When I regained consciousness, a woman was dead in front of me.
This woman, who sinks in blood, caught me and remembers being done something thin, but the conversation I had with her was also annoying and I couldn't remember her in a busy manner.
My chest hurts tightly, but I don't even see any injuries there, especially in my shed windowsill. There seemed to be no abnormality anywhere in the body.
It's just that the formation that spreads at your feet is tough, and the space that you have with the woman's body is ugly.
Impulsively I jumped out of the cabin and ran.
Run through the woods. Eventually, it slipped out into a spot of light.
So, protected by a bunch of merchants who occasionally wanted to go through, I didn't feel like going back to the ones who scorned me, lined up the proper lies, and got them in the carriage of merchants who seemed to have almost returned to their country.
They say that in their own country, the kingdom of Naughty, there is an orphanage run by a man they know, the head of the merchants.
He said he was a trustworthy man, and I was to be deposited there.
"Is your name Raise?... so small, I guess I've been having a rough time. From now on, this is your house, well, take it easy."
"But I'm gonna need you to help me with chores or something!" Dean Alan, who laughed furiously, poured that great deal of mercy equally on an inexperienced, filthy hungry ghost like me.
The other orphanage guys creeped me out when they saw the shades of my skinny body and appearance, but still thought I could finally come to a place where I could calm down and breathe.
It's such a fold.
"It's my old friend's daughter. You must be a very smart young lady. Sulia, this guy is the new Lace."
"Nice to meet you. Nice to meet you, Reis"
- I ran into Surya.
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Surya was two years older than me, and she was a huge girl who said she was hazy, backwards of her beautiful figure and what she did when she could see how she grew up.
Frequent visits to the orphanage with her father, she took good care of herself and the people in the orphanage admired her like a sister.
Sulia couldn't help but worry about me floating around, and she took me down anyway.
"Hey, Lace. It's a beautiful day. Why don't you go play outside sometimes?
"Uncle Alan was worried you wouldn't eat too much rice. Your uncle's food is delicious, isn't it? You have to eat more or you won't get well!
"My uncle told me you liked books. Let's read it together."
Honestly at first, that's depressing and cumbersome.
I really thought it was annoying.
But... I couldn't stop trying to jump how much, and I found my emotions slowly unraveling.
I don't hate being called "Lace" by Surya.
Instead, every time she called me, my name sounded properly colored, and it was warm and itchy, and I was pitifully confused.
Thanks to Sulia taking me outside, I found it surprisingly difficult to climb a tree.
She rolls up her skirt and climbs up to the top of Sulsulu and Oki. She was better at climbing trees than anyone else in the orphanage... regrettably, than me.
"A lady's hobby," he boasted, but his mother said, "Be a lady!" He was angry. I was surprised at her being shunned and loose without knowing the corner of her mouth.
At Sulia's suggestion, I tried and ate Dean Alan's dishes properly, somewhat similar to what my dead mother had created a long time ago, and for the first time in a long time I remembered the feeling of 'delicious'.
It tasted the same no matter what I ate in the previous house. It was really weird.
Some of the guys in the orphanage nicknamed Sulia "Sue," and I didn't like it when Sulia replied to it, so I called myself after Goto.
"What's going on?" Rais, "she said, satisfied with her eyes opening and turning, zeroing a slight but floating grin, and she embraced me with joy.
I peeled it off, but I tried to call it again, and I thought so.
Dean Alan and Sulia used to sneak up on plans to celebrate my birthday.
She hasn't celebrated her birthday in a long time, and if the exact day hadn't been vague and taught, Sulia and the Dean would have consulted and decided to position the day I came to the orphanage that way.
When I went to the dining room, I was accidentally showered with bright red liquora flowers.
"Happy Birthday, Reis!
When Surya blessed me like a prank, it was something I didn't put on the table but my heart bounced off.
Decorated room for more luxurious cuisine than usual. You think Surya let the others help? By this time, under the influence of Surya, who is normally dealing with me, my presence was completely accepted by the orphanage guys.
She snuck up to me and gave me a pendant with Licora flowers on her gold chain. It looks a lot like the red in my eyes, and it's exorcising, so I thought I'd make a gift to amuse you.
"... why is it a woman? Well, fine."
She loosened her cheeks when she whispered "Thank you... Sue" to squeeze it out, even as she vomited words that were not so honest.
And he sat next to me, and he said, "Hey, Rais. Are you happy now?," he asked.
"My father taught me something nice. For a little while, if you feel 'oh, I'm happy', it seems that putting it in your mouth and putting it into words is the trick to having fun living your life. People have power in their words. I'm happy to celebrate your birthday now. What about you? Is Reyes happy now?
Looking at her peeking into my face with anticipation in her ashy thin blue eyes, my chest was clogged and I couldn't speak.
- - I want to touch Surya in front of me.
Yes, feel strong.
But at the same time, it's like we shouldn't step in any further.
Such a warning stained hunch struck me, I couldn't move my mouth or fingertips, and I leaned over silently with my pendant in my hand.
Sulia lay her own hand on my hand like that, no longer urging the answer, and smiled, "Reyce's hand is warm, isn't it?"
I couldn't tell you then... I do think I was' happy '.
Wanting to protect Surya, wanting to be the person she could protect, she asked Dean Alan for guidance on swordsmanship and physical arts, and also advanced her scholarship to Surya's father to learn.
Sometimes Surya asked me why, but I was deluded without being able to reveal it.
Dean Alan used to come at me about Surya, and he wanted to defy me, but it didn't work out, and he often felt sorry for me.
The pendant I received from Surya was worn without letting go of my skin.
Her... Surya's presence has grown bigger and bigger in me ever since we met.
If it comes true, I want to stay with you forever, and I hope so.
But in keeping with that, the mysterious alarm sounds heard on my birthday also began to ring hard in my head day after day.
I wonder why, why not.
The more calm and gentle days pass.
The more I feel about Surya.
I shouldn't have remembered. I was about to evoke 'something' and was eroded by a quiet fear.
- And the moment of collapse I feared comes lightly.
"Did you make someone you loved? I guess that woman is important. Then we have to kill her now."
Such a 'demon' voice crawled directly through my brain, and my memory of sleeping came back to life.
Then I was made to understand, even if I didn't want to.
That me and Surya will never be together.