I'm guessing the reason myself.
I was wondering... if a woman named Sadashi Kirasaka might be like me somewhere.
But the idea itself was just different, for no other reason.
Neither did she... the woman named Sadashi Kirasaka just faced her own emotions.
But somewhere in my heart, I thought she was something different.
I wouldn't say upside down that Beautiful Slope and I are the same, not the same personality, appearance and ability as one, but the way I thought and sensibility just felt a little like me.
buddy...... oh my god i didn't really want to use the blue language but i had feelings close to a similar fellowship.
That's why I assumed that Kirasaka was not an adamant person against certain people... so I took it personally.
I'm disgusted with myself like that.
On her own, she said she was a similar person to me, for watching on her own scale.
She spoke from day to day that she was bored, and in the corner of the classroom she watched her classmates.
He was strongly penetrating his way of thinking without belonging to a group.
I'm not interested in romance or anything else in the first place and I don't even need to know what it feels like...... how I appreciated her that way with my own assumptions.
Actually, no.
She did not belong to a group and was always calm and observing her classmates.
But he made an effort to know about feelings of love, friendship, and likes towards people.
Compared to that, what about me?
I just don't like being around and swarmed, and I wonder if Shizuku is taking the day out of sight of the word "likes" she also told me.
I was going to meet her as usual myself, but I wonder if that was wrong.
Repeat that question to yourself.
Seeing Kirasaka slip away from her gaze a little embarrassed, I told her this time.
"I don't know what it feels like to be special... because I'm so confused."
Maybe I did say something to her that day of the induction ceremony.
Even if that was an important word for her, that's not what I could say because it's a true compact.
I just happened to be in the place and accidentally uttered the words she was craving.
Coincidence, but sometimes I think it was inevitable, but coincidence is really a coincidence and cannot be inevitable.
It's just a convenient word to say, only after the results.
This is inevitable, because it is the result that was already decided... because that would make it easier.
This is not just about Kirasaka.
It can also be said to Shizuku Kanzaki and Yudo Ohara.
It just so happens that the house was the same year across the street, not because it was just someone I could easily talk to in middle school, but because it was a true compact.
True compact, so don't have the thought that I'm special... I've lived by telling you that.
Because if you don't think so, you'll expect it.
Even myself like this, I thought it might be the same as them......
To my words, Kirasaka had her eyes open for a moment, but she immediately returns her expression.
And said with a smile on his face.
"How could that be?
Pure question.
It's not the same kind of question that includes other things as usual.
"... I know best that I am incompatible with the Beautiful Lusaka people"
Out-of-place, absolute difference in ability.
I always feel when I'm with them, wondering why I'm in this place.
Still, I guess I didn't leave because I was comfortable.
You don't have to force me to talk to you, you don't have to make fun of me.
I just spoke for real, and I was sweet on that kindness because no one cared.
But that's not the situation right now.
Beyond this, it is clear that it cannot be a sweet idea.
Relationships are updated daily.
Yudo and Shizukuishi continue to be somewhere out of the ordinary today, and it should change in the future that Kirasaka and I are not friends.
... No, there may well be no change when it comes to misconduct.
But I have to change a lot too.
I have to think, stand, do something.
Now, there was one beautiful slope that was about to change.
Facing my feelings, I'm trying to figure out what that is.
But I don't know what to do.
I don't understand the sentiment of "likes” that have become the hang-up for the three of us to change.
I don't know, but I don't know what I can do.
Just digesting every day.
To my words, Kirasaka lowered the tone of her voice slightly.
"The true-to-goodness I know should be someone who doesn't care about such boring things"
……
"Be honest with your feelings all the time and treat everyone the same... that's who you should have been"
Do I look like such a fine person to Kirasaka's eyes?
To her words, I didn't return a word.
I'm afraid of the sharp gaze directed at me, and I can't even tell you.
I was just remembering what kind of person she said she was.
... Is that it?
Maybe I'm a botch?
You don't have to think calmly, but in retrospect, all I get is the memory that I'm a botch.
This is serious...... what a word comes naturally to mind and zero bitterness.
"People have no right to relate to people... who created that right? A discretionary saying made around you, you don't care about that...... do you?
"... well, maybe it's just not like me to be in tune with the thoughts around me"
Beautiful Lusaka nodded in my reply.
There is no previous intimidation.
But I haven't finished talking about it yet.
I tried to have a conversation like I usually do and told Kirasaka.
"That's it... because Kirasaka thinks I'm special, and twisted guys like me are just rare in the first place, and I haven't treated you special because I've been gathered around all the high-spec people for a long time... even if I'm new to this, it's just a lot different."
Normally, you don't actually have to worry so much about the words that Kirasaka cared too much about you... so if you tell her honestly, there's nothing wrong with that.
But my personality... more importantly, the way I've been with him interrupts it.
It's a troublesome pride specific to adolescence that makes me feel ashamed.
I was just a boy in high school, and if I told you, I was a kid, and I was reluctant to say such stinky lines.
In anticipation of this mood, Kirasaka just said with a smile.
"Yeah, but whatever feelings I have about you, they're my freedom, right? Then give it up. You won't get away with it when I see you."
"... is it Master Left"
I laughed and showed Couscous, Beautiful Lusaka, and myself standing next to him with a bitter face.
Whatever you say, it's not going to beat her.
In the first place, I don't remember winning.
"Let's go on with the date."
No matter how negative I say it, she'll give it back in a way that I don't even think about because of the speed of that head spin.
After a brief tongue battle, we return to a quiet situation.
But the look on Beautiful Lusaka's face without a heart looked brighter than earlier.