My Feelings Can Wait
Chapter 58:
But the pain in the recollection was only an illusion after all, Jing Xun quickly recovered and calmed down.Looking at Ji Youyan's tenderness, she was a little moved, and a little melancholy.
If regret is valuable, then the price paid is not a waste.It is a pity that it is impossible for a person to step into the same river twice, so even if he knows that he regrets, he may not be able to find a way to never regret it.
Jing Xiu pondered for two seconds, and said sincerely to Gu Zinan: "Ms. Ji is right. But regretting this matter, saying that you will not make regrets in the future. It is too ideal. Life cannot be missed once and regretted once. I can never make mistakes again."
"Just don't make the same mistakes." This is what she learned after painstaking lessons.
Since the reunion, Ji Yuyan has changed little by little, she can see.Although she didn't know why Ji Yooyan suddenly changed her mind, she was not sure whether Ji Yooyan's change could really be maintained.But she became more and more aware that in the past, there was a problem with the way she and Ji Youyan got along.
It was her heart that moved first. It was she who put down her reservation and pride and took Ji Youyan to this road, so she was reluctant to suffer a little grievance from Ji Youyan, to embarrass her, and to make more demands on her.But perhaps it is precisely because of this that they have never really opened up their hearts to share their joys, sorrows, sorrows, knowing each other completely, and have entered a break-in period, so that this relationship missed the opportunity to grow.Ji Yuyan stopped in place, she unilaterally gave in without a bottom line, but only let the distance between the two people go further and further.
Jing Xiu still doesn't know what the best way of getting along between her and Ji Yooyan is now, but she thinks, at least, she can't make the same mistake again.
She removed her mask of tolerance and tolerance, exposing her hard-to-truth self, hoping to get more Ji Yuyan under the mask.This time, she can't be the one who has been taking the initiative.
She told it to Gu Zinan and also told herself.But the speaker had no intention, and the listener had the heart, so Ji Youyan took the seat with a guilty conscience.
Axun... Do you still mind why you worry about things that bother her that you haven't explained clearly?
Ji Youyan is upset.Sometimes she doesn't know what's going on, she has made up her mind to change, but when she really faces it, she will always unconsciously return to her old attitude.
"Xiao Die and the program team, I will try my best to reduce the big and small things. You can continue the game with peace of mind." Jing Xiu promised.People are bullying and fearing hardship, Xiao Die can't help her and Ji Youyan, but Gu Zinan is different.
Gu Zinan has not dared to think about what to do after the incident, the game and the future, she felt that she could breathe a little bit after hearing this.
"But..." Jing Xiu's conversation turned and reminded: "I can help you for a while, but I can't help you for a long time. You still have to communicate with your economic company. Liang Zi has already settled, as long as Xiao Die pays it back. Jumping around, I'm not sure when he will wait for an opportunity to retaliate. It's up to you later."
She watched that Gu Zinan's cold compress was almost done, and while talking, she peeled off the hot egg, wrapped it in a handkerchief and gave it to her.
Gu Zinan's face darkened just after he recovered a little."Enough, Teacher Jing, thank you. The rest is the tuition that I should pay." She knew that Jingxuan had done her best, and thanked her with interest.
She took the egg, rolled it on her face mechanically, and said with a wry smile: "It really can't, I will leave this circle."
"I entered this circle at the age of 16, and people who were in the same period as me have achieved small achievements. Maybe, I really don't fit this path. I can't afford to go out, and I can't stand loneliness. Although I am very unwilling , But people must always recognize the distance between dreams and reality." The loneliness and depression in her words made Ji Youyan uncomfortable.
In countless frustrated days and nights, this confusion has repeatedly tortured her.
Ji Yuyan's eyebrows gathered in depression.But she swept to Jing Xiu who was sitting next to her, and soon let go.
She raised her hand and flicked Gu Zinan's forehead, pretending to be relaxed: "What are you thinking, how old are you now?"
Gu Zinan held his forehead and stared at Ji Youyan in a daze.Jing Xiu's sight also fell on Ji Youyan.
Ji Youyan asked Gu Zinan softly: "What do you think of me now? On the road of career."
"The future is boundless." Gu Zinan said sincerely.Ji Yuyan used to be traffic-hungry, and his popularity was not bad. This year, he took a look at his acting skills and gained recognition.Popularity and strength, everyone can see that her career will take a higher level.
Ji Youyan said briefly: "But I am 27 years old this year. At your age, I was just like you, and I did nothing."
Gu Zinan was choked.
"How about Teacher Jing?" Ji Youyan asked softly.
"Teacher Jing had already won a queen when he was about your age. At the age of 25, he had already added a double queen. Compared with her, am I not worth mentioning?" Ji Youyan asked himself Replied.
Gu Zinan was speechless. A few seconds later, she subconsciously retorted: "It can't be compared like that, Teacher Jing is different. Everyone says that Teacher Jing is a genius with great luck." For people in this circle, Jing Xiu is an idol, even a legend.Her achievements are the result of the right time and the right place.
Ji Yuyan laughed out loud.She stared at Jing Xun, her tender eyes gradually turned dark, she mustered up courage, and confided in her heart: "Why can't it be compared?"
