, naturally pulling out the lotus grass, and gently pours out his eyes, then sits down on the altar. However, it was clear that the two eyes looked at a completely different place and the lower lip protruded. I've never seen Seraph throw up before. It's pretty cute.

“Are you upset?”

“I'm not upset. ”

“Phew... Okay, but what did you want to talk to me about? ”

“ ……. ”

With a slightly angry voice, Seraph sighs heavily for a moment.

After a while of silence, Seraph gives me a grumpy look. Soon, the tail of my mouth went up.

“In fact, Suhyun's latest trends have been observed by the liver. ”

“What?"

“You seemed to be having a great time with a lot of women. ”

“… Did you see it? ”

Seraph nods. Hmm. The energy is getting hotter. But I'm like, "So? ’I managed to get the meaning conveyed.

“If you wanted me to be ashamed, you'd be wrong. ”

“No way. I'm not that immature. ”

I yawned for a long time. It's the night. It's weird. Wouldn't want you to get up too late.

At that time, Seraph spoke.

“Just…. ”

“Just?”

“I was jealous.”

“Ha, I envy you. ”

As I chewed the lotus grass and spoke, I continued to laugh lightly. Hmm. It's been a long time since I've spoken to Seraph like this. Making jokes isn't any worse than I thought.

“Speaking of which, Soo-hyun. ”

Later, Seraph, who had tightly tapped into his body, whispered in his ear.

“Do me a favor, by the way. ”

“Listen.”

I murmured, lighting the candle while I was chewing.

Suddenly, my vision suddenly slipped. I closed my eyes once and then opened them, and the gray ceiling was trampled on. Serrap looks down at me with his head halfway down. At the same time, I could feel the soft feeling that comfortably supports the back of my neck.

Knee pillow. I guess Seraph wants to see me embarrassed somehow.

“This is a request? ”

At this point, Seraph shakes his head. And without saying a word, I move my hands and start sweeping my hair calmly. Slowly, very slowly, without rest.... I have no reason to refuse now. I surrendered quietly.

“Mmmm... ”

The gray altar was cold, but Seraph's touch was warmer than that. I feel good. When my head is free, my body is stretched out and I close my eyes by myself. I feel like I'm lying in the grasslands in the fresh spring.

In this state, how much time has passed.

“Soo-hyun.”

Suddenly, Seraph spoke. I agreed to close my eyes completely and stared at Seraph. I feel a little rusty because of my narrower vision.

“Su-hyun... How was your life in Hall Plain? ”

“ ……? ”

It was a sudden, but rhetorical question. Suddenly, I swallowed a horse to ask him what he was talking about. Maybe that's what Seraph was asking me to do.

“Well…. ”

You mutter and reminisce like a soliloquy.

If it had been before, he would have said something negative without thinking. Of course, I can still say that.

If you only take it seriously once, there is no point in saying it differently.

“Even though I was unhappy... ”

When I witnessed my brother's death, I was unhappy. I didn't have to suffer, I had to watch my colleague die, and I don't want to even think about the time I saw the corruption of the woman I admire. Beyond this, there were countless unfortunate memories.

But was he complaining the whole time he was acting as a user?

“I have a good memory... ”

Technically, it wasn't. When I met my brother, when I was saved by Han Soyoung, when I met Gehenna, when Mar and Suna were born, when my colleagues came to rescue me.... Memories then are clearly not included in the category of unhappiness. This is also untold.

While I was tidying up my thoughts, I felt a tingling sensation on my face. A subtle, shiny silver hair flows down. Serrap's face seems to be gradually tilting.

Then why... You don't see any more detail than before, do you? The field of view became quite unclear. Even my eyelids are getting heavier without me knowing it.

“You don't have to forget the past, but you don't have to get involved. ”

I opened my eyes for a moment and just closed my eyes a little more. I don't know why, but the feeling of gently touching the whole body wasn't so bad. Rather, I want to fall asleep like this.

“So shouldn't Su-hyun be happy now, too? ”

Soft voice flows like a lullaby.

“That's it... ”

Of course, who doesn't want to live happily?

Seraph speaks.

“Then, what is Su-hyun's happy life like? ”

At that moment, I was speechless.

“ ……. ”

This was the problem.

Individuals value different things. Therefore, what is defined as happiness is inevitably different. Neither am I.

“Happiness.... ”

The happy life that ordinary people pursue and the life that I feel happy are very different from each other. Can we say that we are happy living a life where we have to kill and slaughter constantly to feel the meaning of our lives? Even if I get satisfied with myself, what about the eyes of the people around me, such as my brother or Han Soyoung...?

The Temple of Promise.

‘Is unknown the result of an external face. I'm sorry to see you so afraid of the future of choice. Even though I was 15 years away from the moment I wanted... ’

‘Well, if the poison that made me survive is gone, it might be mental wear. Then you're already getting beautifully shattered... ’

The words of the Zero Code were incredibly empathetic.

At some point, I started to deceive myself. Among them, the most cautious were the feelings in response to sadness and pain. I thought crying because I couldn't overcome the pain was weak.

I wanted to be stronger for revenge than anyone else. When I wanted to cry, I gripped my teeth and held back my tears. If it seemed insufferable, I replaced it with a feeling of anger. As I continued to deceive myself, my tear glands dried up completely.

... In the end, all that remains is nothing and nothing.

“Maybe…. ”

That's why.

So I wanted to cry. I wanted to shed tears, rather than smile.

When you are happy, you can smile sincerely, but when you are unhappy, you cannot smile sincerely.

But crying is not limited to sad situations. It is possible when you are happy. I often cry because I'm too happy, or because I can't overcome my emotions.

Yeah, I mean, you can cry if you want to.

If we go any further.

“I can live like a human.... Such a life...? ”

“… is that right? ”

As I barely finished answering, I felt something that was stumbling in front of my eyes slowly became distant. I think Seraph raised his head...

“I understand.”

It's strange.

“If Su-hyun really wants to do it. ”

I tried to keep up, but my whole body was powerless.

“I would be happy to respect Su-hyun's sincerity. ”

Rather, I felt like I was limping.

I had only just realized that I was losing my mind. No, I can't. I still have something to ask you.

“Now that I'm here.... ”

It was that moment.

“I, five years ago, swore an oath before the Zero Code, ”

At the same time, Serrap's blurry figure completely dissipates, rapidly darkening vision.

“I think it's time we fulfilled our vows at that time. ”

Seraph?

‘Don't get me wrong, please listen. As I said before, user Kim Soo-hyun currently has a considerable amount of GP. It's completely unreasonable to get rid of it. ’

“Don't get me wrong, please listen. First, I understand Su-hyun's desire to return to the bar and Earth. But I can assure you, it's never rational to go back like this. ”

Seraph? What are you saying?

‘It's unbelievable, but your will has triggered a zero-code response. Okay, with the help of the helper, we'll randomize the details. Of course, it won't hurt Kim Soo-hyun as much as fingernails. We'll see you soon after we're done. ’

“Su-hyun... With the authority of the helper.... To request randomly…. Of course, the sun goes down on Su-hyun.... ”

Shit, I can't hear you. No matter how hard you try to concentrate, your consciousness becomes blurred at all times.

“Then after the work is done.... ”

The last thing I heard of him was...

“To see you again... ”

It was Seraph speaking in a slightly damp voice.

“It must be hard...? ”

At the same time, I let go of the rope of consciousness I was holding for a while.

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Soo-hyun Kim: Maybe, a life that can cry...?

SS: Then cry.

Soo-hyun Kim:?

Seraph: Cry and prove your innocence! Hey, you!