Monster no Goshujin-sama

Nineteen.

And after the mourning of the victims of the sea of trees, we returned to the earth.

I guess the only reason I felt liberated was because I was in a closed space. I think the air in the underground temple I was in earlier had a unique mass.

"After this, were Takahiro and Miho going to be joined in training?

I came out on the ground, and now I thought this would be dissolved, but there was a suggestion from Siran.

"The captain told me earlier that it was time for the other brave men to cut the training. So... you missed the opportunity by getting into my situation, so I thought I'd teach you about swordsmanship and mastery, right?

Honestly, it wasn't a bad offer.

The training I have done with Gabella has been very meaningful in the sense of getting used to combat. But on one point, there was a problem with the handling of weapons.

Although Gabella is an excellent combatant, she has no martial arts skills to boast of her overwhelming combat abilities without small craftsmanship. Naturally, I couldn't teach anything I hadn't learned, and on the other hand, a small worker named Martial Arts was an absolute necessity in order for a weak person like me to gain the ability to fight just not to pull my people's legs.

In that sense, Silan's proposal is not a bad one.

It's a short relationship, but I know Silan's character to some extent. Against the 'brave'...... no, where the other person didn't, she wouldn't be honest enough to make this hand offer unless she decided 'I'm just capable of mentoring myself'. That is, at a minimum, we can expect more instruction than the other metastasizers are receiving.

At any rate, Silan has understood that I can handle magic, and now there is no reason to fear that training will expose it. It's easy to care because there are no other metastasizers on the spot. There was also an intention that if I had trained at any one time, I would have an excuse for not participating in the training ahead.

I glanced at Lily, checking her snort and turning back to Siran.

"Well, can you ask for it?"

"Yes."

Nodding Siran laughs joyfully. Doing so also diminishes the rigorous atmosphere, and the gorgeous part of being a girl of her age appears on the table. Perhaps there is something that is somewhat unraveling to me.

So Kay, ashamed to wash his sobbing face, returned, and we all moved to the practice field.

So the calculation went a little crazy. Normal training for soldiers was being conducted at the military field after the transferees had pulled them away.

It would have been possible to have space created for us if we had said it was impossible, but I also feel tempted to activate our power as brave men. It's just us anyway, and we don't need that much space. We decided to be led to a narrower room, where we received martial arts tricks from Siran.

Even so, there are only a few things you can do in about a day. I'm done today enough to teach you how to swing a sword.

Still, there was a lot to learn from the movement of weight during punching to how to erect the blade muscle. I guess some things were particularly good about the way Silan taught them. Although it will still take some time before we can put it into practice.

By the way, Lily had cut up her training early and was going around for a tour.

This wasn't about skipping anything else, it was about keeping her unusual health, which is a monster, from being taken into account.

In fact, there was also a scene where the type of sweat flowing would change.

"Takahiro's treatment of magic is unique."

From the face that was lit by the fact that I was moving my body, I felt blood all at once.

My handling of magic is what I learned from Garbera - the white Arakune, a high monster. In the first place, it was also possible that the quality of magic itself was a little different from that of a mundane person, as it was receiving magic from Gabella's other family members. I didn't expect you to understand that.

"Do you see that?"

"This is a hallmark of spiritual use. Because if you're not good at handling magic, you won't be able to sympathize with the Spirit."

Probably felt like an elf too.

Maybe that's why they were persecuted, though.

"I was self-taught. Perhaps we treat magic differently than the usual soldiers that Silan knows."

"No. Even if you were self-taught, usually, magic shouldn't flow that way"

"... well. Then yes. Isn't it because I'm a metastasizer? I wasn't originally from this world."

"I see. That could be true. Wouldn't it be surprising if you were a brave man?"

Although there was such an act, otherwise I could have had a full time without any particular problems.

In the end, I continued my training through the evening.

Sometimes it was a room without windows, and when I realized it was evening.

For those of us who missed dinner, Silan arranged to bring dinner to our room, and Kay prepared a cloth to wipe the drinking water and sweat for me after training.

