Maybe I can't have normal youth

Zhaobai An Daileng looked at his hands. And she was kind of uncomfortable, repressed feelings actually seems a lot better.

Perhaps it is distracted, or perhaps distracted heart pain.

Zhaobai An can not help but laugh.

"Hahaha!"

Only this silk smile appears to be as bitter, but it puts her like epiphany came to understand.

Among her extreme pain, she had found a way out inadvertently.

She also slightly mixed feelings at this time, Zhaobai An Zhaobai An ah, you is I did not expect this external pain can shift your attention so that you can feel my heart feel better.

"Ha ha ha ha ha ha ...... ......" waves of jeers self in this rainy night rhythm is particularly harsh.

After not know how long, until Zhaobai An easing a lot, she slowly got up, returned to the hospital again.

But this time her parents not so good temper, saw Zhaobai An came back, my mother first'll be tempted to rush to seize the disobedient daughter, Chase hysterical shouting: "Do you how to do not stay good, you ...... "

She did not finish, suddenly enlarged pupils between, because without him, she saw Zhaobai An hands are still bleeding wounds.

In fact, those wounds were not serious, but it appears to be extremely ferocious, my mother was scared, and quickly loud cry doctor.

Soon the effort, the doctor was surrounded forward, then Zhaobai An was forcibly dragged back to the ward inside.

Zhaobai An feel stumbled, and some bear, bed and stumble toward the past.

So when she opened her eyes again, after many days already, she saw his eyes red from crying mother, but also saw extremely reluctantly walked in the room of his father.

They saw Zhaobai An woke up, what did not ask how, but she said something around intimate words.

Zhaobai An did not say anything, she has been surprisingly quiet.

This time she is obedient, really obedient to always stay inside the hospital with the doctors, with their parents, reminding us of scenes between the twinkling of an eye she changed character.

The parents are happy for this purpose,

Gradually seems a family of three returned to the joy in the previous calm.

Everything seems to be slowly developed, and it seems that all haze is also terminated on the day of Zhao Bai'an with scars.

In the next few days, Zhao Bai'an lived on the life of the class, got up every morning, the doctor will check, then ask her to have any feelings, where is it uncomfortable.

However, she never spent talking, only parents followed the answer, Zhao Bai'an seems to have become silent after that day.

The time has passed, and the past is a week, Zhao Bai An is discharged home.

After returning home, she took the initiative to put himself into the room, the parents were very helpless, but there were not many words.

For them, now the situation, it has been much better than the previous mess.

So, in addition to comforting your daughter, there is no more saying more, just in the current situation.

Just Zhao Bai'an did not have a lot of self-enclosed, she still depressed, the most ironic is that the Senus Mountain has a ruthless dating, and she appeared almost every moment in her mind.

In this mood, she asked himself every day and was forced to repeatedly recall.

She has no resistance to this, but she can suppress it.

When every emotion is about to be out of control, Zhao Bai An will look at the wounds in his hand. Then she will think of the tips of the blood you get under extreme collapse.

Under such a psychological stimulation, Zhao Bai'an is awake and confused. Sometimes it will still be self-extricted.

She lives every day in the fans of the emotions, after which it will be invisible to follow the day.

She will deliberately break the fast wound, peel off, pull the wound, and look at the blood again.

She feels that there is only this way to make myself a little, and it is true that this is indeed useful.

Zhao Bai An inhibited the pain in the heart through the outside world, so her repeatedly suffered a temporary relief.

Gradually, she actually fell on this feeling, this kind of feeling of being in the heart through external pain.

After that, she will continue to do this, and the wound healing she will draw, healy will be opened, she hopes that such pain can save her. However, things have anyway, under such stimulation, although Zhao Bai'an's heart has got an ultra-offshore redemption, her body has already heeds.

On the occasion of the summer, the wound repeatedly cut it, and did not get a good treatment. Infection is an inevitable thing.

At the end of her wound, even some ulcerations, Zhao Bai An finally couldn't hold, because it was fell.

The entire fully confused person is once again sent to the hospital.

Dream and here, Zhao Bai An ignored a chill, then she suddenly woke up from the dream.

She is fascinating, I can't distinguish myself in a moment, and my memory has a shortage of faults.

There was a sense of confusion after the dream and reality of the dream and real-inlaid plug, Zhao Bai'an looked down at his hand and did not have a wound above.

She was retired for a while, and then the memory slowly started to turn, she finally remembered, I am on the returning plane!

She remembered that since she got another promise of Sen Mountain, she received a reply of professors, saying that she only gave a week-old rest holiday for three days. Forget it, the plane is back and forth for two days, so I quickly fly back to the United States in advance.

Remembering the scene in the airport in the airport, Zhao Bai'an began to miss, she even sat unenresses, when she couldn't intend to reach her clothes pocket, and found a folded paper.

Confused open, the above display is the writer of Sen Mountain.

Write above: Sorry, some things, I should explain it to you.

At the beginning of the year, I at the time of myself, myself, because of the role of treating depression, I will shield a lot of emotions and thinking, and then my mother constantly instilled, so I did convinced that if I didn't have me, you Zhao Bai'an I have better, so I finally compromise myself.

But at that time, I was very painful. I really reluctantly, but some things really have no way to be around myself.

I have been very embarrassed to you, I have even think of never appear in front of you, but I will not take the initiative to find me, I will not bother your life.

Although I have been with your feelings in my heart, I have been suppressing, but the world is difficult, I always feel that your return is the traction of fate. It is a name that can't be missed, so I resolutely lie up. Your hand.