Nirvana In Fire

This trip to Luoyang, first went to visit Shaolin incense fireworks, then went on a night trip to the Dragon Gate. Peony was seen the next day in the Shenzhou Peony Garden near the White Horse Temple. Although the national color of the sky incense name is not false, but... many people ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ I also drove out the plane on my way back, I missed most of the day, so I was late for the update, thank you ~ ~

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After the two sisters agreed to stop, they no longer sat down, got up and were preparing to break up. At this point, Su's corner door suddenly opened again, waving out a small, bluecloth trimmed sedan. Qin Li recognized that it was a sedan that Mae Chang-su often used to step out of the house. He moved in his heart and immediately followed the past. Sister Si was bored and idle. There was no interest in the excess. If Qin did not call her, she would not make a sound. She quietly left by herself.

If Qin had always thought that Mae Changsu had come out of the back yard corner door, of course, to cover her whereabouts, but after following her two full streets, she had to confirm that she was only walking through the back door because it was closer to the South Vietnam gate, so she would not detour.

Out of the South Vietnam Gate, pedestrians dressed like weaving in the city. If Qin was tired, she was not a martial arts master. Once the people around her were sparse, she would not dare to continue to follow them. She had to stop walking and look at the little sedan.

Of course, if Qin did not know that Mae Chang-su had not gone too far after leaving the city, the pedestrian walked only about two miles down the south avenue, he stopped by a hibernation gazebo on a small slope and went down to the pavilion. The followers placed the wine tea in the pavilion, and Mae Changsu sat on the stone bench very casually, and took the roll of the book and slowly turned over the tilting railing.

About half an hour later, a stream of smoke soared up in the direction of the city gate, and the servant next to Li Xian first looked up and called out “the lord”. Mae Changsu rose up and took a long look, because the distance was still far away, blurred and saw only two people riding, halfway across the horse before and after, rushing this way.

Li's vision was better. When Mae Changsu was still deciding whether the visitors were to wait for him, he had confirmed clearly, whispering: “Lord, it was them both. ”

Mae Chang Su, um, didn't say anything, but Le Platform would have liked to leave the gazebo immediately and come to the side of the avenue. The closer the two rides get, the clearer the eyebrows become, but it seems that the Le Platform has not been noticed yet. He was about to raise his arm and wave his hand to attract the sight of the visitor. For some reason, the person running in front suddenly stopped and turned his horse head back to look.

But his action was soon explained. After seeing the flying dust, the third rider quickly chased after him, and the horseman shouted, "Jingrui! Jingrui, wait! ”

At this time, Xiao Jingrui's side of the company seemed anxious and shouted: “Brother, let's go. ”

Xiao Jingrui raised his left hand and made a soothing gesture. Instead of walking any further, he turned his back on his horse.

“Brother!” Yuwen's heart was faint and he shouted again.

“Read,” Xiao Jingrui smiled lightly at her, “that's my friend, he called me, I heard you too, how can you ignore it? ”

“But... you promise..."

“Don't worry, I promise to come back and visit him if you want. This isn't a getaway. My friends are here to take you. What are you afraid of? ”

Just between these two and three sentences, Yan Yuzin has rushed to the nearest point. He looks like a dusty servant. The clothes do not look like the sunshine of the past. After he threw his saddle off his horse, he rushed to Xiao Jingrui's face and grabbed his arm and asked: “Jingrui, where are you going? ”

Xiao Jingrui answered four words without concealment: "Da Chu Yudu. ”

“Jingrui! ”

“Reading the letter received, her father was seriously ill and wanted to see me... and my mother gave her permission, so I should all go visit. ”

Yan Yu Jin had come to save him. When he heard the reason, he had nothing to say. His hand holding Xiao Jingrui's arm also loosened up voluntarily. But after a moment, he didn't feel comfortable and asked, "Will you come back? ”

Xiao Jingrui lowered his eyes, “Mother is still here, there is no reason never to come back. ”

His tone was faint, he could listen to it in his ear, but he felt sore in his heart. However, Xiao Jingruixiang was able to remain calm and irrationally excited himself, so he was busy stabilizing his mood at the corner of his mouth. He said for half a day: “Jingrui, after that day, I always wanted to talk to you, but the timing was always wrong. Now that you're leaving, you have to say what you have to say. Jingrui, there are some things you really shouldn't worry about. After all, it's past. It's a lifetime of grudges, and it has nothing to do with you...”

