Now I'm dreaming.

It's a dream I'm used to seeing.

Even though I soon realize it's a dream on a boulder when I look at it like this every day, I still keep seeing this memories over and over again.

Back then I was happy.

I can't get it back. Dream of those days.

Every day there was, of course, some dissatisfaction and anxiety, but still so full of happiness that it seemed to overflow from this body.

There was someone I loved, and there were my children I loved.

I was within reach as soon as I wanted.

The kid up there is feisty and wondrous, but he's a very caring, honest good kid.

The kid below is a dripping, sweet kid, but a very smart, good kid.

That guy is clumsy even though he's worthy of reliance, and a very dear one.

You've always been by my side, my precious and important family.

If I could immerse myself in this fun, nostalgic and lonely memory, I would be able to sleep forever.

Though it is not even true.

It always starts that night.

Between groups of buildings about to collapse.

That guy in the corner of a worn out, lonely park, when he was young, looking down with me in his' old 'arms.

"Are you all right? You.

'Ugh, yeah. Thanks......'

I was there when I was a young man staring at that face in love, and when I was a 'human'.

It's our first encounter.

I grabbed the tail of happiness that night we met. It's impossible to forget.

Eventually the scene switches, and that bloody guy is holding my shoulder.

Say, "Help me! If it's for you, I will! I'll do whatever it takes!

My dearest who protected me while I was scratched and eating my teeth away.

"Hiku... hey, help me... help me!

Me protected by that chest in tears.

That night I became aware of this thought, and it became a sure thing.

Not only did you lift me up from deep despair, but you led me to the light, my prince.

After all these years, this thought will not fade. Rather, the more time passes, the stronger and heavier it becomes.

Kohei-kun...... Kohei-kun, Kohei-kun!

Kohei-kun!!

Raise a scream you'll never hear, and I'll reach out for "Now," where you can't possibly be.

Fingertips ruthlessly turn to Kasumi, and we disappear far away in memories.

Oh, I knew it wouldn't arrive.

I don't even know how many times I've been doing the same thing again, but I've been asking for that guy for more than once.

Even if that is my unconsciously portrayed phantom of memories, I will surely continue to seek if you are in front of me.

I want to see you.

I want to see you and touch you... Kohei-kun.

Eventually the scene changed and it became a room that emitted a bright white strong light.

This is the delivery room.

It's me and Kohei, the nurse and the doctor holding my hand tightly there.

My blue-faced shaking flat face continues to encourage me all the time, screaming all over my sweat, tears and snot.

Eventually, my voice sounded louder and indoors, and when I heard it, Kohei-kun lost more blood and saw the doctor.

I couldn't do it because of my worrying habits.

Eventually you will hear the voice we have been waiting for.

"Huh! Nah, nah, nah!

With a cheerful production voice, my treasure was raw in the world.

He was like a bright red monkey, but a very cute boy.

I held my hand wide open and wept at the look of it calling me so hard.

Kohei-kun, who was handed his son by the doctor, held him in his chest in panic, and freaked out, crying one-on-one with no eyes.

Connect the seemingly interrupted consciousness together and see firmly not to miss that sight while taking a rough breath.

'Oh... it's our boy, isn't it? Me and your kid, too. Shinji-ran, right? Oh, shit. Suggestion cute......'

'Huh... Huh... Ugh, you can cry too much'

Even I was impressed with that, but I think I lost to Kohei-kun.

"Look, it's your mother."

"Nbi eh! Nbiaaaaa! '

That's how Mr. Kohei kindly left the child with me.

I turn my arms around that little back and feel the weight on my chest.

I shook and kept crying. I gently kissed that head, gently accompanied by cheeks.

"Oh, yeah?

"Nbiaaaaaah!

That voice sounding on the side of my ear was such a comfortable tone that I could keep hearing it for us and our couple, even if it was less.

The name is something Kohei-kun, who is fast tempered, has been deciding on for a long time. I've been calling her since I was in my stomach, and a name I've been familiar with this kid enough to kick her in the stomach and react occasionally.

But this was the first time you looked at me and called me, wasn't it?

"Happy Birthday...... Kaoruhei"

"Fu Ha"

Kaoruhei stopped crying for only a moment with a pretty voice on her nose.

Jiuhei-kun and his second pair, we laugh in tears.

Me and Kohei-kun must be thinking together at this time.

I'm sure we met to see this girl. Yes, because I was sure.

Kaoruhei.

Kind, strong brother.

Grown up in my stomach, the first treasure.

Oh. How nostalgic.

And how adorable.

Reaching out to touch that little life, he moves away with tremendous speed.

See you later.

Even though this dream is my dream, it always saddens me.

The back of my throat gets pinched and my eyeballs get hot.

I want to hug you.

I just want to feel that soft body and warm warmth for one second!

Wait. Don't go.

Please, just a little more.

Such thoughts were vain, and the sight of that day went far away already.

Close your eyes and enjoy.

Don't cry.

Even in my dreams, if I cry, it breaks my heart.

What I was suppressing, it blows up.

"Look Kaoruhei, it's your brother."

"Oops? This one?

I opened my eyes immediately.

Oh, and this sight.

Because it's something I've always been in a hurry.

'Am I right? Kaoruhei's brother. His name is Shohei. "

Me holding another precious treasure while breastfeeding in a hospital bed.

Born just a little smaller, new life.

That kid was weak enough to worry about the momentum of drinking breast milk, and he could never keep his eyes open.

Kohei-kun, standing next to him, smiles and watches his brother looking at him as he sits on the bed.

Turn it on. To the habit of crying until a little while ago.

"Hey, hey."

'Yeah. Look Kaoruhei. Can you touch it?

