After the incident.
The murderer's men were detained by the apostles, with the victims they protected, and we returned to the church. Surya, who fell and lost consciousness, was also transported to the room by one of the apostles.
Then the date changed and Surya kept sleeping until it was evening.
I heard that there was no abnormality in my body due to fatigue caused by excessive use of spiritual power, but I didn't move from the front of his room most of the time until Sulia woke up.
The apostle named Lore, the caregiver, has advanced, "If you were worried, you could, you know, go into your room and offer about the side of Master Sulia..." But even though the outburst of demons within you had converged for the first time, it was bewildering to see your face nearby.
- On top of that, it's a full moon day I was afraid of.
If the sun leans a little more, there will soon be a night when the devil will make another noise.
Nonetheless, the Spirit Crystal is crushed and only about recovered shards are on hand. It's not an easy substitute, and you have to go beyond the moonlight night on your own, relying on the Queen's protection, crystal shards, and stored Licora sleeping pills.
As long as we cross this evening... all we have to do is wait for a glimpse with the Spirit Queen.
Until I heard a report from the caretaker apostle who was inside that Surya had happened.
I laid my back on the wall next to the door in her room, gazing into the sky peeking through the hallway window, looking at the moon where I still couldn't follow a clear figure.
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Night when the sky is repainted black and the full moon shows its face.
So is my hair color, but I don't like the color black. You possessed the devil on me, because I don't like the distorted look of that woman.
I have my sights off this evening. The window of the room was covered with curtains, blocking any moonlight from entering.
I took the measures I could, but I don't see how a full moon night on St. Bell's Day would empower the devil.
There are examples of cases. I was going to make sure that Sulia was in her room, and then go back to her room.
All you have to do is stay indoors, lurk your breath and endure, and wait for the morning to come.
But I finished checking the lights and shadows of Surya's room from a garden window, and on my way back to my room, a demon's voice accidentally attacked me.
The devil, who has completely become my voice itself, twitches and erodes my nerves unchanged.
Apart from the rampage when the Spirit Crystal was crushed, I rushed into the room in a hurry when I felt the power of the demon, which had calmed down since I became an escort knight, clearly strengthened.
Remove your coat clutteringly and kneel on the floor by the bed, breathing roughly as you squeeze the shards of the crystal.
'Bring the souls of your loved ones quickly. Go kill that woman quickly. "
The maliciously painted voice that has been whispered and bounced off over and over the last two years echoes directly into my brain.
My chest ached and my body trembled into small pieces.
Surely the devil in me is enjoying a full moon night on St. Bell's Day, tied loose.
I am kept critically sane and unable to cede control of my body because the Queen's protection is the last fortress.
Slightly waking up his fluttering body, he handed over a bag containing Licora's sleeping pills, which lay beside the bed pillow.
... Now I hope the devil sleeps.
Spare a few vials while you pray so. But the signs of a demon that would normally fit never pulled off until today.
"Yikes!"
When you squeeze the shards of a tight crystal, a sharp, blackly discolored tip puts on the palm and damages it. Potatoes and dripping red blood reminded me of that day's memory.
That abominable day, when the memories that had been sealed by a demonic woman came back to life and the days of serenity disappeared from hand.
Just like that day, to reject the Devil's whisper, I vomit words that deny my feelings for Surya.
"Wow, no, no, no! I don't like that woman. I hate it, I hate it! So... Huh!
So don't.
Please don't.
Don't put your hands on Sulia.
I don't know how many times this has been repeated either. He threw a spiritual crystal that seemed to have reached the limit of tolerance already, and I took the vial that was still in it. "With my eyes," she laughed and told me one day, flushing flowers all at once.
If I rolled an empty bottle onto the floor, I'd finally feel a little less fierce about the devil crawling around my body.
"............... and a little more. Almost there. Just a little more, please. That way, it's over. I promised you I wouldn't mind if I died. A proper queen should end me with every demon. And a little. Please, hold it."
