You cannot escape the gaze that is directed at you with all your heart. The bowl sitting next to me asked me.
“Can you talk to me? I'm worried about you."
Charitable voices and facial expressions lighten the impatience that remains in the mind.
I didn't want to shake my resolve, but I knew it.
I reached out to Keirazaka and was worried by Yudo and asked about her.
It seems that it is difficult for me to do it alone, but in fact, it is.
Perhaps it would be better to talk like this and ask for cooperation.
That will lead us to the best choice.
I understood that the current situation was only self-satisfaction.
I don't want to make the flower for the president an unpleasant memory because of the self-satisfaction.
I was able to show a direction different from the others.
In today's discussion, Shiraishi moves to action, and Hino-kun and Koizumi should look for ways in their friendships and skills.
You don't have to put up with it, the program goes on as planned, and if I find an editor, I don't have a place.
That's it, if I can get ahead and take action.
It may be a small result, but it should still have a definite evaluation.
You can't just greedily take all the fruits into your own hands.
It is impossible to completely override the impression from the students who have cultivated it so far after only one achievement.
At the very least, if we can get rid of the negative image a little bit, the result this time should be much better.
It is a reality that has not been expected from the beginning, such as being asked to finish without anything at the annual regular event, and it may be that the student who is no longer talented is just an ugly figure trying to scratch his feet.
... I wonder if that's true. Will the students have a broad perspective so that they can be evaluated by planning and operation alone?
The focus only fits the person who made the footage in front of him or her, the person who gathered the footage to be the material, and the person who acted in such a visible way.
Only a few people who really like this operation or project can admit that they have made an outline of the project.
I noticed it was really faint.
This activity can't actually override the impressions I've been building up.
With a stack of coincidences, I met Shinobu Kanzaki before anyone else, and became close to Yuto Shinohara.
Kaoru Sakae had a preferred way of treating her, and she had the personality and personality that Kasumi wanted.
I didn't make any effort, nor was I better than others.
However, we spent more time together than others.
The time we met, the time we treated each other.
It may vary from person to person, but many students still monopolized the sharing of time with them that they wanted.
I don't mean to misbehave if I don't want to reflect on what I did wrong.
That's all that made me feel uncomfortable around me.
Everyone had a common understanding that you were not fit to stand beside them.
Groups are a kind of creature. The slightest concern gradually increases and leads to the overall discomfort.
Something that didn't bother me until yesterday has changed unpleasantly tomorrow.
If you say that you dislike people around you, it will change to a common perception of dislike.
Then how can we alleviate the malice and aversion directed at us by the people around us?
Thinking about it, the answer I gave overrides the evaluation.
Whether they say it's unsuitable or ridicule it as unsuitable.
So... I know it's just an excuse.
It was a fact that Yudu took off his heart as he walked up to Keirazaka's hand.
Relying on them, the override I want doesn't work right.
There were always Shinobi and Keirazaka around me.
As a matter of course, they lend a hand and the students turn to them.
Until now, I thought it was normal, but I rather appreciated it.
However, when I wanted to attract the attention of other students, I was reminded that there was nothing so troublesome.
... what do you think of that?
I wonder what Keirazaka will say when she asks.
Words of sighing and disappointment.
It's never the answer or action you're looking for.
That's why I'm still wondering what to say to the trout.
"No, I don't take it for granted if you can't say anything... but I'd like you to talk to me if you can tell me about me..."
She leaned down shyly, her fingers together, and she peered at me as if looking at her.
The gaze crosses and stops at each other.
The sound of the river flowing and the wind stroking the grass and trees can be heard, but it seems that it exists when only two people stop. If you are a romantic, you will hug her shoulder and talk about the future.
As soon as she became embarrassed, the words she uttered by dyeing her cheeks even more red gradually became so small that they became so detailed that they became obliterated.
Looking at her like that makes me hate myself.
It is tiny and nothing has changed since before.
"... I want to make a video that will be given out at the 3rd grade farewell party, so I'm looking for someone to edit and someone who can collect footage from my high school students.Looking for it seems like you'll be able to manage. ”
"Was that so...!"Well, I'll help you too. "
No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no
At last, the words she uttered were accompanied by a breath of relief, followed by words of cooperation.
But I'll shake my head to the side right away.
In addition, success is said to be a matter of course for the trout.
They also ask why they are so close to such a man.
... and we're lowering their reputation.
This time, I won't forgive you.
Even if I say it back now, it's obvious that it's counterproductive.
I can't do anything, I can't forgive myself.
There is no need to think about the cause of the students' bad words against them.
Simple dissatisfaction, jealousy.
Why are you dealing with such a mediocre man even though you're not in a good relationship with them?
It is more fun and meaningful to spend time with them.
And most of all, the mediocre man deserves to spend time with the girls that everyone admires, and he looks troublesome.
Even if it is contradictory because of admiration, it will become a word and an action, and it will hurt everyone.
It's important, and I don't want to lose it because I'm the only one connected to them right now.
Loneliness is not the same as being alone.
Even if it's similar, it's totally ineffective.
“What do you need? I think I can be of much help too!I can talk to my high school students, and if you give me a few days, I'll learn how to edit. "
"...... then, nothing has changed so far"
Shinobi moves his body forward, putting his hand on his chest and saying out loud.
I felt a little indignant at the sound.
Did you perceive your power as not trusted?
Well, I guess I'll have to make a correction.
"I know best that I can count on you... this time, it's pointless if I don't show the students that I can't rely on you."
When I told her so, Shinobi restored the previous body to its original position.
From the urge to say it back, it changes into a slight anger, and a cold piercing eyes and expression.
"Is it because we are told by the people around us?"
……
The gaze was strong and unimaginable from the usual point of view.
The other day on the rooftop, when the two girls were talking, I should have blocked her ears.
... you've heard me say the same thing elsewhere.
No, it has been said many times before.
That's what I didn't pay attention to.
"Unpopularity is also the result of your own deeds, and it's no reason for you to say strange things."
"No! Because you've always said things that are difficult for us to say instead... even on a school trip, if we had clearly communicated our feelings to others, I wouldn't have had a bad impression of you."
Zhao unexpectedly stood up and said with a rough voice.
... the second day of the school trip.Did you still care?
"Tsubaki, please proceed as you have always believed... we want you like this."
A dull pain runs deep in your chest as if you were begging, your eyes lifted and your voice honest.
What I'm trying to do is not what they want, what I'm trying to do is not what they want.
Still, it's the only way I can fix their trajectory back to where it belongs.
She gazed sadly at me, piercing the silence in response to the words Shinobi had spoken.
Silence must have received it as a denial of her desire.
But I'm sure you'll understand a lot, and I can't throw out what I started on my own along the way.
Leave it to Koizumi, Torino-kun, and Shiraishi to know that you can't easily switch between being as good as you've always been.
"...... ~ You idiot!"
Unusually, when Shinobi said something stupid, he quietly raised his hips and ran away towards his home.
On the way, I thought I looked back and said something, but I just stomped on the spot and ran away again.
"Are you stupid... I feel like it's been a long time since he told me"
She murmured to herself as she looked to the left after she left.
I used to feel like I was being told something stupid, but at some point I stopped being told.
After his pathetic sigh, the bitter smile contained nostalgia.