Master of Trading Star Card Game

[Lin Kao Fan-08]

My brother personally delivered the medicine and read the doctor's order peacefully. Chen Xiao really didn't know whether to cry or laugh.

Can't you just say "thank you"? Chen Xiao stared down at the coffee cup and remained silent. Chen Qianlin saw his brother about to bury his face in coffee and followed closely: “Are you seriously hurt? ”

Chen Xiaohong coughed lightly with a red face: “Not serious. ”

Chen Qianlin bluntly said: “I watched the video and you are bleeding. You should go to the hospital to check it out. ”

Chen Xiao: “..."

Chen Qianlin: “Want me to take you to the hospital? ”

Chen Xiao shook his hand immediately: “No, brother, it's not serious! ”

Can we change the subject? Stop talking about this embarrassing thing, okay? Chen Xiao just wanted to change the subject and suddenly caught the keyword in his sentence - the video.

Chen Xiao's face suddenly white, trembling: “Sight, video? You mean the one recorded by Zhang and Zhang Peng...”

“Hmm.” Chen Qianlin nodded calmly, "The recording was very clear. ”

“ ………… ”

I can't talk to my brother anymore. What the hell is “recorded clearly”? How many times has he seen it?

"Rest assured, I've asked the police to delete all of Zhang Peng's video archives, including a backup he released on time in a small space, which will no longer be seen. ”

Chen's face was pale, especially by his brother's calm eyes. His head also drifted lower as he sat on a needle felt.

I thought my brother had lost consciousness and would never know exactly what happened that night. As a result, Zhang Peng, the bastard, actually recorded the video and Chen Qianlin saw the whole process... Chen Xiao was completely incompetent!

Chen Qianlin saw his younger brother with his head down, his heart was soft.

When I was a kid, every time Chen Xiao made a mistake, his parents asked him to go to school as a parent. When he came home, Chen Xiao pulled his head and didn't dare look up at his brother - from childhood until he was older, if he made a mistake, he would habitually lower his head.

However, in this special case, it is not only his personal responsibility to make mistakes. The culprit is also Zhang Peng's carefully designed trap. Chen Qianlin sighed softly at the bottom of his heart and shifted the subject: “When the police checked, they found Zhang Peng sent you an e-mail, blackmailing 70 million yuan. You promised to raise money for him. What happened? Did you get the money? ”

Chen Xiao turned to God and told him honestly: “I borrowed some money from Tang Muzhou. I tried to lure Snake out of the hole to cheat Zhang Peng out. As a result, my brother did much better than me. Before I could pay, Zhang Peng was caught. ”

"- [sic]“ I wish I hadn't given it to you. If you don't need this money, give it back to Don Muzhou before he thinks about it. ”

Chen Xiao nodded immediately: “Of course. ”

The two men were silent for a moment, and Chen Qianlin calmly said: “This can't be all your fault. ”

Chen Xiao's back was slightly stiff and realized that his brother was finally going to spread out to talk about it in person. He tightened his fingers nervously under the table and seeped fine sweat beads on his forehead.

In order not to look too wretched, he deliberately straightened his back and sat like a statue.

Chen Qianlin glanced at him and went on to say: “Zhang Peng has been handled by me. Now there are only two things left between us. We should think about a solution. ”

Chen Xiao's eyes were slightly red and his voice remained as calm as possible: “What do you want to do about it? ”

He was afraid that Chen Qianlin would say, "Adults should be held accountable for their actions. Since a relationship has already happened, we can't be brothers. It's best not to see each other again - if Chen Qianlin really says so, what else can he do? He couldn't think of any reason to rebut it, except with a hard scalp.

The more Chen Xiao thought about it, the harder he felt, he lowered his head and drank coffee. The coffee at the entrance was bitter, and the bitter taste went all the way to the heart.