Lily enjoyed wiping my sweat after training and baking some care. She was also an escort, keeping an eye on my training landscape the whole time, but I've always looked forward to those times that seemed boring.

"What?

"... no"

As I stared, Lily, who I noticed, turned this way. I shook my head to the side.

It's a pleasure for me to see her looking forward to it. I decided to let Lily take care of me around the nose.

I thanked Siran, who had returned after arranging dinner, and I took Lily back to my room.

Kay cleaned his body with the water he brought to the room, changed into jersey, and then had the dinner he was transported to.

I have to deal with the people who have been making me cramped all day today.

Whether you're a lovely yawn on a straight ball or an odd looking Asalina, you're a cute companion to me. It heals just by holding onto it. Sweetly bitten, pressed against the nose surface, wrapped around. After a while, I may be dealing with them better. So much so that it seemed, it was time to rest my mind.

That also meant that I was tired.

After playing with them for a while, I fell asleep in bed. Nature and heavy exhalation leaked.

It's not just because I moved my body today... I had mental fatigue.

Ever since I came to this fort, I've always been distracted except when I'm in my room. That being said, it seems the same as when I was in the Tree Sea, which kept me alert to monster raids, but my senses were harder on this one.

Monsters other than my family will attack me as soon as they see me. White or black? When I was in the Tree Sea, it was easy to deal with in a way.

But humans are not. If you say so, they're gray. I can't wait because we have to be vigilant about all the different humans, and then the attacks from this one are unacceptable.

I spent the whole day at the fort, so fatigue had accumulated accordingly.

Fortunately, it's not just about making money from bone breaks. There's a lot I could know from what I've done here. On the other hand, it was almost like holding my head that the signs of the problem being solved were not. The more I know, the more difficult situations even seem to emerge.

I'm going to have to look back at the day and discuss it with Lily. I know that. But as I looked up at the ceiling, my consciousness gradually wandered away...

"... Oh, Master, are you awake?

- At some point, he was asleep. I groaned when I held my forehead.

"... how long have you been asleep?

"It's not that long. I think it's after midnight."

On the front is Lily's face, which is horizontal. She sat in bed holding my head resting on her thighs.

In other words, I had Lily on my bed with a knee pillow. The distance is close. The sweet smell of the girl smelled strong.

In the other bed, he is resting as if he had stopped. Asarina thought that we had started the conversation and wanted to shake her head.

"Lily?"

And Lily.

She was in a knee-pillow position, staring at this one with a serious eye. Something's wrong.

"... what happened?

"Yeah."

Lily shakes her head quietly. In fact, the room, where the breath of kuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu If so, isn't something happening now?

I thought back to what had happened to me today. But I couldn't find anything that would make Lily look like this.

I rather think Lily has been in a much better mood today.

Whether he was chatting with Kanahiko or training with Shiran, he was looking forward to seeing me.

If you think about it now, she should have been in a good mood enough to seem a little odd.

"Your husband."

Lily, who called about me, smiles at her neat appearance.

Girl's smile as sweet as sugar candy. But to my eyes it seemed like something floating around to hide what she was carrying.

"Hey, your husband. I mean, what are we going to do now? I have a suggestion."

Lily said before I asked her anything. I asked, bewildered by the abruptly shaken topic.

"Have you come up with anything?"

Obtain the interpreter's magic stone after hiding my abilities, master how to use it, and leave this fort. And build a supply route from some settlement to find Kato's shelter.

I talked about it around noon, but it's very difficult, and I don't have a good idea about it at the moment.

"Yeah. There are two ideas I've thought about"

"Two?

Lily, smiling to my surprise, nodded and reached for her cheek.

My palms whisper cheeks. Her emotions are transmitted through the path.

... It was the will of determination that was felt. Under a smile, Lily is ready for something. Strong and hard, I can feel the will not to give in. It made me feel uneasy.

Sleepy as a lake surface, that's why Lily mouthed the suggestion with a perceptible voice of determination hidden in her chest.

"One is to say goodbye to us"

……

"There was no power to give the monster his heart to lead. That way, your husband can live in peace in this world with all the other transferees without any problems."