Your brother, staring at his brother still, moved out in my voice.

Reach out to those cheeks who drink breast milk quietly in horror.

A small finger sank gently on Punipni's cheek, and your brother leaked his big breath.

Slowly releasing his hand, he now puts that finger on his loosely-opened, red-leafed palm.

"Ah."

My brother held your brother's finger tightly.

The surprised looking brother grinned quickly with a rough nose and a full smile.

"Eh, eh, eh. Hey, hey. Tocha, hey, I'm busy."

Oh, it's nice to meet you.

"Yeah. Yeah."

Kaoruhei's hard hair, delighted enough to turn her face bright red, is stroked hard by Kaoruhei-kun.

That hair from his father's concession.

You look really alike when you look at it like this, don't you?

Shohei's hair had the same color and hair texture as mine, although it hadn't all grown yet at this time.

Such a small discovery was another great joy.

"Hey, hey. Why don't you scrub it already? What are you doing? Hide or hide? Or play football like a cumber, right?

You're a quick brother.

After you get a little older, huh?

You should be watching it over and over again, but I'm still in the illusion of being there.

Even if you reach out, you can't touch it.

It's not like it was back then.

Hold hands hard in front of your chest.

I bit my trembling lips hard. I even spare a blink.

Every moment, because I remember everything even when I cut out the moment, but I'm afraid to overlook it.

"Ahhh."

"Ah, Tocha! I'm stuck!

Seeing Shohei loose his eyes that still won't open, Kaoruhei makes a happy report to Kohei-kun.

The view of the hospital room suddenly turned away when Kohei-kun nodded with a gentle smile.

It grows smaller and smaller so that it is sucked into the black darkness.

Completely one light went out and the surroundings darkened.

Look around.

A squared window floats up one after the other, each of which shows the view.

Service area when we first drove with four family members. Unlike Kohei-kun, who was afraid to drive, Kaoruhei and Shohei were delighted, right?

Kaoruhei pulls Shohei's hand with a floating wheel in the sea bath where she took advantage of the summer vacation, and Kohei-kun holds her and swims.

Zoo. Kaoruhei, excited by the eagle, is holding Shohei and showing him in the cage.

Some hot summer day. I'm holding Shohei and hitting the fan as I watch Kaoruhei helping me fold the laundry.

Shohei, whose feet are still uncertain, chases Kaoruhei, who runs over to Kaoruhei-kun, who is back from work, with Yotayota. When I followed him as I wiped my hand with an apron, Kohei-kun, who was holding Kaoruhei, was reaching out to Shohei.

Me and Shohei support Kaoruhei-kun running with Kaoruhei at an elementary school athletic event.

Kaoruhei dancing in the light of Shohei's gaze at the Academic Arts Club was in the picture with Kohei-kun fully open his parent idiot, and I was desperate to see it and laugh.

Heavenly River I saw as a family staying up late.

Fathers and sons sleeping by the letter of the river in the resting place in the amusement ground of the hole.

No one could ski, so I ended up building a snowman.

Kohei-kun was a lot harder than the kids when we went to camp.

When we all went to work to deliver lunch, Kaoruhei leaked a sigh of sigh saying it was cool to see Kaoruhei-kun working, right?

Shohei's fourth birthday. Shohei tried so hard to breathe in the four candles lining the cake, it didn't go away, and Kaoruhei sneaked in to help.

The sketch Kaoruhei wrote on Father's Day was pretty good, and we were both interested in seeing it, even though it was small.

I thought you and the kids gave me a round of lavender for Mother's Day. Kohei-kun was hiding and preparing, actually, I knew.

Amusement park I went to on my wedding anniversary. When I kissed him in front of the kids, he turned bright red and lit up, and I thought he was cute no matter how old he was. But I also know it's cooler than that.

Thank you so much for working really hard every day.

I was also desperate to be Kaoruhei-kun's proud daughter-in-law and Shohei's proud mother. In the end, this happened.

I was never wealthy, and my life wasn't easy.

But I was happy.

I liked the moment when I finally told you I was home, waiting for your children to come home.

I really loved that time when I was lining up my pillows with you and watching the kids sleep.

Dropping you off with the kids, or the day we all decided to sleep together on the day off and went to bed twice.

Since the day I met you, I've been really happy every day.

A small window of memories around you disappears one by one.

All of it, my memories.

Never fades, memories of that day.

I'm still the mother of those kids.

If this happiness is bitten, I can stay in Kaoru for the future.

Yes, no matter how you change your appearance.

[Uh-huh. Occasionally! Hilday - Occasionally!]

I hear voices.

Oh, I need to wake up now.

Ammira is a very serious child.

I guess you're trying to wake me up, on time I asked you to.

All the little windows of memories are already closed.

I looked and saw if there was even one left, but I can't find one.

[Hildegarda Occasionally! It's time, so shush! Please wake up!

Yeah, Ann.

I'm gonna wake up now.

"Ka-chan!

"Kaa!"

"Kaoru!"

A family voice stained with memories calls me.

But I know.

This imitated those people's voices, my untrained remnants.

My last resistance to impudent, weak parts.

"... go, huh? We have to work hard. '

Smile back at that voice and I close my eyes.

Admittedly untrained. I'm weak.

But more than that, I'm strong.

Those kids and this world where Kohei-kun lives.

It is my pride to continue to protect it.

Don't lick your mother, okay?

[Please wake up! Hildegarda Occasion! Hilda Occasion!

Time to wake up from your dreams.

I'm going back to Hildegarda.

The awakening destination is an isolated world.

I'm not allowed to be old, the world I live in.

An irrational world where no one is allowed to enter and leave again.

Milky white skies and only a few greens left.

This is my prisoner.