My Youth Love Story Sudden Change of Painting Style

Volume name: Volume 5, number of chapters: 67

Chapter 1 Winter is here, can spring be far behind

Although Chiba’s winter is notoriously not snowy, of course it’s not cold anymore.

In fact, it is very cold here, and it may even make people think it is much colder than Snow Country.

For the sensing of the outside temperature, one depends on the intuition that is slowly degrading, and the other is the number of the thermometer. Of course, the weather forecast last night said that today's temperature is still below zero, but how much is actually It’s not clear if you don’t experience it yourself.

Real feeling is something that you can’t understand without experiencing it yourself. For a simple example, do you really have experience if you just watch a movie?

not necessarily.

Just like now, I read this tragic novel, but I can't feel the pain of the protagonist.

"My life has been spent in so many humiliations."

My eyes stopped by accident on this sentence.

The New Year’s Eve is approaching. Yesterday, when I was cleaning the house, I found this thing that had been kept in dust for a long time in many books. It was probably because the only four-character title made me think a lot.

This is a bloody soul confessing, Ye Zang is timid and sensitive, full of fear and anxiety about human life, coupled with the chaos of the world, the coldness of human relations, and the hypocrisy and deception between family members, and the boring and boring campus life , The cruel and cruel social reality, all this made him feel that he has become a "alien" in the world and lost his qualifications.

--"Human disqualification"

In fact, I have read this book in junior high school, but I haven't read it since.

It's not because I can't understand it, but because the themes in this book are extremely inconsistent with my personal life attitude, so I sealed this book in dust.

Weak souls do not have the slightest courage to face the bleak life and go head-on. To be precise, this kind of courage is not found in Dazai Osamu's literary world. There are many critics in Japanese academic circles who disdain Dazai Osamu.Calling Osamu Dazai the bankrupt of life, he is weak.

In fact, Osamu Dazai just divides the Japanese style of acting and the spirit that runs through life.

"Harmony"-Harmony is a kind of neutrality, and its components are weakness and violence. Therefore, many Japanese people like to go to extremes. It can also be seen in some film and television works or game novels, or they are too weak. Either violent and brutal, or even in the same person, you can still see these two types.

Brushing off the dust on the library, I just sank into the sofa in silence, preparing to spend a restful day in criticism.

…………

But it didn't take long to feel the breath behind.

It was the constant temperature emitted by the human body, and there was a faint sweet fragrance, and the slippers squeaked on the floor.

Some cold hands slid into the boy's cheeks. The low temperature tightened his relaxed nerves slightly: "Yoshiki, you are naughty again."

"Hey—what."

The naughty tone like a little girl always seems to be mixed with honey. Even if the ending sound is awkward, she will feel that she is very cute and affectionate. School girl and ex-girlfriend, Yi Hueiyu stands behind the sofa.

Surrounded by a white apron, Cai Yu seemed to have just come out of the kitchen. There were some water droplets on the scattered flax bangs. She probably felt it herself. She was shaking her hair from left to right, like a soup fox. , It looks so stupid.

Yawata turned his head to face the cute smiling face, and a little bit of amusement: "We are just two of us at noon. Is it so troublesome? Just make some food? I'm not too picky."

The girl’s bright eyes seemed to refute him: "It’s because the senior is too casual, so I don’t know what you like best, so I can only do more. What’s the name of this..."

Pressing her finger on the small chin, she thought for a while, and suddenly patted her palm: "Wide the net...right?"

"Where is it used like that, idiot."

"Senior is a fool~"

Biqigu turned his head and continued to read, Yi Huyu also put his hands on the back of the sofa, looking at the dazzling text on the book.

However, the young man put his hands on the pages of the book and prevented her from reading: "I don't recommend you to watch this thing. The cruel and negative attitude towards life is not very suitable for you."

"What... show me quickly."

The breath blowing into his ears made him have to take his hands away.

"The slender autobiography reveals the ultimate decadence, a devastating masterpiece."

"what?"

"Even though time has changed, the deepest despair still stems from inner confusion, and this confusion and hesitation almost penetrates Osamu Dazai and each of us youth. Therefore, "Disqualification in the World" is a cruel and eternal youth literature ."

The girl unconsciously nodded her head sharply: "It feels...very amazing, Osamu Dazai? I have heard of it, but I don't have any impression. Is it famous?"

"We are on par with Kawabata Yasunari and Yukio Mishima, are you famous?"

Hachiman sighed: "Osamu Dazai has attempted suicide many times, and finally, at the age of thirty-nine, he met with his last lover and committed suicide by throwing himself into the water."

Isshiki was really surprised this time: "Why, a big writer like this should live a very easy life, it's completely incomprehensible, senior, is it—"

She frowned slightly: "Do writers and painters like to use suicide to end their lives?"

Being as strong as Ishiki naturally does not understand the thoughts of those people.

"Genius and madman are always separated by a thin line. You don't need to care what the madman thinks. You should care about other things."

The girl tilted her head and thought for a while.

The young man looked into her eyes expectantly, predicting what this guy was about to say in his heart. His big amber eyes were gleaming, he gently leaned his body forward, and leaned forward with interest with an upward look. .

Biqigu turned her head silently and gave her a back of head.

The innocent and innocent girl looked like an innocent girl, poking her head out of his shoulder, still resting her chin on his shoulder, staring at the book.

It may be because of the weight that I put on my back, the touch and body temperature of the little hands on my back are subtle, plus the breath that comes into my ears——

Thanks to this, it seemed that something cool had passed on his back, and then he got hot again in the next moment.

It's so close.

The girl opened her mouth lightly: "Other things?...Well--is the writer super profitable?"

His eyes are getting brighter!

This is it!

really!Isshiki fits him highly in this respect!

The teenager showed a rare open smile. Although the girl couldn't see it, she could still feel that the senior was quite satisfied with the answer and couldn't help but laugh.

Then he muttered to himself softly, even if he was so close, he couldn't hear what he was saying.

"What are you talking about?"

"No, talking to myself."