Chen Qianlin continued to say calmly: “Chen Xiao, I hope you understand that I will not be with you because I slept with you once, that is irresponsible to you. I want to ask you, are you not dead to your brother? Do you secretly like your brother? ”

Brother's calm eyes pierced his heart like a sword. Chen Xiao sat upright like a cat trampled on his tail, stuttering: “How and how, brother, you think too much. ”

Chen Qianlin frowned softly: “The bathroom part was not recorded in the video, so I don't have a clear memory of how we started. Have you been drinking and losing your mind? Or have you been awake all along? ”

There is a big difference between the two. If Chen Xiao also lost his mind, it would explain very well that one drug, one alcohol brain, neither of them knew what they were doing. After that, Chen Xiao sober up and apologized to his brother, which makes sense.

What happens after drinking doesn't have to be too much of a psychological burden, maybe they can continue to be brothers.

But if Chen Xiao was awake from the beginning, it would be different in nature - indicating that Chen Xiao had not forgotten about his brother, and it was Chen Xiao's willingness to take advantage of this opportunity to have a relationship.

Chen Qianlin's problem was clear. Chen Qianlin either admitted to being sober and had always admired his brother; or he went over with "I was drunk too” Laipi - he did not dare to choose the former because he had drunk and held his brother's confession, and Chen Qianlin packed his bags and left him the next day. For five years, they were unable to meet.

Those five painful days and nights made Chen Xiao dare not recall.

It was not easy to persuade my brother to come back. If he breaks up again, he does not know if he can survive. And the Nirvana squad now needs Chen Qianlin. If he pushes the coach away for emotional reasons, he will be sorry for the team members Cheol, Xiao Ke and Qin Xuan.

So his only way out is to keep his feelings hidden.

Chen Xiao took a deep breath and drank a big bitter cup of coffee, so he said easily: "Brother, if I were awake, I wouldn't have done anything so retarded. ”

This was really brainless. Chen Xiao scolded himself and explained closely: "I played games with a few little stars that night, as well as Cheol and Ko downstairs, until 10: 00. The werewolf killing game is too much of a test act, brother, you know, I've been acting badly since I was a kid, that night I had bad luck again, always smoked the werewolf to be guessed out, drank a lot of wine. ”

“By the time I got to your room, I was really drunk and I didn't even know what was going on. When I woke up completely, I realized that we had... cough, I'm really sorry about this.” He tried to keep his tone as calm as possible and smiled, "I wish I was sober. ”

“…” Chen Qianlin stared seriously at him, although his tone deliberately pretended to be relaxed, but his slightly trembling lips revealed too many emotions of the master. Chen Qianlin frowned and did not directly poke Chen Xiao.

Chen Xiao sipped another cup of coffee and continued: “Brother, don't think too much, I really don't remember what happened. I've been blaming myself for the past few days. I wanted to find an opportunity to apologize to you, but I couldn't get my face off...”

Chen Qianlin bluntly said: “In that case, let's all forget about that night. ”

Chen Xiao quickly reacted. "It's time to forget, anyway, I don't remember very clearly... brother, don't you blame me? ”

"'I don't blame you,' said Chen Qianlin. ”

Chen Xiao looked at his brother's indifferent eyes and his heart was tight. I wonder if my brother can see that he is lying. Although it is a terrible lie, at least Chen Qianlin did not throw him away and did not completely break off his brotherhood. He can stay with his brother and the Nirvana competition will not be affected... this is already the best result.

A moment later, Chen Qianlin suddenly said: "Find a girlfriend, and a boyfriend can do it. As long as the other person really cares about you and likes you, whoever you are with, I will bless you. ”

Chen Xiao's eyes were bitterly acidic and forced back tears that almost snatched his orbit.

Find a girlfriend or a boyfriend? Are you kidding me? In my heart, how can I tolerate anyone but you? More than 10 years of bitter love, is it that easy to let go?!

Chen Qianlin went on to say, "Whether you have feelings for me or not, I always thought you were my brother. I'm a bachelor and I don't marry anybody, because I've never been used to being too close to people since I was a kid, and you should feel that. Right?"

Chen Xiao's lips shook and couldn't say a word.

Yes, Chen Qianlin has never been too close to him. Even when he was a kid, he chased his brother for a run.

Chen Qianlin looked at his brother, his eyes were rarely gentle, “Chen Xiao, emotions are mutual, find someone who likes you, you can be truly happy with him. I'm sure my parents and I both want you to have a happy marriage, you know what I mean? ”

Chen Xiao silenced for a moment, tears in his eyes almost fell out. He stiffened his gaze, looked up at the clouds outside the window, and did not make himself cry in front of his brother.