That's how Lily looked at me, it was just a quiet thing.

"The other transferees are now trying to live as brave men, but I think one day there will be people out there who choose not to live. Not everyone wakes up to their power well at the end, and even if they don't, you can't keep your feet in line all the time. These people and your husband just have to act together."

As it stands, the three Expedition members who have come to Fort Chile - Cross, Watanabe and Iino - look to be putting the group together well.

But as Lily put it, that's not always the case. It's hillside, for example, but as far as that attitude this morning, which I was arguing with the expedition, it seems like it's only a matter of time before we get out of the circle of buddies.

Even if not, there will be those who are disgusted with fighting. Whether it is defiant or not is not a big deal at this time. Although it is now flushed by the Japanese sense of solidarity in times of crisis, some kind of reality escape, and the atmosphere of the place, the students who have been transferred are born and raised in modern Japan and remain with their values. Anyone who wished to live quietly must have come out soon.

So far, I can understand what Lily is saying. But based on that, the story was completely different about the suggestion she spoke of.

It's not like I can snort. It was a problem before consideration. I wanted to live with everyone, but I couldn't have made a choice to abandon my family.

But the one who understands my thoughts best is Lily in front of me.

I don't know. How did Lily come up with this? She should know my response...

"I want to hear from your husband. Please. Answer."

Lily's whisper licks her ear.

What are you thinking?

I don't suppose there's anything you haven't thought about.

I trust her. That's more than anyone else in this world.

Lily has this suggestion because she has an idea. Then it must mean something to me to answer here.

More importantly, I can see that her heart, felt through my cheek-encrusted palms, wants my word.

Then there is no room for hesitation in responding to it.

"The proposal is unacceptable. I can't think of that."

Saying, he also reached out one hand to Lily's cheek from me.

Soft. Warm. Lovely.

I think from the bottom of my heart that the feel and plumage of this fingertip is important, don't lose me, and I'm not going to hide it.

"I'm not letting you guys go. Whatever it is, never."

Words and expressions and emotions transmitted through paths to them. It must have all been passed on.

That was the proof, and Lily smiled really happy.

"Thank you, sir. I'm sorry for being selfish. I wanted to hear that word."

Speaking of which, Lily said, 'I want to hear a response'. I want you to still put into words something you don't have to tell me to know. Is that what this was about?

"Yeah. Thanks to you, I'm finally ready."

Lily uttered the word readiness. For this matter, it seems that what I felt earlier was not against breaking up with me.

In retrospect, he said there were two suggestions. Then I'm sure that the current interaction was like some sort of ritual to consolidate the preparations necessary to mouth those two eyes.

"Can you let me hear it? Lily's suggestion."

"Yeah. Even so, it doesn't mean I have a flighty idea. More than that, that can't be happening. I think your husband may have noticed this somewhere in his head."

Lily turned her smile into something a little bitter.

"It's impossible for us to do something about the problems we have alone."

"... it"

"Especially the acquisition of the demonic stones of translation and mastery of how to use them. It's too difficult for us to do anything around here without any suspicion while we lay low all our circumstances."

……

I couldn't argue with that.

In fact, it wasn't like I had one of those athes, even though I said that one of these days a good idea might come to mind. I couldn't deny it if they told me that I would have noticed.

But then what should I do?

There's nothing we can do alone. Stuck.

Then what the hell am I supposed to do?

... the answer to that was decided.

"You can make a collaborator, right?

"That sort of thing"

Lily nodded quickly, expecting me to get to the answer.

"We talk about some of the circumstances and ask for help. I don't think it's okay to say what I can't. For example, yes... that I'm going to leave this fort, that I don't want anyone else to know about it. I guess I could say that around here."

That was a very neat suggestion.

It would have been nice if we had worked with each other and confronted the monster, our external enemy. Family or enemies? The structure was even simpler, and the response itself was an easy one, in a sense, of combat choice if the difficulty was distracted.

But this is not among the tree seas. It's human space. It was natural not to be like before.

