Monster no Goshujin-sama

34 - Mad Beast Perspective

Walk wandering through the mountains where people don't step in.

I don't have as much difficulty walking.

I'm used to walking down roads without paths.

These days, I've been walking in the deep woods.

I remember that.

Though I can almost only recall fragments, which are supposed to be between us.

But that was definitely what happened.

I traveled alone to ask for help.

Hungry, dry, scratched.

Still, I kept walking.

... Then what now?

What am I walking for?

I don't know.

I don't have a destination.

There is no purpose in the first place.

I don't know. I don't know. I don't know.

I don't know anything.

I don't know anymore.

Something in me has already devoured me as deadly as I am.

So I don't know anything anymore.

... No.

Is that true?

A suspicion arose.

I don't know what you wondered.

In a significantly diminished ability to think, I don't even remember to pursue doubt.

I just remembered.

Ever since I came to this world......

At first, I was just confused.

After I found out I had come to another world, I was excited.

Ever since I found out I had power, it was a matter of displeasure.

Especially when Kojiro Nakatsuki, later leader of the expedition, called me out, it was something that my heart jumped at.

- I can't admit how this ends.

- Not unless everyone joins forces.

- I need your help. Come with me.

I don't remember what the situation was, but I only remember being uttered like that because of you.

It was like a story.

I fought with everyone who was equally spoken out, obsessed.

It was felt that the mediocre and boring routine had ended and something had begun.

I became a member of the expedition and started fighting to protect the colony.

... No, it's not.

I'm not.

To protect, what an excuse for contrition.

It was fun.

I was just having fun.

There were some variants like "Weiwaten" Yuna Iino who were genuinely angry at the status quo and fought, but basically, everyone, they should have been just like me.

I enjoyed wielding powers that I didn't think were my own.

Just now, it was pleasant to knock down a monster with this hand.

But that's how I was obsessed and forgotten everything was about the first week.

And then I gradually became anxious.

What will happen now?

Given that, I couldn't help but be anxious.

Still, on the surface, I had to fit around.

That was agony again.

My inner self must have been a disgrace to my long-time sister Miho.

My sister cared about me.

... right.

I have a sister Miho.

I thought so.

This power was given to me to protect my sister... my first love.

I thought so.

I was faintly aware that I was wrong.

I wasn't trying to protect you because I was in love with Sister Miho.

I liked my sister because I needed a reason to protect her.

That's wrong.

Distorted.

But I had no other skill than to think like that.

Perhaps my failure to protect my sister ended naturally in a way.

I tried to protect my sister, I was wrong from the beginning.

What should I do?

What should I be?

From the beginning, I didn't know anything.

So I failed.

... What should I have done?

What did you want to do?

I don't know. I don't know. I don't know.

I don't know anything.

However, only Miho's face comes to mind behind my brain...

"You look unusual, Jun Takaya"

And as I walked in awkwardness, I put my feet together.

A familiar boy stood ahead of him as he was about to head.

I was a little boy, even if I subtracted myself from being a giant.

By the side, there was a monster that imitated the tall boy with a harsh impression - the figure.

Also, a monster as black as a shadow stands with his hands turned into swords, watching this one without alarm.

There were about ten other monsters with them.

"It's a stupid thing."

Brushing a thin grin on the detail, the boy said.

"Senior Mashima is great. Without a multiplier. If you don't know what you want to do, you don't know what you want, you're not the enemy."

……

I could barely understand the raw hatred and what they were saying.

I just found out they were mocking me.

But there was no anger.

Have you been so empty that you don't even get that kind of emotion?

Or have you convinced yourself of the content of the curse?

I don't know.

... I didn't care.

"I've stripped my seniors of their fangs, their thoughts, they deserve to die"

The boy raised his hand lightly.

In response to the motion, the monsters around the boy set himself up.

It was a neat move like a trained soldier.

If the boy commands a single voice, they will be attacked.

There are more than a dozen enemy monsters.

He was not the opponent of the enemy in the current wounded state.

……

Even if I knew that, that's why I didn't feel like doing it.

I don't even feel like giving you one roar.

Even before my own crisis, I didn't stand a single wave in my mind.

On the contrary, I was relieved somewhere.

Hard, painful, sad, sorry.

I felt this would all be over.

I had no escape, no shelter, my gaze dropped to the ground defenselessly.

The boy seemed to laugh a little at my attitude of just standing on the spot and not returning any responses.

"Leaving it like this won't lead to death... but it's a corner, let's stab him in the stomach"

That's it...

"... and I just wanted to say, I'm sure you're just a little spared to kill"

Second, the air has changed.

There were signs that the monsters who heard the boy's words would pull back in unison.

Nevertheless, I stood just on the spot without reacting.

"Your power has value for money"

The hand offered by the boy appeared on the edge of his overturned vision.

Again, I didn't feel like reacting.

"Anyway, the rest will just be life to decay. Then help me."

Whatever they say doesn't change.

I just kept standing on the spot...

"Then I'll give you what you want."

……

I... I looked up.

Only the words came into my head for some reason.

"What do you say?

The boy had a enigmatic smile.

I'm sure even if I had a decent intelligence, I wouldn't have been able to read my intentions.

I don't know what you're thinking.

Nowhere, such as elements enough to believe.

But strangely, it didn't even look like he was lying to me.

So I listen.

"Let's promise. If you work for me, you'll get what you want."

……

Nature and Miho's sister's smile were on my mind.

Hope. My hope.

Wishing.

I... I took Miho's sister...

"Sounds like you've made up your mind."

By the time I realized it, it was too late.

I could no longer escape the boy's words.

"Throw it all out. Give me everything."

Words invade my existence.

"That's the price of your wish."

"Ah, gah..."

Only a few things left fall from the palm of my hand.

The consciousness that was getting scattered loosens up.

Originally, I was almost just losing it, and it didn't take that long for it to go away.

In my presence, which became so thin, a collar was worn.

"Oh. I knew it, I did. As I thought, my abilities worked."

And he looked up at me, and said, The Lord of the collars.

"Hehe. That's funny. What is a monster? Who are we metastasizers...... no. In the first place, what is a human being? There's still so much I don't know about this world."

There was still something the boy kept talking about, but I didn't know what he was talking about anymore.

Little part of me left.

"... O king. What are you thinking?

As he vanished, I heard his voice.

It was a harsh sounding, but at the same time horribly inorganic, emotionless voice.

"While I tell another king, Takahiro Mashima, that I am not an enemy, I promise Miho Mizushima's madman that I will grant him a wish. What the hell is true?

"Come on. What do you think?"

What I returned was a mysterious laugh.

"I just move to fulfill my purpose."

I don't know.

Maybe, as one, I don't understand his intentions.

That sounds sad somewhere......

At the end of that thought, I let go of everything.