As I sat in the chair beside the bed in the room where the sun was setting and dimming, I was driven to bed by anxiety that I had no idea how many times already.
Then, check the breathing and temperature of the sleeping person, exhale with relief.
One of the student dorms, quietly on the bed, the girl was asleep.
I, Ann Shelley's most important person in the world - Dear Catalina Kraes.
It's as if Catalina keeps sleeping deeply, without even moving.
Aren't you holding your breath...
If your body is getting cold...
Driven by such anxiety every few dozen minutes, I keep checking its breathing and temperature.
Since Master Catalina has become like this, two more days are about to come.
I keep escorting Master Catalina like that, and I'm not asleep at all. The meal barely goes through my throat either.
My coworker's maid told me several times, 'If I came to rest because I would replace my escort,' but I didn't feel that way very much.
I wish something had happened to Master Catalina while I was away that way... I couldn't leave the side very much.
Hold the sleeping Catalina's hand and stare at its face.
From its active character, or the way Catalina, who had moved well even when she was asleep and had kicked the futon over and over again, sleeps with little or no movement - made her feel different that this condition was not normal.
How did this happen...
Catalina, who had fallen in the courtyard of the school building, was brought into the dormitory's own room two days earlier, when the sun leaned a lot west.
According to what Mr. Geold told me, Catalina, who had been sick since morning and rested in the infirmary, was picked up for lunch break and taught, 'I'm back in the classroom now'.
And when I went back to the classroom wondering if I'd gone wrong, but there was no such thing as that, and I rushed to look for the whereabouts, they found one person in the corner of the courtyard, who had fallen.
But no matter how many calls he made, he didn't return a response, and immediately transported him to the infirmary, where he would see his doctor, but he said, 'I'm just asleep'.
But... no matter how much I called, Catalina didn't wake up, so I brought her into the dorm room.
And again, I saw a doctor, but it was still a diagnosis of 'I'm just asleep'.
Still, in the way of Catalina, who never woke up, Gioldo, who boiled his business, used his prince's power to bring in the country's renowned doctors.
The old doctor, who built up a fine moustache, was one of the top doctors in the country, saying that he was also responsible for examining the royal family.
If this person could do something about it, that's what I expected...
"Honestly, I have no idea what caused it. It doesn't matter how much you check your body. You may wake up soon, or you may not wake up like this."
"If you don't wake up like this, what happens?
When Lady Geold asked that with a harrowing face, the doctor replied with a sinking face.
"... if we stay asleep all the time... we can't take water, we can't eat... then we'll eventually lose our lives"
"No!? That's stupid! 'Usually the sober Master Keith forgot me and was desperately stuffed to the doctor.
When I looked more intensely at the sound of "Don," I basically only saw a smile and never roughed up my voice, Master Geold hitting that fist against the wall.
Lady Mary has a bright blue complexion, rattling and trembling, and is likely to fall even now.
It's so tight that I've never seen Alan's face or seen it before.
Master Sophia is just standing up, not raising a single voice, weeping out of those big eyes.
Nicole-sama's fist is gripped so hard that its color changes.
That's how I look over at you, myself, and if I lost my mind, I was going to fall on the spot.
Master Catalina loses her life...
I felt fierce despair over the fact that I was poked at.
I then saw a lot of other doctors, but I still didn't know what caused it and couldn't awaken Master Catalina.
Sometimes, the magic holders of light, with healing power, only a handful in the country, were asked to come... but the results were the same.
One day has passed and even after two days like this...... there is no sign that Master Catalina will wake up.
Someone who turned me from a tool used by people to a human being. The most important person in the world.
I've always decided to live beside you.
Please, Master Catalina, please, please, don't leave me.
I held Catalina's sleeping hand tightly.
"No. Master Geold, don't worry about these scratches. For the most part, I can hide the wounds on my forehead with my forehead, so there's nothing wrong with that."
That said, seven years have passed since the day she laughed at me.
My precious fiancée, Catalina Kraes.
A funny girl who appeared before me who was forgotten to exist in the royal palace and had boring days.
I was intrigued by those ridiculous words and actions, and as I spent time with her...
My world, which was gray and boring, was filled with bright colors.
I only knew emotions like boredom, boredom.
Happy or fun, Catalina taught me everything I knew.
Jealousy and uncut...... I'm sure I wouldn't have known if I hadn't met Catalina.
We spent seven years together, and I couldn't go back to that gray, boring life without Catalina anymore.
At first it was an engagement I had intentionally signed up for.
But if I realized it, I'd come to think of the existence of Catalina Kraes as more loving than anyone else in the world.
There were a lot of people admiring Catalina, the Talassi of nature...