All of this was something I've always recognized.

Yet my own human distrust is largely rooted in my failure to take into account the option of 'creating collaborators' until now.

But you can't have stopped thinking here.

Indeed, humans are creatures of betrayal. The tragedy of that colony proves it. That was a tragedy caused by human stupidity.

But not all humans are.

For example, Kato Makoto. She helped me. Even if you know you're suspicious of me. Her presence, Rose's friend, was one proof that the world was not just full of betrayal.

Not every human being living in this world betrays every trust. That was a natural fact that I might not have admitted before.

I can now accept Lily's suggestion as reasonable. The presence of collaborators is more essential than just us being able to crack things down.

Of course, you could be betrayed.

So what I should do as the leader of the group is to identify the people in front of me.

If I can't do that, I shouldn't have left the sea. We should have lived quietly for the rest of our lives listening to the sound of slowly creeping ruin.

... Yes. I know. In reason.

If emotions convinced me just as well, life would be easier for everyone.

Creating collaborators to reveal secrets means nothing more than believing in others.

Just think of it, and something nasty crawls up my spine.

The nostrils are filled with the smell of iron, the flames glisten in my vision, the pain comes back all over my body, and the snoring grin invades my brain marrow.

I'm thirsty. My whole body feels rotten. I chewed my back teeth off to the sensation of my head shaking.

It's just sweet to give in to this and stop thinking. As a leader, I must take full responsibility. If that is necessary, I must overcome this abominable memory.

... but will I be able to do it?

Sickness of the heart. Trauma. A putrid wound left in my heart by the truth of betrayal and death that I didn't even tell Kanahiko.

It's cliché if you put it into words, but this curse that hangs around the spirit like a hedron is not so easy to break.

For a weak person like me to get over this, I need something.

"It's gonna be okay."

- My vision was inadvertently blocked.

Lily covered my eyes with her palms, moving her hand that was touching my cheeks.

My ears, clogged in darkness, have a voice that sounds so sweeter than usual.

"Do you remember when you met me in that cave?

"... oh. I remember. You can't possibly forget."

Though slightly confused by the abrupt inquiry, I returned the answer immediately.

How much the existence of Lily was a salvation to me that I almost gave up survival once with despair. Forgetting about that time is unlikely until you die.

"It's an important memory for me, too. first memory of my birth. At that time, your husband wished from the bottom of his heart, 'Somebody help me'. Hearing that voice, wanted and named Lily, this' I 'was the first to be raw in this world..."

Lily shared her memories with a chopping voice as if embracing a precious treasure… I put the words that followed on my tongue.

"But it wasn't against me who was a monster that your husband wished for 'help' before you lost your mind, was it? I can't believe the monster helped me out about myself, because your husband couldn't have thought of it at that point. Then what is the person your husband was asking for help..."

That's settled, right, and signs of Lily smiling.

I can't see her smile when my gaze is blocked.

I couldn't even see if she was really laughing.

"Your husband believed in others on the last line, saying he couldn't believe in humans. Then I think that's the truth for your husband."

"Truth for me...?

"Yeah. That's why we're here now because you're such a master. That's why it's okay."

I notice that Lily's voice is shaking a little.

"Your husband seemed to have a lot of fun when you were talking to Tachigi-kun and when you were training with Shiran. I'm so happy to see you."

"Lily......?

"After you decided to accept Mr. Kato, your husband was nice to that kid. Even when that kid fell down before he got here, yes. I may not have realized for myself that I cared for her without any hesitation..."

Lily pulled her hands off my eyes.

"Your husband's wounds are already healing. And then, if it's one of the hang-ups, your husband should move on."

Vision flickers. There is the smile of a girl who is dearer to me than anyone else.

But if she stayed smiling from start to finish, there was no reason for her to block my sight.

"I'm sorry, sir"

Lily slightly lowered her gaze and felt.

"Sooner, I should have said this to your husband. I was anxious. It is your husband who reconciles himself with man. Maybe the day will come when our families won't be able to be beside your husband."

This was the first time I was asked about the anxiety Lily had.

