Maybe I can't have normal youth

Zhao Bai'an returned to the bedroom, and Yang Liu Yiyi and Gao Yanran started daily inquiries as usual.

"Xiao An, how are you doing today?"

Gao Yanran asked more implicitly, while Yang Liu Yiyi's mood became stronger.

She asked with excitement, "Xiao An, please tell me, is there anything about Coke? What did he do for you today?"

Zhao Baian has become accustomed to the gossip of two people, and gradually got used to the relationship with Chen Yudi.Now she no longer has the original youthfulness, but is a little bit willing to share with everyone.The roommates are gossiping like this, there is no way, after all, their other places are very good, so Zhao Baian doesn't hate this.

In fact, deep in Zhao Baian’s heart, she still has a little bit of joy. After all, Chen Yudi is really good to her now. Sometimes girls do fantasize about being a princess, and she has a loyal and careful follower. In fact, she now experiences a feeling of being praised as a treasure, so she is happy to share it with everyone.

Zhao Baian briefly talked to Yang Liu Yiyi and Gao Yanran about the process of getting along with each other today.Zhao Bai'an was unwilling to elaborate too much, after all, it was completely unnecessary.

But even if Zhao Baian cut a thousand words into ten words, Yang Liu Yiyi was still able to imagine 10,000 words in her mind. She was surprised and exclaimed, "Wow, that Chen Yudi who doesn't talk too much. There is such an unknown side, he is so romantic!"

Zhao Baian replied: "Liu Yiyi, what do you think? Is it really romantic to give food?"

What Zhao Baian was telling was the truth, she was indeed only a little touched in her heart and didn't feel very romantic.

Gao Yanran smiled and said, "Xiao'an, although I haven't been in a relationship, I have watched that kind of TV series. I think the problem is not what he gave, but the meaning behind what he gave."

Yang Liu Yiyi nodded in agreement: "Yes, yes, he can be so careful that it is already romantic. It proves that he holds you in his palms and loves in his heart."

Zhao Baian suddenly felt a little embarrassed. She didn't think so deeply. Now Yang Liu Yiyi's words were too straightforward, and she suddenly felt a hot feeling on her face.

Zhao Baian randomly found a reason and ended the discussion between them today: "Oh, let's not talk about it, I'm going to rest, I don't know why I suddenly feel so sleepy."

Yang Liu Yiyi and Gao Yanran did not speak, but smiled at each other. They were really happy for Zhao Baian in their hearts.

In the past, two people felt that Zhao Baian was a little lonely, not without friends. It seemed that she was receiving any emotions, but at the same time shielding all emotions, as if the outermost layer of the body could absorb everything but could not wear anything. The film in the past was mediocre.

The two even discussed in private whether Zhao Baian's college life would be so ordinary.Yangliu Yiyi hopes that Zhao Baian can fall in love. Of course, she hopes that everyone in 605 can fall in love, so that she can have more melons to eat. Although Gao Yanran doesn’t care whether her friends fall in love or not, after all, she herself It was refused, but this does not prevent Zhao Baian from finding warm support.

Now Yang Liu Yiyi and Gao Yanran suddenly see that Zhao Baian is happier than before. As friends and roommates, they naturally wish Zhao Baian from the bottom of their hearts.

After finishing washing, Zhao Baian returned to his little bed, lying on the bed and quickly fell asleep.

She came to a place that felt very, very familiar.

what!Yes!

This is the rehearsal venue of the theater!

Looking at the familiar scene, Zhao Baian slowly approached, and quietly opened the door, only to find that all the people in the theater were lying on the ground, not knowing what they were doing.Except that she herself is not inside, Xu Hao is not inside either

She looked at this scene and felt a little familiar, but she couldn't remember it for a while. Zhao Baian always felt that her head was clouded.

She tiptoedly closed the door.

"Click!"

Obviously Zhao Baian's movements were very light, but the door lock still made a sound, which was particularly abrupt in this very quiet scene.

Zhao Baian's heartbeat speeded up instantly, and cold sweat emerged from her back. She twisted her stiff neck and looked back. Fortunately, everyone was still the same as when she came in at the beginning and was not disturbed by the sound.

"Inhale"

"Exhale"

"Inhale"

"Exhale"

Director Xiao's voice came over, and Zhao Baian was relieved and finally remembered that she just went out to the toilet, and before that, their theater company was conducting meditation training.