I was never going to give it to anyone, and I was always going to, get it and never let it go.
And yet... I can't believe this is happening...
I knew there was imminent danger in Catalina... but I couldn't protect her.
Driven by strong regret and self-blame.
The cause of Catalina's becoming like that could be the magic of darkness.
I thought so and asked the Magic Holder of Light to come too... but in the end, I didn't know anything.
'If the magic of light is high, you may know something' but...
The only one who still doesn't know where Maria Campbell, who would be the owner of higher magic than that person, is...
Things never improved.
I can't help but regret my helplessness...... I hit the wall hard and gripped my swollen fist hard.
"Keith, we've become sisters and brothers, so you can call me sister."
That being said, it was seven years ago that I was reached with a smile on my face.
Still, I remember that day as if it were yesterday.
He was cursed as a monster, held his knees in a dark room, and lived alone.
Warm hands reached out to me like that.
"We've been together forever," he smiled, taking me out of the dark room into the bright world.
My dear sister-in-law, Catalina Kraes.
I was starting to feel more than my sister and brother for that warm smile and kindness, the most important person in my world.
We've been together forever, and we were going to be together forever.
I didn't even want to give it to my fiancée, Prince Geold.
I swore I would protect you with this hand.
To this end, he desperately learned magic in his sword and learned to behave as a nobleman.
Everything is to protect Catalina with this hand.
Yet...
How did this happen...
Why, then, we weren't together...
I swore I would protect you...
Regret pushes me.
Since I was eight years old when I was adopted by the Klaes family, my sister was always beside me when it was hard, and she turned a gentle smile on me.
I feel like that gentle smile asexually right now...
I don't want to lose Catalina......
I held back my trembling body. [M]
"Mary has a special hand full of talent for growing plants. With green hands, you are special and wonderful."
I still remember the day she held my hands so tightly when I said that.
He was timid and weak, always leaning down and running away.
I hated myself.
Catalina Kraes told me that she was special and wonderful.
I was so, so happy.
My sisters called me dirty, and I hated my reddish brown hair and my eyes.
When I liked Catalina, she told me she was beautiful, so I liked her.
I put a lot of effort into becoming a fine courtier, standing next to Catalina.
To be honest, over and over again, I almost gave it up.
But Catalina stayed with me, she told me she liked me, she told me it was important, so I could do my best.
I have Mary Hunt now, all because Catalina Kraes was there for me.
And I always wanted to be by your side, even from now on.
That's the one I love and care about so much that I want to take it away from my fiancée.
Yet...
That sleeping Catalina looks like she's dead again, and it's going to be dark in front of her, desperately tightening her mind.
Like this...... I can't keep distracting you...
I am Mary Hunt, best friend of Catalina Kraes.
It's not like the weak ladies around here!
If you don't do what you can for Catalina...... posture, but I raised my face.
"I'm sure Alan has something he's good at, so he's unsuitable and obvious."
That's what he told me the whole time, when he was totally sloppy compared to his twin brother.
Catalina Kraes, a funny girl with her watery eyes pointed straight at me, never out of touch with the battle and climbing trees like a monkey.
He put me back in sanity when I was in the shadows and caught in a random delusion.
I met Catalina, and I was able to pull out the wasted power I'd been straining on my shoulder.
Always straight and very cozy beside Catalina without lies.
That's why I stayed with her the whole time, as a matter of course.
That's... I can't believe this is happening...
I could lose Catalina......
When I thought about it, I learned so much fear I'd never tasted before.
And it was the first time I realized it.
Catalina has become so important to me...
That's... so much for wanting to be by my side all the time...
How dull I am.
I can't believe I realized how I felt for the first time since I was about to lose it...
They are my brother's fiancée... and this thought will never come true.
But...... I still want to be by your side as long as I'm allowed.
Here, I can't stand losing it.
Do something, I want to help Catalina...
"Your parents are so nice, your sister is so cute, and Master Nicole really is a happy person"
I can't forget the day I said that and smiled at her.
People who sympathize with me by deciding that my precious family existence is my misfortune...
Thoughts you won't understand no matter how much I say 'I'm happy'.
I always thought you wouldn't understand... thoughts I'd given up on enough.
Catalina Kraes understood that thought.
He wrapped me in the warmth of my chest, which was flooded with regret that you wouldn't understand.
From that day on, Catalina became my special person.
I was often distracted because I wasn't very good at engaging with people.
But Catalina always looked straight at me with her watery eyes, and gave me a bright smile like the sun.
It was very comfortable beside her.
Catalina, fiancée of the third prince, who is a childhood tamer.
No matter how much I thought, I knew I couldn't be with you all the time.