“Okay Yujin,” Xiao Jingrui interrupted him quietly, "needless to say, I know what you mean. It's just... nothing to say has anything to do with me. My father, my mother, my brothers and sisters, this is also a chopping relationship, not to mention many years of affection, many years of grace, all this... not to say that the truth can be torn apart...”

“Jingrui...”

“I understand you're trying to persuade me to open up a bit, you hope I'm still Xiao Jingrui. But Yu Jin, I really can't do this. For me, just overnight, everything around me has changed, so how can I stay the same? So whether I like it or not, Xiao Jingrui is no longer Xiao Jingrui, I can only disappoint you. ”

Yan Yujin took a deep breath and took a step forward. He held Xiao Jingrui's shoulder with his hands and shook him vigorously. “Yes, I do want you to be who you were. But if you can't do it, it doesn't matter. We grew up together. Anyway, you've been changing, from being a fat little dwarf to being tall and handsome now; from quiet and quiet to not talking, to throwing up my trough with Xie Pi. I don't care if you keep changing, no matter how you change, you're still my unique friend, the relationship between the two of us won't change! So listen, wherever you go, remember my friend, if you forget, I'll never forgive you, okay? ”

By the time he said the last sentence, the voice had become a little dull and the circle of eyes had become red. He pressed Xiao Jingrui's hand on his shoulder, and his fingers were pinched so hard that it hurt. His words were not long, but they contained sincerity, openness and warmth that no one would doubt. Xiao Jingrui lowered his head, his eyes were a little tidy, he couldn't help but turn his face and wipe the corner with his fingertips.

“Well, now you can go wherever you want. Anyway, you used to run everywhere, but it's a long way off. Take care.” Yan Yujin sucked his nose and took a step back. "If anything happens, write to me. ”

Xiao Jingrui shouted and raised his head. They stared at each other and tried to smile at each other, but with each other's smiling faces, they saw unseen and indelible grief.

Because both young people know in their hearts that this separation, someday, will see each other again.

After the imperial queen's bereavement, even Princess Laoyang would leave the capital to go to her own enclosure. Even if Xiao Jingrui returned to Liang, it would be difficult to tread on the land of God again.

The two of them were from similar origins, were of similar age, had similar emotions, thought that they could always be this irreversible, thought that there would definitely be a similar life trajectory, who knew when it was too late to change, so far away from the eyes.

Even with optimism and hesitation, I can't help but wonder.

“Brother, shall we go?” Yuwenxian rubbed his red eyes and walked over, holding his brother's long sleeve.

Xiao Jingrui and Yan Yuzin lifted their arms simultaneously and hugged them tightly.

“You get on the horse, I'll watch you go. Be small on the road...” Yan Yujin was smiling and saying his last goodbye, but his voice suddenly stuck, his gaze fell somewhere behind Xiao Jingrui, his expression was a bit odd.

Xiao Jingrui immediately noticed that he turned around and looked at him. He saw only the place where the ten fathers had opened. Li Xiao was standing on the side of the road with his waist pen upright. He turned around and immediately raised his hand to the hillside beside him.

In fact, Xiao Jingrui had already understood who he would see before Li's guide turned up, so he hesitated for the first moment, but a moment later, he still raised his eyes openly.

Above the half-sloped gazebo, Mae Chang-su stood by the fence and the mountain breeze was full of sleeves. Although the slight expression on his face could not be seen due to the slight distance, that position clearly showed that he waited here exclusively for Xiao Jingrui.

“Jing Rui...” Yan Yuzn shouted with some apprehension.

Xiao Jingrui settled his mind and turned back faintly: “He probably came to see us off too, I used to say a few words. ”

“I'll be with you...” The phrase came out in half a sentence and stopped. Smart as words and hesitation, naturally understood that some hearts and minds had to be understood by the parties themselves, and it was never for others to intervene, so eventually, he just took a few steps back, no more words.

Yuwenxin was not very clear about Xiao Jingrui's former friendship with Mae Changsu, so he couldn't figure out the situation. He wanted to ask the last two questions, but he was caught by Yan Yu Jin and pulled back.

Xiao Jingrui had now made great strides towards the gazebo, although his face was slightly pale, but his demeanor and pace were stable.

