When I was in second grade.
She transferred to school.
She was a very cute and beautiful girl.
At first glance, I fell in love.
I was very happy when she sat next to me.
I thought it was fate.
She always has a cool look and doesn't move anything.
But it wasn't cold in any way, and it was kind to everybody and treated me separately.
When I forget my textbook, I ask you to lend it to me, and you don't have to give me a bad face.
He was such a good boy.
Because I like her... I want to know about her.
I went to see her house once.
Sure, it's winter day for the fourth grade.
He climbed the tall stone wall and peered into the house with only a few thoughts.
At that time, I saw it.
Her mother smacked her in the cheek.
She was thrown into the garden to be pulled by her mother.
The sound of closing the glass door was impressive.
Even though it was mid-winter evening, she was trembling cold in her underwear.
I rushed to her in a hurry.
I don't remember what kind of words I said to her at that time...
No, he probably couldn't say anything just by rushing over.
She has cold eyes and a word.
Leave me alone.
That's what I said.
I had no choice but to run.
Later, I talked to her brother, no, his cousin.
I found out that she was a girl in a very poor situation.
It was an unimaginable world for me to be born into an ordinary family.
I wanted to protect her, and I wanted to help her.
But I have no power to be just a child.
I don't know what to do in the first place.
I kept wondering if I could do anything for you.
I've actually been trying to speak up and help you with your clerk's work.
Every time, she smiled beautifully, thank you.
If that's how you can narrow the distance little by little.
And when I grow up.....
While thinking of that, I became a sixth grade elementary school student.
Her cousin told me that she would be enrolled in a somewhat good private junior high school.
That's why I asked my parents to take the middle school exam.
My parents thought I had woken up to study, they gave me their full support, and they let me go to school.
I managed to pass.
In junior high school, I always thought that the distance between the two would narrow.
I was convinced that school life would be fun from now on.
But....
It didn't seem strange.
Maybe it's because we're both in puberty.
I began to feel something like a barrier between men and women.
Ministry activities are also gender-specific.
In addition, unfortunately in secondary school, I could only get into the same class once.
Junior high school.
On her high school exam, she was told that she would enrol in a private high school.
About four or fifty minutes by train from here.
It's a famous school a little farther away.
It doesn't seem to be as good as one of the leading schools in the country... but there was a big opening when comparing my grades with the deviations and tips required to enroll in the school.
I tried so hard to get into the same high school.....
But I didn't go like I was in middle school.
One more step and it fell.
Despaired.
But me and her are neighbors.
We'll see each other from now on.
It's not like I don't have a chance.
Even if you can't go to high school, you just have to be able to enter the same university.
... I thought so, but the prospect was sweet.
It was at that time that people first learned that once they lost contact, they quickly became alienated.
Sometimes I pass by and confess.
That's the extent of the relationship.
A month has passed and early May.
While on holiday, I saw her get into the car in a beautiful kimono.
It seemed so spicy and sad... I had that look on my face.
I haven't seen her like that since elementary school.
Then another time passed, July.
When I came home from school and passed by her house... I bowled with her.
But the condition was slightly different from usual.
A strange man stood next to her.
A slightly taller, full-fledged, calm man.
At first, I thought it was her relatives or something.
Because he looked so grown up that he didn't look like a high school student.
She looks young, so she's probably a college student.
I didn't think that there was a connection between the male college student and the female high school student, so I predicted that it was probably a good old lady who would be connected to the "Tenjo family" or something.
He named himself her classmate with a very calm voice and expression.
First of all, it was surprising that he was his age.
But when I was told, it was true that I was still young in its proper appearance.
He was a junior high school student just like himself.
His words and attitude were very soft and polite.
She stood with such manners behind him.
It's like you're following him.
And as if he were in a mood, asking for opinions, or asking for directions, he was flickering.
I thought he was a bad guy.
Then I don't remember what I said.
All I know is that I made a proper excuse and escaped.
Just a classmate.
That's why he should be nothing but a man friend to her.
She has received confessions from various boys, but she has refused all of them.
Now, you can't start dating just a classmate guy.
I told myself that.
Still... I was worried, worried, and couldn't help it.
Are you sure you're just a classmate?
Are you a friend?
Or maybe...
Just thinking makes you anxious and unable to sleep.
But I don't have the courage to ask directly.
Even if you rub it off, you'll just have to pardon it.
Those days have passed.....
Eventually it was September.
One day, I went out with my family to buy clothes.
Then....
She was there.
I tried to speak up, but there was that man next to me.
She chooses accessories for men in a fun way....
One of them is shown with a finger.
The man put the accessory on his neck.
Then she.....
She lowered her eyes in a shy manner, reddened her skin, jerked off, and looked like she was illuminated, as if she liked a man.
I've never seen her look like that before.
It was really clear, cute, beautiful, and... glossy.
It was shocking how quiet, grown up, cool, calm, and confused she was to express such ordinary girl feelings on her face.
Your heart sounds high.
My chest is pounding.
Any man with that look would fall in love with her.
It was such an attractive expression.
I was really lucky to see it.
It will be a lifetime memory.
So.....
That's why.
It was very painful that the face wasn't facing me.
I wanted to distract my eyes.
But I couldn't let go of my eyes.
When I realized it, I followed them.
They were looking at the accessories with pleasure.
She talks to a man, pointing to an expensive, sloppy ornament.
I can't hear the conversation.
However, there is much discussion about what kind of talk you are talking about and what you are doing.
Perhaps she is telling a man her favorite jewelry.
Maybe he's asking.
Give me a present for my birthday or Christmas.
On the other hand, the man is listening to her with a serious but sparing look.
And occasionally, I had a troublesome look on my face.
I'm a little stunned by her selfishness.....
But still, if she asks, I'll buy it for you.
If it's something of this price, there's nothing wrong with it.
She looks like that and talks like that.
... I felt that way.
Check the price of the accessories she was pointing to after they left.
... it was an incredible price.
It was so expensive that even if I was a high school student or a social worker, I didn't know whether I could buy it or not.
Crunchy.
I feel drunk with alcohol and drugs and follow them.
They entered the clothing area.
She gets an adult coat of autumn design.
Then he looks at his wallet and sighs.
Perhaps it wasn't something she could buy with her pocket money.
Then you tell the man something.
One word, two words, a conversation.
Then I talked to the clerk and then I made him weave it.
And then you talk to the man.
When the man said something, she laughed with joy.
Then... I just heard a little voice.
I'll buy it, won't I?
And that's the voice.
She asked the man to play it and push it somewhere.
I see.
She asked the man to buy a coat, and the man shook his neck vertically.
The man took his credit card out of his wallet and bought a light and expensive coat of branded goods.
She receives a paper bag with a coat from the clerk.
I hugged it with both hands with joy.
I'm not used to anyone.
High Ridge Flowers.
Lonely and beautiful lonely wolf.
She was... waving her tail at a man like a dog or a cat fed by her husband.
A man slowly reaches out to her.
And she stroked her smooth, beautiful hair.
She has nothing against it.
On the contrary, I entrust myself.
I narrowed my eyes and felt comfortable.
It was really like a dog and a cat.
I couldn't see her melted expression.
So I look at the man's face.
The man... had a lowly smile on his face.
Looks like you're planning something bad.
I wanted to scream, "Don't be fooled."
In fact, I tried to scream.
But... I didn't have the courage.
I'm getting nauseous.
When I realized it, I was in the men's bathroom.
Wash your face in the sink.
There was a man in the mirror with a sneaky expression... showing himself.
My love was over before it began.