Chen Qianlin came to him for a very clear purpose. The first was to deliver medicine and the second was to make his words clear in person in case he had unrealistic expectations. In Chen Qianlin's view, emotional matters are nothing more than “love” and “not love”. Love is together. If you don't love, simply refuse. The biggest harm is knowing you don't like each other, but hanging your appetite, always giving them fantasy and wasting time.

rather have brief pains than long ones.

Chen Qianlin could see that his brother was lying, because Chen Xiao in the video did not look drunk at all, but more like he loved him so much that he could bear to cry and kiss his forehead when he left.

Such a dark love is destined to be painful and hopeless. After a long period of time, huge wounds will form in the bottom of his heart. Chen Qianlin knows that this kind of face-to-face refusal will make Chen Xiao very sad and embarrassing, but it is also the only way to completely dig the wound at once and fully heal from within.

Don't love your brother, it's not worth it. You should find someone who really loves you and loves you to spend the rest of your life with.

Chen Qianlin stood up after explaining his words and patted Chen Xiao's shoulder gently. "You are my brother and my parents' favorite youngest son. You and I are a family, but not someone who can spend the rest of your life with you. Chen Xiao, put down the past, there will be better people waiting for you, understand? ”

Chen Xiao nodded stiffly and swallowed: “I understand... brother. ”

At the end of the day, the "brother” screamed so sour, his voice was trembling.

He knows that in this life, Chen Qianlin can only be his brother.

Chen Qianlin said: “I will go home first, and you will come back as soon as possible after the Dean's birthday. Mom and Dad contacted me the other day and said they hadn't seen our brothers for a long time, hoping we could go back on vacation. ”

Chen Xiao lowered his head: “Hmm. ”

Chen Qianlin looked at the bag on the eye table and finally ordered: “Remember to take your medicine on time. ”

Chen Xiao: “… OK. ”

Chen Qianlin finally turned around and left. Chen Xiao collapsed on the table. He felt that the air in his chest was suddenly drawn away. His heart ached for a spasm. He pressed his chest hard and breathed deeply again and again. However, the pain was not relieved, but intensified.

Happiness?

This is a fucking joke!

I can't be with my beloved brother. What else do I talk about happiness in Chen Xiao's life? Do I have to admire you all these years if I can find someone to be happy? Do you think my feelings over the years are toys of children, that I can put them down?

Chen Qianlin's approach was truly sensible and frightening, and the three words allowed Chen Xiaolin to fully understand the reality.

First, my brother has always considered him to be his younger brother. He has never had any other feelings for him before, nor will he ever;

Second, my brother didn't like to get too close to people. Whatever happened that night, it was the effect of drugs. I completely forgot that I could continue to be a brother;

Third, go find someone else and don't waste time on your brother.

How calm is Lin Gon? How can he refuse?

In fact, Chen Xiao, if someone he doesn't like keeps bothering him in pursuit, he will also be impatient and decisively refuse. Decline without love, which is the simplest and most straightforward way to handle it. He clearly doesn't love each other, but he always gives them hope. That's what scum men do.

From a rational point of view, Chen Qianlin's approach is not wrong. Whether dealing with Zhang Peng or dealing with his brother's emotional problems, Chen Qianlin's affairs are too simple, too beautiful, and truly “leave no room”.

But Chen Xiao felt the pain of tearing his heart apart because of his brother's lack of room.

This relationship is doomed to fail. Should I really persevere? Or, as my brother said, why don't you just put it down and try to be with someone else? But besides Chen Qianlin, who else could he fall in love with?

He doesn't even have the strength to love a person.

He also wants to be single for the rest of his life. But in that case, Chen Qianlin will misunderstand again. He thought that his brother was not dead... but he could find someone to hang out with, and Chen Xiao could not fool himself.

Chen Xiaoxiao stared at the coffee cup in front of him and was in a bit of a trance.