Approaching the crowd, Zhao Baian found that they were all closed with their eyes, and Wang Yichuan was still lying on the ground in a "big" shape, looking very relaxed.

But only Chen Yudi's eyes opened round and looked around panicked.

Zhao Baian quietly approached Chen Yudi, and she bent down and asked in a dumb voice: "What's wrong with you? Classmate Magician? What's wrong with you?

Chen Yudi's expression was a little nervous, Zhao Baian didn't know why, a similar expression suddenly flashed in her mind, which seemed more painful than the one before her.

She shook her head, then knelt down and hurriedly supported Chen Yudi who was lying, and helped him to the nearest corner to sit and rest.

Chen Yudi shook his head and said weakly, "I don't want to sit here."

Before Zhao Baian could react, Chen Yudi stood up alone and walked towards the entrance of the theater.He was the same as when Zhao Baian came in, opened the door with his waist and walked out.Leave Zhao Baian who hasn't reacted yet.

Zhao Baian hurried to catch up. After two "clicks" passed, both of them went to the corridor of the rehearsal venue.

Chen Yudi looked at the scenery from a distance, and the breath around him felt depressed and sad. Zhao Baian watched and watched this way, and suddenly proposed: "Well, let's go out and walk on the sports field, okay?"

After Chen Yudi heard Zhao Baian say this, the tight expression on his face relaxed. He nodded at Zhao Baian, and the two came to the school playground together.

Zhao Baian felt a little strange looking at this playground, because there seemed to be no one in the playground today, which was very unusual.

But she is not in the mood to worry about these now. She has more important tasks. She is very concerned about what happened to Chen Yudi.This is the low pressure that is usually hard to feel on his body.

She walked around the playground, and then straight to the point: "What happened to you just now?"

Chen Yudi rolled her eyes, and then responded: "Ah, I just feel a little uncomfortable."

Zhao Baian didn't understand too much, and tilted his head: "What is your discomfort?"

Chen Yudi's expression at this time suddenly became more serious than before. He stared at Zhao Bai'an, then looked away, sighed and said hesitatingly: "I...I don't like that...I hate that. Tension, I don’t like this form either..."

"Does this form... mean meditation?" Zhao Baian didn't understand.

"Correct."

Chen Yudi expressed his thoughts, but Zhao Baian was lost in thought.She recalled some things alone, and there were many images in series in her mind.

It suddenly occurred to her that she seemed to have experienced something similar before, but she didn't know why, as there was a mist of mist in her head, and she couldn't see clearly even how to see it.

Until Chen Yudi said softly to himself: "Because I have seen a psychiatrist before, he always let me do meditation practice. So meditation will only make me recall uncomfortable things."

The misty images in Zhao Baian's mind finally dissipated, and a thought flashed in her mind, and she began to suspect that Chen Yudi had depression before.

She thought that she had come into contact with cases like this before, and deliberately checked some manifestations and treatments of depression.And in terms of their country, going to a psychiatrist is not a very common thing, so Chen Yudi seems so hesitant.Although this is definitely a prejudice, because seeing a psychiatrist is actually just a regulation of emotions, and it has nothing to do with whether there is a mental illness.

Besides, depression, anxiety, mania, etc. are all diseases. They are not very different from colds, fevers, stomachaches, etc., and should not be treated differently.In many cases, people’s fear or prejudice makes everything worse.

"So." In response, Zhao Baian decided to get started, "Yudi, have you ever had a similar related disease? It doesn't matter if you still have it now."

Chen Yudi stopped.

Zhao Baian also stopped immediately, looked up into his eyes, and then smiled lightly.

"Yes...yes. I used to...mild..." Chen Yudi looked at Zhao Bai'an's eyes, looked at the calm eyes without any impurities, and then decided to say again, "I had mild depression before. It’s just a short time."

"It's okay." Zhao Baian turned around and took Chen Yudi's hand. Her hands were rarely warm. "I think you are fine now, and I like you very much now."

As soon as Zhao Baian raised her head, something flashed in front of her eyes, as if two faces with similar expressions were superimposed on each other, perhaps it was a momentary dazzling, because she blinked and disappeared.

Zhao Baian held Chen Yudi's hand and rubbed it lightly: "Yudi, is there anything you want to say? If so, I'm willing to listen."

Zhao Bai settled down for a while: "I am a listener."