My Feelings Can Wait

When Jing Xiu woke up, there seemed to be a patter of rain outside, the curtains in the room were still pulled, and the time was dim.She habitually went to look for Ji Yooyan, turning her head and the pillow was empty, Ji Yooyan was not around.

Jing Xiu looked at the alarm clock on the opposite bedside table. It turned out that it was almost noon.She rubbed her forehead and sat up softly supporting her.

There were light footsteps outside the door, Jing Xiu followed the sound, and Ji Yuyan pushed in.

She wore simple shorts and a big T-shirt, which looked like an ordinary home life.Seeing Jing Xiu sitting up, she approached Jing Xiu, naturally bent over, stretched out her hand to help Jing Xiu manage her messy hair, kissed her forehead and said, "Wake up? Did you feel uncomfortable? I was a little bit yesterday. Uncontrollable."

It seems to be a scene that I have longed for countless times in those beautiful dreams that have been half asleep and half awake.Rings of ripples spread across Jing Xiu's heart, and he replied unnaturally, "It's okay."

"Have you been awake for a long time?" She shifted the subject slightly dumbly.

Ji Youyan straightened up, his eyes stroked her face, and smiled lightly: "It's only a little earlier than you. Are you hungry?"

I don't know if the light around is too dim and ambiguous. For a moment, Jing Xiu felt that Ji Yuyan's expression seemed to contain something other than gentleness.

"A little bit." Jing Xiu looked at Ji Youyan.

But before he could get into it, Ji Yuyan turned to the window, opened the curtains, and said casually: "Then go and wash, I'm ready for breakfast. Shall I bring it in and eat on this bay window? It's raining outside, while Having breakfast and listening to the rain makes me feel very comfortable."

Jing Xun's eyes fell on the gloomy sky outside, and it really was raining."Everything is fine." She suppressed the strange feeling she had just felt, took the clothes and walked to the bathroom, and said concerned: "Where are Xiaoxiao and Yueyue? Have you eaten it?"

Ji Youyan replied calmly: "After eating, they went out. It's rare to have a leisurely two days. I gave them a vacation and let them wander around at will. Do you mind?"

"What if I mind?" Jing Xiu teased her.

Ji Youyan smiled and said: "Then I can only pay myself to...you." The smile in her tone suddenly faded with the words, and the last "you" Jing Xiu could hardly hear.

Jing Xiu frowned, turned off the electric toothbrush, and Ji Youyan's voice came in again: "Assistant Yao Xiao No.2 is already online, what do the master need me to do for you?"

The voice was from far to near, "Do you need me to undress and undress for your personal service?"

Jing Xuan relaxed, sneered, reached out his hand to close the bathroom door mercilessly, and by the way it was locked.

She changed into her pajamas and found the hickey under her collarbone in the mirror. She gently touched it with her fingertips, and a shy and soft smile appeared on her cold face.

Outside the bathroom across the door, Ji Yuyan stood for a long time, his eye circles gradually reddening.

After Jing Xiu washed up, Ji Youyan had already put breakfast on the small table in the bay window.With her long legs crossed, she leaned on the window frame and looked out the window. Her long hair blocked her expression, but Jing Xuan keenly sensed the sense of depression from her figure.

She suddenly lowered her emotions, and sat cross-legged across from Ji Youyan.Ji Yuyan recovered and smiled at her with the corner of his mouth.

"Why aren't you happy?" Jing Xiu was silent for two seconds and asked straightforwardly.

Ji Youyan was stunned for a moment. He opened his mouth as if trying to hide something, and Jing Xiu firmly added: "From the time I got up, you were not very emotional."

She thought about it for a moment and poked the heart straight and said, "So, what happened last night or when I was not awake in the morning?"

Ji Yuyan was amazed at how sensitive she was to her emotions and was speechless.She slid her throat, and confessed with difficulty, "Axun, I'm really not in a good mood. But, you eat first, and I will talk to you after the meal?" She didn't have a face to hide her ears, but I don't know how to uncover these things in a short time.Jing Xiu's questioning gave her the right time to speak.

But Ji Yuyan felt distressed for Jingxun's exhaustion all night, and now that the drip hasn't entered, they are afraid that they will not eat well after talking about it.

Jing Xiu's heart was overwhelming, her eyebrows frowned tighter, and he said seriously: "Now this, do you think I can eat it?" She couldn't guess why Ji Yuyan was worried, but her instinct was very serious. Thing.

Ji Yuyan showed a sad expression, he wanted to say something, Jing Xiu felt distressed, and sighed and asked her, "Where's yours?"

"I have eaten." Thinking that Jing Xiu didn't know what the price was, and thinking that the strange pain in her body might be the result of the price, Ji Youyan had no appetite for breakfast at all.

Jing Xiu obviously didn't believe it.She picked up the knife and fork and divided half of the meal to Ji Youyan, with a somewhat threatening meaning: "You accompany me to eat more."

Ji Yuyan understood her implication and had to obediently accompany her to dinner.The two chewed quietly, only the sound of rain outside the window was heard all over the room.

