Only with Your Heart

Since then, time had passed relatively calmly, and months had passed when I realized it.

Keep it up... I can't have kids. But I should have decided that it was okay, but still, every month, when my period came, Chizuru felt a little depressed.

I meant to be careful not to show that to Luklov, but it's a mystery how far I could hide it from him with a good mind. Maybe Luklov was also discouraged somewhere in his mind so that Chizuru wouldn't understand him.

Only when Chizuru had consciously stopped counting periods so as not to care as much as possible.

Still, the two of us were doing well.

─ ─ This begins such a spring day.

That morning, Chizuru woke up unusually early and rode a horse with Luklov on a big meadow.

Junma, with both of them on board, keeps running under the sunny spring sky as she leaves.

Through the forest that stretched behind the castle, there were a number of small hills, and a small stream flowed to sew between them.

A young grass reminiscent of the season of growth is dyeing the earth bright green.

Luklov, with his reins and holding Chizuru over his chest, loosened the horse's steps when he found a low-flat spot where the stream of water was calming down.

Colorful little flowers bloom around.

"That's a beautiful place. Can I rest here for a little while?

Looking back over his shoulder and a thousand cranes twisted, Ruklov nodded roughly.

"Oh... I'd even put it in the water around here"

Ruklov whistled loudly, sending a signal to stop at the escort who was following him from behind at a distance.

Then he descends from the horse with refreshment and reaches out to the remaining thousand cranes on the horse.

A soft bare hand of a thousand cranes gently touched the black leather gloves. Grasping it tightly and attracting Thousand Cranes' body, Ruklov lifted the edge of his mouth satisfactorily.

"You know why I don't want to teach you horseback riding?

Chizuru turns a blind eye to the abrupt question.

"Why?"

"Because I want you to stay on my horse. This is how I want you to ride and descend."

And really, as if the best pleasure was to bring my wife down from the horse, I smiled gently and lowered her to the ground for a thousand cranes.

Chizuru also...... I like this moment.

Ever since I first met you, the moments I feel at this moment remain the same. The powerful arms that make you stand by grabbing the two arms of Chizuru, who are about to lose their sense of equilibrium, and the distance between the two who are bound to approach you then.

Everything.

Far away this morning wasn't meant to be like this.

I just decided to go out because he happened to give Lucroff extra time and he cared about the clear air to Chizuru, who didn't feel great all day yesterday.

But I never thought the hills would be more beautiful this season.

The two tasted the gentle southerly wind tickle their cheeks, and the horses were free to wear the grass around them, and sat down by the creek.

Ruklov holds Chizuru's back.

Chizuru deposited his torso in Ruklov's chest with a sigh of relief.

"Peace. If I was taking a break like this, I'd really fall asleep."

"Oh."

Ruklov whispered as he breathed from behind into the ears of a thousand cranes. "You should if you want to sleep. I guess I wasn't feeling well yesterday."

"Mmm..."

It was blissful to let loose in the bosom of a loved one while being blown by a light spring breeze.

I did have a much more slight fever yesterday and was willing, even slightly nauseated. Though much better this morning, I still don't feel like I'm in the book.

Chizuru lay his eyelids down for a little while and listened to the spiral of the creek. And to Luklov's heartbeat.

After a while, the eastern sun began to rise high in the sky, and the air became warmer. The sun is getting dazzling, so much so that I have to narrow my eyes. But there is no shade around.

"Time to go back"

Thousand cranes nodded coldly, as Ruklov said.

Luklov helps me try to get up. When they stood up, they faced each other, holding hands and smiling at each other like their first lovers.

Then Ruklov looked back and walked toward his beloved horse, who looked deliciously grassy a little further away.

─ ─ I like Lucrov's hindsight.

Pink black hair cut short and aligned. A body with a wide shoulder width that can be seen from the top of the jacket. Despite his long and muscular figure enough to look up, the movement is as supple and useless as a cat animal.

Chizuru followed the horse and watched Luklov, half-naked, half-boo. I don't know...... somehow, I can't concentrate on the reality in front of me.

Is it because breakfast was also the first long run there?

It was a lot easier while I was sitting down and leaning against Luklov, but my body feels heavy as I stood up......

You wanted to keep eating some more grass, Ruklov stood still for a while as the horse shook his neck as he defiantly snorted.

It was getting harder to stand and wait, and Chizuru walked out.

No. I tried to walk out.

"Hey, Luklov..."

At that moment - when I suddenly saw my vision creaking - I felt the weight of being pulled to the ground.

That's all Chizuru remembers.

I thought I heard Ruklov scream the name of Thousand Cranes in the distance. Chizuru lost his mind as it was and fell over the bustling ground of young grass.

Thousands of familiar voices woke up in their ears with the kind of noise they were discussing early.

"Mmm..."

When he leaked his voice and twisted himself, it was Alde who first caught his eye on it.

"Well, Master Chizuru, did you wake up? Great. We were all worried!

While worried, Alde's voice plays oddly.

Chizuru blinked his pussy and eyes and looked around slightly. It was on the bed in the bedroom. I feel like the light of day is coming out the window and it hasn't been that long yet.

And......

"Estabel,?