Still, as long as I was allowed, I wanted to be beside it...
I don't like myself not being at the center of anything, even if I'm being held up around saying, "Excellent, I'm a candidate for the next prime minister."
My dear, don't be able to protect one person, what is the candidacy for the next Chancellor...
Again, blood dripped off the fist that gripped him hard, the palm of his fingernails eaten in.
"I think Sophia's silky white hair and her red, sparkling eyes are very pretty,"
Creepy, they kept telling me I was cursed, my appearance unlike people.
She told me it was' beautiful ', and then she offered me that hand:' Be friends with me '.
At first, I thought I was just having a convenient dream... but I didn't wake up to that dream.
Friends made for the first time in my life, gentle smiles directed at me.
When I met a girl named Catalina Kraes, my world changed dramatically.
Jump out of the room you've been caged in and into the bright sun.
In the room, I got the happy days I've always dreamed of.
I wish these days would go on forever. I hoped so...
Why... why is this happening...
For the past two days, a little distraction brings tears to my eyes.
I think I've cried too much and all the moisture in my body has gone out already...... still tears flood me.
Since Catalina suddenly, falls, two more days are about to stand.
I visited the room many times and called, but without reacting at all, my chest tightened to its appearance of continuing to sleep.
The truth is, I want to be beside Catalina all the time.
But my brother pulled me to my dorm room saying, 'You can't say that'.
But when we stay away from each other like this, even at this moment, we are driven by a strong sense of anxiety about losing Catalina.
I've seen various doctors the past two days, but I haven't found a way to wake up Catalina who keeps sleeping.
If you keep sleeping like this, Catalina will lose her life...
It was at the beginning that I didn't really know what it was, the fact that I was poked at.
No matter what doctor I saw, I was gradually becoming realistic with two days without returning my fragrant answers.
As it is, I really lose Catalina...... I will never see that smile again.
That's unbearable! I don't want to lose it!
I thought so strongly and strongly. It was then.
'Yes! I can't stand it! Never want to lose it again!
The voice came from somewhere, suddenly, I heard it.
A voice I've never heard, then a voice I miss somewhere.
Surprised, I look around, but there's no one in my room but myself who even asked the servant to back off.
'Because we met again... I don't like losing it anymore!... Now it's time to try and help that kid! So, you're not shivering in here, take me to that girl!
It's like a strange voice I'm hearing from within myself.
Guided by such a strange voice, I rise and head to Catalina.
"Dear Sophia!? What happened at this hour?!?
A maid accompanying Catalina gives a surprise voice to my sudden visit.
That would be the case, too. Because all of a sudden, at a time like this when the night was already getting deeper, I got in without proper acknowledgement.
Insane behavior that you would never normally do.
Still, I thought I had to do something.
Because then a strange voice will complain.
"... Dear Catalina"
As I approach the bed, I grip that hand tightly with both hands.
Doing so, they conveyed my insane behavior, and my brother picked me up.
Sophia, calm down.
That said put my hand on my shoulder and prompted me to go back to my room... but I refused to do so.
Soon it seemed that Geold, Keith, Mary and Alan had all gathered in the room to tell us how we were doing.
Still, I hold Catalina's hand tightly and I don't move this place.
And when I put my forehead on my gripped hand and closed my eyes, I said, 'Please, please. Help Master Catalina,' I strongly hoped.
Then there was an unrecognizable girl on the back of her lid.
Black hair, eyes, strange girl who shouldn't look familiar, but feels nostalgic somewhere.
'I know! Be sure, I'll bring you back! You keep calling Catalina here!
Saying so with strong willed eyes, the girl disappeared.
It was only two days since I used the magic of darkness to put Catalina Kraes to sleep.
Apparently her knights are desperately trying to wake up Catalina in various ways, but that's not going to happen.
The magic of darkness can only be solved by those who have done it.
Catalina will stay asleep and lose her life.
That's what I wanted.
Yet...
For some reason, my chest is restless.
Keep it up, when you think Catalina will lose her life...... her chest is painful to tighten.
... I hate it, I don't want to lose her...
I want to solve the magic of darkness...
'What are you talking about? Stupid!' The other me yells at me.
"Don't let that woman get in the way of revenge! Whoever gets in the way of vengeance has to get rid of it!
... but...
I get lost. The other me makes my voice even more absurd.
"You're alive for revenge! It's the meaning of your life to take your mother's life and throw those who used you as a tool to hell! You forgot your mother's last words!
... it was...
My mother's last words, which I loved - '... please, take vengeance...' released from the mouth of my dying mother, are the meaning of my life.
I have to live just to get revenge.