I don't know the taste.

"Can I say it now?" Jingxuan put down his meal after Ji Yuyan put down his meal and stopped eating.She took the wet wipes Ji Yooyan handed over, wiped her hands, and looked at Ji Yooyan solemnly.

Ji Youyan stared at Jing Xun with a deep expression on her eyes.She was actually very scared in her heart. She was afraid that the last life that was suddenly added to them would cause a crack in the rare peace of this life. She was afraid that the truth about to be torn would be so cruel that the happiness they had at the moment would become fleeting. Of bubbles.But she still responded very softly: "Yeah."

Without asking, she couldn't feel at ease from now on.

She slowly took out something from the pocket of her trousers, stretched it out in front of Jing Xun and spread it out - the red safety button was lying quietly in her palm.

Jing Xiu's heart snorted, but he still forced his composure and tried to stop with silence.

"Is this the medium?" Ji Yuyan was surprised.

This problem was completely unexpected by Jing Xuan, and Jing Xuan did not react for a while.

"What medium? What are you talking about?" She subconsciously concealed it, but the panic that flashed across her expression was still caught by Ji Yuyan.

Ji Yuyan knew that he had guessed right, and his open hands trembled uncontrollably. The voice was soft, but there was a loud voice: "We are reborn, or the medium of time reverses."

So far, the layer of tulle that had been between them was completely uncovered.

Jing Xiu looked at Ji Youyan in disbelief, and he was stunned.What does Yanyan mean?

She knew that she was born again, and also knew that she was born again?Did she... just know that she was born again, or did she know it from beginning to end?No, it's not right.She should have discovered it long ago, because Yanyan has been hiding too well.Yanyan should always be in a rebirth state, otherwise how could he change his mentality in such a short period of time...

Thousands of thoughts flashed in Jing Xiu's mind, and he was flustered.Why has it been hidden but suddenly broken?Did she suddenly remember something she shouldn't know?!

"I don't understand, what are you talking about?" Jing Xiu tried his best to calm down, afraid that Ji Yuyan was just testing her.But her ending trembling uncontrollably.

Ji Yuyan affirmed his conjecture more and more, knowing that Jing Xiu must have paid something and didn't want to burden him, so he tried to hide it.There was steam in her eyes, and she held Jingxuan's hand, her voice was hoarse because of her restrained emotions: "Axuan, don't lie to me anymore, I remember it all, I'm sorry I didn't remember it until now."

When she said so truthfully, Jing Xun was moved, and the expression in her eyes gradually became an indistinct complexity for Ji Yoon.It is like deep pain, but also with boundless love and affection.

There was a rift that never met again, as if suddenly lay between them.

Jing Xiu opened her mouth, but couldn't find her voice.She didn't know what to say, and she was afraid to say too much wrong.She still wasn't sure what the scope of what Ji Yoon said "remembered".

Ji Yuyan saw Jingxun not speaking, sniffed his nose, and Gu Zi continued: "Axun, I was born again in May last year. I guess your rebirth time should be earlier than me, so you can help me. Make all arrangements, including letting Tao sign me early and take care of my parents. When I first came back, I wondered if I was dreaming. Before or now, one of them was a dream or my fantasy. But I verified Several times, it was finally confirmed, whether it was before or now, it is not a dream. I really died once and was born again."

Jing Xiu's breathing became heavy when he heard the word "death", and the knuckles of the hands clasped on the table turned white with force.

"I used to think that God pityed me and gave me a chance to correct my mistakes again. Until last night..." Ji Yuyan's voice became crying: "Until last night, I held this piece of jade and my memory returned. Only then did I really remember that it was not God’s favor at all, it was you, Axun, who you switched back to me..."

"Axun, you rushed back after my death and got this jade. I remembered what Daokong once said, begging my mother not to cremate me, maybe there is a way. But my mother thinks you are nonsense, not only If you don’t believe it, you will drive you away. But you are unwilling to give up your vitality, so you still embarked on the road to find Master Daokong. It was you who paid a heavy price to exchange with Master Daokong, Master Daokong helped you do the ritual In exchange for our come over again..." She actually remembered very fragmentary, but her look at Jingxiu made sure that what she said should be the same.

"A-Yin, we finally got back to the present, do you really want to hide it from me? Do you want me to keep guilty like this forever?" Ji Yuyan clenched Jingxun's delicate hand tightly, his emotions could not hold back, tears The big ones rolled down.

Jing Xiu's throat was aching and his heart was broken.Her lips trembled, and the teardrops hanging on her eyelashes finally slipped down her cheeks.

Ji Yuyan is right.

Those days that she had been hiding in her heart and dared not to recall, finally came to her mind unavoidably.

All the costs are not terrible, the terrible thing is to live in a world where Ji Yoon no longer exists-knowing so clearly and clearly, Ji Yoon is gone.

For the rest of her life, love or hate, she will never see her again.Like, those unforgettable, just a crazy dream for her for 23 years.