Monster Paradise

In fact, I have noticed my anomaly since December of last year. I used to write slowly, and sometimes Calvin writes hard, but in any case, it hurts and makes me happy. I can clearly feel the joy that storytelling brings me as long as I dedicate myself to the story.

But since December of last year, writing is no longer a pleasure to me, and I feel that every word I write doesn't satisfy me, and I'm even tired of my stories, of the web industry.

This feeling began to grow every day in January this year, often sitting in front of a computer for hours without a word. Actually, I have outlines and details, and I know exactly what to write next, but I just can't write them. It's like there's water in the reservoir, and the tap's on, but I don't know where it's malfunctioning in the middle, so I can't get a drop of water out.

Since January, my condition has been getting worse, not only hating to write stories, but even creating self-loathing. And occasionally, the idea of deleting all the manuscripts, all the outlines, all the setups that have been in the line for the past nine years, trying to smash the notebook and completely exit the web.

It wasn't until the end of February that I realized that I might have a mental condition problem and then contacted a psychiatrist referred to me by a friend. If not, the diagnosis is mild depression and medication is already under way.

I didn't want to talk about it. After all, it's a mental illness. It's not very nice to talk about it. But the issue of updates over the past few months has always been one I owe you, especially my friends who really like Monster Park. After careful reflection, I decided to say it so that at least you would know what was going on and not wait for no reason.

Actually, I don't know yet why I have this disease. But now that I'm here, I'll try to overcome the disease, and I'll do my best to write the story. Don't worry about me, it's much better now than it was in February. If updated, it may still be less stable in the first half of the month and should get better next month.

Well, let's just say that.

And finally, thank you for staying.