"Have you really been convinced? Have you really thought about it? Why can we not be Jingxuan? Or, why can't we be the next Jingxuan?" The voice was not heavy, but it was loud.
This questioning reveals too obvious unwillingness, even injustice.Not only Gu Zinan's heart was shocked, even Jingxuan's heart trembled.
It turned out that she was so dissatisfied.Jingxun was in a complicated mood, a little dull pain, and a little bit of joy born out of knowing more about Ji Yuyan's thoughts.
"Isn't it an overweight idea?" Ji Youyan laughed at himself frankly.She wanted to see Jing Xiu's expression at the moment, but she didn't dare to.
"There's nothing to be overwhelming." Gu Zinan didn't answer, Jing Xiu answered Ji You's words flatly, "I have nothing great, just a little more luck."
She has always thought so.It is an honor to be able to do what you like, and awards and honors are unexpected joys.There are many people in this circle who work harder than her, and even stronger than her.She can get these, but chance and luck are better than others.Of course happy, but nothing to be proud of.
"Axun, I didn't mean that. I didn't think you were nothing great, I just thought..." Ji Yoon wanted to explain nervously.
Jingxuan's tone softened: "I know, I have no other meaning. You continue."
Ji Yooyan looked into Jing Xun's eyes, confirmed that Jing Xun was listening, and was really not angry, and then relaxed.
She continued to explain Gu Zinan and said: "In fact, it is me, Teacher Jing, and even Shen Zhiman, the goddess of the movie. In comparison, they are just a goal and a reference. What is different? Actually, at your age, There are many people who are worse than you. Compared with you, I can count on it, but compared with Teacher Jing, I am nothing."
"Zi Nan, I have made detours before. But later, I became more and more aware of a truth-don't compare with others, you are too tired, there will always be someone you can't match."
"Perhaps, each of us has our own time zone. People born in London will always see the sun an hour later than people born in Rome. It’s not our fault to be late. We just need to save money in our own time zone. Heat, after a long cold night, there will always be time to wait for the sun in our own time zone." This is what she realized after breaking up with Jing Xun, following Wei Yizhen, slowly healing her heart disease and calming her mind.
This kind of open-mindedness is the quality that she had attracted Jing Xiu at first.However, it seemed that this trait had disappeared from Ji Yoon's body unconsciously after being with her.
Jing Xun was heartbroken when she heard her beautiful voice.At the same time, a strange feeling came to my heart.In just a few months, why did Ji Yuyan suddenly change so much?
"Even if you are not in this circle and engaged in other businesses, except for a few lucky people, success is always not so easy. Be patient and don't worry, okay?" She gently comforted Gu Zinan.
Gu Zinan was stunned and initiated.No one has ever said this to her. Her parents have always complained that she spent so much money in studying art, and she didn’t get anything done. The agency would only blame her for not knowing how to work and failing to seize opportunities, so she is getting more and more. Anxious, more and more panic.
"Teacher Ji, I know." She agreed with tears.
Ji Youyan touched her head with relief.There are some truths, but she may not be able to do it well if she understands it, but she tried her best.
Jingxuan is infected by Ji Youyan.She took out a business card from her wallet, handed it to Gu Zinan, and said faintly: "If you and the brokerage company are full in the future, and you want to change jobs for entertainment, you can come to me."
Gu Zinan was overjoyed and thanked him repeatedly.
Ji Yuyan was surprised, Jing Xun, more soft-hearted and kind than he thought.
Jing Xiu's mobile phone on the coffee table rang, and it was the private doctor who indicated that she had arrived.Jing Xiu changed her hand and called Yao Xiao and asked Yao Xiao to go down to pick up the person. Then, she looked at Gu Zinan’s red face and asked, “It’s not convenient for you to go back to the dormitory, right? I’ll let Director Chen drive you. A new room, will you keep it for two days?"
Gu Zinan wanted to agree, but then hesitated and hesitated.
"What's wrong?" Ji Yuyan noticed it.
Gu Zinan said embarrassedly: "I... I am alone in the room now, and I am a little scared... Xiao Die, will you suddenly call someone..."
Jing Xun and Ji You said: "..."
Well, when I was frightened just now, the feeling of insecurity is justified.
"Otherwise... Are you resting in my room for one night tonight?" Ji Youyan suggested.
The bedroom and bed are considered very private areas, and she is actually a bit difficult to sell.But considering Gu Zinan's mood, and also considering that she might...maybe...can borrow Su Jingxiu's bedroom!Ji Yuyan reluctantly convinced himself.
"Then what about you?" Jing Xiu frowned.sleep together?!
Gu Zinan clearly said: "No, no, if you don't mind Teacher Ji and Teacher Jing, just lend me the sofa to sleep for one night."
Jing Xiu looked at her delicate body, and felt that she was too unkind.
Ji Youyan quickly and generously said: "It's okay, you can sleep in my room." She said carefully, "Teacher Jing, I... OK, can I squeeze with you all night?"
There was an expectation of rejection in his big eyes.
Jing Xiu: "..."
"Let's do this first." After a long while, Jing Xiu bit her lip and compromised.
Ji Yooyan is very happy.
The author has something to say: Teacher Ji: Perhaps, this is my late Valentine's Day benefit?
Teacher Jing reacted: Maybe you can open another room?
Teacher Ji:............Go to bed quickly.
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