Estabel, feather-woven with a thick black hooded coat, stood next to Alde all the time, even though it was already a warm time during the day.

Since that ecstasy incident, Chizuru had been restricted from visiting this pharmacist, so it's been quite a while since I've seen him. Estabel's spine is still as tight as a bow string, even though she would be quite old already.

Chizuru raised his torso on the bed with pleasure.

The outfit remains as it was in the morning when I ran away.

Estabel quickly shifted his gaze to Arde, next door, when he thought he glanced at Chizuru with an old eye.

"It would be a little further to be certain, though. But my experience as a pharmacist is clearly black."

Alde somehow joyfully slapped his hand at her unique crouching voice, which could even be a trademark.

"I knew you would! Oh, I'm glad!

Chizuru twisted his neck in doubt.

I just woke up, looking at the Duchess. The medic decides the symptoms are black, and the lady is happy with that.... Something is wrong.

"What's going on? Black... I did fall on the go..."

Speaking out, I noticed that I was terribly thirsty.

Alde quickly approaches the side of the bed and takes Chizuru's hand emotionally.

"That's right. Lady Ruklov... it's been brought to us by Chizuru, who has already fallen in impetuous momentum. But don't worry. Because Mr. Ruklov knows perfectly well that Mr. Chizul is safe. Otherwise..."

When Alde was about to say that, the door connected to Chizuru's private room was slammed hard with Don.

"Open it, Alde! Chizuru woke up?

Ruklov's roar echoed through the door.

To the bewildered Chizuru, Alde smiles like he wins with a grin.

"Otherwise, even for a moment, you wouldn't have understood to leave by Master Chizuru. I had to talk to the doctor and the woman alone... and they took my seat off for a while. But that's enough."

And Alde turned to the closed continual door and said, "Go ahead!" He raised his voice.

The door opens in momentum before Alde speaks out its short hanging voice, with a difficult looking luklov coming in at a sickening rate.

Nadal followed as he panicked to follow.

"Chizuru, are you okay? How do you feel?"

Instantly coming to the side of the bed, Ruklov succumbed next to Chizuru as he pushed Alde away.

"Ugh, yeah... it's okay. I'm sorry to bother you. Maybe it's just anemia..."

Though Estabel's 'black' remarks crossed the back of his brain as he told him. But somehow Alde is happy, and it shouldn't be that bad news......

Chizuru, whose hand was taken by Ruklov, managed to smile and show it.

"No, Master Chizuru, it's not just anemia. Congratulations, I'm sure."

Alde, driven behind by Ruklov, made a farewell and critical announcement.

"... what?

It wasn't Chizuru himself who reacted first, it was Luklov.

Alde laughs nimmari as if to take a pushed revenge.

"I always count the days of Chizuru-sama's moon properly. Because I'm the one who takes care of you... I'm already four days behind, even though I've had very little crazy going on."

Ruklov was looking back at Alde, but Chizuru's hand remained shaken. A painful force is applied to that hand.

"But no way..."

Thousands of cranes snapped, but speaking of which, I've been deliberately avoiding counting the number of menstrual days trying not to think much about this lately.

Nevertheless, it is Alde who will provide you with a cotton cloth for your period, and naturally when she is a competent samurai she remembers her plans well......

Estabel has now taken over Alde's explanation.

"Not so much a high fever, but you seem to be just a little warm. This is a symptom of pregnancy. It's common to get anaemia this time of year. Well, eighty-nine out of ten, I'm pretty sure."

Alde and Estabel, who don't look very good on the outside, are sticking together and nodding yeah.

"No way, right? It is my duty to fix the messy bed every morning, as well as to fix the bedclothes of the torn Chizl. Let me guess from that enormous amount of work, it's more strange what you've never been able to do."

His face turned bright red as Nadal breathed out a buffoon in the corner of the room. I guess the irritation was too strong. Maybe around 'a huge amount of torn sleepwear'.

Ruklov slowly put his gaze back on Chizuru's face.

─ ─ What can I say about the look on Lucrov's face at that time? Surprise. Inspiration. Joy. And just a little anxiety and doubt.

Such things mixed together in one and adorned his face, which was righteous. Cute, Thousand Cranes thought.

This one kid, inside himself?

The future I was about to give up. A dream I was trying to convince you that it didn't have to come true.

"All right, Lucrov..."

Chizuru asked softly.

"What's 'good'?

"Even if we have babies... I'm sure it'll be tough, won't it?

Luklov drew the hand he was holding, overlapping Chizuru's hand on his powerful chest. It was a strict manoeuvre, as if it were a sacred vow ritual.

"No matter how difficult"

The two gave in and paired each other's hips with a trick. It takes a hot exhale of Lucrov trying to contain the excitement.

"Whatever hardship you're going to carry. I love you. I swear to protect you and help you."

And when the two lips overlapped passionately, Estabel turned her eyes as if they were frightened, Nadal swimming her gaze in the direction of the day after tomorrow, and Alde holding her hands in front of her chest in tears with emotion.

Thus...... over many fiery nights.

Count that number.

Let's go slowly, carving it into our hearts and making it a lesson to the future.

Both of us......

[Booked Memorial Outside - I Counted Nights of Fiery]