An irreplaceable daily routine, repeated school days.
Most students understand this in their minds, but they unconsciously push it into a corner of their minds, and even if it's an irreplaceable routine, it's the only one.
I stopped coming yesterday.
Today is not tomorrow.
Conversations on the same topic are different from yesterday and today.
It seems the same, which is why everyday people even have the illusion of being irreplaceable and lasting.
Do people have to cherish this no-nothing everyday life?
At the end of the day, don't regret it or leave anything behind.
The student was just thinking in a classroom just for me and Shizukuishi.
The calendar in the corner of the view was marked with 0 on February 1, indicating that today has finally entered February.
Next month's date is marked with a flower circle on the fourth day.
The graduation ceremony is the day that Shuo Qian leaves this school.
So, I guess it is.
I was trying to reach an answer by thinking meaninglessly about things that I would not normally think about.
If I don't get my own answer, can I tell you that my heart is no longer clear?
From that look on my face, Shizukuishi, who was sitting in the seat where Kirasaka was originally sitting, looked at me and shouted.
"Again, you're having a hard time."
"... it's not that difficult."
"But there's a little wrinkle that comes out when you think."
That way, Shizukuishi puts her finger between her eyebrows and looks down with a small voice, creating small wrinkles.
When I was told to put my hand between my eyebrows, I certainly noticed that even though I had a reputation for poor eyesight, there were extra wrinkles and the expression turned into a disgruntled expression.
When you breathe out one breath with the buildup of wrinkles in your chest, you stretch out the wrinkles and become aware of them as usual.
Shizukuishi also nodded one by one as she returned to her usual expression. After approaching the desk next to her, she swayed her legs flutteringly and turned her gaze back to the front with a nose song.
... you're always in a good mood.
Is it because Kirazaka is teaching the final finishing touches of Miura's confectionery making?
I don't think Shizukuishi will be in such a good mood without her.
"I'm in a really good mood today...."
When I asked her, Shizukuishi opened her mouth with a smile that was overflowing.
"It's been a long time since I've been alone with you!"
Really?
Yes!
When she overheard the unexpected answer, she replied immediately.
I guess so....
Looking back at my memories, I noticed that I shared a lot of time with Shizukuishi, Kirazaka, Yudo, the chairman, and the student council, and somewhere I had time with Shizukuishi.
But that's what she says.
Now it's just me and Shizukushi in the classroom.
Just the two of us, really.
With that in mind, the words spilled out in spite of changes in less than a year.
"You've changed a lot in a year... until last year, only Shizukuishi or Yudo was near me."
"... don't you like the environment?"
Shizukuzuku asked me a few questions with a worrying face.
Thinking about it, there are a lot of things that I think are troublesome, and I hardly think it would be that bad.
Had it not been for them, the answer would have been different.
After all, I like everybody, and I have a friendship that's not bad.
"I don't hate it... but if I don't, I'll be honest with you and stay away from you."
"I see... you're honest about that kind of thing."
Shizukuishi smiled slightly sadly, reassured.
The truth is, she probably wanted to see me get along with a lot of people.
Maybe you don't want to see someone hate you and talk to you.
There is no earthquake where everything is self-explanatory and she knows her mood correctly.
But I guess so.
Even I'm not in a good mood to be told that my favorite opponent is bad.
It's easy to apologize if I'm not there.
It's easy, but if you apologize, you'll acknowledge that your behavior so far has been wrong.
I have chosen and will continue to choose a path that I believe was best done in the circumstances.
Whether others hated me or not, I moved on to what I believed.
And Shizukuishi didn't say anything because he acknowledged his choices and actions.
Silence occurs between the two of us, but in the meantime, the situation changes with a word from Shizukuishi.
"When Valentine's Day is over, it's just graduation."
"That's right... another month."
The graduation ceremony is one month away.
Then, a few days after the graduation ceremony, a two-year closing ceremony is held to celebrate the spring break.
After a short holiday, we will go to this school as the highest grades.
Classes are organized according to job hopes, aspirations for further education, disciplines, etc., so we may not all be together.
Even if you think that life is normal and immutable, as I mentioned earlier, the end is approaching momentarily.
That's why I was spinning words unconsciously.
"Don't miss me...."
"Eh...?"
Shizukuishi stared at me with an unusual and surprising expression.
Her eyes were wide open and she was trembling with her mouth wide open, trying to emit something, but the words didn't come out.
At that time, the phone in my uniform vibrated several times.
I will contact you about the prototype from Kirazaka.
I heard that I would contact you in advance, so if I understood the meaning without opening the screen, I would stand in my seat and grab my luggage.
When I saw my behavior and understood that Shizukuishi would also move to the family department, I rushed to dress myself.
For a short time before she was ready, I thought about my school life ahead.
Suppose that none of Shizukuishi, Kirazaka, and Yudo were in the same class.
The class is noisy, but I think I'm alone in my seat and I'll be watching the scenery outside.
There will be no naughty tricks on the sudden arrival of the heart from the neighborhood, and no jealous gaze from the surrounding boys at the familiar skinship.
You won't find girls in your class depressed when friends talk about topics they're not interested in every time they take a break from work and want to know about them.
After school, the activities of the student council will continue, but there will be no seniors who I forced into the student council beyond that line of sight.
Same as before.
Just for a little while, it's just a legacy of two years.
Oh, my God, I've lived in the same environment before.
At the beginning of two years, I was deeply disgusted with this situation, so thinking so, next year, peaceful daily life will return.
But the more I imagine, I'll never forget the feeling of loneliness I've never felt before, or the tingling pain in my chest.