Leaks a plundered voice to tell himself interruptedly.
- The day after tomorrow, me and Surya will head to the Holy Bell Forest.
So I have to lie to her again.
As soon as I finish my assignment as an escort knight, I'll have another job. So when you're done, you're the only one who wants to go back to this church. He said it was the last time me and you would act together in this forest.
Spit out the dialogue I have prepared, I need to return only Surya and have a place just for the Queen and the two of us.
And I... have the queen kill every demon in me.
"Ha..."
Even after swallowing the red liquid, I breathed, feeling the bitterness that remained in my throat.
If you hold your chest down, you will learn the illusion that the devil is breathing there and you will be irritated by slight nausea.
... The Chief Apostle said to me, "I don't want you to give up the way I can help you," but I didn't want to be able to detach the demons that were assimilating me so far anymore.
The word "don't give up" has been scattered over the course of two years and thrown at itself.
At the end of the day, the only choice left to me is to take the devil down the road.
It's okay, drop the voiceless whine.
I am prepared and prepared for this.
All the rewards I get as my escort knight are asking the Chief Apostle to enter Dean Alan's orphanage after my death. I was never able to express my gratitude directly to the Dean for saving me, but at the end of the day, even if it was only a few, would I be able to return the favor?
If that happens, I'll be on a long-term mission, and I'll have my life lost there. It's long before Dean Alan or Surya find out that I'm not in the world anymore.
I took the time to figure it out and hit this hand in advance.
All you have to do is let the Queen finish everything.... No, before we do that, we need to say goodbye to Surya in a pale way, as per the dialogue prepared in the Holy Bell Forest.
"If we break up here, you and I will never see each other again."
That decisive word of separation, to Surya.
I said I have to tell you.
"... Huh!
Just imagining it, the pain of being cut off ran to my chest. Still not asleep, that pain, stronger than the Devil's pain, now evokes my shallow but ugly greed, full of self-love that I should have abandoned.
- The truth is.
I... don't want to die.
I still want to live. It's horrible to die. I want to see it raw (because of it).
And if it's gonna happen, I want to be by Surya's side the whole time.
I don't like it when I disappear and then Surya comes to something I don't know.
I don't want to give her to anyone.
I want to touch her, I want to hug her, I want to convey my thoughts.
I want to live with Surya.
... pitiful, self-derision leaks.
My readiness rocks so easily just because I refrain from seeing the queen up close, feel death close, and think that I will part with Surya forever.
The truth is, nothing was abandoned.
I'm terrified of dying, and I still want to be beside Surya, and I want to make her my own. There was no way I could have thrown out my greed.
At this rate, I won't let Surya pretend to be calm with another word.
But... still.
"... Huh!
I bit my lips.
The devil finally falls asleep and the disturbed spirit also regains some geometric calm.
If I closed my eyelids in a dim room, I'd still be the same as I was when I was young, and I thought I was most beautiful, Surya's thin blue eyes floated.
As much as those eyes reflect the fear and despair that kills me, I can falsely rebuild myself as many times as I'm ready to shake.
If you can't abandon your greed, now force me to swallow it and let me stand in front of him without showing my heart to the end.
If I was breathing shallow repeatedly, in the back of my ear, I would softly call my name "Reis," Surya's voice revived.
- Just if you can wish for any one.
Sulia............... Sue.
I have some words for you that I've always wanted to say. Anything I say directly to you is an impossible word.
On a distant day, 'Am I happy' and that question you asked me, I still regret not being able to return the answer.
I honestly nodded, "I'm happy," and I should have told you that was because I met you, even if you were embarrassed and lit up.
And although I've been hiding this in the back of my chest because if I say it, it would be a word that would completely free the devil.
Grali and body lean.
If I had the nerve to collapse into the bed behind me, I would have finally been entrusted to a comfortable sleeper.
"When the time comes for it all to be over, I'll finally go to Surya..."
- "I love you," he said.
I don't care if it doesn't arrive.
Just yes, can I put it in words and say it, please?