Nankoufuraku no Maoujou e Youkoso
135 ◇ Even if it's not a mistake, it's painful
Rayce sits in front of me and startles me.
Kakong, and in his glass, there was a sound of ice.
"I'm surprised. I thought you were a fast spinning head. How did you know that?
"... I would, that's all."
"haha"
Rayce laughed strangely. Next, look happy.
"Oh well. That's good. Then I knew you'd help me. Mr. Lemme would know that, wouldn't he? Phoenix, Uncle Air, no matter how much I, the strong ones, admit Mr. Lemé, the one who doubts his strength won't disappear. I can't even admit I'm strong enough to look at someone strong."
Indeed, the fact that one of the tag tournaments with Berito and the fact that Mr. Aerial solicited me changed my appreciation of [Black Demon Instructor] Leme, and so on.
A little, just a little, more people to admit, to the extent.
I'm not dissatisfied with that little step, but Rayce seems different.
Those who deny me have their own criteria.
If I win, it doesn't change the plain. [M]
It is immutable that black magic is invisible.
I can't say I look good, and I don't think such a way would help with the offense.
There are many other reasons why you can deny me, and I'm rolling.
However, criticism goes around more than putting itself in a place exposed to the appreciation of others.
There are those who say that Mr. Aerial is an old man, or that Phoenix lacks leadership.
There must be no being praised by all for letting go.
Even if you know that, though it's hard to be denied.
And if it was something important to me to be denied, I'm sure it would be a lot harder and more painful than when I was.
"I can't help you."
"I don't know. I don't know. You're gonna be brave, aren't you? If you didn't give up, what do you want... no, I wonder what you're doing. I don't know how Lemme is going to serve her purpose."
He wouldn't think he was turning to the demon side, either.
That's why he can't understand my attitude.
A man who doesn't join a new party, refuses to invite him or Mr. Aerial, but the brave keep going.
"Well, no. If you don't want to say so much. If you see our fight, you'll want to fight with us. Mr. Lemme can support you, or you can fight for yourself. If Lemé's gonna do it, he's gonna need it to win."
Much trusted.
No, you don't. He just saw my fight and decided so.
That working with Berito was just about letting him make that decision.
"I'm glad to hear that."
"But you say no, right? He said he knew. Well, I guess I'll go home now. I'm gonna be busy tomorrow."
"Reis."
"Mm, what? If you're talking about changing your mind, you're welcome."
"I'm not... I'm sorry if I made a mistake."
"What, are you scared?"
Rayce glanced at her shoulder with a smile.
I got lost.
When you point a word at someone, it's not just the meaning of the word that matters.
Various things relate to each other, such as their relationship with each other, their situation, their mood, etc.
If you let the word pound, it will reach 10,000 people in the same way no matter what whoever says, as if there is no such thing.
Isn't what I'm trying to say too stepping in? There was such a stray.
"I think it's good to prove the correctness of the admirer"
"Is that the story? Yeah, thanks."
He strayed from his gaze and leaned his neck in annoyance.
I guess it's not the preferred topic.
"Because if you want to be like the brave man you admired, I think that's a fine goal"
"... I don't really know what you're trying to say."
He is firmly trying to read behind my words.
I don't think we're just going to release affirmative words from the flow.
"Uh, so... you try to be what you want to be. Well, I mean... if you're trying to replace [the indomitable brave]... it's not healthy"
He opens his eyes.
- Oh, I hit it.
From his remarks, it was felt that [the indomitable brave] was not comfortable with his retirement with his family.
But he thinks he's right about the way his adventurous father was, and he fights to prove it.
I don't want to be like him, I want to prove the correctness of the brave man who was strong, this is what I'm here for.
"... have you asked anyone anything?
"No, I'm sorry. It's all speculation."
"Yes... that's really scary. Or am I still immature? So, what if it's not healthy?"
"I, too, know what [the indomitable brave] was told after his retirement. I was a fan. I'm so sad, and I regret it. How can someone so strong and so good have to be said so badly?"
"To the extent that I had a child, I gave up trying."
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Rayce, speaking for herself, is distorting her expression.
"I don't think so."
"Where? I don't get it. We should have worked hard for another year and surpassed the [Storm Braves]. I should have done it. They say he ran away because he didn't do it. I mean, it's my fault."
"... it's not your fault."
"Oh, I know, Mr. Lemme. It's a fixed one, isn't it? He said," It's for you. "
I'm sure those who felt his suffering encouraged him to do so.
And the words, they didn't save him.
No, it's for his own good.
"... what do you mean?
Was it an unexpected answer, Rayce? You start listening to me.
"For those who are serious about something, of course, but that goal is very important. I want to sacrifice all sorts of things and fulfill whatever effort I make, and I actually will"
"... I mean, wasn't that guy serious?
"No, I'm not.... you know, it's not like I can tell you that I don't have kids."
"Fine, let me hear it"
"Changing the way you walk to protect something so important that it cannot be sacrificed is not an escape. I guess that's what he decided for himself."
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"[The Unyielding Brave] didn't give up first place. I think I just didn't give up my family."
So don't think it's your fault.
You can define who you want to be and fight for it.
Yes, I wanted to tell you.
How long has it been?
Rayce exhaled.
"Yeah, I think Mr. Lemme is hitting it. Maybe that's what you said, the line, I've heard. But (,,)"
Rayce laughed just at her lips.
"I don't like that."
That's right.
What is in his actions now is not admiration.
It's self-denial. Redemption, it may be said.
He thinks that he has defiled the strongest.
So at least I want to get rid of that dirt.
That's how it got cleaner. To be the strongest, not to make the world recognize you.
He can't forgive him.
For a teenage boy to carry, it's too heavy.
"Reis."
"It was fun, Mr. Lemme. I'll talk to you when the Reid fight's over again."
That said, he took a seat.
It would be useless to follow that back.
I can feel a clear rejection.
Words alone, in trivial conversations, sometimes people are saved.
But maybe that's not what his troubles are about.
Then all I can do...