After not knowing how long, the door in the bag room was suddenly pushed open, Zheng also walked in with a white face. "Brother Xiao, you have been out for five hours, I can't wait to come to you. Asked the waiter to find out you are alone in the bag room... what is wrong with you? ”

Chen Xiaoru woke up at the beginning of his dream and looked red at Zheng Yi, his voice was thick with sand and dumb: “My brother said that he only thought I was his brother, we couldn't possibly, let me find someone else to fall in love with... I knew he always thought I was his brother, but he still slept with him like a retard... so many handsome and beautiful women all over the world, who do I like, prefer him? ”

Zheng knew this would happen.

With Chen Qianlin's temperament, he really won't be with people he doesn't like because of the relationship.

He walked up to Chen Xiao and patted Chen Xiao's shoulder in a heartfelt manner. "Emotional matters are inherently difficult to control. Your brother is really good in all aspects except his cold personality. When you were a kid, you always wanted to have a home. After being adopted by the Chen family, Chen Qianlin raised you with his own hands. You liked him for a reason... Don't blame yourself, Brother Qiao, you are not wrong. ”

"“ Am I right? "exclaimed Chen Xiaoran. ”

Zheng also very definitely nodded: “You're right, he's right, maybe you're just not right. If he asked you to give up in person, what would you expect? Let it go, let it go, let it go. ”

Let yourself go?

Perhaps both brother and Zheng are right. Liking Chen Qianlin has become an obsession at the bottom of Chen Qianlin's heart, tormenting him for nearly 10 years. That obsession has taken root at the bottom of his heart, and the root of the disk is spread all over his heart. Once abandoned, it will definitely pull out the root and bring out the blood meat at the same time. However, only a complete removal can slowly heal the pain in his heart, so that he can live like a normal person.

Instead of this lousy, depressed, motionless, red-eyed fool right now.

Such a hopeless love, he really doesn't have the strength to persevere. He hates himself so much.

Chen Xiao rubbed red eyes hard, "I know, a big man, can't afford to let go, I feel ashamed too. Don't worry, I won't let myself live like this anymore. It's time to let go.” He took a deep breath and put a smile on his face. "By the way, I didn't even eat dinner. Let's go. Brother invited you to dinner. ”

Zheng also looked at his relaxed appearance and sighed softly at the bottom of his heart, saying nothing more.

Although Chen Xiao would be very painful to let go of this relationship, from a friend's point of view, Zheng also wanted him to let go. He has been bitterly in love with Chen Qianlin for so many years, but he has not given him any hope. Why should he be so hard on himself?

Let go of this feeling and let go of yourself. Without that obsession, it will be much easier in the future.

Zheng also followed Chen Xiao's footsteps, "Brother Xiao, no matter what you decide, I will support you. ”

Chen Xiao smiled: “Hmm. Let's go.”

He stood up and walked out the door, unconsciously the sky was dark, warm yellow street lamp lengthened his figure, he carried the medicine given by Chen Qianlin in his hand, he walked with wounds on his body, and felt a clear tingle, seemed to remind him of that night's irrationality.

Surely, that was the only opportunity in his life to be close to his brother.

Chen Xiao raised his head and forced the tears under his eyes back. He took a deep breath of fresh air. The remote suburban environment was fine. Chen Xiao looked around and smiled at Zheng and said to him: “I borrowed money from Tang Muzhou for the time being. At the time, I said I was going to buy a house and simply fake it. I bought a house near the orphanage, and later I lived here. I went back to see Dean Zheng and some of your friends. It was fine. ”

In his sentence, he seemed to have a new beginning. Zheng also smiled: “Welcome, it's really quiet here, we all live close, we'll be old in the future, we can still play chess fishing together. ”

Chen Xiao thought about the image of a group of gray-haired old men fishing together and couldn't help but look forward to: “Yes, we were together, just like when we were kids. ”

He thought that when the Nirvana Club had recruited enough new people, when the new people grew up, he could hand Nirvana over to Archer, let everything go completely, and go back to the beginning - and back before he ever met Chen Qianlin.

At that time, he was surrounded by only a few equally fatherless friends, several of whom were orphans, and the director of the orphanage, Zheng, looked after them like a loving father. His life was calm but peaceful.

The last time I mistreated Chen Xiao ~ ~