“Have a seat.” Mae Chang Su smiled, lifted the silver pot on the stone table, poured a glass of sake and handed it over. "It's a long way to go. I hope you have a safe trip. ”

Xiao Jingrui took the glass and drank it all with his back. He wiped the marks off his lips and put it on the table. He arched his hand: “Thank you, Mr. Su, for coming to see me off. Goodbye. ”

Mae Chang Su gazed at the young man and turned around until he walked to the pavilion and asked softly: "Jing Rui, why don't you hate me? ”

Xiao Jingrui was in shape for a moment. Xu Xu looked back at him and replied: “What can I hate about you? My mother's past was not caused by you; my birth was not arranged by you, Xie... Xie Hou's wrongdoing was his own, not your instigation to plot... You and I both know that it actually made me feel terribly painful, after all it was the truth itself, not the hand that revealed the truth. What happened back then had nothing to do with you, and I didn't mean to be ridiculous enough to anger you and hold you accountable for what others did wrong. ”

“But I had the ability to keep the truth covered up, but I let it erupt, and it exploded so intensely that I didn't think about your feelings at all, or your relationship with me, and you should have some complaints more or less about that, right? ”

Xiao Jingrui shook his head and smiled tragically: “Honestly, I was sad when you did this. But I'm not a self-righteous kid after all, and I know there's always a trade-off. You took what you thought was important and abandoned me, it was just your choice. I can't hate you for not choosing me, after all... you don't have the responsibility and obligation to take me seriously, even if I ever wanted to, I can't ask for it. ”

“I don't have to put you first, but you've been honest with me ever since you and I met, and I owe you that. ”

“I treat you sincerely because I want to. I would certainly be pleased if the same sincerity could be won, and if not, there would be nothing to regret. ”

Mae Chang Su's eyes were glaring, but he still smiled: “Although you don't regret it, you and I can't be friends anymore. ”

Xiao Jingrui lowered his head and said nothing. Ever since they met, he has admired Mae Chang Su's talent, regarded him as a good friend of a mentor, and carefully maintained that friendship. But I didn't expect to go one step at a time, to the point where we can't be friends anymore.

In fact, in order to calculate the cause and effect seriously, there is nothing between the two men but some knots of heart to wipe out deep blood. But after so many things, Xiao Jingrui has deeply felt that Yan Yujin was right about what he said before. He and Mae Chang-su are not from the same world at all. There are too many disparities between them and lack the basis to become friends.

No hate, no grudge, it's already their best ending.

Maybe in the future, growth can make a difference. Maybe in the future, there will be unexpected crossings. But at least at this stage, they can't be friends anymore, as Mae Chang-su said...

“Jing Rui,” Mae Chang Su stepped forward and looked softly at the young man's face, "you are the most inclusive child I know, God gave you a hateful, generous temper, maybe just to offset your pain. I really hope that in the future, you can keep this sincere heart and get more peace and happiness, because that's all you deserve...”

“Thank you.” Xiao Jingrui took a deep breath and slowly exhaled. In fact, he still had a lot of words in his heart, but he reached his lips and felt that it was useless to say them, so he must have turned around again and quickly left the gazebo.

Yuwenxing and Yan Yujin were waiting for him on downhill avenue. After the three of them reconvened, they only said a few simple farewell words. Brother and sister Xiao Jingrui admitted to mounting their horses and flew south. Yan Yuzhin glanced at them and disappeared. He looked up again at Mae Chang-su, who was still in the gazebo, hesitated for a moment, or he went to say hello.

However, this was not an occasion for climbing, neither of them were in the mood to climb, so after a few words, Yan hesitated to say goodbye and went back to the city on his own.

“Lord, this place is windy. Shall we go back?” Li Xian came to collect the wine utensils and asked in a low voice.

Mae Changsu stood up slowly from the pavilion without silence. Before approaching the sedan, he looked back at Xiao Jingrui's distant direction, solidified his figure and fell into contemplation.

“My lord? The Patriarch?”

Mae Changsu's two long, dark eyebrows slowly hoisted to his forehead and sighed. “In the end, Dachu is not pure earth... Pass on my order and send Jooshi over and try to take care of it. ”

(Jing Rui can rest for a while, like his readers, say goodbye to him. After a while, Sister Hai will pick him up again ~ ~)