Still, if I looked up at Lily's worried face with a thin grin on her mouth, I knew that was the anxiety that had been bothering her for so long.

"There's no way I'm gonna abandon Lily and the others."

"Yeah. I know that. … but I was anxious."

I get anxious because it's really important. That was also proof of the admiration she was turning to me.

"I can be beside your husband because then, at that time, I met your husband. But as I was saying, your husband at that point couldn't have asked me for help being a monster... so I've always had the feeling that that was where someone else was supposed to be. Wherever I go, I'm only a fake, and it's just an exquisite contradiction of the things your husband asked for help..."

What Lily was saying didn't mean anything at all off target.

For example, let's say it wasn't Lily who helped me, but someone else, someone else, who was human.

I would have placed tremendous trust in him, or in her, for saving me a crisis of absolute destiny. That's all it means to me that you saved me from the abyss of despair. In fact, in a very similar situation, Kanahiko sends his admiration to the Knights Commander. If something were different, we could not deny that our position would have been replaced.

Of course, this is a meaningless assumption.

It was Lily here who helped me in real life. That was the only truth, and that was all that mattered to me.

However, I guess that won't clean it up for Lily. It's a burden to just say, "I can think of it that way." And the burden gives rise to the thought that 'I wasn't supposed to be there'. That was the source of her anxiety.

If she was human, for example, the anxiety of this hand did not arise.

I'm human, Lily's a monster. Still, I love Lily, and Lily admires me.

But we're still different creatures. It may have been some sort of inevitability that anxiety would arise in some way.

"I'm sorry I couldn't tell you this before"

"... don't apologize, Lily"

I shook my head to the side.

"It's not that I kept my mouth shut that matters. That's what you told me in words when you really needed it."

"Your husband..."

"This is how Lily encouraged me, even by pushing anxiety to death. This is where I should thank you, not where you apologize."

Lily is fighting her anxiety. You fought, you won, you gave me the words I needed. It is to say thank you that it is never the occasion to complain.

"Lily's strong."

"... yeah. That's not true."

Shaking her flax hair, Lily denied my praise.

She glanced into my eyes and said softly in a tone that revealed her secrets.

"What made me so able to reveal my anxiety because your husband is counting on me?

"... ah"

I was remembering Lily's tears, which I saw one day. "Don't hold me in alone," cried Lily, "I want you to rely on me," because I know how to face them, my family as Lord, and then I start relying on them.

That supports Lily right now.

Lily is smiling, turning the facts she was able to help into her own. Proudly that's how she is as a family member.

I, who was such a stranger to her, realized that what had tied me up had lost much power.

A crazed, distorted grin in my memory.

A powerful smile now in front of me, a girl fighting anxiety still made me float.

I don't even have to bother hanging it on the scale to see which one of them is big for me.

I mean, I was just like Lily. The most important thing for me right now is to be their husband.

What do you do with my impudence, the Lord, when she is hard-working, a family member? The thought puts a single core through my being. Her presence supports my weakness.

I'm so glad to see Lily in that cave.

As soon as I thought so, I could play the love affection for the girl in front of me.

"Lily."

I was reaching for Lily's cheek and pulling the back of her head.

Though in a slightly impossible position, Lily has obediently turned her face from herself rather without me having to hold her.

Touch each other to contour the lips. Gradually the act deepens.

I want to convey the thoughts in this breast. Hopefully, it came true. Thoughts melt together, blurring each other's boundaries.

"... your husband"

The loving call between breaths paralyzes the last remaining reason. Lily, licking her lips slightly with a bright red tip of her tongue, missed her wandering gaze for just a moment.

"I'm sorry, Asalina. Can I just leave your husband alone for one night?

Following that gaze, many tentacles were stretched out of Lily's one arm, which at some point had returned to Slime's body tissue.

The tentacles wrap around Asalina's crawling body and gently push her into the back of her left hand. Part of it also stretched long into the wall, dropping the lighting there.

Again in the dark, the exhalation approaches and mixes.

From there on out, I'm glad we just think of each other.