I met her on the day of my induction ceremony.
That was before the ceremony ended and I went home.
"It's just such a hassle to have an entrance ceremony and I honestly didn't mean to go... I was thinking of taking a break"
Sure, I wanted to take the day off, too.
I believe that an entrance ceremony is an event for classmates to just get together and experience the high school life they are about to start.
So, the ceremony itself doesn't make sense, it's okay to participate freely... I remember being in line for freshmen with what a thought.
I guess she was in that line again with the same idea.
"From middle school to high school, that just changes the learning ground, because I don't think that's all that's gonna change things for me... I'm not going to get along with anyone around me, and I really just, that's all"
(1) As I breathed down, I opened for a little while and Kirasaka started talking again.
"Back then, I wouldn't have been bored every day... coming to school was a hassle and a bore in itself."
"Doesn't that still make much difference?
Doesn't she still feel that way when she says she's bored everyday?
He answered my question with a smile.
"Sure, the underlying emotions don't change, but there's one clear difference."
"... what's that?
"To have you."
Immediately, Kirasaka said.
No hesitation, no shyness. So clear.
"If it makes sense for me to come to school, it's that you're in the same class, next door..."
……
I don't know.
Why does she have so much special feelings for me?
Still unclear, wait for the next word to be uttered to know what that emotion means.
"Even so, you don't know why, because this is my personal emotion."
Her gaze as she looked up into the sky can be directed at me next door.
Even if you say you two are sitting side by side, some distance is away.
Such a beautiful Luosaka gaze and my gaze bumped for a moment.
But it's just for a moment.
I'm curious as to what kind of thought she's looking at this one, and I'll just gaze at it a little bit, but I'll get right back to it.
It's so rare to speak so honestly Beautiful Lusaka, and I wondered if it was any different from normal, because from her perspective, she looked like she wouldn't normally understand anything from the look on her face.
"... you're nothing special after all."
"... hmm?
What is it about?
Nothing special.
Not so long ago, when her words were hard to understand and confused, she began to tell me why.
"I hate people who treat me special, because I'm a daughter of Beautiful Lusaka, a genius, so she can do it naturally... I've been told that word so many times in this short life"
That was an emotion I didn't understand.
She's been told she's special and I've been told she's mediocre and I'm alive.
I was just asking myself if there was anything I could say to the difference that was too different.
"I really hate people who clean up with such convenient words about the difference between themselves and others"
In one word, I felt that her negative emotions were strongly embedded.
I'm sure you really think that from the bottom of your heart.
It's hard for me to understand.
But there are certainly only problems for humans with many.
There are many things that are absent in humans.
But there are human beings, and there are troubles that only those people can understand.
"Sure, my house has money... that's the result of my parents' efforts, and I didn't neglect the underlying studies because I did good grades, so I only thank my parents for my good looks, but I also exercise moderately because my style is good because I'm careful with my meals"
"I don't think there was a mix of rustling and bragging..."
Even in the middle of a serious story, I unwittingly pinch words at her for not forgetting to praise myself.
But she kept saying she didn't care about anything.
"I insist it's a talent all around, even though it's not all a born talent... I don't admit it even though it's just a little difference between me and myself"
Around her, I remember many words that had been said.
Genius, talent, different from the original, because you're rich...
Indeed, there were many words that gave the answer that they were different from their own because they belonged to the nature she was born with.
She's not the only one.
Similar words may be heard around Shizukuishi and Yudo.
I was at too close a distance to think deeply about just the words they kept saying.
To the fact that they are hurt by words that have been said from time to time.